hopedyadā:
Rey tilted her head to look at him as he said he admired her. āI only didnāt hear anything because I ran away.ā She answered calmly, as if that was a simple thing to do. āFurther away from Niima Station and everywhere else. You were there⦠the only living things were animals and plantsā¦ā She didnāt understand how knowing to go away from the loudness was strength. It made sense to a six year old girl to tired to care what happened to her next and promising herself sheād somehow survive. For family that didnāt even care if she existed. āIt was always loud at Niima.ā She added softly.
ā⦠You are trusted by me, but that is a personal matter, and FNās job is to worry about the non-personal. Iām certain you can understand why he might put a Solo under guard?ā She asked rather pointedly. He wasnāt going to be able to avoid his heritage while here. She did seem annoyed however, in an undercurrent through the force. She was not pleased with FNās decision, but she was aware of the reasoning. The plant Ben touched responded to the touch through the force, reaching out to touch him with it before settling. Rey came up beside him to look at it. āItās from a place called Jeddah. It feels for threats with the force. itās a strange plant. Itās flowers are purple.ā
Ben shook his head,Ā āRunning from it and doing what you did is still admirable. You tried to keep yourself from losing control while you learned to handle the Force.ā He knew she hated when people complimented her, especially when he did it, but that didnāt mean he was going to stop. He wanted her to get used to it. To know that she was amazing, and he thought so. She deserved to know she wasnāt whatever Snoke told her she was.Ā
He fought back a sigh when she mentioned FNās job. He knew what the Trooperās job was, that didnāt mean he had to like it. He furrowed his brows and tilted his head to the side.Ā āIf Iām trusted by youā¦then he should trust your judgement enough to know that if you believe Iām not threat to you or personnel, then Iām not,ā he shook his head.Ā āI understand not trusting a Solo, but Iāve show Iām not my fatherā¦and Iām here now and no one has gotten hurt. You or otherwise..ā
He looked at the flower as it moved toward him and touched the tips of his fingers, smiling a little.Ā āJeddahā¦ā he trailed off, even saying the word seemed to make the Force inside of him and around him shudder. Benās smile was small as he reached out for the plant again, letting it feel that he wasnāt a danger.Ā āI thought Jeddah was destroyedā¦howād you find it?ā he asked.
Rey wasnāt sure what he meant. āI didnāt learn to control anything until Snoke found me. I just knew it was too loud and that I had to leave, to have space so I could breath.ā She told him simply. To her it wasnāt so much a need to control the force, as a need for peace and quiet. Which she supposed was close enough. ā... That was another compliment, wasnāt it?ā She asked, frowning, though it seemed more in relation to her own inability to catch onto simple things than at him.
āFNās job is to protect me. From myself is he is required to.ā She pointed out softly. āBut I will speak with him. If I give him a direct order to remove the guards, he will remove them.ā She told Ben gently. She knew it was bothering him. āItās his job to be suspicious. Heās doing it very well, if I do say so myself.ā She smiled at Ben brightly. āAnd would you rather he not be suspicious of everyone and me get hurt?ā She pointed out. Sheād been hurt before because FN and the rest of his guards were not there, because they werenāt allowed in the party. Sheād been told that wasnāt happening ever again.
Rey shrugged. āI found a farmer on Tatooine, who liked strange desert plants. Thatās where most of these came from. They had traveled to Jeddah before it was destroyed and collected seeds.ā She motioned to the plant that was currently settling back into itās quiet state in the force, though it did seem to leave a feeling of peace around it. āI paid for it and many of the other plants here. I thought it was worth while to have them around. There are plenty of seeds in storage as well, in case this one dies, or I find a planet I think would suit for my home.ā She had yet to feel a connection to any planet in that way, really. Even Jakku felt foreign anymore.
Maybe she was just doomed to live in space the rest of her life.














