gimme that NECTAR !!

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if you have a menstrual cycle, it will drastically improve your life if you research the absolute shit out of it i personally tried to avoid learning about it for a long time because i wanted to ignore it's existence entirely ("men don't have to worry abt it so why should i?" mindset) but that is just putting yourself in such danger aside from the disservice because unfortunately it affects your entire life

there is something known as PMDD which affects how sensitive your brain is to hormone drops during the luteal (pre-period) phase. for me, it caused such life altering effects and even suicidal thoughts. that is so dangerous for us. i really recommend researching through all platforms. reading research papers is great, checking sources, but even looking at people's own experiences through tt and youtube is really useful as our health is so under researched it's word of mouth that can really help things that can start you off on your research journey will be learning what each stage of the cycle is. what is actually is (as in: what it is doing in your body?), how long it lasts?, how it shows up with symptoms such as discharge?, what to eat on that phase because of the vitamins you may be lacking, etc i wish us all the very best in our journeys with ourselves

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i had a few misconceptions about f1 when i was a casual race watcher and didn't know anything about the weird culture of it and one of those misconceptions was a loyalty drivers had to the team they drive for and "it's a massive thing when a driver changes teams"

i quickly learned they're all sluts who flip and flop between teams every silly season but to their defense the teams are ruthless annoying dicks with extraordinarily high levels of racism and could not care less

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another misconception i had was the age of all the drivers i thought they were a lot younger on average i was expecting an average age of 22 and that you were "over the hill" and "unc" by 25 turns out there's several retirement homes in f1 currently

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yet another misunderstanding i had accrued during my time was how the actual hell is it allowed the whole lance stroll and his father lawrence stroll buying a stake of every team lance has been on?! all those fia restrictions and somehow there's not one for this someone's father owning the team they drive for?

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i had a few misconceptions about f1 when i was a casual race watcher and didn't know anything about the weird culture of it and one of those misconceptions was a loyalty drivers had to the team they drive for and "it's a massive thing when a driver changes teams"

i quickly learned they're all sluts who flip and flop between teams every silly season but to their defense the teams are ruthless annoying dicks with extraordinarily high levels of racism and could not care less

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another misconception i had was the age of all the drivers i thought they were a lot younger on average i was expecting an average age of 22 and that you were "over the hill" and "unc" by 25 turns out there's several retirement homes in f1 currently

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i had a few misconceptions about f1 when i was a casual race watcher and didn't know anything about the weird culture of it and one of those misconceptions was a loyalty drivers had to the team they drive for and "it's a massive thing when a driver changes teams"

i quickly learned they're all sluts who flip and flop between teams every silly season but to their defense the teams are ruthless annoying dicks with extraordinarily high levels of racism and could not care less

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as someone who has had restrictive eds and has since recovered, i can say that eds mess with your brain chemistry but also can permanently mess with your gag reflex. you will almost vomit at anything and everything. cleaning your tongue, hot weather, smelling something nasty, drinking ANY alcohol, drinking/eating anything you sort of have to make yourself consume, smoking/vaping/gardening, certain types of food you'll just not be able to keep down, motion sickness, headaches, any unrelated illness, learning about something disgusting, and so much more

i tried having a sip of soju and i could not force it down and if i did i would vomit on the spot

i know it sounds scary but please remember recovery is possible

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tips that have personally helped me with depression

have dental care things in the shower. sounds a bit silly but it really works. all you need to do is just make it to the shower and all the stuff you need for more hygiene care is there.

remove chargers, don't bring power banks. let your devices die. if it's dead, you can't use it. and that can be a way to physically have a barrier against doomscrolling and pulls you back into the moment.

tell (a very trusted friend) some things they need to force you to do and have them text reminders for things you need to check/do. you don't need to tell them why if you're not comfortable, but depression can really affect memory and recall. this helped me remember i had an exam that day and i would have completely not known. 7/15 is better than 0/15!

spray deodorant, baby wipes, hand sanitiser, chewable toothpaste, listerine strips, etc are so needed. anything to lower the barrier to entry for things. trust me. keep them in your bag and in your room so you don't forget to bring them.

add colour to what you see. colourful nails, change device backgrounds, etc. the places you frequent the most, add colour. i do not mean your clothes btw dw, as you don't see it very often due to it being on you not in your line of vision.

expanding on tip 1. keep dental things by your bed for when you physically can't make it out + a cup by your bed for spitting out toothpaste, mouthwash, floss. i did this routine so much last year and honestly while the cup ended up looking disgusting because i never rinsed it, it kept my teeth okayish.

have missed/repeat the lectures on in the background constantly. it will make you feel more productive, and you're subconsciously consuming the information.

short hair (+ a wig if you need). short hair by far more manageable. you don't have to worry about matting, will dry quicker, etc. it can feel like a new start. and for styling, you can always wear a wig for short stints if you want, which means its super easy to change vibes.

listen to UPBEAT HAPPY MUSIC! you will feel better listening to "tomorrow tomorrow the sun will come out tomorrow" then you will mitski. ik shes great. don't listen rn.

walk around in circles around your home.

you can buy pouches of soup. easy to microwave them to heat them up, and super nutrient dense because they're veggie soup.

learn what temp gives you energy! for me this is cold temperatures, so i physically cool myself down constantly. i cannot work in hot temps and this makes a bigger difference than you think.

remember that you can always do more than you think

any additions to the list! greatly appreciated!

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depression impacts you so much more than you think it can

obviously, it sounds a bit silly writing it out. but it's important to say. as someone that lives with long-term depression, here are some things that depression has affected me with that you wouldn't expect.

here are 3 ways that are sort of unexpected in what it does incredibly summarised and not particularly expanded just a thought piece

neurodiversity screening is more difficult/signs may not show typically focusing patterns/problems, personality, emotional processings, your reaction to things, coping mechanisms, anything related to interests such as special interests/hyperfixations. ALL of those are affected by depression and they are CRUCIAL parts of the screening process. you could miss out parts of this in your diagnosis by being unable to recognise you possess these traits. of course there are other ways neurodiversity will show through. but you do run the risk of missing certain things.

lack of attraction aromantic and asexual are two very valid sexualities, and should receive so much more visibility than what it does. depression lowers libido, attachment, and increases apathy. with my long-term depression being present from before pre-teens through teenage years (aka: very developmental years when experiencing new romantic emotions/beginning to explore sexuality), i have no comparison to know whether i am those sexualities, or am experiencing symptoms of depression.

please remember that there is a lot of false ideology around aromantic and/or asexual individuals being able to be 'fixed'. this is not the case at ALL and is a very harmful notion and not what i am trying to insinuate in the slightest

future career choices and options and the cycle it perpetuates depression removes the ability to be internally gratified and motivated by internal enjoyment and fulfilment. therefore, when making decisions people (me) often make those based on external sources - most commonly money and whatever route is easiest. work/career takes up a vast amount of your day to day life, which can be incredibly draining and damaging as it was made from external sources not through an internal desire. the downward cycle pattern is pretty easy to spot. unfortunately i have chosen my path like this and am not in the mental space to change it at the moment.

please seek help if you need it. there are many free online sources, i know it's a lot harder for people with strict parents and monetary restrictions. please remember your circumstances will not be the same forever and help is available.

if you ever need to talk just dm

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i'm going to write the most delicious post about lewis hamilton

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imagine thinking you're the 'other woman' to his first love racing only to realise you're the other other woman to flipping britney spears

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NCT - alternate universe (let's kick ball) what the nct members would do if they weren't idols nakamoto yuta - japanese footballer na jaemin - heart surgeon yangyang - f1 driver who's father got him there (lance stroll 2.0) lee jeno - rival f1 driver zhong chenle - child star/singer in china to professional student socialite influencer to reluctant ceo mark lee - artsy new york bestselling author johnny suh - english teacher turned actor ten lee - dancer/choreographer wong hendery - comedian/actor/talk show host kim jungwoo - mechanical engineer qian kun - music producer dong sicheng - dancer to model to actor lee haechan - professional boyfriend huang renjun - artist who showcases his work on xhs and subtly thirst traps (cutely) in the back

dm if you want a rq based on this premise for a member lol

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realising i'm aromantic has put a lot of things in perspective for me

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i'm going to write the most delicious post about lewis hamilton

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just saw a reel a lot of my friends liked that went "when someone else is better than you with the only thing you're good at" and i was so jealous because you know at least they're good at something i am literally not good at anything

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"why am i so cooked?" "why did i almost fail my exam?" "when did ts become so difficult?"

i say all this KNOWING that i do not go to class, do not look at the lectures and modules, are several weeks behind, do not get out of bed, do not do anything. why am i surprised?

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is there an actor shortage in japan because why am i seeing the same people in EVERYTHING?

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i hated ryuji to a shockingly weird extent and i couldn't tell you why but nevertheless i am going to the borderlands myself to FUCK that man then subsequently eliminate him

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he got to me. just one really really good edit and suddenly rn i'm writing quite possible the worst like little smut thing of him and desperately trying to finish it before the singapore gp in a few hours

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i hated ryuji to a shockingly weird extent and i couldn't tell you why but nevertheless i am going to the borderlands myself to FUCK that man then subsequently eliminate him

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what a sign.....