what's funny is that i have done all this work to get to this point where no matter how upset i am I'm not going to behave badly. like that was usually only a problem with my family, my biggest trigger always, but i do look at myself and check. was i mean. was i harsh. did i insult anyone or make them feel bad with my words. or was i just expressing how i feel (to the best of my ability).
and I think if you get to know me you'll know I'm open to conversation. i want to resolve the conflict. i go out of my way to reassure people I'm not mad at them and thank them for talking about the issue because i know people are anxious and avoidant and dealing with volatile people leaves scars. i want to make it a positive experience so that in the future you'll feel more comfortable to say something so we can talk things through and we're not carrying any resentment going forward.
idk what's the point. why try? if the effort isn't reciprocated.















