BRIBRI🧚🏽‍♀️✨

Faith☦️Filled|B.A.P👑 Moody-MOO🐄 Welcome 2 my🪞 It is what it is, so let it be or we gone see.

[ruthbambi]

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“It’s not your job to fix me. It’s your job to hold my hand, while I fix myself.”

— (via eliaes)

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WELL … 😂😂😂😂😂

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Still haven’t seen this movie

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its the best movie ever

[jehovahhthickness]

What is this movie? Wtf

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Fight me best movie of all time

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The greatest movie of all time.

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Bruh

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Lmfao, stop it lmao

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*trap music starts* lol

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@bellamysd

[lightskintgawd]

I GO HARD IN THE MUTHAFUCKIN PAINT NIGGA

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LMFAOOOOOOOO

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[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

I AM absolutely CYNICAL😊

The thing about being me is, it’s really really, really..

FUN!

So I’m really having fun now, in a cute, HEALED way.

I’m also going 2 share it, with EVERYONE.

So it can not only be FUN but AUTHENTIC💕✨

Life isn’t always pretty because it’s OUR job 2 make it

BEAUTIFUL🧚🏽‍♀️✨

If it’s one thing I KNOW how 2 do … I know how 2 make life really beautiful ESPECIALLY out of an UGLY situation…

So why not be the example? The Demonstration🤷🏽‍♀️

Ms. ProofInThePuddin’

I’m actually excited because THIS is about not only who I am but also my PURPOSE.

I’m going 2 show everyone exactly how 2 make a good situation out of a bad one because that’s what I’m really really good at😊

If you understand the belief of shifting timelines? Then this one..

IS 4 YOU😘

2 you know who, I have 2 put my foot on your face 4 trajectory😂 you’re hands aren’t out & your face is the next best bet🤷🏽‍♀️🫶🏽😘

Okay, this is about 2 be + get really, really

FUN🥳🎉

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

10/01 - The Finale💕✨

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MOOD .. WHERE ARE THE ICONS???!

The COMMUNITY is in shambles🗣️🗣️😂😂😂

Hold on, I’m really laughing cause you see how Bobby wasn’t making sense, then Whitney made it make sense?!😂😂😂

We couldn’t have the WHOLE year Bobby😂😂😂😂

Whitney said no, no, we need a longer MONTH😭😭

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

Let’s talk about the brown paper bag test…

So on instagram I saw a clip from the new proud family reboot. Dejanay went out for a black sorority that Trudy, Penny mom is an alumni of. Apparently Dejanay didn’t get in because she failed the brown paper bag test. You know, comparing SKIN COLOR to that of a BROWN PAPER BAG to see if you are lighter. So once Trudy finds out, she goes to confront the dean and inadvertently finds out she’s light skin, plus also she experienced the SAME test before admission. The dean tells Trudy that this is and always HAS BEEN the tradition of admissions.

So FIRST OFF, this post is for the NIGGAS, this is for the NIGGAS, strictly for the NIGGAS, the

REAL NIGGAS.

No offense to ANYONE but this is a conversation for those of COLOR who can or have sat with their grandparents and heard stories of segregation, racism, oppression, and MULTIPLE forms of abuse due to their RACE.

Anybody else GET TF OUT, simply because your OPINION on skin color HOLDS NO WEIGHT…

Now I’ll wait ………

So let me just first start off by saying, colorism is a DEEP seeded issue within the Negro community. Meaning the SEED of the issue is rooted deeply. When we look back on slavery which we have CONSTANT reminders of so that issues like this cannot be ignored but addressed. We KNOW that the white slave masters would rape the women of color producing offspring. Often these children were given what MANY considered to be favoritism due to their skin complexion.

Most were house niggers, if we’re going to get technical. Most of them were shown some type of love by the master and some of the family due to actually being of relation. Now for most slaves that did not have this “favoritism” you can assume the jealousy of them working in the hot fields, being beaten plus ridiculed for EVERY little thing while some “house” nigger strolls around getting lighter repercussions because they “LOOK” better. You can also imagine how the madame of the plantation took to the sight of the PRODUCT of her husbands AFFAIRS strolling around her home.

This point is HEAVY because it is where the BEGINNING of the “IDEA” that being of LIGHTER SKIN is somewhat a blessing & a curse. You are either too good or not enough, extra soft or two hard, accepted or rejected 🤷🏽‍♀️

The truth of the matter is NEGRO is still NEGRO and when it COUNTS which they will make it COUNT at some point you’ll EASILY be reminded of your slave heritage. I am using the term “NEGRO” because truly that’s what we are as an “black” community.

NEGRO’s - People of Color/Melanin.

We are NOT African American, that is a term that became popular while Rev.Jesse Jackson was running for president and the U.S. Government adapted it as a means to confuse the Negro community of its true heritage. My father born in 1964 has NEGRO as his race on his birth certificate along w/my mother born in 1965. A little bit of digging in history can truly save you from being a victim to senseless lies.

Most people of color heritage starts right here in the United States of America as INDIGENOUS PEOPLES. Some can say they have some African heritage because this is a melting pot but for the most part we ALL originate from right where we stand. NORTH AMERICA. You can even ask some indigenous Africans and they will share their stories of how there weren’t AFRICAN SLAVES. Not until their OWN people began to sell them off for political reasons aiding to the TRIANGULAR TRADE.

Obviously you guys should tell by now I started undergrad as a HISTORY major😂

Anyway, you have to think, when the British began to colonize in the U.S./thirteen colonies, whatever right. WHAT HAPPENED TO THOSE WHO DID NOT COMPLY? They couldn’t have KILLED them all right because obviously there was major work to be done and just from historic observations(no offense to my whites) Caucasian’s do not prefer hard work.

There is a DEEP seated tendency of having the lighter work load for people of Caucasian decent. Once again NO offense but we keep it real here! Y’all be having it easier w/all the right connections from years down your lineage🤷🏽‍♀️ So do you really believe they off’d those that did comply with their integration?

ABSOLUTELY NOT. THEY ENSLAVED THEM, with those who accepted the integration sitting by, watching out of FEAR. Thus the cycle began in the history of people of color being pitted AGAINST one another for PRIVILEGES that some have over others.

Think how long it took before MORE people were enslaved, then also think of those that weren’t and WHY? Men who were knowledgeable were more valuable. Women who were more attractive also held more value for reproduction. Now we can also see not only the seeds of colorism but the “uppity” negro debate as well. Why being “bougie” is considered a NEGATIVE term because you got it. Negros that held some type of KNOWLEDGE/INTELLIGENCE held more regard w/masa than some others.

So when we as a “NEGRO” community continue to have conversations around colorism in 2025. It truly shows how stagnant we are in terms of elevation and ascension. Really it points to why we cannot transcend the same issues our ancestors faced in their time.

In our community I do not see skin tone. I see BROWN that’s it, and that’s a product of my family plus the lessons they taught/shared w/me. My grandmother on my mother’s side is half indigenous, her mother FULLY INDIGENOUS. My grandmother shared stories w/me of how my great grandmother was mistreated for being lighter than the other girls w/softer hair plus features. She also shared w/me how she was bullied consistently by one little girl as a child because of her lighter features plus softer hair. She told me that one day she finally whooped the little girl a**, and when she got home her daddy told her not to worry about her mama. Cause her mama told her to ignore it, not to fight at school, and her daddy covered for her w/her mom saying it wasn’t RIGHT for her to continuously be ridiculed for how she looked outside of HER control.

My great grandmother understood, because God made my grandmother who she was so she had EVERY right to stand up for it. That little girl NEVER bothered my grandma again, and my grandma married a DARKER shaded man, proving to break the cycle. She could’ve had a man of lighter shade, but she saw the privilege of loving not simply for appearance but what lies beneath it.

This doesn’t go to say that I don’t understand the darker shades perspective on the situation because my mother is a darker shade of brown. She shared w/me how she was bullied in elementary for her skin color and how that brought some resentment toward her mother and younger sister who took after my grandmother in skin color. Experiencing that at a young age left an impression on my mother, so much so she told me she didn’t like darker shades of men. Simply because at the time of dating, she didn’t want no “Dark shaded man, cause I didn’t want no dark children.”

I immediately understood what this meant. My mother didn’t want her children to face the same ridicule she faced for being of darker shade. I didn’t judge my mother, and neither should you because in the midst of her trauma surfacing all I wanted to do was hug her for attempting to protect me from something that hurt her so. Are you guys getting the POINT?

When we JUDGE others especially in terms of skin color, ALL WE DO IS HURT. No one WINS in the battle of colorism, with the negro community losing the most because we CONDEMN OUR OWN PEOPLE. We continuously inspire the SAME TRAUMAS in our bloodlines.

My father is of lighter shade, hot yella as my folks say w/his nickname being cheeze. Do you know as a man the fights I’ve observed my father get into because he is of brighter shade? Men assuming weakness because “he wasn’t in the field” ancestrally, in slavery my father would’ve been a house nigger. Receiving some “favoritism” because his mother was taken advantage of by his father. Not counting that these circumstances most likely brought on more issues for him to be made stronger. My father is a VERY strong man, who could’ve EASILY pulled his weight in the field.

When my father was 18 years old, his best friend who lived next door took a baseball bat and knocked out my father’s top row of teeth. Why? An argument regarding his friend being jealous of him, insinuating that he only had what he had going on cause of his complexion. My father didn’t back down, and it resulted in his APPEARANCE being altered for the rest of his life. It NEVER bothered my dad, growing up he always made jokes dropping his teeth out his mouth on purpose and telling us not to judge ANYONE off their looks because you don’t know their story. My dad also married a woman of darker brown shade because he loved her and chose the direction of his life God led him too.

Most times when people in our community battle w/colorism it is because somewhere down the line they faced the issue themselves but never beat it. They never got past it, our men/women may seek out women/men of lighter shade to fill a void of not being enough or accepted to gain that. A lot of men/women seek outside their race as an escape from their heritage and abuse they suffer from it. Most of the time it’s TRAUMA not colorism.

Our community is NOT THE MOST ACCEPTED, ACCEPTING, OR ACCEPTABLE. If we’re being honest, people cut us out, we cut people out, and we all do things to be cut out. The point is RELEASE. These “stories” no longer FIT into our communities. We can mix and mingle w/WHOEVER we want to, as long as we understand that NO ONE IS ABOVE THE OTHER.

Our SOURCE sits at the highest point of creation. When we ALL MOVE WITH LOVE, we can understand this concept. How can someone be better than you because their hair is softer or skin of lighter complexion? When they quite literally can walk past homeless people and SPIT/KICK on them? Everything just can’t be about appearances because we are MISSING WHAT TRULY LIES BENEATH THE SURFACE.

America has built its foundation off of this CRAP and it’s time WE all do the work to tear it down. Beauty and its standards in America has been and still is FALSE. Why was the relaxer initially created? For women of color to resemble Caucasian women because THAT was considered the standard. So what do women of color do now? Braid our hair and place WIGS that resemble Caucasian hair on TOP OF OUR HAIR. Which I’m not knocking it y’all cause I love me some us but I can’t NOT STATE FACTS. That’s being part of the problem, and God birthed me as a solution.

So you WILL get the truth. YES, wear whatever you want to wear, and style yourself however you desire. Just don’t buy into the BEAUTY STANDARD THAT ISN’T AUTHENTIC. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It’s what YOU SAY IT IS. When we play into today’s beauty standards w/pointless debates, arguments, and ideals on colorism.

We play RIGHT INTO the hands of those who do not belong or FIT into our community as NEGRO people. These are people without our HERITAGE or BLOOD that cannot relate but wish too in ANY WAY possible even if that means stirring up chaos, confusion, and conflict simple to gain some validation of worthiness. We shouldn’t discuss things in our communities that hold no weight such as a white, Mexican, Asian, or Pacific Islander men/women being more valuable in the NEGRO communities more than the actual negroes IN it.

No offense to any races that I just mentioned once again we just stated FACTS. Plus I’m SURE I asked you to LEAVE early on to avoid ANY offense🤷🏽‍♀️ Being honest w/MY people these races will NEVER out value you because they don’t share the same story and that’s just that. Their blood doesn’t speak the same history as ours hence why some will CLAIM to have ANY percentage of what we ALL FULLY have!

The debates should no longer be allowed in our communities. Instead the examples should be set that colorism isn’t a factor to ANYONE of OUR community because it’s CONSISTENTLY being brought in by parties that exist OUTSIDE our communities. Stop yapping about people hair, all our s*** nappy if you leave it to do what it naturally do long enough.

Stop yapping about darker complexions, all our s*** BROWN, and transforms with more or less sunlight. Stop yapping about beauty & appeal, when ALL of us can be ugly, cause it’s not appearance that tells us who people truly are, it’s attitude, and inner heart.

Y’all be blessed and truly come up out the mind of America they instilled in you so you can build a greater, better tomorrow. At this rate, the enemy will take a new victory, cause remember chaos, confusion, and conflict is of Satan. God don’t move or get down like that!

Love yourselves, wear your Afros, your dreadlocks, bootyshorts, bamboo earrings, gray sweats, BOTH hoop earrings, nose rings, dashikis, moomoos, jays, big chains, lace fronts, tattoos, and anything else that points to your heritage plus bloodlines because it’s the TRUE PRIVILEGE. Many have DIED to stand proudly in being born from a slave heritage, you

BETTER STAND UP AND WEAR IT PROUDLY🗣️✨

NOBODY else can do it! - hence why I said nigga, nigga, niggers, DOWN. Cause my ancestors was WHIPPED do ya hear me?

For me to have this right here, and the government gave me freedom of speech so at that point right there…

Y’all BE BLESSED🧚🏽‍♀️🍀✨✨✨✨😂

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

Covenants NOT Contracts 2

My first faced extreme karma after what he’d done, his pill addiction worsened he started being in and out of rehab, he’d actually had CPR to bring him back at one point from taking an addy w/ a meth pill.

He never recovered and unfortunately till this day he still is an addict..

So after I cut my first off for good, I was still officially with rebound. I couldn’t bring myself to tell him the baby wasn’t his I aborted cause truthfully I was still dealing with the fact I didn’t have my baby.

This was a MAJOR THING in my world because it’s just not how I saw my life going at the time. I always pictured me being joyfully pregnant not rushing to get rid of it cause the bigger the seed the more I’d feel like I was committing murder. I’m a good girl at heart so some views I can’t escape but I’m harder on myself than others. So I don’t judge.

Eventually as I start getting back to myself around April the abortion happened in October. I tell rebound it wasn’t his, I believe in an argument cause he was such a little gremlin just TERRIBLE but I’m sweet.

He didn’t really react, and I mean I told him everything. Even how my first did it on purpose. Still no real reaction outside of him saying his mama shouldn’t have paid for it. Even though technically she didn’t cause my mama paid and I pocketed that $500😂

So really I didn’t think anything of it, AT ALL.

So as our relationship progressed I started to see more of what I didn’t like and what I didn’t want.

Honestly though my life was on the up & UP, school was good, I moved into a nicer apt, I got a raise at work… I was living good

I noticed oddly I was eating more than usual and spending a lot of time around the males in my family. So you guessed it, I bought a pregnancy test. Now the sex was never spectacular with rebound, the endowment wasn’t really that well. His mouth made up for it slightly when ONLY he used it in the bedroom.

So really I didn’t think I was pregnant but I followed my spirit even though it was just six months since my abortion. So you guessed it again…

I’m pregnant AGAIN..

This time I am really ashamed, not even six months later, I’m experienced so I hopped on the phone and made my appt but this time my mother was TOO overwhelmed cause one baby is something but TWO in six months time?

She was disappointed but didn’t tell me because she knew I was already hurting and that would just be an unnecessary blow. Plus I didn’t hesitate to set an appt because even though I had improved my stability, my relationship stability had declined.

Rebound WAS NOT my child’s father. I just KNEW.

He wasn’t right for the job and I refused to give my baby ANYTHING less than they deserved. He was cruel to me because my light over-shined him and I didn’t want him projecting that on my child. Competing with them at a young age or blocking blessings for them out of jealousy.

I made the appt before I even told him! Now check out how God works.. he tells his mom cause he’s an EXTREME MAMA’s BOY like she IS HIM type stuff.

Again she pays cause my mom wasn’t doing it and she tells me that I can’t keep getting pregnant to get abortions and I need to consider birth control. Hold that thought..

So rebound and I go to the clinic cause my mom not supporting me at this time. This is the first visit and he is acting a MONKEY otw back, idk why🤷🏽‍♀️

I mean I had to pull MY car over at the time we’re 45 mins outside of Birmingham just to stop him from hitting my car and screaming. Even when he gets out he kicks my car, HE DOESN’T EVEN HAVE A CAR!

So finally I convince him to get back in and I RACE back home, drop his a** off and go home. I went to my second appt ALONE. I got my pill, took it and this time actually EASY PEASY! I took the medicine right, and I even felt it drop out in to toilet. -possible tmi

I can remember being relieved and praying for forgiveness once again consistently this time thinking my inequity was TOO great. Two blessings I discarded? I thought God would see me as someone not raised in connection to him. So I kept praying. Around the time of my birthday if you read my original exes post, the gremlin started getting BOLD.

He tells me in an argument about my first he that. “I know you don’t love me more than your ex cause I got you pregnant and you didn’t keep it either.”

There it was.. God’s revelation reaching me once AGAIN.. I couldn’t believe that slime piece of s*** did that to me after I expressed my heartbreak over the first abortion. Plus in MANY arguments he brought up how I was really a s*** mother for aborting my babies anyway. Attempting to project a false narrative on me to lower my self esteem to HIS level.

Well I understood the game at the point, and I saw how CLEARLY God had protected me in my mistakes. In both pregnancies I wasn’t any further than 5 weeks, the size of a Lima bean. Each abortion God had prepared me with all the tools I needed even if it was just EXPERIENCE. I actively repented and showed remorse along with accountability then God still provided me the TRUTH.

I was being manipulated. The men that I was trusting with my body was NOT to be trusted and they would WILLINGLY sabotage my destiny or what they saw fated for me out of selfishness or maliciousness. Hence why rebound was SO upset leaving the clinic, he’d planned to do what he did to prove something to his narcissistic nature that wasn’t true.

I didn’t even react, I just left his apt. Which his MAMA paid the rent at.. but still I went repented and asked God for guidance I had NO clue what was going on but I knew I couldn’t keep doing and going through what I was. Having men trap me to coerce me into being involved with them. I’d never be happy and I told myself the next time would be THE time no matter what!

I had an epiphany, his mother told me to get on BIRTH CONTROL, now once again God will put you in the right places cause while working at Wells Fargo call center a girl I went to high school with Akila worked with me. I’m using your name kila cause you are a REAL one, you deserve this s/o for being a true girls girl.

She shared with me how she had recently gotten an iud and all the perks. Now she got the copper iud which lasts for 10 years, no weight gain, no sliding around in your arm, and you can reach in and feel the strings if it’s still in place properly. So when I had the epiphany I immediately called the gynecologist and set up an appt.

My father worked for Birmingham city so I’ve always had GREAT health benefits up until 27 so I knew only thing I needed was a co-pay. NO I didn’t tell rebound ANYTHING about the appt, he was on his way OUT the door. I’m very strategic at times too, I know how to pay my cards.

So I had two appts the original checkup and the insertion because it had to be down on my cycle. Now it really wasn’t that bad but my gynecologist would NOT give me the copper iud paragard. Instead she gave me Kyleena non-copper low hormone dosage IUD.

Still the same effectiveness just for 5 years not 10. Apparently she advised me that the copper could cause an infection or make you sick over time and that kyleena was a safer, better option. I trusted her, she was the doctor and pregnant at the time getting ready to deliver so I felt as if my womb was safe because I was still prioritizing my ability to bear children.

So once everything was done I left without having to pay a dime, not even a copay. I CLEARLY saw God hadn’t removed my favor and that he was still walking with me. Protecting me. For the first time within those months of EVERYTHING happening I felt like I finally did something proactive for me and my future children.

I put myself first and corrected a pattern that I saw wasn’t productive for me. Of course rebound was pissed especially when I told him his mother told me to get on BC cause he couldn’t plan to do it again and get away with it.

So I did away with him… I saw who was CLEARLY a bad person and even though we kept a friendly relationship until God fully severed that cord. He still takes the cake as one of the WORST men I’ve dealt with. Just by fair ranking honestly.

The main point to sharing this testimony is to showcase how God’s calling over your life will ALWAYS prevail. I am almost 30 w/no kids because God has had a plan over my life including my children. That is why he covered my mistakes in those seasons. Even so much so for any women that had or have the paraguard iud their is an active compensation claim going around for a settlement if it broke and caused any serious injury to your uterus.

Do you see how through EVERYTHING God still led me, protected me, and loved me. I learned valuable lessons during those trials regarding my self worth and protecting not only my future but my children’s. As women we have a choice and if we say NO in any way that’s just what it is.

We don’t have to be stuck in limited situations giving our children less than they deserve because of someone else and what they dictate. We have every RIGHT to dictate what we will and WON’T accept.

So because I said NO because I stood firm on my standards during a rather difficult time not only did I secure what I desire but also what my child truly REQUIRED. I was raised in a two parent household my children will NOT accept less than that. So much so

GOD HAD ALREADY SOLIDIFIED IT FOR ME.

Not with a contract because contracts expire but with a COVENANT. The prayers of those in my bloodline before me, had been PROMISED by God to be answered in divine time. The rewards of all the positivity they put out, God made a promise he intended to keep NO MATTER WHAT. Even if that meant I had to learn my WORTH the hard way to get here.

Image if I let those men win, image if I would’ve let them dictate the life I’d live? I would’ve missed out on everything God had for me and not only that, ALL that he promised my ancestors..

Plus all that was promised to my children.

It just wasn’t a fair trade, so I sit humbly, and extremely grateful for all I went through with my pregnancies. I pray that if ANY of you who read this take anything from this, it’s to choose YOU first in situations where it arises because most likely you’ll always be choosing God.

As far as strength, faith, & trust goes, remember it’s ALWAYS in you, not on you💯

🧚🏽‍♀️💕✨

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

Covenants NOT contracts

*Full disclosure for any future eyes on this post. Just like anything you may encounter on my blog this post is going to be the TRUTH of a part of who I am. It may trigger some with my transparency but father God has assured me I am safe to share my testimony because one day when ALL eyes are on me this post will touch the many that it needs to.

I’m always aiming to INSPIRE little ladies who look like me or come from where I come from to be just as, if not stronger than me🧚🏽‍♀️💕

Hold my hand as I walk through some of my trauma that I healed but how healed am I truly if I am unsure to share? .. exactly soooo we LISTEN and we don’t

JUDGE🙅🏽‍♀️😘 - it might get a little X rated so ⚠️

So back when I officially broke up with my first when I turned 21, I tried a h** phase that didn’t last longer than 2 months😂😂😂 I’m just not the sleep around type, I had one bad experience with a man blowing spit bubbles in my 😻 and that ruined it for EVERYBODY.

So if you go back to the post regarding my exes, I mentioned a “rebound” that turned into a relationship.

I met rebound at a local rap show where he was one of the performers and this was shortly after my bday in June. Most likely August.

I can’t stunt, I very much was playing into rebound knowing I wasn’t really into him. When we first met he was musty and plus I’d been in a committed relationship with ONE guy since junior year high school

I wanted to explore, but rebound was HOUNDING me

Mind you I am also getting over the fact the guy I lost my virginity too would NOT be my husband along with the fact I was figuring out the direction I now wanted to go in my life as a SINGLE young woman.

So it was only inevitable that I started back having sex with my first. At this point I only had two bodies and I lost my virginity at 18 so it wasn’t like I really had much experience to step outside of what I knew.

I was comfortable with him, but still I was making a horrible mistake.

While dealing with rebound I was f****** my first still cause at the end of the day, ya girl got a sex drive BUT

STANDARDS🗣️

So rebound ends up getting a job as SECURITY at my apartment complex and this is really f****** up my flow if you can’t tell. My first was a certain type of 🥷 though so he was with ALL the s***

Everything was going well until rebound feelings increased and started popping up at my apt on and off his shift. Now I PROMISE it all comes together.

So one night I knew he was on duty and I didn’t want him to pop up at my crib so, I started a false argument

🙃

Acting like I was angry about something that I wasn’t to keep his a** away while I did the woohoo soooo somehow I mentioned something about flowers and literally just as I get back at the crib getting settled

(cause my first didn’t have a car-YES I had to pick him up smfh)

Rebound comes knocking at the door, I saw it was him and told my first and he went running to hide. I opened the door and BLEW immediately telling him he couldn’t be popping up like that and I needed space, blah blah blah. He has flowers and says “I came to bring you flowers cause you said you never got any.”

Mind you they weren’t my favorite and I TOLD HIM, I literally named my dog at the time after them soooo?

Anyway rebound leaves and I go searching around my apt for my first cause the 🥷 went and HID HID😂😂

When he came out the closet 😂😂😂😂 the look on his face literally told it all. He was hurt, like he’d lost his good girl to the streets .. this is a MAJOR point so hold the thought cause around this time he was always playing/singing future- turn on me.

I didn’t catch the hint in his expression though or his feelings really. My adrenaline was rushing and I was just happy to avoid a potential bad situation. Plus I learn lessons QUICKLY, somebody HAD to go.

So naturally I decided my first could go, cause NEW levels, it’s a level UP for a reason. So I didn’t see my first for at least a month after that? Maybe two but rebound and I made it official.

I still wasn’t having sex with him because honestly I’ve always been a make them wait kind of gal. So I was horny especially with me going from multiple times a week to NOTHING. Be serious.

So I called my first, and went to pick him up again. Let me just say how naive I was to keep going picking him up and bringing him back to my crib across town to only have to take him back when done🤦🏾‍♀️

Live and learn plus God delivered me the first time with the sign of the trouble to come but the FLESH. That lust go to me, so we did the do.

Now honestly it wasn’t the same, the feeling was gone. This is how I ALWAYS know when I am over someone when we have sex for the final time and it’s NO passion there. So I was already thrown off but he through me off when he just pulled out. Finished but not how he usually finished if you catch my drift!

I am very blessed and protected to keep myself taken care of and rather selective so truthfully, I don’t use condoms. NOW I AM NOT TELLING ANYONE TO NOT USE CONDOMS, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE EXTREMELY SEXUALLY ACTIVE WITH MULTIPLE PARTNERS OR IF YOU ARE NEGLIGENT WITH ROUTINE STD TESTING.

My pum pum gets irritated from the material and it’s no fun for anyone so personally for me I don’t use condoms. LISTEN UP though cause don’t do what I do, do better🗣️

Now I’ve only been sexually active routinely with 1 guy at the age of 21 so I trusted him. We grew up together you know, I really trusted him to have my best interest at heart. So we practiced the pull out method.

You should see where I’m going with this, he didn’t pull out this time. When I looked up I couldn’t tell because he had never done it in me before so when I asked him if he 🥜 he said no. I partially believed him because I trusted him and I partially didn’t because he was soft.

Still I asked multiple times and he insisted on lying, this is also the SERIAL CHEATER. So why would I believe him? Cause I got a good heart mind your business!

So three weeks pass, I’ve left him alone for good cause I knew it was over and something in my spirit told me to get a pregnancy test. So I did, and I can’t lie now looking back on it I was nervous asf.

I didn’t want a kid at the time, I’d just started figuring out MY dreams and honestly I didn’t have anything to offer my child at that time. At least not what I knew they deserved so I pissed on that stick and waited..

I called my bestie and sat on the phone having basic convo until it was time. I didn’t tell him I was taking the test, I just was playing it cool. I face a lot of things internally and alone. So when the timer was done on my phone, I immediately checked.

I was pregnant.

I immediately burst out into tears and my bestie said so concerningly “what’s wrong?” He’d never really heard or seen me cry, I’m a strong girl. I belted out I’m pregnant and he couldn’t believe it. I had just had sex with rebound after my first so honestly

I DIDN’T TRULY KNOW WHO GOT ME PREGNANT AT THE TIME.

As my bestie was attempting to console me, telling me it was going to be alright.. I sobbed I felt devastated like my whole life was about to change on someone else’s accord cause if it was up to me I’d have more to offer my baby. Then I remembered…

God had PREPARED me, see God knows ALL even the mistakes we will make..

When I was in 9th grade in theater class I was sitting with some girls from my class who were HOT in the pants and some 12th graders. They were talking about when they got abortions, they discussed where they went, how much it cost, the procedures, the risks, even the people that sit outside trying to stop you from doing it😂

At the time I sat and listened as a VIRGIN wondering the purpose of me being in the convo and at 21 it came back around. I knew JUST what to do, I had ALL the info I needed. I jumped into action SO fast, mind you my bestie is still “consoling me.”

I googled the facility and made sure they had the pill because from the convo I learned the surgery can cause infertility and I would’ve been devastated if I couldn’t have kids anymore. So I had to play it safe.

I literally interrupted my bestie to tell him I’d call right back to set up my appt at the clinic. I remember it was a Monday because my appt was dated for that Wednesday a day away. The scheduling was really easy and I’d made a quick decision that whatever life I was living at the time I wasn’t going to give to my child because they didn’t deserve it.

They deserved better, a better version of me, and if I had a right to give that to them I WOULD.

So I called my bestie back and told him about my appt and he was astonished. Like wow so it’s done just like that? And I’m like yeah cause I can really be cold, head over heart. I was really focused on the baby daddy which I thought was rebound.

Which s/o to his moms cause she paid for the abortion plus my mom paid too cause she went with me which was nice bonding because she had an abortion for my dad before they had my oldest brother. - call that a waste of time😂😂😂😂😂

Anyway God was very much still present through this WHOLE process for me because I was consistently being blessed. The pill was easy to take, I did experience pain because I took my medicine wrong but other than that.. easy peasy🤷🏽‍♀️

So fast forward maybe two months ahead I somehow start hanging with my first again. Call me crazy cause I can’t even tell you why I was dealing with him but call it Gods plan cause we get into an argument about me not wanting to be with him and he says

“I know you don’t love me cause I got you pregnant and you didn’t even keep it.”

The pain I felt when he spoke those words to me is STILL very distinctive.. the nerve, the selfishness

To do that to me, he KNEW me like he truly KNEW who I was at my core and how I saw my life and the pride I took in being a mother some day and to selfishly do that to me not giving af about ANYTHING I had going on. I was working a FULL time job in SCHOOL, paying all my bills, balancing out my life and responsibilities.

Why would you attempt to ruin something not only for ME but for my CHILD. Knowing you can’t be a MAN to take care of them? I would’ve been left ALONE, struggling with my baby, and the ONLY thing that delivered me was GOD. Cause in that moment God made it CLEAR that ALL the repenting I did in tears at night praying that he wouldn’t take my right to bear away from me had been FORGIVEN.

I had made a MISTAKE, out of the love in my heart of just PEOPLE in general believing people to be better than they were. My first on the other hand, he had INTENTIONALLY did what he’d done. He plotted, planned, executed, and LIED. He was guilty.

I had felt so ashamed for NO reason because this selfish man saw I was moving on and desired me ALL to himself at ANY COST. Even if it was the life I desired for myself and my baby.

With his selfishness, I could never see him the same again… and he had truly hurt me in a way that was unforgivable at the time. I could never trust him again

So I didn’t, I left and didn’t look back because I KNEW without a doubt he wasn’t the man for me in ANY way.

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

Do Americans in our society really believe it’s okay to live in lies rather than truth?

I just saw a clip of Kanye speaking up for our people after the devastation of hurricane Katrina and the quiver in his words REALLY got to me.

If it’s one thing I can say about Mr.Kanye West is that he never turned a blind eye. That FOREVER keeps him indebted to the most high.

Do you know how many people are truly AFRAID to speak the truth?

Simply because other HUMAN beings have utilized the systems around them to instill this fear in others for POWER.

Believe it or not, it’s ALL fake.

Seeing Kanye speak those words again with unsurety of what to say exactly but KNOWING he had to say SOMETHING. Was truly beautiful, because so many people in our community just ALLOW the b******* to fly for whatever reason OUTSIDE of what’s right.

All that job security, and powerful people in high places mean NOTHING to me when I see those who stood in their truth and went up against the system to prevail. My mind ALWAYS takes me back to the black panthers w/Angela Davis being one of my greatest influences. I’ve seen her speak a couple of times…

Don’t get me wrong, I understand many have lost their lives behind it but I always think what if?

What if their is a such thing as UNTOUCHABLE in Gods eyes to the point,

NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST YOU SHALL PROSPER..

As long as you STAY TRUE, AUTHENTIC, and centered in God

Who could TRULY overtake you?

We all make mistakes, sometimes we stray away from God but what if someone did take on the system with the FULL intent of God.

Never moving from that stance?

At that point, we’d call it an indestructible force.

Moving off of Gods commands with Gods protection.

In a country RULED AND GOVERNED truly by

GOD.

Kanye will forever have my respect as a man of courage. Who didn’t turn a blind eye to the truth, while everyone CHOSE to read from a script, he CHOSE to speak from the heart.

Securing his eternal blessings, no matter how that same system he shined a LIGHT on has imprinted on him. There is a beautiful spot reserved for him in heaven w/his wonderful mother.

To think maybe all he ever needed was a little prayer and guidance to pull him back into the light after being cast into darkness with his mother’s loss in the first place.

I am grateful to be raised in a generation with such inspiring icons to teach me how to always allow my authentic light to show. Thank you father God.

My heart is full to know that no matter what our testimony will in fact be admired to inspire no matter who tries to discredit us as your children🇺🇸✨

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

I’m a SCIENTIST

This is my experiment, I’m trying to see how HIGH I can go..

Meet me @ the TOP .. don’t get lost🤷🏽‍♀️

[hopoffmybiscuitbb]

Okay, I’m BACK 2 IT..

Real quick disclosure to my invisible audience lol, this is a public platform so I have to be sure to say this cause EVENTUALLY I’m sure it will be seen.

This is MY TRUTH, that I am willingly sharing because God inspired me too.

I can say that I may not be proud of everything I have done in relationships and I am in no way attempting to s*** on ANY of the men I dealt with.

EACH of my relationships no matter the length taught me very valuable lessons that I carry with me as wisdom today. I have forgiven every party involved because I forgave MYSELF first.

Forgiveness is for you, and a grudge is just too heavy to carry on my heart. If anything comes off as if I am judging any of the young men I speak about then allow me to apologize for the misprojection.

Cause honestly I was left to judge myself and ONLY myself after my actions that I willingly chose to take in each relationship.

I just hope and pray that my truth helps to inspire anyone going through something similar to see there is light at the end of the tunnel✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

Alright so back to May 2020…

I signed up for tinder - I didn’t realize how terrible this sounds until I just typed it😭

(Just a word of advice ladies, most men on dating apps are either just looking to hookup or desperate)

Anywho I signed up because at the time my work friend from my new job was on there and we were hanging out a lot. She introduced me to something new and I genuinely tried it plus my best friend at the time was on grindr(he’s a gay male) and he bragged about his hookups all the time.

Now if you remember I said I AM A LOVER GIRL, so what I’m doing on a dating app with the intent of just hooking up possibly? Honestly idk I was just in a good space feeling myself but not really knowing myself😭

Anywho I didn’t go on any dates, I just had one guy come over and we talked but he had to leave cause he had a routine smoke session w/his friends. I did give him a kiss goodbye though-when I said I was a lover girl I also meant that from God eyes too.

My favor has protected me from A LOT.

So I matched with a few guys but nothing moved until I matched with this Asian guy. When I say I contemplated swiping right on him, I passed his profile a FEW times before I finally swiped right. I should have trusted my intuition but it’s coo cause homegirl learned

Anyway he wrote me that same night and we started texting, he was sending paragraphs. Which honestly I still think is cute but I missed the red flag of desperation in him one too many times so I have to acknowledge it.

We set a date for Sunday night, it was Friday or Saturday aka quick asf. So he was suppose to cook for me at his spot, now you can see from past experience I’m already like okay EAT cause no other dude I messed with had his own spot. Peep my mistake, judging a book by the cover.

So when I get there, his spot is nice, fresh like he just moved in. Which he told me he did in March, now I gave him a pass cause I just moved but in reality he moved from his dad house I moved from my own spot.

Anyway walk with me, there is NO FOOD PREPARED.

When I got there he was washing dishes cause he just got off work, but he knew I was coming for at least a FULL 24 hours. Still not judging I am just looking at what I overlooked the first time. So he moved a chair in his dining room which his apt was severely unfurnished I am a homey girl dawg, I am a Cancer my home has always been comfy. I sat in the chair and literally talked to him while he was washing the dishes, he just kept staring at me saying

“I can’t believe you really here.”

I personally still find this flattering but just peep how it relates to him. So he tells me about him, I tell him about me. He was a year younger than me but was held back in elementary a grade so he was in class with those 2 years under me. So peep his mindset in comparison..

I am just naturally in mom energy sometimes so I literally was like what were you going to cook I can get it going while you finish the dishes. Long story short it was a dish that had an ingredient I was allergic too. I’m not sharing what ingredient cause that’s my kryptonite f you talm bout😭😭😭but peep how God was highlighting something about weakness.

Either way I literally just threw some ingredients together to make some chicken pasta cause he said he liked that and we sat on the couch to watch a movie.

Why in the middle of the date his white friend shows up? Who later wore a confederate flag face mask over to his apt while he KNEW I was there. No the Asian guy didn’t say a thing, in fact he told me he didn’t know what the confederate flag was.

The flag really represents the south being a separate entity from the North, but racists know what they be on. Anyway with the third wheel we decided to play monopoly and go shot for shot which was fun. Honestly I still enjoyed it cause it was something new/different an experience.

Either way I stayed the night on the couch cause I was comfortable plus shot 4 SHOT. My daddy a drinker and let me start drinking with him so a man could never out drink me to take advantage of me.

After that night we were really locked in like everyday type stuff, I even was at his spot when he had a smoke session with his friends and remember the guy from tinder I had the brief date with? HE WAS THERE.

Nigga said NOTHING😭 after they left I did tell lil chicken wang though cause I like to be straight forward. Did he care? NO, so we continued to “date” cause honestly we didn’t go out much before things got serious but two things did happen I found out he was a h** when he was in college which we all got a past but

He also recently got CLOWNED in the group chat of the deltas at the local university. I’m talking dog walked for trying to talk to any and EVERYBODY that all were cool.

Seeing them flags yet? Cause I was do do do do doooo

So it’s literally the next month and my birthday trip is approaching, I asked him to go. Why? Cause I’m a lover girl I’m cut like that! - if you my man you my man then

Plus I was on wifey stuff helping him with his finances and stuff this was during Covid so I put him on like boy get that $800 a wk unemployment cause his job was closed. HE WAS A SERVER - I’m working as a medical payments claim processor for Allstate btw so do with that what you will..

Of course he agreed to go and we cool, preparing for the trip, going shopping, he asking me details about me writing it down and s*** like I’m just thanking God for some “good” that he sounding the ALARM on the whole time. Day before the trip, I’m at his spot, I go in his room and see him messaging on Snapchat.

Tbh I don’t have Snapchat cause it’s a hookup app, I’m not into hookups frrl or sly behavior. So I ask him about it, he admits he slid up on her stuff to tell her she cute or some. I couldn’t really trip cause it wasn’t official but God was exposing a pattern here cause his words wasn’t matching his actions see. He was saying I want something committed and serious but his actions was saying noncommittal in MULTIPLE ways.

Can’t lie I did blow on his a** cause stand for something or fall for anything. We not starting no patterns and my phone on Sahara😭😭😭😭 I’m not cut to go out like that, the next day we were leaving and had to go pick up the rental car. I paid for it but he paid for my hair, I had him drop a smooth $500 just to see cause I learned!

Stop being so generous to those that will not return the same to you. That will leave your cup EMPTY.

I did play like idk if I was gone let him still come or not cause once again lover girl but you gotta know how to be hard body. Like I’m fair cause he put in on the Airbnb more with me so my friends could pay less. Cause I wanted everyone to be able to go, favor ain’t fair and my stability wasn’t everyone else’s stability.

So the whole ride to the airport he is really being dramatic like over apologizing and stuff like just hold on to this point okay. We get the car and when the lady come out she say

“Hey Rico Suave” complimenting him and me like “girl you did that I was not expecting that.” I like that type of energy cause yeah you know I’m HER lol and honestly he really was looking good like fresh cut, new threads, it’s giving Alvin from love don’t cost a thing!

Okay so we head out to Orlando and it’s lit all is going well I believe my birthday was that Thursday or Friday? Either way we were there a day before my bday. So we hadn’t done anything cause I wanted to wait and when we did try his player didn’t show up for the game that day. So I took it as a sign.

My actual bday comes and he got me the cutest box with a whole bunch of sentimental stuff. He a Pisces so two water signs together, we was touching hearts frrl. So I decided okay let’s make this the day and we do but honestly - and Asian gang if you see this NO OFFENSE

It was horrible, we just didn’t have any chemistry. It didn’t flow but I’m looking at what he doing that most of the others didn’t. Only one who did was my first which I can’t lie he really really loved me and taught me a lot like really saw my worth but took so much advantage of my genuine heart. I over looked that big a** sign insisting that he was just nervous cause that’s what he said.

Plus it was pretty difficult to get his player to show up to the field and I’ve had the Vietnamese woman at the nail shop write her # on my receipt before not knowing a PEEP of English sooooo? But I wear glasses anyway so maybe I wasn’t regularly wearing them😭😭😭

So some of my friends left early cause they had work and we were staying till Monday. We grilled on Friday no problem we hooked the propane up, cooked, got drunk, and ate. You know mama Bri was whipping in the kitchen, even on my bday, I am literally that friend

I wasn’t on the grill though, so when my friends left it was only me, Asian gang, and my best friend since middle school. So .. I bought some cheese sausages and hot dogs😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I really wanted to cooked them cause my mouth was tuned up, plus it’s Sunday and we leave Monday. They weren’t opened and if it’s one thing BRIBRI gone do is get her money worth. I asked Asian gang to put them on the grill, he got up to cater to the bday princess, and I noticed just like he noticed he didn’t really know what he was doing. Bestie and me still chilling in the jacuzzi cause I’m trying to be in Ms.Cater2Me after consistently being Ms.Independent.

He comes back like “idk how to light it” so I respond “Well I really wanted the hotdogs so if you can’t do it I can go over and figure it out.” I stand to get out, he rushes back over to the grill bringing a lamp to “see” better. So my bestie and I get out the jacuzzi to play uno, bestie says let’s sit at the bar connected to the grill. Pay attention..

I pause look at the bar and say “I want to sit by the water.”

So we sit at the table closest to the pool, as we start smoking and playing I see my Pomeranian switching her little a** in the house. Like on some let me skedaddle type stuff but I just ignored it. I look over at Asian gang turning the knobs on the grill and I see a line of blue flame come across the back row then

POP … it was like a damn flash bang grenande

I saw his ass get knocked back by the blast from the gas grill exploding, I immediately hoped up screaming

“Baby!” Call it instinct cause ??????

When I say I ran over to Asian gang and he out cold, I thought he was dead I IMMEDIATELY starting screaming at him to get up cause if you can hear a voice you can walk back to it. Catch my drift?

He popped up like somebody told him all the thanksgiving food was ready and your cousins in the kitchen. I told him to run cause I didn’t know if it was going to do a double tap plus mind you this is happening over like 2 mins? He takes off running and SCREAMING😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I told him to run not scream like he was set on fire, I still distinctly hear his scream it’s terrible. Anyway I’m running behind him cause all of this is happening so fast and I hadn’t actually seen his face to access any damage. Like I’m a big girl, I’m very mature and responsible so when I SEEN it happen I instantly jumped into action.

Like my bestie was still sitting down when I ran over to Asian gang while screaming at bestie to call 911. So when he finally stopped running he turned around and BABY THEM EYEBROWS WAS SINGED😭😭😭😭

Plus all his hair looked like it was blown BACK like from a blast😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I promise I am only laughing cause I’ve healed, their is joy literally in everything so be coo. He looked okay honestly but the propane tank was at the bottom so his legs were badly burned 3rd degree. Arms too because his arms were out twisting the knobs.

I got him in the house, got him a rag to put on his foot for the cut he had while telling him to apply pressure. My bestie still on the phone describing what he don’t even know happened to the po po. He said

“It just exploded” and at some point they told him we needed to be out of the house in case of a leak so I get my puppy and help Asian gang to the car in the drive way. He’s shivering I guess from the burns idk but he looked at me with such concern and said

“I don’t health insurance.” I’m like be coo cause I’m focused on running back in the house grabbing all the paraphernalia cause I hear the po po coming. I literally take off grabbing his guns and extra bullets he brought, the sack, bong, and couldn’t find the blunt we was smoking at the time of the explosion. But guess what

I did CLEARLY see the unopened pack of cheese sausages on the ground. Plus the bar that my bestie wanted us to sit at. Demolished, do ya hear me?

Our legs would have been rotisserie, I still thank God for my gift of discernment till this day for that cause who would’ve called the po po? I’m strong but DAMN that’s TOO much pressure, not me crawling trying to save other people when CLEARLY - come on

So I put everything away and ran back out, fire truck pulling up with the FIRE CHIEF. They come ask me wassup cause the Airbnb in my name and I tell them, they go back to check it out. Asian gang asks me to call his folks, who I’ve never met it’s only been a month but his dad did stay 5 mins away from him and never been to his spot. Hold on to that info..

So call his dad, no answer, call his brother, no answer, can’t call his mom, don’t have her new #, called her on Facebook, no answer, called his sister, phone off. So at this point I’m like?????? He’s like call my stepmom

(His best friend mom who took him in from middle school to junior year high school) - No answer

So baby I call my daddy, cause if it’s one thing big Cheeze gone do is answer that phone for his kids. Yes everybody call my daddy Cheeze, since forever. My daddy picked up that phone and immediately I told the tea. I started crying cause my daddy is my safe space you know like where I don’t have to hold anybody down cause he got me. So I asked him

“Cheeze can you come to Orlando?” When I tell you my daddy laughed like girl NO. My daddy don’t fly, never have, never will and my daddy don’t play bout his job. If it’s one thing I got from BOTH my parents is a good work ethic, if you hustle, hustle hard. So he really just calmed me down telling me I got it under control and he hate this happened to the guy.

Meanwhile I got Asian dude phone and his stepmom calling back, I hang up on Cheeze and answer. I immediately explain what’s going on but this woman has NEVER heard anything about me nor has she spoken to him in awhile so she says to me

“Okay put somebody else on the phone.”

I looked at the phone like what? Baby I gave that phone to the firefighter so fast cause girl with the way everything going my emotional regulation is SHOT. I’m liable to really spazz out on you😭😭😭😭 The chief walks up to me and says that the propane tank had a leak in it and that was the cause. We talked about the Airbnb host and that was all.

So after checking on Asian gang the medic comes to me like the nearest hospital with a burn unit is 30 mins away so I’m like okay?? They basically let me know with his condition he needs to go by helicopter. I’m like hold onnnnnnn cause he don’t have any health insurance. I told ya I was on some wifey stuff I’m thinking about his finances cause a helicopter ride to the hospital is pricey by the mile.

When I say the medic was looking at me like girl he could die😂😂😂😂😂😂 My bestie had to step up and say just gone take him in the helicopter😂😂😂 Cause I am a budgeting baddie, I didn’t have enough time to calculate by the mile😭😭😂😭😂😂😂😂😂

So as they got him ready for the helicopter, dismantling, we went back to pack our stuff and head out cause the grill literally exploded. So I’m running around cleaning up, packing left overs, trying get the blood out the towel he put on his cut, PLAYING GOSPEL MUSIC. My bestie looking at me like I really hope Briana is okay cause girl who care about this Airbnb at this point.

BABY I SWEPT THE FLOOR😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Anyway, finally we get our black a**** in the car and head to the hospital and baby I’m SWERVING, SWITCHING LANES HITTING 100. I am blessed with really good driving skills, favor ain’t fair but God has blessed me to not have any accidents besides 1 where somebody hit me in my first car. So I’m really in my element cause I honestly love driving.

When I say the Holy Spirit just hit me out of nowhere and I opened my mouth and prayed the most genuine, unsuspecting prayer. Tears flooded my eyes and I asked God sincerely not to take his life because I just got him and I love him.

Now if somebody ask me how I love him in a month and OBVIOUSLY don’t know him I will honestly tell you I didn’t but at the time I loved who I thought he was and it was genuine from my pure heart. Cause God moved mountains for Asian gang a lot off my genuine love whether it was romantic or not.

I have a heart that just naturally and genuinely loves/cares so if I say I love you and God seeing me cry knowing I’ll be genuinely hurt behind it. He gone work a miracle or two behind me, this is before I understood who I truly was though so if you tuned in just peep.

I am enjoying expressing my truth because honestly this is my first time speaking on this “publicly” or really just vulnerably. So you know that means part 3 probably tomorrow after I finish twilight cause I been binging…

This is literally just the beginning to the last and most impactful relationship I had.. we hadn’t even got to my spiritual awakening/initiation yet🤗