Humans Are Mostly Garbage

A blog for my friends who I don't keep in contact with very well if they are not ten feet from me, probably because I am human and therefor a bit garbage. My name is Emma (faaake) and I am a misanthrope (real).

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I've lost complete faith in humanity.

Look. I’m not trying to be rude, but I am gonna be real.

You saying you’ve lost faith in “humanity” isn’t worth shit. It doesn’t challenge anything, it doesn’t mean anything. Statements like this evaporate the very nature of oppression and dissolve who is oppressor/beneficiary and who is oppressed. The continuous occurrence of black people being killed by white police isn’t some ubiquitous urgency for which all of “humanity” is at fault. White supremacy, white privilege, a virulently anti black economical/social/political system is at fault and all those who validate it, at any time, are at fault.

And honestly, who the fuck are you to declare that you’ve lost faith in humanity? There are many amazing people from Toni Morrison to Cornel West to Angela Davis to Harry Belafonte who have seen the absolute worst American domestic (and foreign, if we’re being real) terrorism has had to offer and they live with hope in their hearts and revolution on their minds everyday. You don’t get to dismiss the amazing work of my elders and the youth of my community because you lost faith. And you don’t get to come into my inbox and bombarde me with your reactionary garbage when you can’t even locate systems at fault and would prefer to lazily dredge up vague concepts like “humanity”. If we don’t have hope, we have nothing. No praxis. Angela Davis has spoken on this topic many times before. About how those who discuss the world as a perpetually stagnant place and throw their hands in defeat are counteractive to any revolutionary thought.

One of her most relevant quotes. “You have to act as if it were possible to radically transform the world. And you have to do it all the time.”

Do I have “faith” in the system? Absolutely not. But I do have faith in the resilience of my people and all oppressed people by Empire, whether we’re talking Pakistan, Mexico, the Congo, Somalia, Palestine, Iraq and beyond. I have faith in the abundance in domestic and transnational solidarity, coalition building and activism that comes from tragedies and injustice. And yes, these are the positives amongst “humanity” which you collectively condemn.

Which leads into my final point, whether or nor you realize it, you mean white people. And your equivalence of white people with “humanity” is actually pretty fucking racist and legitimatizes the dehumanization of everyone who isn’t white, especially black people in this context, which ironically, is how we’re at the point of a black man can get killed on camera and a grand jury in majority decides his life isn’t even worth a trial.

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Them: I’ve lost complete faith in humanity.

You: You a RaCisT

Me: Humans are garbage.

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My Neice

Today she said, “my parents don’t like each other.” And I asked, “why do you think that?”

I mean, it’s true but a child shouldn’t have to know that at four.

She said, “Because they fight all the time.”

But maybe, you think, that’s just life and she might as well get used to it.

And I asked, “How does that make you feel?”

“It feels real bad.” And then I died a little.

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This is why baby boomers think we can pay for school while having a part time job

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im so mad

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SIGNS YOU ARE IN AN EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP

-you are always blamed

-your partner makes jokes at your expense

-your partner seems to have more than one personality

-your partner constantly accuses you

-your partner has seemed to isolate you from your friends/family

-you feel like you are constantly walking on eggshells around them

-you find yourself apologizing even when you know you aren’t in the wrong

-your partner refuses to acknowledge your acheivements

-your partner withholds basic relationship components to punish you (Ex: affection, sex, money)

-your partner gets inappropriately jealous at times

-your partner constantly moniters you (note: obsessive monitering)

Anyways, if you’re still unsure, feel free to message me or send in an ask

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This is abuse. And manipulation. Or maybe it’s not abuse to harass someone with 14 pages of texts because you are “poor excuse of a human.” Maybe you just are.

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Oooo Karen

Update to the text post: I emailed Karen’s sister to be like hey I’m concerned I think they need to mediate through a lawyer and now I’m being accused of having “threatened” her. Because I said lawyer. How dare I suggest that they could both benefit from mediation.

Also from Mark: “I think your relationship with Karen is over.”

It wasn’t before? You mean we still had a relationship when she refused to call me on my Birthday so my niece could sing to me? How ever will I go on?

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I hate girls who think it’s okay to hit their boyfriends and control who they talk to.

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Text series part 2

Because later when Mark dropped B off, my niece asked Mark to stay and watch a video with her and it upset Karen that he was in “her” house

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I call this series “an abusive cunt in text”

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Gaslighting

Karen often claims Mark is gaslighting her. She does this as her own way of gaslighting him. To the point where my brother has high blood pressure, grinds his teeth, feels on edge and often questions me half a dozen times about his behavior because he doubts his own memory and sanity.

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Oh Karen

Today Karen reasoned that she should be allowed to veto having my mom (my nieces grandma) on her school emergency contact list because she’s not comfortable with it because my mom has bad knees.

And that Mark should respect this because she respected his veto on her new boyfriend meeting my niece until Mark had met him first.

All of this hilarious for 2 reasons:

1 — she is equating my loving, gentle mother who would die for my niece and is her grandma by blood and bond to her boyfriend of 6 months

2 — my niece spilled the beans to us that she had actually already met mommy’s new boyfriend before daddy (Mark) met him so she lied and continues that lie to this day

Oh Karen

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Question Time

This question brought to you by myself because I’ve spent of a my formative years talking to myself. Can you tell?

Hey, me, what gives you the right to talk about how humans are mostly garbage? How do you know that you aren’t also garbage?

Very good ask, me, and also, what a bitchy one. What gives me the right is that I am sentient human being with opinions living in a digital age where I am able to create a blog to post said opinion whenever i damn well feel like because (currently) this is a non policed forum. Do you have an unsolicited opinion you want to throw out onto the internet that I maybe won’t like? Guess what, you can throw it out into the inter webs like so much vomit.

As for the second part, me, the answer is I do know that I’m garbage (mostly). I wouldn’t say completely because I use turn signals and treat retail employees with basic human dignity. But also, being garbage doesn’t mean you can’t tell when other people are garbage. We live in a world right now where we treat it like you can only point out someone’s horribleness if you yourself are pure and blameless. Like if a cat in a group of other cats said, “Hey, there’s a lot of cats here,” would you jump on that cat and be like “How do you know if you yourself are ALSO A CAT??” No, you would say “Omg, a talking cat, can I rub your belly please?”

Look, I went to Catholic school and grew up with the whole “he who is blameless cast the first stone” story but that doesn’t mean Jesus was saying, “hey don’t call people out on their bullshit unless you have never in your life done something bad.” He was more saying like “hey, maybe chill and don’t murder people for just any little thing, like srsly dude, have a basic amount of empathy, like I honestly don’t understand why this is so hard for everyone.”

TL;DR in conclusion, I am prolly a bit garbage but I try to be better and don’t use it as excuse to just treat everyone like garbage. I acknowledge people are mostly garbage so I’m not disappointed on the reg but I honestly always hope that people can be better. Including me.

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Storytime

So let’s call this emotional abuser Karen. I don’t know why, I just sometimes for a joke always use Karen as the name of some annoying person I’m having an imaginary fight with to amuse my friends.

So, first of all, there were red flags when she started dating my sibling. Let’s call him Mark. But Mark had just come out of a sort-of relationship with a girl who he was madly in love with. In that weird relationship, there were mistakes and dumbassery on both sides. Mark persisted when he shouldn’t have (not in a aggressive, stalker way, just like a sad clingy puppy dog way) but this previous girl also for whatever reason strung him along when she felt like it -- pushing him away one minute and the next making out with him and calling him her “soul-mate.” So when he met Karen, I was happy that he finally had someone who could take his mind off of previous girl. To this day though and probably to my death, I will debate who was worse. The only thing keeping me from declaring Karen the winner of who sucked more is my niece. 

Karen of course was darling when I met her. Funny, charming and took an immediate interest in me which as a social-anxiety fueled person with low self-image and recently diagnosed depression, was lovely. But early on in their relationship, the two of them took me to a movie so I could hang out with Karen and get to know her better. When we were leaving the parking structure, Karen realized she needed to pull over to use a kiosk to pay the parking ticket to expedite our exit. So Karen pulled into a handicap space because it was closest to the machine. Karen, you should know, is entirely able bodied and not in possession of a handicap placard. 

Now, I’m not here to debate the morals of parking for 60 seconds in a handicap spot in an uncrowded parking lot. This story is not about that so I won’t get into it. What’s relevant to this story is that I started having an anxiety attack because I was worried about a number of things -- a handicap person coming along and yelling at Mark and me (who were left in the car; Karen was driving) or a security guard or (god-forbid) a cop coming to yell at us and give her a ticket. All of which would have caused me to ugly cry and embarrass myself and completely fall apart. Mark was aware of my recent diagnosis and had been very sympathetic about it while I was still struggling to understand it myself. So, he just quickly hopped out of the passenger seat, got into the driver’s seat and moved the car over one space to a non-handicap spot (like I said, the lot was uncrowded so its not like there weren’t a million other spots). It made me so much more relieved when he did so and I was able to calm down.

When Karen returned to the car, immediately there was a fight. Karen reasoned that Mark had disrespected her by moving her car over one space. Mark said he didn’t mean to, he just didn’t want her to get a ticket. She argued back that if she had gotten a ticket, that would’ve been fine because it was her choice to risk it. That he showed a lack of respect for her and her intelligence by moving the car without her permission. Of course, he tried arguing back that that wasn’t the reason at all and he wasn’t sure why it was such a big deal, Mind you, they are having this extremely uncomfortable fight while I’m in the back seat recovering from nearly having a panic attack. Despite triggering more anxiety, I piped up to mention that he had moved the car for me because I was nervous.

Karen seemed to somewhat accept that and move on. She in no way apologized for her outburst though and continued her silent, angry driving which ultimately compelled Mark to repeatedly say sorry, over and over again, for having “disrespected her.”

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For those who know me, you know who this is probably about. For random people who stumble upon this, let me say that this person is not my significant other but in fact that ex female significant other of my sibling. Because I am a feminist and feminism is recognizing that people can be evil regardless of gender. General intelligence is knowing this fact.

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Update

Haven’t written here in a while but an increase in the realization of the base nature of humans is again tickling my disgust and therefore interest. I shall begin a series of posts about an garbage human currently in my life that I am unable to purge without losing the most precious human to me.

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It’s the oldest trick in the tyrannical dictator’s handbook: Someone stupid enough to disagree with the way things are run winds up dead under “mysterious circumstances.” This kind of thing happens so often in Putin’s Russia that I wouldn’t be surprised if parents tell their kids folktales of The Poots, the bare-chested snow beast so insecure in his masculinity that he’ll snatch you away if you don’t say nice things about him.

Dozens of Putin’s critics have been killed over the years. One such instance happened only a couple weeks before this column was published. It was an ex-KGB agent who was linked to the intelligence dossier which claimed that Trump was being blackmailed with a video of himself enjoying a golden shower performed by two Russian prostitutes. Only hours before I turned in this column, news broke that Kremlin critic Vladimir Kara-Murza experienced sudden organ failure after he ingested poison. That’s the second time this has happened. Putin cares so little about everyone knowing he’s a murderer that his poisonings should come with a seal of approval from the Kremlin guaranteeing authenticity.

Over 350 Russian journalists have been killed since the end of the USSR. Thirty-four since 2000, and all of those are suspected to have been ordered by military or government officials.

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