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Introduction
"The word Father rotted in my mouth."
"They robbed me of any childhood I could've had"
"I was thrust upon this world, now a symbol of the hate on both sides, but I am not a symbol. I am a living being, I am Konner because I choose to be."
"Even if it will be the last thing I do, I will never submit to them. I will never be a murder like them. I won't let their mistakes beseech that I undo them."
"They'll have to drag me to hell first"
Updated as of March 31st 2026 11:31
// I've made a final decision, I'm going to leave.
// No arguing or convincing or guilting will work on me, I'm sorry to those I was role-playing with that I never finished the ongoing rp with you but I hope you can understand it would've been harder to leave had I answered.
// I love the dc rp community. I have not seen every side if it due to the comfort of being in my own bubble. However, I believe no change can happen as to the "drama" aspect.
// After all we're all a little to stuck on our oen comfort. Whether we find out about things about people and refuse to believe it because the idea that someone could lie is devastating or we hear a rumor and think its true immediately and start an attack as a defense mechanism.
// There can be no change without discomfort.
// But we all came here for some comfort. Therefore none of us will step into discomfort for something that shouldn't have ever been a problem. Those that have are ultimately ignored.
// There is a balance and there is a truth. Coexist. Ignore. Block. All I ask is that you embrace truth. Whatever that might look like for you.
// Lies and hatred are not the way to go.
// My last words as Bruce:
"I lived, I loved, I helped in ways I could. It's selfish to have asked for more, but human nature is innately selfish. All I ever hoped to be was a little less human and maybe I contradicted myself throughout the years. But the truth of it is- I loved every second of my humanity."
// I dont know if I should deleted this blog, I think I should.
𝐴ℎ. 𝐿𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙'𝑠 𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑛.
𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟.
@lord-of-assassins
A bitch.
The only person who is unwanted is him, he'd kill to recruit me.
Also, I can tell when you don't say my name correctly but if we're being honest I'd rather you didnt say my name at all. Better yet, dont speak to me.
𝐼𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟?
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡. 𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐿𝑢𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑟'𝑠 𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦? 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔.
No- see I can tell when you same my name with a 'C' its not with a 'C'
He's not the one that puts up with me. I put up with him. You've never made a choice in your life. All you've ever been is mommy and daddy's pawn, hell, all you've been is a pawn to everyone else who is even slightly stronger than you. You bitch to those who you follow the orders of like a loyal dog.
𝐴ℎ. 𝑀𝑦 𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑒𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑏𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑖𝑙𝑒.
𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑙𝑜𝑦𝑎𝑙 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑦. 𝑇ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ, 𝐼 𝑠𝑢𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡. 𝐷𝑜𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑡 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔? 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑐𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑒𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑜 𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑠𝑜 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑒 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑜 𝑎 𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢?
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎 𝑚𝑖𝑥 𝑜𝑓 𝐿𝑢𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙, 𝑤ℎ𝑜'𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛'𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑠𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ? 𝐷𝑖𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚?
I dont run. I ran once. Those cities are also the same ones that protect me. They keep me safe when I can't. That's one thing Lord Kunt never did. He never protected me. That isn't someone who I would pledge my undying loyalty to.
If I was the worst of both of them then why in the world why I go out of my way to save people? Oh, why dont you go ahead and tell how I sound I like them, quite frankly I dont buy it.
Say on anon (or don't I ain't ur mom ) what your muse thinks of mine appearance-wise!
Does your muse think mine is pretty or ugly as shit, let my muse know! Does your muse have a favorite feature or a not favorite feature of my muse's, let them know that too! Also please keep in mind this is all in good fun, please no actual body shaming, hurtful or racist rhetoricect, ect.
// I need a nap. I'm taking a nap. Then I'm answering my threads.
Why I haven't answered back in a RP:
1. I am NOT ignoring you. 2. I am trying to think if a reply. 3. I’m not up to it at that moment. 4. Tumblr ate it.
5. I AM A ALMIGHTY PROCRASTINATOR SENT FROM THE PITS OF MOLASSES
6. my mUSE IS BEING A LITTLE SHIT
7. RL is being a little shit
𝐴ℎ. 𝐿𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙'𝑠 𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑛.
𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟.
@lord-of-assassins
A bitch.
The only person who is unwanted is him, he'd kill to recruit me.
Also, I can tell when you don't say my name correctly but if we're being honest I'd rather you didnt say my name at all. Better yet, dont speak to me.
𝐼𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟?
𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑛𝑜 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡. 𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑜𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑒𝑣𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝐿𝑢𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑟'𝑠 𝑏𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑙𝑦? 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔.
No- see I can tell when you same my name with a 'C' its not with a 'C'
He's not the one that puts up with me. I put up with him. You've never made a choice in your life. All you've ever been is mommy and daddy's pawn, hell, all you've been is a pawn to everyone else who is even slightly stronger than you. You bitch to those who you follow the orders of like a loyal dog.
𝐴ℎ. 𝐿𝑜𝑟𝑑 𝐾𝑎𝑙-𝐸𝑙'𝑠 𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑛.
𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟.
@lord-of-assassins
A bitch.
The only person who is unwanted is him, he'd kill to recruit me.
Also, I can tell when you don't say my name correctly but if we're being honest I'd rather you didnt say my name at all. Better yet, dont speak to me.
Hey Kon!
You might want to avoid the cities for a while!
We're under attack :D
And the systems in use to work against Supershits and his mini me will also work against you_︳
@hopping-bunny-radio
Oh, hey Billy- WHAT! WHAT HAPPENED!?
Urgh- just call me after its all done-
"Superboy?"
[An oddly lex sounding voice said. A bit robotic, as 'Lex' tilted head.. was it truly him?]
@artificial-inlexigence
Konner turned leveling the robot Lex a cold look
"This must be some sick joke. You must be mistaking me for someone else- my name is Konner, not superboy."
"Konner?" [The android blinked as he looked Konner in the eyes.. as he raised an eyebrow. He was debating something.]
"Better than 'superboy' these days, yes?" [Lex has the same snicker he had, even putting a hand over his mouth. He was like a spinning image of the living Lex an uncanny amount.]
"Come here let me see you. It's been a while.." [Lex hummed as he stepped to Kon, he was curious.. Very curious on how his 'son' was doing.]
Konner looked at the android weirdly as it spoke his name. He didnt like how it sounded when it came from his mouth.
It was repulsive how similar the android and the real Lex are- similar in almost every way except in body and mind, he supposes. Kons nose wrinkled at the similarities.
"No, step away from me."
Konner didnt move from his spot, if he moved well, what would that say? That he was scared of a bag of bolts? Pft- of course not.
[It stopped like it was an automatic thing.. him stepping back. That was strange. As it gently threw up his hands, showing peace.. it didn't mean harm.]
"I just wanted to see my.. well his son. It's been.. a while.. from what I can tell from the memories I have." [Lex shrugged out with a mechanical hum.. him looking over Konner.. There was small consurn on his face?.. As he hummed, before putting his hands in the pockets of his white suit..]
"Are you scared of me? Well.. Him?"
It was a little weird to see how easily the android gave up its approach.
"From the time he died up to this moment I suppose."
Kon studied the androids face. He looked him up and down.
"Not anymore, there was a time that I was. When I was younger, scared, powerless, and being worked like a dog to become the replacement for Superman."
Konner looked around, why was Lex- or well, the android of Lex- better yet why was there an android of Lex in the first place.
"Why are you here? Why do you even exist?"
[The android nodded.. as it processed, actually listened unlike Lex..]
"Well I can understand why, I'd also be scared of him if I were in your shoes. I can't apologize for his actions, only thing I can say.. he did it for the betterment he thought was possible... Which he had something right. You are better than superman.. But you're better, you're well you. Something he nor I could predict.."
[Lex smiled, him leaning back on his feet before standing straight again.
"Originally I was a contingency plan. Anxiety.. paranoia. Whatever you wish to call it.. made me to be the fill in when he died an unnatural death. Blah blah, he died, i'm here finishing things up-"
[The android actually didn't like talking about himself as he mimicked wrinkling its nose]
"Not important what I do...What are you doing, superbo- Konner... what are you doing here?"
Konner didnt expect Lex to listen to him... it was weird... he didnt like that the android was attempting to defend Lex, he knows why the man did what he did.
"I had to be me, create me, because what you gave me was the purpose of a machine."
Of course it was just some stupid contingency. Konner rolled his eyes.
"Investigating, found out that this was Lord Shitfaces base after a while. Just had to figure out the way to get in and come in when he was off planet."
Konner looked Lex up and down.
"Didn't expect to find you in here. Why does he keep you here?"
"HE did... Not me. I might look like and act like Lex Luthor.. And took his name.. doesn't mean I'm completely him.. Like you, im different than what he created.. but he only felt proud about one of us."
[It soon gestured to Kon vaguely as he just started to walk around Konner, still keeping his distance.. him giving a mechanical hum]
"Something, something 'the world doesn't need a second Luthor running loose`. Or whatever the alien said.. And to keep people like you from wandering in.. I guess being a security system works for me."
[The android laughed again, shrugging as it stopped once again infront of Kon.]
"Not like I really care if you stole anything.. Nothing of importance in here."
Konner didnt wonder who it was, it was clearly the android version of himself. How could it be him? It simply couldn't. Konner didnt bother following Lex's every move. It was a bag of bolts, nothing else.
Of course the world didnt need a second lex running around but the world also didn't need a tyrant running around. There was a couple things of importance, kryptonite- if there was still any left, the information that he could find about his kryptonian side and maybe something else he hadn't realized might be here.
"Do you know where anything is? Kryptonite maybe? Information? A computer? A hologram? Anything?"
[It tilted his head raising an eyebrow. As it had a questioning look on its face. Lex gave a hum.. as he blinked at Konner. Putting his hands in his pockets before turning on his heel, gesturing Kon to followed with his head. As he just started walking]
"Kryptonite? Ha- I wish I knew where any or that was. Alot of my human selfs stashed where destroyed or thrown into the sun. Hell I don't even think the Bat has any Kryptonite leff.. but the Bat is thr Bat afterall."
[Lex looked around as he walked.. like it was instinct for the android to look for Kal. Before Lex led them to the computer.. a really big one.. him humming as he typed in the password before stepping back.. keeping the gap between the two]
"Knock yourself out.. whatever you're looking for is probably on there.."
[Lex didn't care, he really didn't. He was neither rebel or on the lord's side. He just was..]
Konner mentally noted the next place he should visit the moment he heard that there most likely wasnt any kryptonite in the Fortress. Though, the thought of kryptonite went out the window as he saw the massive computer.
This was exactly what he needed- a direct link to all the information that the Fortress of Solitude could offer. It definitely surprised Konner how easily Lex had given this up. Maybe the man- andriod- was still trying to make up for past mistakes...
No, that didnt seem likely, no, not Lex. It might really just be a lack of caring-
"Just know.. My codes can only get basic things off the computer... And he rarely puts anything like plans and ideas in there to begin with... 'less safe'.. Or whatever he says. He puts them in afterwards."
[Lex snickered as he looked at the screen, as his own memory's clicked in.. then the surprise then fear set in. Actual fear was on the androids face. Something clicked...]
"Did.. did your powers kick in?"
Konner clicked his tongue, dammit, there goes that plan- maybe he could find out some simple things about kryptonian biology, how to properly use his strength and maybe how to grow it or if that perhaps would just come along with growing.
As he began typing he heard the androids voice that now seemed laced with fear ask him if his powers had kicked in- oh, as much as he didnt want to answer he owed the android that much for giving him some sort of access to the computer-
"Yes, they kicked in the day you died. Went into hiding for a long time, scared of what Lord Shitface might do, but I got the hang of it now-"
[Lex quickly went up to Konner, braking the boundaries that where put in place. Lex turning Konners head to look at him. Lex's fingers cold to the touch]
[Oh it had a giddy look on its face. A wide to human look for an android.. But it was on his face..]
"You're so remarkable.. Did you know that? He spent so much time on you. I guess a little love does go a long way.. Even if the results happen after death.."
[It chuckled, as it moved Konners head side to side.. oh it was so intrigued!]
Konner blinked, his eyebrows furrowed. Konner was now more than offended by the preposterous statement- he didnt get his powers out of love- he got them put of fear, fear that he would be killed just as Lex was, his body had acted in the only way it could to protect himself- which is forcing his powers to emerge even though he wasnt fully ready for them.
Konner grabbed the androids wrist, there was a bit of barely-there-self-control that was keeping him from snapping the androids wrist.
"Don't touch me. Fear caused my powers to emerge, not you. Your death was merely a factor of why they emerged."
[Lex gave a blink, it didn't lose it's smile. As it let its wrist be held..humming as Lex listened]
"Better then than not at all. Or you would've been a complete waste. Aha! But I guess we both became different that day.. for the same reason."
[Lex hummed as he forcefully took his hand back.. rolling his eyes as he rubbed it.. it didn't hurt, it didn't feel pain, it was just a natural human reaction..]
Konner gritted his teeth, eyebrows drawing together in a scowl. He desperately wanted to take out his anger on the android, pummel it, destroy it- but it was rather unpredictable what would happen and in a sense wouldn't that be murder? Wouldn't that prove he was just like Lord Shitface? That he cant control his anger for shit? That hed be willing to destroy every single little thing just because it looked at him wrong? That he threw a temper tantrum at the slightest of things?
No. He was better than that. Had to be.
"Keep your trap shut."
[There was an awkward amount of silence for a moment.. Lex looked at the other with a hum.. before looking at the computer.. Him blinking before sighing.]
"You really are remarkable.. Confusing.. but remarkable. Changed alot."
[Lex backed up, putting it's hands back in his pocket as he focused on the screen.. him tilting his head to the side. Like it was studying the words that where typed]
"...Confused on your biology?"
Konner scoffed, of course he was being looked at like he was nothing more than some experiment, was that all the meaning his life held? He hated the thought, he turned back toward the computer. Konner continued to type away trying to find out anything, rolling his eyes when the android questioned if it was about his biology.
"Its not like I had someone to teach me anything about my biology and you probably dont even know the half of it."
Konner tried to read anything, anything, that might relate to his biology.
"Superboy?"
[An oddly lex sounding voice said. A bit robotic, as 'Lex' tilted head.. was it truly him?]
@artificial-inlexigence
Konner turned leveling the robot Lex a cold look
"This must be some sick joke. You must be mistaking me for someone else- my name is Konner, not superboy."
"Konner?" [The android blinked as he looked Konner in the eyes.. as he raised an eyebrow. He was debating something.]
"Better than 'superboy' these days, yes?" [Lex has the same snicker he had, even putting a hand over his mouth. He was like a spinning image of the living Lex an uncanny amount.]
"Come here let me see you. It's been a while.." [Lex hummed as he stepped to Kon, he was curious.. Very curious on how his 'son' was doing.]
Konner looked at the android weirdly as it spoke his name. He didnt like how it sounded when it came from his mouth.
It was repulsive how similar the android and the real Lex are- similar in almost every way except in body and mind, he supposes. Kons nose wrinkled at the similarities.
"No, step away from me."
Konner didnt move from his spot, if he moved well, what would that say? That he was scared of a bag of bolts? Pft- of course not.
[It stopped like it was an automatic thing.. him stepping back. That was strange. As it gently threw up his hands, showing peace.. it didn't mean harm.]
"I just wanted to see my.. well his son. It's been.. a while.. from what I can tell from the memories I have." [Lex shrugged out with a mechanical hum.. him looking over Konner.. There was small consurn on his face?.. As he hummed, before putting his hands in the pockets of his white suit..]
"Are you scared of me? Well.. Him?"
It was a little weird to see how easily the android gave up its approach.
"From the time he died up to this moment I suppose."
Kon studied the androids face. He looked him up and down.
"Not anymore, there was a time that I was. When I was younger, scared, powerless, and being worked like a dog to become the replacement for Superman."
Konner looked around, why was Lex- or well, the android of Lex- better yet why was there an android of Lex in the first place.
"Why are you here? Why do you even exist?"
[The android nodded.. as it processed, actually listened unlike Lex..]
"Well I can understand why, I'd also be scared of him if I were in your shoes. I can't apologize for his actions, only thing I can say.. he did it for the betterment he thought was possible... Which he had something right. You are better than superman.. But you're better, you're well you. Something he nor I could predict.."
[Lex smiled, him leaning back on his feet before standing straight again.
"Originally I was a contingency plan. Anxiety.. paranoia. Whatever you wish to call it.. made me to be the fill in when he died an unnatural death. Blah blah, he died, i'm here finishing things up-"
[The android actually didn't like talking about himself as he mimicked wrinkling its nose]
"Not important what I do...What are you doing, superbo- Konner... what are you doing here?"
Konner didnt expect Lex to listen to him... it was weird... he didnt like that the android was attempting to defend Lex, he knows why the man did what he did.
"I had to be me, create me, because what you gave me was the purpose of a machine."
Of course it was just some stupid contingency. Konner rolled his eyes.
"Investigating, found out that this was Lord Shitfaces base after a while. Just had to figure out the way to get in and come in when he was off planet."
Konner looked Lex up and down.
"Didn't expect to find you in here. Why does he keep you here?"
"HE did... Not me. I might look like and act like Lex Luthor.. And took his name.. doesn't mean I'm completely him.. Like you, im different than what he created.. but he only felt proud about one of us."
[It soon gestured to Kon vaguely as he just started to walk around Konner, still keeping his distance.. him giving a mechanical hum]
"Something, something 'the world doesn't need a second Luthor running loose`. Or whatever the alien said.. And to keep people like you from wandering in.. I guess being a security system works for me."
[The android laughed again, shrugging as it stopped once again infront of Kon.]
"Not like I really care if you stole anything.. Nothing of importance in here."
Konner didnt wonder who it was, it was clearly the android version of himself. How could it be him? It simply couldn't. Konner didnt bother following Lex's every move. It was a bag of bolts, nothing else.
Of course the world didnt need a second lex running around but the world also didn't need a tyrant running around. There was a couple things of importance, kryptonite- if there was still any left, the information that he could find about his kryptonian side and maybe something else he hadn't realized might be here.
"Do you know where anything is? Kryptonite maybe? Information? A computer? A hologram? Anything?"
[It tilted his head raising an eyebrow. As it had a questioning look on its face. Lex gave a hum.. as he blinked at Konner. Putting his hands in his pockets before turning on his heel, gesturing Kon to followed with his head. As he just started walking]
"Kryptonite? Ha- I wish I knew where any or that was. Alot of my human selfs stashed where destroyed or thrown into the sun. Hell I don't even think the Bat has any Kryptonite leff.. but the Bat is thr Bat afterall."
[Lex looked around as he walked.. like it was instinct for the android to look for Kal. Before Lex led them to the computer.. a really big one.. him humming as he typed in the password before stepping back.. keeping the gap between the two]
"Knock yourself out.. whatever you're looking for is probably on there.."
[Lex didn't care, he really didn't. He was neither rebel or on the lord's side. He just was..]
Konner mentally noted the next place he should visit the moment he heard that there most likely wasnt any kryptonite in the Fortress. Though, the thought of kryptonite went out the window as he saw the massive computer.
This was exactly what he needed- a direct link to all the information that the Fortress of Solitude could offer. It definitely surprised Konner how easily Lex had given this up. Maybe the man- andriod- was still trying to make up for past mistakes...
No, that didnt seem likely, no, not Lex. It might really just be a lack of caring-
"Just know.. My codes can only get basic things off the computer... And he rarely puts anything like plans and ideas in there to begin with... 'less safe'.. Or whatever he says. He puts them in afterwards."
[Lex snickered as he looked at the screen, as his own memory's clicked in.. then the surprise then fear set in. Actual fear was on the androids face. Something clicked...]
"Did.. did your powers kick in?"
Konner clicked his tongue, dammit, there goes that plan- maybe he could find out some simple things about kryptonian biology, how to properly use his strength and maybe how to grow it or if that perhaps would just come along with growing.
As he began typing he heard the androids voice that now seemed laced with fear ask him if his powers had kicked in- oh, as much as he didnt want to answer he owed the android that much for giving him some sort of access to the computer-
"Yes, they kicked in the day you died. Went into hiding for a long time, scared of what Lord Shitface might do, but I got the hang of it now-"
[Lex quickly went up to Konner, braking the boundaries that where put in place. Lex turning Konners head to look at him. Lex's fingers cold to the touch]
[Oh it had a giddy look on its face. A wide to human look for an android.. But it was on his face..]
"You're so remarkable.. Did you know that? He spent so much time on you. I guess a little love does go a long way.. Even if the results happen after death.."
[It chuckled, as it moved Konners head side to side.. oh it was so intrigued!]
Konner blinked, his eyebrows furrowed. Konner was now more than offended by the preposterous statement- he didnt get his powers out of love- he got them put of fear, fear that he would be killed just as Lex was, his body had acted in the only way it could to protect himself- which is forcing his powers to emerge even though he wasnt fully ready for them.
Konner grabbed the androids wrist, there was a bit of barely-there-self-control that was keeping him from snapping the androids wrist.
"Don't touch me. Fear caused my powers to emerge, not you. Your death was merely a factor of why they emerged."
[Lex gave a blink, it didn't lose it's smile. As it let its wrist be held..humming as Lex listened]
"Better then than not at all. Or you would've been a complete waste. Aha! But I guess we both became different that day.. for the same reason."
[Lex hummed as he forcefully took his hand back.. rolling his eyes as he rubbed it.. it didn't hurt, it didn't feel pain, it was just a natural human reaction..]
Konner gritted his teeth, eyebrows drawing together in a scowl. He desperately wanted to take out his anger on the android, pummel it, destroy it- but it was rather unpredictable what would happen and in a sense wouldn't that be murder? Wouldn't that prove he was just like Lord Shitface? That he cant control his anger for shit? That hed be willing to destroy every single little thing just because it looked at him wrong? That he threw a temper tantrum at the slightest of things?
No. He was better than that. Had to be.
"Keep your trap shut."
"Superboy?"
[An oddly lex sounding voice said. A bit robotic, as 'Lex' tilted head.. was it truly him?]
@artificial-inlexigence
Konner turned leveling the robot Lex a cold look
"This must be some sick joke. You must be mistaking me for someone else- my name is Konner, not superboy."
"Konner?" [The android blinked as he looked Konner in the eyes.. as he raised an eyebrow. He was debating something.]
"Better than 'superboy' these days, yes?" [Lex has the same snicker he had, even putting a hand over his mouth. He was like a spinning image of the living Lex an uncanny amount.]
"Come here let me see you. It's been a while.." [Lex hummed as he stepped to Kon, he was curious.. Very curious on how his 'son' was doing.]
Konner looked at the android weirdly as it spoke his name. He didnt like how it sounded when it came from his mouth.
It was repulsive how similar the android and the real Lex are- similar in almost every way except in body and mind, he supposes. Kons nose wrinkled at the similarities.
"No, step away from me."
Konner didnt move from his spot, if he moved well, what would that say? That he was scared of a bag of bolts? Pft- of course not.
[It stopped like it was an automatic thing.. him stepping back. That was strange. As it gently threw up his hands, showing peace.. it didn't mean harm.]
"I just wanted to see my.. well his son. It's been.. a while.. from what I can tell from the memories I have." [Lex shrugged out with a mechanical hum.. him looking over Konner.. There was small consurn on his face?.. As he hummed, before putting his hands in the pockets of his white suit..]
"Are you scared of me? Well.. Him?"
It was a little weird to see how easily the android gave up its approach.
"From the time he died up to this moment I suppose."
Kon studied the androids face. He looked him up and down.
"Not anymore, there was a time that I was. When I was younger, scared, powerless, and being worked like a dog to become the replacement for Superman."
Konner looked around, why was Lex- or well, the android of Lex- better yet why was there an android of Lex in the first place.
"Why are you here? Why do you even exist?"
[The android nodded.. as it processed, actually listened unlike Lex..]
"Well I can understand why, I'd also be scared of him if I were in your shoes. I can't apologize for his actions, only thing I can say.. he did it for the betterment he thought was possible... Which he had something right. You are better than superman.. But you're better, you're well you. Something he nor I could predict.."
[Lex smiled, him leaning back on his feet before standing straight again.
"Originally I was a contingency plan. Anxiety.. paranoia. Whatever you wish to call it.. made me to be the fill in when he died an unnatural death. Blah blah, he died, i'm here finishing things up-"
[The android actually didn't like talking about himself as he mimicked wrinkling its nose]
"Not important what I do...What are you doing, superbo- Konner... what are you doing here?"
Konner didnt expect Lex to listen to him... it was weird... he didnt like that the android was attempting to defend Lex, he knows why the man did what he did.
"I had to be me, create me, because what you gave me was the purpose of a machine."
Of course it was just some stupid contingency. Konner rolled his eyes.
"Investigating, found out that this was Lord Shitfaces base after a while. Just had to figure out the way to get in and come in when he was off planet."
Konner looked Lex up and down.
"Didn't expect to find you in here. Why does he keep you here?"
"HE did... Not me. I might look like and act like Lex Luthor.. And took his name.. doesn't mean I'm completely him.. Like you, im different than what he created.. but he only felt proud about one of us."
[It soon gestured to Kon vaguely as he just started to walk around Konner, still keeping his distance.. him giving a mechanical hum]
"Something, something 'the world doesn't need a second Luthor running loose`. Or whatever the alien said.. And to keep people like you from wandering in.. I guess being a security system works for me."
[The android laughed again, shrugging as it stopped once again infront of Kon.]
"Not like I really care if you stole anything.. Nothing of importance in here."
Konner didnt wonder who it was, it was clearly the android version of himself. How could it be him? It simply couldn't. Konner didnt bother following Lex's every move. It was a bag of bolts, nothing else.
Of course the world didnt need a second lex running around but the world also didn't need a tyrant running around. There was a couple things of importance, kryptonite- if there was still any left, the information that he could find about his kryptonian side and maybe something else he hadn't realized might be here.
"Do you know where anything is? Kryptonite maybe? Information? A computer? A hologram? Anything?"
[It tilted his head raising an eyebrow. As it had a questioning look on its face. Lex gave a hum.. as he blinked at Konner. Putting his hands in his pockets before turning on his heel, gesturing Kon to followed with his head. As he just started walking]
"Kryptonite? Ha- I wish I knew where any or that was. Alot of my human selfs stashed where destroyed or thrown into the sun. Hell I don't even think the Bat has any Kryptonite leff.. but the Bat is thr Bat afterall."
[Lex looked around as he walked.. like it was instinct for the android to look for Kal. Before Lex led them to the computer.. a really big one.. him humming as he typed in the password before stepping back.. keeping the gap between the two]
"Knock yourself out.. whatever you're looking for is probably on there.."
[Lex didn't care, he really didn't. He was neither rebel or on the lord's side. He just was..]
Konner mentally noted the next place he should visit the moment he heard that there most likely wasnt any kryptonite in the Fortress. Though, the thought of kryptonite went out the window as he saw the massive computer.
This was exactly what he needed- a direct link to all the information that the Fortress of Solitude could offer. It definitely surprised Konner how easily Lex had given this up. Maybe the man- andriod- was still trying to make up for past mistakes...
No, that didnt seem likely, no, not Lex. It might really just be a lack of caring-
"Just know.. My codes can only get basic things off the computer... And he rarely puts anything like plans and ideas in there to begin with... 'less safe'.. Or whatever he says. He puts them in afterwards."
[Lex snickered as he looked at the screen, as his own memory's clicked in.. then the surprise then fear set in. Actual fear was on the androids face. Something clicked...]
"Did.. did your powers kick in?"
Konner clicked his tongue, dammit, there goes that plan- maybe he could find out some simple things about kryptonian biology, how to properly use his strength and maybe how to grow it or if that perhaps would just come along with growing.
As he began typing he heard the androids voice that now seemed laced with fear ask him if his powers had kicked in- oh, as much as he didnt want to answer he owed the android that much for giving him some sort of access to the computer-
"Yes, they kicked in the day you died. Went into hiding for a long time, scared of what Lord Shitface might do, but I got the hang of it now-"
[Lex quickly went up to Konner, braking the boundaries that where put in place. Lex turning Konners head to look at him. Lex's fingers cold to the touch]
[Oh it had a giddy look on its face. A wide to human look for an android.. But it was on his face..]
"You're so remarkable.. Did you know that? He spent so much time on you. I guess a little love does go a long way.. Even if the results happen after death.."
[It chuckled, as it moved Konners head side to side.. oh it was so intrigued!]
Konner blinked, his eyebrows furrowed. Konner was now more than offended by the preposterous statement- he didnt get his powers out of love- he got them put of fear, fear that he would be killed just as Lex was, his body had acted in the only way it could to protect himself- which is forcing his powers to emerge even though he wasnt fully ready for them.
Konner grabbed the androids wrist, there was a bit of barely-there-self-control that was keeping him from snapping the androids wrist.
"Don't touch me. Fear caused my powers to emerge, not you. Your death was merely a factor of why they emerged."
// Been feeling kinda out of it- nausea, anxiety and shit
// I know I have to visit my father soon and its making my stomach hurt just thinking about it, my mind spin and it gives me a headache for multiple reasons
// I dunno, um, I'll probably answer short stuff, depends- might be off for a while, really depends how I'm feeling, might throw up- I probably won't answer anything potentially long.
"Superboy?"
[An oddly lex sounding voice said. A bit robotic, as 'Lex' tilted head.. was it truly him?]
@artificial-inlexigence
Konner turned leveling the robot Lex a cold look
"This must be some sick joke. You must be mistaking me for someone else- my name is Konner, not superboy."
"Konner?" [The android blinked as he looked Konner in the eyes.. as he raised an eyebrow. He was debating something.]
"Better than 'superboy' these days, yes?" [Lex has the same snicker he had, even putting a hand over his mouth. He was like a spinning image of the living Lex an uncanny amount.]
"Come here let me see you. It's been a while.." [Lex hummed as he stepped to Kon, he was curious.. Very curious on how his 'son' was doing.]
Konner looked at the android weirdly as it spoke his name. He didnt like how it sounded when it came from his mouth.
It was repulsive how similar the android and the real Lex are- similar in almost every way except in body and mind, he supposes. Kons nose wrinkled at the similarities.
"No, step away from me."
Konner didnt move from his spot, if he moved well, what would that say? That he was scared of a bag of bolts? Pft- of course not.
[It stopped like it was an automatic thing.. him stepping back. That was strange. As it gently threw up his hands, showing peace.. it didn't mean harm.]
"I just wanted to see my.. well his son. It's been.. a while.. from what I can tell from the memories I have." [Lex shrugged out with a mechanical hum.. him looking over Konner.. There was small consurn on his face?.. As he hummed, before putting his hands in the pockets of his white suit..]
"Are you scared of me? Well.. Him?"
It was a little weird to see how easily the android gave up its approach.
"From the time he died up to this moment I suppose."
Kon studied the androids face. He looked him up and down.
"Not anymore, there was a time that I was. When I was younger, scared, powerless, and being worked like a dog to become the replacement for Superman."
Konner looked around, why was Lex- or well, the android of Lex- better yet why was there an android of Lex in the first place.
"Why are you here? Why do you even exist?"
[The android nodded.. as it processed, actually listened unlike Lex..]
"Well I can understand why, I'd also be scared of him if I were in your shoes. I can't apologize for his actions, only thing I can say.. he did it for the betterment he thought was possible... Which he had something right. You are better than superman.. But you're better, you're well you. Something he nor I could predict.."
[Lex smiled, him leaning back on his feet before standing straight again.
"Originally I was a contingency plan. Anxiety.. paranoia. Whatever you wish to call it.. made me to be the fill in when he died an unnatural death. Blah blah, he died, i'm here finishing things up-"
[The android actually didn't like talking about himself as he mimicked wrinkling its nose]
"Not important what I do...What are you doing, superbo- Konner... what are you doing here?"
Konner didnt expect Lex to listen to him... it was weird... he didnt like that the android was attempting to defend Lex, he knows why the man did what he did.
"I had to be me, create me, because what you gave me was the purpose of a machine."
Of course it was just some stupid contingency. Konner rolled his eyes.
"Investigating, found out that this was Lord Shitfaces base after a while. Just had to figure out the way to get in and come in when he was off planet."
Konner looked Lex up and down.
"Didn't expect to find you in here. Why does he keep you here?"
"HE did... Not me. I might look like and act like Lex Luthor.. And took his name.. doesn't mean I'm completely him.. Like you, im different than what he created.. but he only felt proud about one of us."
[It soon gestured to Kon vaguely as he just started to walk around Konner, still keeping his distance.. him giving a mechanical hum]
"Something, something 'the world doesn't need a second Luthor running loose`. Or whatever the alien said.. And to keep people like you from wandering in.. I guess being a security system works for me."
[The android laughed again, shrugging as it stopped once again infront of Kon.]
"Not like I really care if you stole anything.. Nothing of importance in here."
Konner didnt wonder who it was, it was clearly the android version of himself. How could it be him? It simply couldn't. Konner didnt bother following Lex's every move. It was a bag of bolts, nothing else.
Of course the world didnt need a second lex running around but the world also didn't need a tyrant running around. There was a couple things of importance, kryptonite- if there was still any left, the information that he could find about his kryptonian side and maybe something else he hadn't realized might be here.
"Do you know where anything is? Kryptonite maybe? Information? A computer? A hologram? Anything?"
[It tilted his head raising an eyebrow. As it had a questioning look on its face. Lex gave a hum.. as he blinked at Konner. Putting his hands in his pockets before turning on his heel, gesturing Kon to followed with his head. As he just started walking]
"Kryptonite? Ha- I wish I knew where any or that was. Alot of my human selfs stashed where destroyed or thrown into the sun. Hell I don't even think the Bat has any Kryptonite leff.. but the Bat is thr Bat afterall."
[Lex looked around as he walked.. like it was instinct for the android to look for Kal. Before Lex led them to the computer.. a really big one.. him humming as he typed in the password before stepping back.. keeping the gap between the two]
"Knock yourself out.. whatever you're looking for is probably on there.."
[Lex didn't care, he really didn't. He was neither rebel or on the lord's side. He just was..]
Konner mentally noted the next place he should visit the moment he heard that there most likely wasnt any kryptonite in the Fortress. Though, the thought of kryptonite went out the window as he saw the massive computer.
This was exactly what he needed- a direct link to all the information that the Fortress of Solitude could offer. It definitely surprised Konner how easily Lex had given this up. Maybe the man- andriod- was still trying to make up for past mistakes...
No, that didnt seem likely, no, not Lex. It might really just be a lack of caring-
"Just know.. My codes can only get basic things off the computer... And he rarely puts anything like plans and ideas in there to begin with... 'less safe'.. Or whatever he says. He puts them in afterwards."
[Lex snickered as he looked at the screen, as his own memory's clicked in.. then the surprise then fear set in. Actual fear was on the androids face. Something clicked...]
"Did.. did your powers kick in?"
Konner clicked his tongue, dammit, there goes that plan- maybe he could find out some simple things about kryptonian biology, how to properly use his strength and maybe how to grow it or if that perhaps would just come along with growing.
As he began typing he heard the androids voice that now seemed laced with fear ask him if his powers had kicked in- oh, as much as he didnt want to answer he owed the android that much for giving him some sort of access to the computer-
"Yes, they kicked in the day you died. Went into hiding for a long time, scared of what Lord Shitface might do, but I got the hang of it now-"
"Superboy?"
[An oddly lex sounding voice said. A bit robotic, as 'Lex' tilted head.. was it truly him?]
@artificial-inlexigence
Konner turned leveling the robot Lex a cold look
"This must be some sick joke. You must be mistaking me for someone else- my name is Konner, not superboy."
"Konner?" [The android blinked as he looked Konner in the eyes.. as he raised an eyebrow. He was debating something.]
"Better than 'superboy' these days, yes?" [Lex has the same snicker he had, even putting a hand over his mouth. He was like a spinning image of the living Lex an uncanny amount.]
"Come here let me see you. It's been a while.." [Lex hummed as he stepped to Kon, he was curious.. Very curious on how his 'son' was doing.]
Konner looked at the android weirdly as it spoke his name. He didnt like how it sounded when it came from his mouth.
It was repulsive how similar the android and the real Lex are- similar in almost every way except in body and mind, he supposes. Kons nose wrinkled at the similarities.
"No, step away from me."
Konner didnt move from his spot, if he moved well, what would that say? That he was scared of a bag of bolts? Pft- of course not.
[It stopped like it was an automatic thing.. him stepping back. That was strange. As it gently threw up his hands, showing peace.. it didn't mean harm.]
"I just wanted to see my.. well his son. It's been.. a while.. from what I can tell from the memories I have." [Lex shrugged out with a mechanical hum.. him looking over Konner.. There was small consurn on his face?.. As he hummed, before putting his hands in the pockets of his white suit..]
"Are you scared of me? Well.. Him?"
It was a little weird to see how easily the android gave up its approach.
"From the time he died up to this moment I suppose."
Kon studied the androids face. He looked him up and down.
"Not anymore, there was a time that I was. When I was younger, scared, powerless, and being worked like a dog to become the replacement for Superman."
Konner looked around, why was Lex- or well, the android of Lex- better yet why was there an android of Lex in the first place.
"Why are you here? Why do you even exist?"
[The android nodded.. as it processed, actually listened unlike Lex..]
"Well I can understand why, I'd also be scared of him if I were in your shoes. I can't apologize for his actions, only thing I can say.. he did it for the betterment he thought was possible... Which he had something right. You are better than superman.. But you're better, you're well you. Something he nor I could predict.."
[Lex smiled, him leaning back on his feet before standing straight again.
"Originally I was a contingency plan. Anxiety.. paranoia. Whatever you wish to call it.. made me to be the fill in when he died an unnatural death. Blah blah, he died, i'm here finishing things up-"
[The android actually didn't like talking about himself as he mimicked wrinkling its nose]
"Not important what I do...What are you doing, superbo- Konner... what are you doing here?"
Konner didnt expect Lex to listen to him... it was weird... he didnt like that the android was attempting to defend Lex, he knows why the man did what he did.
"I had to be me, create me, because what you gave me was the purpose of a machine."
Of course it was just some stupid contingency. Konner rolled his eyes.
"Investigating, found out that this was Lord Shitfaces base after a while. Just had to figure out the way to get in and come in when he was off planet."
Konner looked Lex up and down.
"Didn't expect to find you in here. Why does he keep you here?"
"HE did... Not me. I might look like and act like Lex Luthor.. And took his name.. doesn't mean I'm completely him.. Like you, im different than what he created.. but he only felt proud about one of us."
[It soon gestured to Kon vaguely as he just started to walk around Konner, still keeping his distance.. him giving a mechanical hum]
"Something, something 'the world doesn't need a second Luthor running loose`. Or whatever the alien said.. And to keep people like you from wandering in.. I guess being a security system works for me."
[The android laughed again, shrugging as it stopped once again infront of Kon.]
"Not like I really care if you stole anything.. Nothing of importance in here."
Konner didnt wonder who it was, it was clearly the android version of himself. How could it be him? It simply couldn't. Konner didnt bother following Lex's every move. It was a bag of bolts, nothing else.
Of course the world didnt need a second lex running around but the world also didn't need a tyrant running around. There was a couple things of importance, kryptonite- if there was still any left, the information that he could find about his kryptonian side and maybe something else he hadn't realized might be here.
"Do you know where anything is? Kryptonite maybe? Information? A computer? A hologram? Anything?"
[It tilted his head raising an eyebrow. As it had a questioning look on its face. Lex gave a hum.. as he blinked at Konner. Putting his hands in his pockets before turning on his heel, gesturing Kon to followed with his head. As he just started walking]
"Kryptonite? Ha- I wish I knew where any or that was. Alot of my human selfs stashed where destroyed or thrown into the sun. Hell I don't even think the Bat has any Kryptonite leff.. but the Bat is thr Bat afterall."
[Lex looked around as he walked.. like it was instinct for the android to look for Kal. Before Lex led them to the computer.. a really big one.. him humming as he typed in the password before stepping back.. keeping the gap between the two]
"Knock yourself out.. whatever you're looking for is probably on there.."
[Lex didn't care, he really didn't. He was neither rebel or on the lord's side. He just was..]
Konner mentally noted the next place he should visit the moment he heard that there most likely wasnt any kryptonite in the Fortress. Though, the thought of kryptonite went out the window as he saw the massive computer.
This was exactly what he needed- a direct link to all the information that the Fortress of Solitude could offer. It definitely surprised Konner how easily Lex had given this up. Maybe the man- andriod- was still trying to make up for past mistakes...
No, that didnt seem likely, no, not Lex. It might really just be a lack of caring-
Are you doing alright?..
I already answered this -_-
I'm fi-*voice crack*-ne
..... Uh huh.
"One hundred percent fine"
Shaky thumbs up.
Sure..
[ Billy hands him a pack of Oreos. ]
Here have a snack. 8/10 a snack helps
"Nah, I'm good- I really dont want a snack"
Konners hands shake as he waves the cookies away.
Mhm... Do you want to talk about it? Or a hug? I can transform if you want to talk to the more adult me
"Nah- Really its okay- I think I just need some time alone."
Uh huh, you really want to be alone right now? Your voice isn't matching your words
"Mhm- yeah- see you later Billy."
Konner took off into the distance. To the place he hid when he still nothing but a little, scared, and powerless kid.
[ Billy hesitated, a knot of worry tightening in his stomach. He didn’t want to intrude. He knew that space. The need to be alone with a pain too raw to share. He’d been there. He'd been there so many times. He'd been when he was abandoned in Fawcett the first time, when his uncle killed his friend, when the gods betrayed him, when his mom came back right when the world started feeling right again, when the league made their choices. He'd been there, wanting to burrow into some quiet dark corner until the world stopped spinning.
He remembered the way Clark’s steady presence or Bruce’s quiet words had eventually pulled him back from the edge, even when he’d insisted he didn’t need them. Back when things were good.
Billy had his family now, and Konner was his family. He gave Konner an hour, every minute stretching long and thin, before the gnawing dread pushed him to his feet to go find him. ]
Konner, had flown himself out to the middle of nowhere, a place surrounded by so many trees that it looked like the rainforest. Maybe it was- he never bothered locating the place just flew until he felt that he was there, until he let himself fall out of the sky and drop down into he ditch just like he had done when he was kid who fled the only thing hed ever called home.
Dropping down into the damp dirt, moving till his back hit another cold, damp surface. Konner let out a shaky breath as he pulled his knees to his chest and desperately grabbed at his own hair at attempt to ground himself from the spiral he was on.
"No- no- it wasnt him- it wasnt him- it wasnt him-" Konner let out a pained whimper, one that hurt as he swallowed just a little too hard "why the fuck did it have to be him- why- why-" Konner took in shaky breaths that were his sorry attempt at trying to calm down.
"I should be over this- its not even really him- but its him- and I'm not as young as before, I'm not powerless, he can't hurt me now- but what if he can-"
Konner slowly started mumbling things that didnt make sense, things that tore whimpers from his throat, things that brought back memories, things that made him feel pathetic and weak again.
When Cap found Konner, he was curled on the ground, muttering and whimpering to himself. Cap winced as Konner flinched at the sound of his landing... He really did sound like Supes when he moved in this form. Funny. He used to take pride in that.
Not the point right now.
Cap moved in slowly, keeping plenty of space between them before lowering himself down into the mud in front him. He spoke softly as he watched Konner. ]
Hey, Konner. You with me?
[ Cap asked as he settled onto one knee so he could meet his eyes. It felt strange being on the other side of this. Right now, Konner just looked like any other foster kid Cap had met over the years, just a kid who needed someone to sit with him for a while. Cap nodded towards their surroundings ]
You picked a pretty nice spot to crash, I gotta say. A lot greener than the city.
Konner kept murmuring to himself even as Billy called out to him. To many things were going through his head, his eyes were darting and the slightest sounds were putting him on edge. Konners head space wasnt completely there- as if he had been pulled into his own little void where any outside voice was wrong and made up.
Konners eyes darted upwards, they locked onto Billy's- his vision blurred so much he couldn't even tell it was Billy- he looked so much like Superman. Konner wasnt scared of Superman though, only cautious. If he had to, he would fight him which is what he was calculating right now- waiting for the slightest move to attack.
[ Cap wasn't unused to that cautious, calculating look. The one people get when they think he's more like one of the Lords than he actually is. So he sighed and laid back in the dirt. Figured being flat on the ground was less threatening. ]
I not here to fight, you can relax
[ Cap chuckled a little as he rested his head on his arms as he stared up at the canape above them. Normally he would have just de-transformed, gone back to being Billy Batson. The radio show kid, the less intimating main face. But he wasn't sure how stable Konner was. No, that's not true. He knew Konner wasn't stable and he knew Konner would freak out if he actually accidentally hurt him. And he wasn't about to give away the kid's hiding spot with a bolt of lightning.
So he just stayed. Low. Quiet. Made sure Konner could see his hands, his face, that he wasn't gearing up for anything. ]
Just here to be with you. Panic attacks aren't fun.
[ Cap paused glancing at him before turning back tit the canape. He closed his eyes and listened to the sounds around them ]
Have you ever seen a Pac-Man frog?
Konner didnt relax almost couldn't. The words that Billy spoke sounded muddled like Konners head was underwater, like he couldn't breathe- he couldn't breathe- Konner gasped for air, clawing at his chest, air was coming in and out of his mouth but it felt like he wasnt even actually breathing- like the air was being vacuumed from his lungs-
In and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out in and out, in and out, in and out in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out- IN AND OUT.
Konner felt lightheaded, it felt like the air wasnt even being absorbed into his lungs. He clawed at his clothes that were suddenly to tight despite being a size too big. His mind wouldn't let him rip them, wouldn't let him be more than a weak, pathetic, powerless kid- one that was still under Lex's control, under a microscope, where Lex disciplined and punished him for ever being wrong.
[ Marvel was up and moving before he even realized it, the moment Konner's breathing shifted into something that sounded like choking. He knew that sound. Had heard it in kids half Konner's age and soldiers twice it.
He rounded to face Konner fully, even though he could see the kid was already pulling at himself, nails digging in like he was trying to claw his way out of his own skin. And yeah, Cap knew that too. Knew the way panic makes you want to escape yourself because there's nowhere else to go. ]
Hey. Hey, hey, hey—Konner. My man. Look at me.
[ He kept his voice low and steady. The kind he'd wished someone had used on him a few times back when he was small and the world was too loud.
Right here. Look at me.
[ He moved slow. Deliberate. Let Konner see his hands coming before he reached for them, palms up first, nothing grabbing, nothing trapping. Just an offer. When his fingers closed around Konner's, he squeezed gently just to give him something to hold onto. ]
You're having a panic attack. Which means it feels like you're dying. I know. I know that feeling. But you're not dying. You're here. You're safe. I've got you.
[ He gave Konner's hands another light squeeze in a slow rhythm. In 2, 3. Out, 2, 3. ]
You think you're up for a breathing exercise with me? I know it sounds stupid to ask and that it feels like you can't breathe. But the exercise, gives you something to focus on.
Even as Konners heart raced like a bunnies he attempted to look at the sound, where it was coming from. Konner took Billy's hands and squeezed as hard as he could, becuase anyone that would offer there hands to someone and leave themselves vulnerable- was clearly not Lord Shitface.
Konner shouldve recognized the feeling of a panic attack- hes had plenty when Lex was still around to demand things of him, when he was still around to try and shape Konner into a tool.
Konner could barely make out the harsh outline of Billy's words- breathing exercise? There was a breathing exercise that Lex had taught him to do simply to expand his lung capacity- something that seemed rather pointless until now, maybe the bastard was trying to help him through his panic attacks without helping him through them, 4 in, hold 4, 4 out, 4 hold, repeat.
Konner tried to count the numbers in his head slowly, just how Lex had tight him, he hated how that bastard always found his way back into his head.
[ Cap chuckled softly, more an exhale than a laugh. ]
Or you can follow your own.Keep doing that. You're doing great.
[ He let Konner squeeze the life out of his hands. It honestly hurt a little. Of course it did, the kid had grip strength that could bend steel, but that didn't matter.
It took Cap a second to pick up on the rhythm Konner had fallen into. Some breathing exercise he must have learned somewhere. Either way, Cap caught the pattern and let his own breath fall in line with it. Then he started to vocalize it, low and steady, a quiet metronome to hold onto. ]
In... two, three, four. Hold... two, three, four. Out... two, three, four. Hold... two, three, four.
[ Cap repeated it over and over, letting the words blur soft at the edges, he was almost positive Konner wasn't actually listening to him yet.
He watched Konner's face the whole time. Watched the way his breathing slowly started to even out, the way his shoulders dropped just a fraction, the way his eyes, wild and glassy just minutes ago, began to focus on something again.
When he saw Konner's gaze steady just a little, Cap eased back on the counting and let his voice go even softer. Gentle. ]
Hey, man.
Do you know where you are?
It all sounded like muddled noise, like a repeating chain of something but he wasnt quite sure what it was. As his breathing slowed, the lightheadedness receded a bit but not completely, the thoughts lurked in the back of his mind not daring to show themselves quite yet.
Konner blinked blearily, some fogginess disappearing from his gaze. He looked around, there was a vague familiarity to this place-
"No, where the fuck am I-" Konner shook his head as he suddenly let go of Billy to wave him away "Move I'm going to vomit-" Konner lunged forward onto his hands and knees hurling the sickness that had came over him all of a sudden. Konner couldn't think of a moment he had felt this bad.
