If one day I am gone and you find yourself wondering how you never noticed, please do not punish yourself for it. The truth is, there was never much to notice. I became very good at carrying things quietly. Very good at smiling at the right moments, laughing when I was supposed to, saying “I’m fine” so naturally that eventually even I started believing it.
Nobody missed the signs because there were no signs. There was just a person learning how to hide her sadness so well that it became part of her personality. So if you look back and think you should have known, be gentle with yourself. Sometimes the people who are hurting the most are the ones who spend the most time making sure nobody else has to see it.













