Gonna make a heartthrob out of me

Hudson Quigley Seventeen Top of the Social Scene @Hudsun - - Better Be Buzzworthy - - --------------------------------------- "And it really makes me wonder if I ever gave a fuck about you."

[n-oradelrey]

No, no. D-don’t say— I— I’m so sorry, I’m so—

[hudson-quigley]

You have a great night, Nora. 

[n-oradelrey]

I was just— I was mad, and so— I just— I didn’t mean for—

[hudson-quigley]

Mad because I kissed her? God, how fucking immature can you get, Nora, this isn't fucking middle school, we're practically adults and you're pulling this? You're no better than my mother. 

[hudson-quigley]

@hudsun: that stupid trip to Italy is looking better and better by the second

[n-oradelrey]

I did it— I did it because—

[hudson-quigley]

Because why, Nora? This'll be great I'm sure, please, fill me in.

[hudson-quigley]

idk i'm lost

[n-oradelrey]

Hudson.

[hudson-quigley]

What?

[n-oradelrey]

I just— I said it in the heat of the moment and I— I—

[hudson-quigley]

So this really is all one big game to you, huh? First somehow getting Jackie to blame herself for me kissing her and making you mad but now sleeping with me to get back at her? Do you realize how fucked up that is? She's supposed to be your friend, your best friend even and you just.. You just really don't give a fuck do you? I have no idea what in God's fucking name you thought you'd be gaining from this, from fucking me just to get back at Jackie for something that she didn't even do but whatever you thought it was you might as well toss that thought out the window because it's not happening. This is really fucking messed up, Nora, and the worst part is that you don't even care. 

[hudson-quigley]

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SHIT

[n-oradelrey]

Nothing, Hudson. Don’t you wanna take off my bra again?

[hudson-quigley]

No, Nora, that's not what I want to do. I want to hear what you meant. 

[n-oradelrey]

Nothing. It doesn’t matter. Let’s not talk about Jackie.

[hudson-quigley]

It does matter, Nora. What did you mean a step a head of her? 

[n-oradelrey]

Hm?

[hudson-quigley]

What did you say about Jackie?

[n-oradelrey]

God, is this what I was missing the whole time? Ah, well, one step ahead of Jackie as usual.

[hudson-quigley]

What? 

[n-oradelrey]

Doesn’t matter. Happened once. Not my finest moment, but it did lead to a whole world of new opportunities. 

[hudson-quigley]

A whole new world huh? Well good then, more fun for you. 

[nerdherdsjackie]

Then why am I over here, feeling like I’m the last one standing in the queue of girls you drag along? I’m getting so exhausted over being told over and over again that I’m worth it, when in the end I’m never treated as such. The last time I felt like I was finally it was at the rave yet it was taken from me just as easily. I appreciate that Hudson, I do, and I’m sorry about her, I’m glad you trust me because I couldn’t spare the guilt I’d have…telling anyone. For that I do understand that you won’t ignore and completely manipulate me like she did to you. But right now, — it just feels like it isn’t worth it. Nora’s been my friend ever since she moved here, she knows everything about me. I can’t shut her out because I like you.

Yeah I-I do. It cost me a friendship and I can’t…get it back. But I’m gonna try. Why shouldn’t I? So I can stick around here and go on about how pathetic I used to feel about you? I’d show up ten minutes earlier than I needed to every day at school just to be sure I’d meet you at your locker before any of your other friends came and swarmed around, I used to think about you asking me to prom, or you being my first kiss. I was stupid. I had a stupid crush. What do you want me to say, Hudson? I’m just gonna make it worse.

[hudson-quigley]

I'm not dragging anyone along, not intentionally at least.. I didn't know about Nora liking me, I didn't know how she felt until all of this hit the fan and now I'm just stuck in the middle. [Runs his hands down his face.] This is all just so stupid. If she hadn't gotten mad then none of this would even be a problem. What grounds does she even have to be mad at you? None! If she had feelings for me she could have said something, she could have prevented this from happening I guess, or at least happening in the way it did. Nora is my best friend, one of them at least and the fact that [Sighs] I didn't mean for this to happen, I didn't mean to come between you and Nora, I didn't— 

You weren't stupid, the crust wasn't stupid, it isn't stupid. You shouldn't have to stop feeling something because of Nora. I get that you want to be friends with her again but if not..if you don't.. I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. You aren't pathetic, Jackie, you have never been pathetic. None of this is fair, Nora shoudn't be mad at you, if anything you both should be mad at me, if I hadn't kissed you there wouldn't be this ridiculous mess right now. This is my fault, not yours, not Nora's. 

[hudson-quigley]

ana is a demon

[n-oradelrey]

When I learned how good it is, ‘specially with you. I told you about Isaiah, didn’t it? I mentioned it briefly.

[hudson-quigley]

Not that I recall..no..

[n-oradelrey]

I mean, I could always refresh your memory.

[hudson-quigley]

When did you turn into a sex addict? Wait..when did you even.. You.. I..