im trying to be okay

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[brokenflicker]

"They always tell me how much they want me to stay and how sad they would be without me but what they don't realize is that I don't want to stay because I've been sad for years and no matter how many times people told me it gets better, I really don't think it will for me."

- notes from the girl that has given up

[battling-my-demons]

[wootwona]

since the old version of this post was flagged for 'adult content'...

reblog this post if your account is a trans safe space or owned by a trans person!

along with that, reblog if your account is a non-binary spectrum safe space or owned by someone on the enby spectrum!

[witchy-oates]

🌠 Reblog to attract wealth and abundance 🌠

[spanish-mami-deactivated2019091]

I’m actually really insecure. I feel like I’m always gonna fuck things up or people will lose interest in me cause I’m too clingy or too passionate or too much of some other trait that bothers them

[furiousgoldfish]

reblog if your father is the worst garbage to ever walk this earth

[furiousgoldfish]

like if he would kill you for saying it

[vanemuine-deactivated20240324]

If someone tells you that they don’t like to be touched, that’s not an open invitation for you to keep touching them because you think it’s funny.

[leave-my-vices-alone-deactivate]

Ever get hit with the sudden realization that you are never going to be anyone's favorite person, or anyone's first choice? You're always just there, and no one really cares about you as much as you care about them. And, despite how heartbreaking it is, you don't blame them because you hate yourself too much to judge someone else for feeling the same way.

[dandelion-jester-deactivated202]

Academic aesthetics

Dark Academia

Long Black coats, thunder but no lightning, red wine, blood, forests in winter, a single guttering candle, latin, bones, all of history in your hands, Tchaikovsky, piles of old books, the hour before sunrise, complicated cravats, Hozier, true crime, Donna Tartt, secret diaries.

Light Academia

Sunshine in shallow water, white cotton, lacy dresses, champagne, the plays of Oscar Wilde, summer rain, wind rustling the pages of a book, jacket over on shoulder, Maurice, frost covering new flowers, Florence + the machine, roses, bare feet, girls school, old books about species of plant or butterflies, biological Diagrams, flowers in your hair, perfect notes.

Chaotic Academia

Two top buttons undone, scribbled notes in pencil or biro, kill your darlings, untied laces, so much coffee, all nighters, crying in the library, Mozart, writing film scripts for fun, rain Storms, moorland, swimming in the dark, movie soundtracks while studying, procrastination, muddy boots, unsent letters.

Grey Academia

Jane eyre, sunrise, cold hands, perfect handwriting, beat gen, Edgar Alan Poe, crows, small animal bones, writing essays until 2am, Vivaldi, February or November, zodiacs, loving history and art, Leonardo davinci, Tamino.

Romantic Academia

Billowing pirate sleeves, Lord Byron, theatre, violets, achilles, reading poetry aloud, bloody cheekbones, love letters, doodling in class, doc Martins, long ball dresses, gothic churches, dead poets society, sword fights back stage, wind and mist and violent Storms, tea, long journal entries, wide brimmed hats, museums.

Spring Academia

Cotton shirts with large jumpers, celendines, maypole dancing, reading short stories, old traditions, Jane Austen, new term, beautiful notes, pastel colours, period dramas, magpies, 2005 pride and prejudice soundtrack, new leaves, cold feet, dancing.

Summer Academia

Flower crowns, studying late while the sun is still up, full moons, parties outside, sun dresses, warm rainstorms, exam season, bare feet, ancient Greece, herb tea, singing to the radio, lying in the grass, bird song, biology textbooks, the Lord of the rings, studying outside, mystery of love by sufjan Stevens.

Autumn Academia

Foxes, dead leaves, large coats and scarves, old stone walls, steaming black tea, mist, travel journals, forgetting to study until the last minute, frankenstein, old songs, nostalgia, carrying a book everywhere, rebel rebel, the picture of dorian gray, soup, studying in the morning as the sun rises.

Winter Academia

Long walks, misty breath, so much reading, shunning capitalist society, sad music, learning about witch hunts, philosophy, wuthering heights, mystery books, Dracula, black and white photos, transcribing music, old statues, silence.

Feral Academia

Pin stripe jacket with jeans, Dionysus, "norse" makeup, cold sweet tea, running through the forest, mythology, I got an unconditional so I don't need to try hard, scraping the grades, shouty music, helenic polytheism, obsessive interests, reading a 500 page book in one sitting, love learning, hate the education system, vive le revolution.

[aquietnovember]

academia type things to do during quarantine

- write letters to your long lost lover

- pretend you’ve been locked away in a castle with no company but your own and your favourite books

- gaze longingly out the window at the stars

- daydream about a pretty gal/guy/whatever rescuing you from the prison cell that is your home

- sent your friends heartfelt notes

- redecorate your room with random things around your house

- if you have a garden: pick flowers and frame them on your wall

- if you don’t: you may still be able to pick some from your local park

- write the next greatest piece of literature

- get through your to-read list

- practice a skill you’ve been wanting to learn. embroidery, perhaps?

- fake your death. murder is always a good way to go

- pretend you’re a character in a classic novel

- design your own clothes (or whatever!)

- create impeccable spotify playlists (or you could add to this one)

- eavesdrop on your neighbours and make notes…unless it’s something you shouldn’t be hearing

- people-watch from your balcony

feel free to add more! remember to take care of yourself and your family during this time. and don’t forget, looking after your mental and physical health is really important right now. i love you all. stay safe! <3

[preestine]

✨✨✨here’s jungkook’s workout routine✨✨✨

💫 warmup: jumping jacks 💫 20 squats 💫 20 push ups* 💫 20 jump squats** 💫 20 pike push ups 💫 10 planks*** 💫 20 mountain climbers 💫 15 burpees** 💫 20 crunches 💫 20 leg raises 💫 20 supermen****

*if you don’t have enough strength yet to do a proper push up, learn how to work your way towards it by watching this video. try to not do them on your knees as the line of your body and the weight distribution will be different compared to what you are trying to accomplish ** for low impact/no noise don’t jump but just get on tip toes instead while extending your body as much as possible as if you wanted to touch the ceiling ***from the plank position lower your hips until they hover over the ground and then use your core strength to bring them back up to the plank position ****try to hold the pose for a few seconds before relaxing again

i usually do this circuit when i don’t have any equipment or i want to add something to my LISS day, you can do 3 rounds to make it a quick workout on the go or while in quarantine! 🌟

[fairiesforfrogs]

You don’t need to explain your sense of style to anyone. You want to wear a dress? Great. You want to wear a suit? Great. You want to shave your eyebrows off, paint your face like a demon goat and walk around in 7-inch heels? You do you sweetie.

[unloyaldog]

some chaotic/punk academia things

illegally downloading books, movies and music

don't have a folder, only loose pages with many disorganized notes

messy handwriting only you can understand (and sometimes not even that)

write with any pen except blue and black (your teachers hate you)

draw and scribble in the margin of the paper (again, your teachers hate you)

open the first free page in your notebook and start writing there (turn the page and realize that you have already started another topic and you are writing with the notebook upside down)

you have a favorite pen, all the time you are about to lose it and all the time you find it when hope is lost

if you even have a pencil case, have random things inside like a lighter, a cutter, a clip, notes that you kept for being sentimental, coins, 5 erasers (and you thought you didn't have any), old gum or candy all the trash from the pencil sharpener

write poems about rebellion, headaches, how hungry you are, and the failures of the educational system on your bank

tea in recess is always too sweet and you drink as much as the lady allows

cigarette break in the bathroom (how do i never get caught on this is beyond my understanding)

[fuvkin-feral-kins]

Is it wicked of my dark soul to ask for heavenly sweethearts to interact

❤

[ur-trans-witch-bitch]

What I’ve Learned

(Note: this is about Theistic Satanism and my other spiritual beliefs

Also, I am fallen/angelkin and you can find me here @atticus-malfoy )

 All living things are precious (So NO animal sacrifice!)

Humans are generally seen as just another animal

Satan… is like a Dad, lol.

But! He is a Dad to be respected!

Solomon is a douche, ask me why

If you follow Solomon methods but call yourself a Satanist, you’re literally the Christian Devil don’t @ me

Satan, Azazel, Lucifer, Leviathan and Beelzebub make up the “Dark Lords” (and yes, I know it’s an edgy name. But let’s move past that, shall we?)

After “extensive research” I’ve come to the conclusion that Lucifer and Aphrodite are the same?? (Lucifer= Morning Star= Venus (Roman)=Aphrodite (Greek)??????)

Most angels are mean (except Michael)

God is also mean… He bullies me lmao

While Satanism doesn’t condone turning the other cheek, you should also make sure to not be a rude person. (I.E. DON’T BE A TERF/RACIST/HOMOPHOBE/ETC.)

Everyone is able to have their own beliefs and you shouldn’t force anything onto another person

Angels are so soft like kjgadskfj

Demons are very chill most of the time

Fallen angels are depressed pieces of shit lol (meee)

Humanity is goin’ down the crapper as we speak

The apocalypse might as well happen soon, because if not humans are gonna destroy the Earth first (that’s to say that humans aren’t going to be the start of the apocalypse…)

Some people won’t understand you – be them family, friends, s/o’s – but you don’t need them too, because there ARE people out there that do… you just haven’t met them yet. :)

Suicide isn’t worth it – you were put on this planet, in this body for a reason. (And if you don’t wanna do it all over again, you should keep trying!)

(In my belief) Most Gods are just other Gods with other names… (ex. Lucifer being Aphrodite)

This is all for now… might add on – but feel free to add your own beliefs in the comments uwu

(As long as you’re not being a dick.)

[rottenbutrecovering]

Someone: tell me about your daydreams!!!!

Me, someone who’s daydreams are 99% about sex, violence, death, abuse and other triggering topics: …sometimes I have super powers in them

[wanderingalonelypath]

Aesthetic MADD: listens to music, smiles for no reason, staring out the classroom window dreamily, laying in bed all day, creative, artistic

Reality MADD: obsessively clicks the volume up until your ears ring, mouthing entire conversations angrily with facial expressions, pacing so hard you're scared your parents will hear, trying to pay attention in class but it feels like trying to catch sand, daydreaming while staring at a blank word document and using the blinking line like a metronome, feeling like you aren't in control of your own thoughts