Co-ordinate brain & mouth.

28. Plant muncher. Nature lover. Being kind is cool.

[fairycosmos]

im always like hehe im so smart i will avoid shame by never doing anything ever but then i feel ashamed of not living and it turns out i didn't escape any sort of discomfort i just traded it in for a less rewarding kind

[luthienne]

“Don’t be afraid to suffer—take your heaviness / and give it back to the earth’s own weight; / the mountains are heavy, the oceans are heavy.”

— Rainer Maria Rilke, from The Poetry of Rilke; “Sonnets to Orpheus”

[avoidantdreamer-deactivated2018]

[hopexpunk]

well fuck

[shiftyarchfey]

A goblin calling for the hunt

[quietlotus]

“This grand show is eternal. It is always sunrise somewhere; the dew is never all dried at once; a shower is forever falling; vapor is ever rising. Eternal sunrise, eternal sunset, eternal dawn and gloaming, on seas and continents and islands, each in its turn, as the round earth rolls.”

— John Muir

[lovelustquotes]

[90377]

Magical views appear as one approaches Elk Cove by kepPNW

[hopexpunk]

My knee still isn't 100%, but I've been hiking once a week for the last 3 weeks now and I feel alive. As my body gets stronger, my mind does too, and I'm so proud of myself for how far I've come.

[hopexpunk]

I wish life could be more simple. All I wanna do is meditate and read and crochet and climb and hike.

[hopexpunk]

I just had a 3 hour climbing session, and I'm knackered but I feel reinvigorated somehow. I'm working for the next 3 days, so we'll see how long that lasts, but one thing it has reminded me of is how important physical, practical pursuits are to me.

I've had a dodgy knee for over a month now, and so I haven't been able to exercise as much as I'd have liked; I think that's a large part of the reason that I feel like I've slowly been losing my footing. Today has imbued me with a new resolve to look after myself and heal the fucking thing (through eating and sleeping really well, icing it and doing rehab exercises) so that I can get out hiking in the Scottish wilderness.

I'm at risk of living for work now that I'm back in employment, and sadly for me that is a one way ticket to misery. I want to live. I want to learn. I want to push myself. I want to get stronger. I want to immerse myself in nature. All of these things are within my grasp if I can get my head on right and fix this silly ligament.

[th3-r00k]

[hopexpunk]

Frozen in the lights of a locomotive, tied to the tracks again.

It feels like I'm drowning, and I can't turn to anybody for support because all of my interpersonal relationships are either stupidly complicated or just distant, and sometimes both. I'm going to try to keep making healthy choices and to try to do things that ground me but I may as well have been catapulted out into the atmosphere tbh.

[expressions-of-nature]

by Todor Todorov

[hopexpunk]

Seeping in like a feeling you haven't felt since way back when.

I feel like... I don't know. I don't know how to articulate it. I guess I'll try to articulate it regardless, and throw it out into the the void.

I'm shutting down. I feel overwhelmed and scared and avoidant. I don't want to eat. Getting out of my bed is hard. I'm sleeping a lot. I hurt both of my knees so I can't even exercise to help myself feel better because I need to rest them otherwise I won't be able to work.

I think a lot of this has to do with the fact that I went "home" last weekend. I saw my mom, who I'd been no contact with for over a year. I saw my step dad, who's dying of cancer; the same cancer that I watched take my step-mom a decade ago.

It feels like everything is spinning out of control. It feels like a whole lot of trauma is resurfacing - or at least the behaviours related to those traumas - and that's terrifying because I've worked so fucking hard to get myself to a place where I'm not ruled by all of that. It's like I've forgotten how to cope so I'm just reverting back to my old unhealthy coping mechanisms. These last 6 months have been the best I've had in years as far as functioning and engaging with life and people goes, but it feels like that's all just falling through my fingers like water, and I feel helpless to do anything about it.

I cried at one of my jobs on Saturday. A manager was incredibly condescending and passive aggressive to me, and I guess that's one of my triggers because I spent the next 2 hours trying to keep my shit together, only to break down in the kitchen when one of the chefs was nice to me (wtf).

I wish my last counsellor didn't fall for me, because I would love to talk to him about all of this. I'd be lying if I said I haven't thought of getting in touch with him regardless; I probably won't, but I might. I guess I should look for a new one before I go off the deep end altogether.

[vital-information]

I told Miyazaki I love the “gratuitous motion” in his films; instead of every movement being dictated by the story, sometimes people will just sit for a moment, or they will sigh, or look in a running stream, or do something extra, not to advance the story but only to give the sense of time and place and who they are.

“We have a word for that in Japanese,” he said. “It’s called ma. Emptiness. It’s there intentionally.”

Is that like the “pillow words” that separate phrases in Japanese poetry?

“I don’t think it’s like the pillow word.” He clapped his hands three or four times. “The time in between my clapping is ma. If you just have non-stop action with no breathing space at all, it’s just busyness, But if you take a moment, then the tension building in the film can grow into a wider dimension. If you just have constant tension at 80 degrees all the time you just get numb.”

Which helps explain why Miyazaki’s films are more absorbing and involving than the frantic cheerful action in a lot of American animation. I asked him to explain that a little more.

“The people who make the movies are scared of silence, so they want to paper and plaster it over,” he said. “They’re worried that the audience will get bored. They might go up and get some popcorn.

But just because it’s 80 percent intense all the time doesn’t mean the kids are going to bless you with their concentration. What really matters is the underlying emotions–that you never let go of those.

— Roger Ebert in conversation with Hiyao Miyazaki

[sosuperawesome]

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[crpl-pnk]

ok very funny guys. you got me. now seriously who left all these neurotypicals in charge of the mental health field

[eurekapix]

who left all these healthy doctors in charge of the hospital

is literally what this sounds like

[crpl-pnk]

joke’s on you i want disabled ppl in charge of the medical field too!!

[agentelderofshield]

God, can you imagine how awful that would be? People with amputations consulting on things like prosthesis?

People in wheelchairs designing living and working spaces for people with mobility issues?

Autistic people actually trying to help other autistic people?

OMG, just thing – wouldn’t ti be awful if people who are now in remission actually helped manage the pain and other symptoms that come with having and treating cancer?

I mean seriously, what on Earth do any of those people really have to add to the discussion? What could they possibly know that an able-bodied neurotypical wouldn’t already know? I mean, experience doesn’t teach all that much!

/end sarcasm.