That’s always my hope. Is that people will see that I’ve tried and attempted to make some sort of change.
There are some things I’ve done I don’t know how to atone for, and there are things that I worry no matter what I do it will never be enough. I know that’s not a very bright way of looking at it, and I would hope to make amends.
Maybe it’s like you say and if I want to make these sorts of amends I have to start the relationship anew and rebuild what I damaged.
I definitely agree that the victim has every right to be mad and stay mad. I don’t think I would even expect forgiveness. If it could be something I could work toward I would appreciate their forgiveness but I don’t ever expect it. I know there are people in my life who have hurt me that I have no intention of forgiving, though those are extreme cases.
With all these things said, if it were me, even knowing that much would be more than enough. To know not just that there is a chance just for forgiveness, but to know you didn’t view me as irredeemable.
And as I’ve said, if it were me, I wouldn’t have any expectations for forgiveness and therefore would have no timeline. I say feel your hurt as long as you need, but don’t let it break you. You’re too bright a soul, don’t let one asshole dim that light.
Only forgive them when you feel ready.
I’m glad to have helped, but I don’t think I did anything but give you a place to speak. I think you’ve had the confidence inside you all along. I am glad to have helped you in any way, though. I have to say you’ve done the same for me as well.
Yeah, it’s sad to think of how cramped they are in all those tanks and cages. Or what they’ve been taken away from.
Thank you for listening to me and all your honesty. You’ve been nothing but wonderful to me and I keep feeling as though it’s unearned. I greatly enjoy talking to you and all of your insights.
I have to admit, though, the more we talk to each other, the more worry my cowardice will take over and I’ll shy away from meeting you in person.
It’s easy to talk to you and I enjoy it so much, but if we come face to face I don’t think you will see me in the same light as you do through these letters. I hope you know just how much I’ve liked getting to know more and more about you.