beepolar

🌟tw💫a bipolar 18 year old

[mjalti]

anytime someone checks in w/ me to make sure I’m ok, half of me is really grateful and the other half is berating myself for being so dramatic that a separate physical entity had to stop the process of their life just to make sure my bricks were still up in a wall

[666lando666]

Me…

[juspect-deactivated20231206]

so nice when u can be quiet with someone without it being awkward

[hypohmania]

bipolar is not sudden anger

i am not dangerous

bipolar is not being volatile

i am not crazy

bipolar is the ebb and flow of everything

it is the sound and the silence

the water and the stone

the something and the nothing

bipolar does not exist as a fault

it is not an illness or something to be fixed

but it is not a gift either

bipolar is a trait, its in your dna

passed down from parent to child

it is a family secret, a family shame

no one likes to talk about it

but it is there

first there are the good things

a goal, a drive, a hunger

sleep is not necessary

food is not necessary

(i am not necessary)

there is the beginning

the depression is starting

the hurting, the numbness

the sadness, the nothing

sometimes it all happens at once

the sadness and nothingness and numbness and hunger

remember what used to make you feel good?

do it, do it more, you dont feel anything yet, you have to do it more

this used to make you feel good

you you you

you are unnecessary

you are not needed

you do not serve a purpose

and you are motivated

— 3 states of being

[hypohmania]

i am caught between waves of the crushing weightlessness of profound depression

1/24 - 2:20pm (via hypohmania)

[jptalapian]

[declinate]

[kisinacanpapatya]

[soundofthewaves]

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[referencewerk]

Iris van Herpen Spring 2018 Couture

[nitrogen]

By Purpom

[nitrogen]

By Zara Louise Davis

[boils]

Photograph by Kenneth Solfjeld via Flickr.

[grainbake]

a house, 1:46pm

instagram: cheersbeerz

[declinate]

[understands]

[nitrogen]

By Kayla Aihara

[melisica]

(by 腦羞巴尼)