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Dear Zac,

Is there REALLY a point to not giving up?

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It has been my life's goal to not be a problem.

When I was little, I remember watching my siblings fighting, causing trouble or demanding my parents attention, not that I didn't do any of that, and I saw how stressed everyone was especially my parents. I didn't want to be another person and problem to worry about, not when my parents already had 3 other children. I decided to be as un-needy and un-problematic as I possibly could. Now that I'm older, I've realized that I failed.

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Dear Zac,

I'm worried about Buddy. I think he is sick, probably because I have a cold or flu or something. I want to take him to the vet, even if he's just got allergies. The last time I waited to take someone to the vet, she died of a brain tumor and was in so much pain for 3 days. Even if the vet couldn't do anything about the tumor, they could have made her last days less painful.

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Dear Zac,

I am worried about going to sleep. The last time, I lost a day, at least I think I did. Maybe I slept through it or my poor memory is to blame; I don't know.

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Dear Zac,

Do you wanna hear about a dream I had?

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Dear Zac,

Are you going to do drag with us in May? It'd mean a lot to me and K, plus it is fun and you've said you like to do drag.

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Dear Zac

This has been the best week of my life! So many workshops, people who are interested in things I am, and people like me!

A did his first real drag show tonight! He was fantastic, beautiful, confident and wonderful! I'm so, so, so happy for him and proud of him. Also, A met Khrys'taaal and got her contact info!!! My heart is bursting with joy for him!

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Dear Zac,

Thanks for the ride, I'm sorry about bugging you at work. My father and I are going to work on my car and cleaning the barn today and this weekend. Hopefully he will actually be able to fix my car this time and you won't need to pick me up in the middle of nowhere.

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Dear Zac,

Thank you for helping me last night. I appreciate your patience and willingness to help me work through my negative emotions.

You are right, I am not in the best living situation, but moving out is a far off prospect that must be worked towards. Still, knowing that I am not over reacting is comforting.

I cannot wait until next semester and we can hang out in person again. In addition, I will be out of the house almost all day! All I will need to do is work on managing my anxiety and not take it out on my housemates and this shall get better!

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Photo by furbiebitch, got it from their Instagram that has the same name.

I'm not 100% sure about this one, I think the frame is good and the picture is great, but I feel like they may not go perfectly together. I'll probably post an updated version sometime later on.

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Dear Zac,

I feel empty, solitary, and all around terrible. There's just nothing, everything has become nothingness. I don't want to be around right now.

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Dear Zac,

I have been betrayed twice today. First, my lungs have betrayed, I can hardly breathe, my chest aches, and I am highly disappointed with how much my ling are failing at doing their job. Like, what the hell? I've had asthma for my whole life, I expected my lungs to have learned a better way of dealing with their problems. I thought I grew them better.

Secondly, the weather has betrayed me and now I am snowed in. I half regret living here and shake a metaphorical fist at climate change, because I am too lazy to shake a real fist. I am not sure if I'd prefer spending the day cleaning rooms full of 7 different half finished drinks, having a trash bag RIP and getting beer on my pants, and finding exotic suprises like used horse themed dildos and drunk guys in bathtubs, or spending the day with nothing to do with people I love but am slightly at odds with and getting depressed because I am so bored.

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Photo by badassworms, got the pic from their Instagram account that is also called badassworms.

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Photo by buttered-noodles, they have an Instagram account that's called long_buttered_noodle

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Yes, I made this on a free app

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Dear Zac,

Looks like there's still the threat of homelessness hanging over my head. So, that's cool. I'm close to my whit's end and am having trouble sleeping, I'm just so stressed. I feel so much pressure to tow the line and kiss up it's making me sick.

Please get back to me when you can.

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Dear Zac,

Thanks for helping me, I don't know what I'd do if you couldn't cover my cuts!