Hopelessly Romantic Millennial

This is a completely real and very honest look into my "love" life thus far. Visit my blog https://hopelesslyromanticmillennial.wordpress.com for my full story...

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Birthdays

Today is a weird day - it’s my mom’s birthday and your dad’s. It’s not just weird because we both have a parent with this fairly uncommon birthday; I mean, according to the NYT 3/19 is the 198th most popular birthday. It’s also weird because today is a day of celebration in my life - the day my mother was born and the countdown to my own birthday exactly 2 months away. But for you, this is a day of pain - of “dad would have been _ years old today”. It is a day that reminds you that your parent is no longer here, a day when the absence of cake and ice cream is felt and not having a wrapped gift under your bed or in the closet ready to be presented feels wrong. Today is such a juxtaposition for us, and all because our parents share a birthday...

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I honestly believe that if we had met in another place and at another time, I would be kissing you and not missing you right now.

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Daily Questions

I get asked the same questions every day: “have you heard from him?” “what do you think happened?” “do you know where he is?” And every day I reiterate that I have no idea where you are or what happened. I explain that you were perfectly fine throwing away our friendship by cutting me off completely and walking out on all of us. I say that I texted you for over a week straight and that now I’m done.

Then we all sit and contemplate how someone can do that - how can someone just abandon his job, cut off his friends, and let the people in his life spend a week thinking he’s dead? How can someone possibly do that? We never come to a solution, and we know that tomorrow will be full of the same questions.

I have my own questions too: did you read any of my texts? do you care that you scared me - that I cried in the middle of our office thinking you were dead? do you care that you hurt me by quitting and by leaving all my stuff behind? did you think about the gossip and the mess you were leaving in your wake? do you miss me?

So many questions that I will never get the answer to. Because I know that I will never see or hear from you again...

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22 days

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I called your desk phone at 4am just to hear your voice again.

It was a bad idea because now I miss you more.

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Maybe in a different universe, we had met earlier and we are happy together, but I live in this one.

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You disappeared from my life and I haven’t seen or spoken to you in 2 weeks...

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“I need more hours with you”

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Thank you for being alive

I was so scared you weren’t

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“That’s how you know you love someone, I guess. When you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too.”

— Kaui Hart Hemmings (via goodreadss)

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Questions

Where are you? Why aren’t you answering my text messages? Why aren’t you answering our boss or our friends’ texts either? Why haven’t you come into work? Why is everyone asking me where you are? Are you ok? Are you alive?

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Prayers

I am not a religious person; it’s just not who I am. There are only 2 things I pray for every night before I go to sleep, and one of them is you. I honestly don’t know how it’s possible to be so in love with you, but I am, and because I love you and know that you care about me too (even if you won’t say it), I pray for you.

Every.

Single.

Night.

I beg God to not only keep you safe and happy, but for Him to bring us together. I can’t explain how much I want this prayer to be answered and how much I need you in my life. I love you so much.

So tonight, I’ll pray for you and I’ll pray for your heart

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“It’s going to take some time but I know you’re worth fighting for.”

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“I will never forget the moment I realized I loved you.”

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“Never give up on someone that you can’t go a day without thinking about.”

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