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For this moment Hunter had decided to tame his unruly hair by slicking it back and putting on clothes that were just casual enough that it didn't look like he was trying to hard and formal enough that Zoe could tell he was serious about what he was about to do. He missed her. He missed the smile that rarely peaked out. He missed her comments that were often laced with sarcasm. He missed their fights even because it meant that she cared enough to get mad at him. It was sad that he equated fights with caring, but he did. He missed her entire being and he just wanted to have her back in his life. He didn't know if this would work, but he had to try. The truth was it was too late, he actually cared. He cared and he loved her. There was no point in trying to not get too close because she had already wiggled in there when he hadn't been paying attention.Â
Hunter adjusted his strap on his guitar and walked up to Zoe's door. Snow swirled all around him but he ignored the white flakes and focused on the unassuming door. The door symbolized how different there lives were and how this probably wouldn't work. Some day she would leave him and there was nothing to be done about it. However even a fraction of a moment with her was enough and with that thought in his head he knocked on the door.Â
Hunter had been practicing this song for about a week now and it was far from perfect, but he couldn't help but think that he had done a pretty good job. Good enough that Zoe would appreciate it at any rate. As soon as she opened the door, he started to play the opening chords, his voice breaking slightly with nerves but still he trudged ahead. The song was You Drive Me Wild and he had picked it because it worked so well with the two of them and because it could express things that he couldn't. It had also helped that it was by Zoe's favorite singer though.Â
He looked up at her with an earnest expression when he was done. The snow was pushing passed his layers and chilling his skin, but he didn't mind. "Zoe I know that I'm not a good person and I know I do a lot of stupid shit, but I love you. I want to be with you Zoe. I want you to realize that you have always been more than enough for me and that I wouldn't do this for anyone else in the world. I had to do something though because I can't lose you Zoe. I thought I was doing a favor by not being with you, but I can't be without you anymore."Â
