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[hymnxl]

i just wish my brain could switch off for a full day. i’m so tired of having this consistent anxiety

[hymnxl]

i know my journal app hates to see me coming lol. but rereading my journal entries, oh boy… i’ve gone through so much this year. i really wish i could redo everything. i’ve got stuff in that app that no one will ever know about. people who are no longer in my life that i wish were. experiences that i wish i never had. but i hope life will keep getting better this half of the year

[hymnxl]

how do i stop those voices in my head from getting too loud and sabotaging good things that happen to me? this happens every time, like my brain believes i don’t deserve happiness. idk maybe it’s just this year being truly the shittiest year of my life and i’m just expecting it to get worse when im actively seeing it get better

[hymnxl]

this weekend has felt so lonely

[hymnxl]

really enjoying having someone in my life that really is one of those “if they wanted to, they would” type of people. feeling really grateful right now

[hymnxl]

trying to constantly remind myself that i deserve this. that i deserve this good thing happening. this whole year has been hell for me and having something finally going in my favor. i’m just worried maybe it’ll be too good to be true. that i’ll somehow ruin it like i always do.

[hymnxl]

not really one for positive affirmations but i may need to start saying them everyday. after so many bad things this year happening to me, there’s something good happening and i gotta remind myself that i deserve this. i deserve good things to happen to me and good people to enter my life

[hymnxl]

idk maybe those positive affirmation girlies are right. feeling really good right now.

[hymnxl]

having a lot of ups and downs lately. trying to get myself to feel more secure in the decisions i’m making. i’m hoping these decisions are the right ones.

[hymnxl]

not really one for positive affirmations but i may need to start saying them everyday. after so many bad things this year happening to me, there’s something good happening and i gotta remind myself that i deserve this. i deserve good things to happen to me and good people to enter my life

[glamuor-gor32]

saintavangeline

[nemfrog]

Bunnies. The Companion Book for Day In and Day Out. 1936.

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[zendeyas]

Zendaya wearing MATIERES – New York premiere of The Odyssey

[hymnxl]

i hope one day i learn to feel like i deserve to be loved. that i deserve someone in my life who sees me for all my imperfections and says “yeah that’s my person”. that i deserve someone who finally doesn’t think i’m too much.

i’m a long ways from feeling like that though. who knows… maybe i’ll never learn and feel that way. i’m so close to giving up

[aghosts-eulogy]

"but there is something that happens when you are told you are too much. you begin to ask everyone, "how small would you like me?""

[hymnxl]

first day i’ve smiled in a while. i hope to start feeling like myself again soon

[hymnxl]

i really don’t know what it is about me that’s so unlikable. what is it about me that doesn’t make people wanna stay? i’m just a dark looming cloud over every single person i meet. i don’t think i can even see anyone ever saying about me “that’s my best friend” or “that’s my partner” even though it’s all i’ve ever wanted. something like that is always close and then it’s yanked away from me.

maybe i am unlovable

[hymnxl]

i really wish 2026 never happened to me. 2025 wasn’t much better but 2026 has absolutely been one of the worst years of my life. i’m a bad luck charm to myself and everyone who has ever met me