Rooted Conversations || SassyRolex
Dear wisteriarolex,
Thank you! I'm also counting my lucky stars every day that I get to do what I love. What I'm passionate about. I know that's not everyone's situation, but I am grateful for the opportunity to live that dream.
And I guess I can say to you that what I am looking for is something more serious. I know that can be scary to some, but I feel like now that I've settled things mostly with work, I've reached a height for my career that I've dreamed of, I really want to now start settling things in my home life. That is to get married and have kids soon. Within the next few years hopefully.
I understand if that is too much for you to process or want to explore further, but it is where I stand.
Yes I agree. Communicating certain wants or certain things you know you're ready for or not is so much harder face to face sometimes than sharing it like we are now through emails. I'm grateful that we can open up to each other like this about these personal things that we have.
I do sometimes feel far behind others my own age, but then I prioritized different things than they did and that's okay too. I think wherever you are now, you are great where you're at. <3 Don't let yourself start to compare to others. It's a dangerous road.
Your passionate communicator, sassyradish
@wisteriarolex
Dear sassyradish,
It's good to know what you want. I think that may be where we differ the most. There's a part of me that almost wishes I could say I'd want to explore that further, but it wouldn't be true, and that has nothing to do with you and everything to do with me.
I have a lot of things I need to figure out with myself before I'll be ready to settle and start a family. There is a part of me that feels like maybe someday that could be a goal for me, but... to be completely honest I haven't even considered that part of my life. Which I suppose makes our goals incompatible.
It's hard to admit that because I've really enjoyed our chats and getting to know you more and more. But to pretend when you're being so open and honest about your goals and wants would be a disservice to both of us.
I don't know what I'm looking for. I don't know if I'm hoping more for this whole letter thing to end with a match made or just friends I can talk to or connections to be made. I think that whole uncertainty of what I'm after has been half of my problem when it comes to relationships. The other half of the problem comes from my lack of experience with all of this.
Or maybe it's just who I am as a person, that's also a possibility. That feels like the most likely reason.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry if this is disappointing, and I understand if you would like to part ways, but I have genuinely enjoyed our time talking to each other. But I don't want to hold you back from finding someone who has similar goals and dreams as you do. You deserve someone who wants to and is ready to build a life with you, and that someone--as much as I hate to say it--isn't me.
It was never going to be me.
And yes, it's much easier to communicate over email. Clearly. This is all something I would be too much of a coward to ever admit to in person, and you deserve better than that. But i'm glad I had a chance to say any of this to you.
I truly wish you all the best, and I hope you find your perfect match.
Maybe one day we could be friends?
All my love the best,
Wisteriarolex
@sassyradish
















