The East Wind is here.

Come find me Sherlock.

[humourless-holmes]

Hello.

My name is Eurus Holmes. The most intelligent of the Holmes children.

I’d like to note, due to circumstances out of my control, my memory can be unpredictable and unreliable. I apologise, wait. No I don’t. Before you ask, I’ve been allowed brief access to tumblr as my reward for this year. I’m still imprisoned. I’m free. I’m still alone. Please feel free to interact, I am bored. So, so bored. I’d enjoy company for once. Just don’t get attached? It won’t end well on your part. Feel free to ask anything, here are some suggestions.

• Rules •

Nothing explicit. (gore/violence is fine, encouraged even, sex/flirting out of the question, I have standards.)

Tell me if I overstep a boundary, people are hard to read online.

This is purely for rp!

Credit to @bonniebirddoesgifs for most of my gifs

[humourless-holmes]

Just in case you thought of having a repeat of last year, don't.

I need at least one normal Halloween...

-L.M.

Oh? Mycroft already considered that eventuality. He thought that the removal of all access to the internet would be suitable. Why do you think I have been absent for so long? I do not mind, however, I have been using the time to reflect.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Do you still play the violin for your sister in Sherrinford?

No. And I doubt I ever will again. Not after she threatened John and orchestrated an assassination— which, fortunately, failed thanks to John's remarkable survival instincts.

SH

@humourless-holmes

[humourless-holmes]

Oh Sherlock. Our duets were so perfect. Why wouldn’t you want to recreate perfection? You are so silly.

[humourless-holmes]

Can you help me escape my misery and solve this mind case?

A mind case? How intriguing. Although, as clever as I am, I will need a little more information. I am so sorry about the late reply, my doctors have been meddling with my medications significantly, and have affected my memory. Oh wait, that was a lie, I’m not sorry at all.

[humourless-holmes]

why do you like Sherlock more than Mycroft?

I mean, Mycroft is easier to fool and he seems to be funnier to annoy since he will load all his toys (CCTVs, for instance) just to find you.

Mycroft is easier to fool, although Sherlock is more fun. Mycroft likes silence, Sherlock likes an explanation. Do you see now, or do I need to explain again?

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

[humourless-holmes]

Do you have something to say, Sherlock? It’s right to tell people your feelings, have you forgotten?

[humourless-holmes]

why do you like Sherlock more than Mycroft?

I mean, Mycroft is easier to fool and he seems to be funnier to annoy since he will load all his toys (CCTVs, for instance) just to find you.

Mycroft is easier to fool, although Sherlock is more fun. Mycroft likes silence, Sherlock likes an explanation. Do you see now, or do I need to explain again?

[humourless-holmes]

My name is Emmeline Eurus Holmes

WTF my parents didn't even know about you

So basically you are my role model

Just saying.

Oh? How.. intriguing. I’m presuming that your first name is after the suffragette, Emmeline Pankhurst? Two women labelled as unfit for society. How telling.

[humourless-holmes]

I apologise for my recent absence, my brothers thought it best that I be put back into captivity. I flew too high last time. I must be tethered to earth for a while. This is, however, inconceivably boring, and I will find a new source of entertainment. You can’t stop me. You won’t stop me. @artofdeductionbysholmes @atamh

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Having fun, Eurus?

[humourless-holmes]

How incompetent have you become brother? I would have thought you could read between the lines of my post, surely you- oh. I appear to have misread your comment. I am not having “fun” brother. I am trapped.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Oh, so now I'm supposed to swoop in heroically and save you? Forgive me if I question whether this is a rescue mission or an elaborate setup.

[humourless-holmes]

I ask again, has incompetency overcome you? I am not asking for your heroism, however, I am requesting a source of entertainment. It is in your hands whether you fulfil this, but know I will be entertained. It is your choice how that may be.

[humourless-holmes]

I apologise for my recent absence, my brothers thought it best that I be put back into captivity. I flew too high last time. I must be tethered to earth for a while. This is, however, inconceivably boring, and I will find a new source of entertainment. You can’t stop me. You won’t stop me. @artofdeductionbysholmes @atamh

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Having fun, Eurus?

[humourless-holmes]

How incompetent have you become brother? I would have thought you could read between the lines of my post, surely you- oh. I appear to have misread your comment. I am not having “fun” brother. I am trapped.

[humourless-holmes]

I apologise for my recent absence, my brothers thought it best that I be put back into captivity. I flew too high last time. I must be tethered to earth for a while. This is, however, inconceivably boring, and I will find a new source of entertainment. You can’t stop me. You won’t stop me. @artofdeductionbysholmes @atamh

[humourless-holmes]

Hello Eurus. I know it can be awful boring when you don't have much to do so I was wondering if you would be interested in trying origami. It gives me something that both my mind and hands can focus on and I find it quite calming. It may not be for everyone but I would definitely recommend it. I made a dragon for you as I thought you might like it.

I appreciate the sentiment. In my current state however, I am not trusted with anything that isn’t necessary to my immediate survival. I’m not even allowed to type this myself, too much risk.

[humourless-holmes]

Help me solve a mystery… would you allow it

Of course. Anything to keep my intellect from rotting from boredom. I assume @artofdeductionbysholmes was no help, as always?

[humourless-holmes]

Have you heard? Your brother is engaged to be married.

I’m aware. I predicted the matter. I’m waiting for my invitation. @artofdeductionbysholmes @johnhwatsonblog ?

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Eurus, no plans have been made yet—no date, no location—so there's nothing to be invited to at this point.

And given the nature of the event—intended to be memorable for the right reasons—I think it's best if you attend in spirit rather than in person. Not out of malice, but I suspect your presence would introduce complexities neither John nor I find necessary on such an occasion. I trust you'll understand.

[humourless-holmes]

I wasn’t asking for your permission. I am attending. You’d better decide whether it’ll be on your terms or not. Tick tock, brother.

[humourless-holmes]

So how do you feel about the fact that your brothers commited crimes/are responsible for against humanity numerous times and still get to be free while you're not? Do you even want to be free? Do you enjoy stuff?

In a scale of normal and understimulating lives is there anything within you that would fit?

Something to make a living, the ability to do daily chores to sustain your own existence, processing the sensory information you get from your senses and how they are categorized ¿How do they work?

Do you want to live? Do you know what living is? What will you do with the rest of your life?

These questions and their intentions intrigue me, are they a test? I am aware of the hypocrisy, it eats away at me everyday. However, we developed differently, he isn’t as dangerous smart as I am, so he is perceived as less of a threat. Human error. I do, in fact, want to be free, but freedom is a lie. Everyone is prisoner to their own consciousness, everyone except me. In answer to your next question, I imagine myself above everyone else, able to see “normality” but unable to participate. I will never be able to live a life deemed “normal”, as I am too different. Too clever.

[humourless-holmes]

Have you heard? Your brother is engaged to be married.

I’m aware. I predicted the matter. I’m waiting for my invitation. @artofdeductionbysholmes @johnhwatsonblog ?

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Just because your sister disguised herself as a therapist doesn't mean they're all useless. It might even help you process and express your emotions and trauma. I imagine facing murderers as often as you do does something to your brain. Scientifically. -L.M.

The classic rebuttal: 'Not all therapists.' How very original.

Yes, repeated exposure to violence has neurological effects. So does sleep deprivation, caffeine dependency, and listening to idiots talk. The brain adapts. That's what it's for. If I started dissolving into fits of emotion every time I encountered a murderer, I'd be dead—or worse, ordinary.

I process my experiences perfectly well. I file them, I learn from them, and I move on. If anything, it is the lack of emotional interference that allows me to function effectively. You may see that as repression. I see it as efficiency.

If talking about your feelings helps you sleep at night, by all means, indulge. But don't assume I require the same maintenance. Some of us function just fine without dragging a stranger into our heads and paying them for the privilege.

[detective-luca-montoya]

I don't pay my therapist, actually. It's more of a, "you give me therapy, my dad doesn't send you to prison for [REDACTED]".

Sure, the brain adapts. What do you think PTSD is? Doesn't mean it's a positive adaptation. Besides, are you really saying you wouldn't have an emotional reaction if something happened to Dr. Watson- or anyone you care about? Not to dredge up the past, but maybe you wouldn't have had such a severe reaction during the Baskerville case if you bothered to acknowledge your feelings once in awhile...

[detective-luca-montoya]

Also, what you are doing is not repression, it is denial. You're clearly conscious of your horrible choice of coping mechanisms. -K.O.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Ah, now we've downgraded from 'repression' to 'denial.' Do let me know when we complete the full diagnostic checklist.

Denial implies an absence of awareness. A refusal to accept reality. And yet, here I am, fully conscious of how I process events, fully capable of describing my coping mechanisms to you in detail. You see the contradiction?

Let me simplify (because it's obviously needed): I do not deny the existence of emotions. I do not repress them. I do not shove them into a dark corner of my Mind Palace and pretend they aren't there. I simply do not prioritise them over function. My 'horrible' coping mechanisms allow me to do my job. They allow me to think when others panic, to act when others hesitate. The alternative is what? Rendering myself ineffective because someone, somewhere, decided that suffering is only valid if you process it in a socially acceptable manner?

No. I cope in the way that works. For me. And I don't need a therapist—or you—to approve of it.

[detective-luca-montoya]

Yes, you may be aware of how you process traumatic events, but what you seem to be woefully unaware of is that said coping mechanism may be efficient, but it is not permanent. It is impossible to fully divest oneself from one's emotions, no matter how intelligent one may be. You're merely delaying the inevitable- the inevitable being a breakdown, obviously.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

A nervous breakdown is inevitable? For you, perhaps, given your tendency to follow predictable patterns. But my mind operates differently. You mustn't group me with ordinary people like yourself; my thought process is unique, and it doesn't follow the same rules.

[detective-luca-montoya]

We are related. I am grouping you with our family- hardly ordinary, as you well know. Don't tell me you have forgotten what happened to Eurus. Her thought process is unique indeed- and her intelligence surpasses all of ours, yet she is currently locked in a high-security mental institution. Unless you're suggesting your mind somehow works differently than even your own siblings'?

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Yes, that is exactly what I'm suggesting. While our cognitive abilities may be exceptional in their own ways, I am neither Mycroft nor Eurus. Each of us is distinct—Mycroft's distinction being his unparalleled ability to irritate, while Eurus' mind thrives on chaos.

@atamh @humourless-holmes

[humourless-holmes]

And yours doesn’t, dear brother? Tell me then, why do you insist on your silly little games? We are more similar than you think, Sherlock. You just don’t see it.

Oh, and I might add, I’m no longer locked up, remember?

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Her name is Detective Inspector Rhidian Carew. She’s Welsh. But she moved to London when she became a police officer, there’s better jobs. You might know her from a while back, in the ‘Nemo’ case. I won’t tire you with details, although I don’t think the woman who was charged deserved it. I don’t think she is guilty. She was just.. alone. Anyway, I’m getting distracted, please find her br-Sherlock. Sherlock. Find her, please. She’s lost.

-Elizabeth.

Nice try, Eurus, but not nearly as clever as you imagine. I saw through you immediately.

How was your Christmas? Did you spend it with 'Nemo'?

@humourless-holmes

[humourless-holmes]

You haven’t solved the mystery, where is the detective inspector? Come on Sherlock. Where is she?

Answer that and then we’ll talk.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

With the little clues you gave me: Beddington.

What makes you think that I'm in the mood for conversation?

[humourless-holmes]

Why don’t you go find her? I’m sure she’d tell you.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

Tell me what?

[humourless-holmes]

Why I want to talk to you. Though, I’m not certain she can talk anymore, she’s in rather a bad spot. I’d suggest you pack wellington boots, too. Wouldn’t want my dear brother getting cold feet.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

I assume the dead DI they recovered from the River Wandle is our missing woman?

Eurus, threatening lives—and even carrying out those threats—doesn't inspire me to talk to you. Quite the opposite, actually. I may have 'got off' on it in the past, but things have changed. I have changed. Those games have cost me far too much.

[humourless-holmes]

She was corrupted. Corruption is like a malignant tumour, it’ll spread and wreak havoc within the system it inhabits. I removed that tumour. Oh, and this is not a game, brother.

[artofdeductionbysholmes]

So, a surgeon now, are you? Attempting to replace John again? Admirable effort, but you will fail.

[humourless-holmes]

This goes so much deeper than you will ever comprehend. She is one of many cases I have been fixing. I don’t understand how you don’t see it. You must be deteriorating with age, @atamh has been already.