[hungrystonerbug]

Welcome to my blog!

Hi! My name is Zen and here is where i either journal about my day or post my possibly controversial hot takes. Keep in mind I am 23 years old, so please refrain from interacting with me if you're a minor. he/they lesbian

      

[dailyeuphoria]

EUPHORIA 

1.03 || 2.05

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Euphoria 1.03 — Made You Look

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Euphoria 2.05 — Stand Still Like the Hummingbird

[bloodsoakedgirl]

My secret is...death

Leonor aka Dosia published a post on Ko-fi

Read the 1st poem I wrote in 5 months!

PLS SHARE + SUPPORT if you like/can.

I am mentally disabled I have money for food and basic necessities but I need money for art supplies so I can finally rely on my own (not my parents they aren't exactly Loaded either) and hopefully make some money from my art.

MUCH LOVE Xx

[justalittlelogophile]

Witness

I just want someone to witness me

You don’t have to agree

I don’t want your sympathy

Just acknowledge

That it happened

That it left a mark

That It was hard

For me

Please see how I am changed

Because of this

And promise to love me still?

Promise to stay?

~Po

[mechobj]

rahhhh

[mechobj]

Uncropped

[hungrystonerbug]

Bruh i dont think i’d even wish losing health insurance to my worse enemy. wheres luigi when you need him

[dollywons]

(+ added polysexual!)

free to use! credit would be appreciated of course! :)

check the oven ꩜ .ᐟ there’s more dividers + resources! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ ♡︎

[dollywons]

happy pride month!! 🏳️‍🌈 :D

[hungrystonerbug]

I love theseeee

[cass-c-c]

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[hungrystonerbug]

Idk if im that woke .. like i think pedophiles should be killed but i also dont care if you shop at shein. saw someone vent in a server about their roommate buying from shein meanwhile everyone stopped talking about the Epstein files for some reason. Children were assaulted and killed but you’d rather gaf about someone else shopping at a shady clothing store ?

[hungrystonerbug]

And not to sound pessimistic but at this point there’s just no use in shouting about the environment because its already fucked beyond repair and theres unfortunately always going to be the group of people who fuck it up even more. sad truth. so why not focus on the things we still CAN fix? Like the justice system?

Also Instead of screaming “fuck you and fuck AI” every time someone asks WHY we shouldn’t use AI, you could thoroughly explain. There are barely any posts telling you the cons of AI, they just tell you not to use it. A good example would be if you quoted the article where a neighborhood of 70 residents were removed from their homes overnight and without warning because a company needed more room for AI data centers.

And no, I dont support AI art specifically because I myself am an artist who struggles getting commissions sometimes.

[hungrystonerbug]

Idk if im that woke .. like i think pedophiles should be killed but i also dont care if you shop at shein. saw someone vent in a server about their roommate buying from shein meanwhile everyone stopped talking about the Epstein files for some reason. Children were assaulted and killed but you’d rather gaf about someone else shopping at a shady clothing store ?

[hungrystonerbug]

I think people pressuring me to recover on their own time is what took me so long to get better

[xxxariah]

People are so weird .. I woke up banned from a server by association to someone else 😕

[xxxariah]

Funny thing is this person marked the server sfw while actively sending nsfw and allowing people to sext in the general chat but somehow the least freaky people there are the issue. You got bitches talking about their piss kinks, sending nudes amongst other things but a porn gif is where they drew the line ?

But since im banned now, i cant finally say that I thought half of yall were overly sensitive as fuck anyways.

[gettinlostinthesauce]

Funny how you avoid saying that it was explicit furry porn meanwhile nudes are not allowed and that includes drawn dog people

If nudes were being posted outside of the nsfw channel the server owner should have been made aware so that they can deal with the person posting them

I have not seen sexting in chat though there is sometimes flirting which is allowed

From the sounds of things it was not just the furry porn so if you are upset about being removed because of your partner perhaps they did or said more then they are telling you

Nowhere have I seen does this server claim to be sfw though it does however require you to be 18+ and does have an nsfw channel which is labelled as such

If you are gunna be sensitive over this matter you should at least be honest about it

[xxxariah]

sorry to say it babe, but you wasted your time hopping on a burner just to type this out because i’m not wasting my time reading all that💔🥀

[hungrystonerbug]

The lying is crazy because when I joined I saw in the rules that this was a sfw server. Next thing i know im bombarded with people sending thirst trap photos including the owner whom originally stated that it was sfw. Its no ones job to do the moderators job for them.

I left earlier on. These two werent the only ones sending porn—and if the owner was triggered by furries specifically then she shouldve been a big girl and said that.

[hungrystonerbug]

Is being borderline just feeling Perpetual Guilt and Discontentment all the time?

Am I borderline, mentally ill at all or am I just in a shitty situation?

I don’t think I am half the time because I’ve come to find out that doctors will diagnose women — especially women of color with several personality and mood disorders just to avoid giving them the autism diagnosis. Why? Racial and gender bias. A lot of autism studies were primarily done on white males and they refuse to update their research. Therefore a lot of doctors tend to think that its not possible for a woman of color — or a woman at all to have autism.

Every other borderline that I’ve met has also had some degree of childhood trauma, so lets call it was it is. A trauma disorder. And when you look at it from that perspective, a lot of BPD symptoms look synonymous with C-PTSD traits. And why are women more likely to be diagnosed with BPD rather than just PTSD ? Because they don’t even ask us. Before they even knew any of my history the psych ward psychiatrist wanted to diagnose me with BPD but he said that it would be “too stigmatizing” of a label, so he didn’t put it on paper. I thought he was just being an ass but over a year later I realized he was right. Was he just protecting me from future medical discrimination?

Women with BPD are more likely to be ignored by doctors in the future who refuse to treat those of us with that label because we’re too hysteric.

So do I am I borderline and bipolar type 1 with ADHD with a past history of an ED or do I have autism..? Or do I just have C-PTSD??? or both? I think about it a lot these days. We’ll never know the real answer. Do these labels even mean anything anymore? They really don’t when you don’t have health insurance because you know that either way you can’t get help.

[hungrystonerbug]

Thinking back to the time I was in a dunkin donuts and a woman came up to me, gasped and gave me a hug. she looked like she wanted to cry and like she needed the hug so I hugged her back because I assumed that maybe she thought I was someone that she lost(?)

She pulled back, looked me dead in the face and said “You’re teeth are teeth.”

And she left. Idk what this means im just a door dasher

[hungrystonerbug]

I posted on facebook that its possible to clean and completely purify dirty water & people told me I was trying to spread AI propaganda meanwhile I was just sharing a fun fact I learned in middle school science class 💔🥀

But genuinely, I think everyone should learn how to manually clean water and ALSO invest in water filters because people aren’t going to stop doing what they want so we might as well prepare for the future

[hungrystonerbug]

I wanna get back into poetry & consistently making art and every other creative hobby i once indulged in but I Lowkirkgenuinely lost my spark when they took me off adderall (it made my tachycardia worse tho)

[fairycosmos]

girl dinner. fattest fucking plate of pasta you've ever seen in your life

[hungrystonerbug]

I fucking love pasta