Guess I'm done with university. That's weird. Had both of my departments' diploma ceremonies yesterday, though it probably still won't feel real until I actually get my diplomas in the mail later. I guess I am quite proud of having graduated, since it honestly wasn't always obvious that it was going to happen (at least not in four years), but at the same time I keep forgetting that it's not just a regular end of a school year. I must say, though, I am irrationally proud of that orange hood. Idk how universal it is, so in case you don't know, an orange hood as part of your regalia means you're graduating from a school of engineering. My university has the computer science department in the school of engineering instead of the school of arts and sciences, and there were countless times where I was tempted to just drop my CS major altogether and just do math, but I held on through all four years because I refused to just have the yellow arts and sciences hood at graduation. My older brother graduated from his university's school of engineering and got an orange hood, so nothing could stop me from doing the same. Is that incredibly petty and meaningless? Of course. Was it 100% worth it? Absofuckinglutely. I've always compared myself to my brother in terms of academics and the like, which honestly isn't very fair to myself given that I'm the one who inherited all the ADHD and mental illnesses and whatnot, so it was waaaay harder for me than for him, but uhhhh you can't stop me from having unhealthy expectations for myself.
