writing writing writing

I'll pour everything out and one day I'll be able to feel again.

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going to be starting things I can’t tell. need it to heal

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oh shit I asked my sis to help me with an assignment which includes her having to write what she eats which means she’s going to have to lie to me

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I'm losing ink trying to remind myself everything anout you, and the lights are wasting electricity waiting for you to find home.

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loving the markers I bought in lorea, now time for more practise

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I hugged you and cried because you weren’t there

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I didn’t mean to fall in love tonight (quietcorner)

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Let’s just play pretend / Like when I’m scared of what is coming next / Or scared of having nothing left (quietcorner)

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I wish we were in love right now.

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I know I’ve absorbed the idea of a piece missing in me that I’ve dug the hole in me myself.

[maybesomedaytho]

#PrayforMexico

I know probably no one will read this, but if you do, please, please keep my country in your thoughts and prayers. If you don’t know, there was a 7.1 earthquake here a few minutes ago. Puebla and Morelos are two of the most damaged states, and lots and lots of buildings just crashed to the ground in Mexico City. It’s the second one this month, the first one compeltely destroyed Oaxaca and Chiapas. There’s no transportation and barely any communication that comes and goes. People are so scared, there are news that elementary schools and high schools crashed down in the city. There are videos of huge buildings crashing down completely in just a single fucking second, so many people are injured or lost or dead. I was at school and the ceiling started to break down. My own brother is in Mexico City and I can’t communicate with him, we live in the State and we don’t even know if he will make it back here tonight. I know i have bad english but if you understood any of this, please, please pray for us.

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(quietcorner)

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I miss you. The way a defect heart has never seen itself whole but knows something is missing

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I don't need you to be perfect. Fuck up and make it work. Fall down, laugh at yourself, then pull me down with you and catch me for a kiss. I don't need you to be perfect. Just choose a deep wrenching happiness with me.

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So you died from my hands, my heart and my mind. I peeled you off from the tips of my fingers like white glue from a craft gone wrong of mismatched hearts.

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modelmaking

I have learnt

That like the tears of glue guns,

It is easier to break before mending again.

That a pair of extra hands to hold it together is helpful

But some things must be done alone, by the one who knows best.

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Faded photograph feelings

Makes me wish you would hold my heart

Like I imagined you would.

My heart is beating me from the inside and your arms cage around me to let it not go further than that.

It is fear and pain and heartache

And you tell me I am joy and courage

And things people love.

It hurts and you do not remove it,

You are there for the cheering and for warm hands

Buckling my armour,

A fierce whisper of

I trust you

and

I'll be here.

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I have cuts from edges of penknives

Blisters from hot glue

Scrapes from sanding machines coupled from absentminded dreams

And I at the edge of the roof, saying:

The world is round, but this roof is not,

Would you like to see the other side with me?