The Butterfly Effect Tiffany's Version

My journey of transformation

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[iam-tiffanynicole]

Dear Father,

Lately I’ve found myself desiring real love a little more than usual. Marriage in particular. So many hurtful stories I’ve heard of, lived through, and seen yet here I am still believing for my partner in love to see me and say “I’ve been looking for you for what seems like forever”! I want to share a father and daughter moment at my wedding where my dad is confidently giving me away to a man he knows within his soul will unconditionally love, care for, provide for, and protect the boys and I. I’m ready for my little family to be complete (atleast I feel that I am). I know you have a perfect love story already written out so perfectly that will unfold in YOUR perfect divine timing and I’m not rushing you Father, I’m just growing a little weary, but yet I trust YOU! In the mean time continue to perfect him and I for when our time comes to meet and our hearts connect like something only heaven could be familiar with, like only something YOU could orchestrate!

Sincerely,

(your daughter) Tiffany Nicole

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“The pain you may experience in life, allow it to inspire you to evolve, not cause you to retract...”

Tiffany Nicolé 💕

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Friendly Reminder:

I am NOT the mistakes I’ve made! I do deserve all I desire! I will receive all God has for me! And most importantly forgiveness of oneself doesn’t just admit fault but its embracing I have faults but I also grant myself the liberty to grow through them and still love myself!!!

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[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“The one who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The one who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no-one else has ever been.”

— Albert Einstein

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No matter how many lessons you learn and apply to your life, some will still choose to only hold on to your mistakes, but that’s ok keep growing and becoming anyway...

Me

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Reflection...

Tonight as I reflect over my day I’m brought back to a moment between myself and my youngest. After he had eaten breakfast, brushed his teeth, washed his face, and got dressed as every morning; he looked at me with his big brown eyes and asked “mommy am I handsome?” My response was “you are the most handsome little boy I know, matter fact let me take a picture of you to show you just how handsome you are”! Skyler loves taking pictures so he was down for me capturing him. After I took two and showed him; I said see how handsome you are?” The big smile that spread across his face was the confirmation that he trusted me enough to believe in what I saw and that caused him to see it too! It’s very important as parents, guardians, and trusted caregivers we speak life into our babies very young because this world is cruel! A very sad truth is our children are exposed to cruelty very young and sometimes its right at home before anywhere else. It is our job to nurture, protect, and prepare them for the possibilities of what they could encounter yet instill in them the tools needed to overcome! The world will label them and offer them a false sense of identity very young, so that they never reach the destiny intended. That may be the plan of the enemy, but doesn’t have to be their reality at all. I declare daily as for mine the plan of the enemy will not prevail! I will say this year was definitely a year of awakening for me, but needless to say I’M WOKE NOW!!!

[journey-to-balance]

It is important to note that when things happen to you, it is best you observe them without grading or labeling them. It requires a higher level of self discipline to do this, but I’ve found that consistently happy people are those who have adapted to life as life has changed for them. This leads me to believe that rigidity does not hold as much value as fluidity. 

I wish you an empowered day … Our Journey to Balance 

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Prior to November 1st I made a conscious decision to embark on a journey. A journey of that which I knew would be hard, painful, and scary yet necessary. During this time I had to come face to face with hard truths but most of all it brought me to a place of true repentance and forgiveness. Forgiveness of others but most importantly forgiveness of self! Character was restored yet built! Today I’m so ready and prepared to enter into Chapter 33! I stand with renewed strength, gratitude, joy, peace, and in expectancy!!! For my latter shall be greater! Happy Birthday to me!!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

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The Time is now....

For so long I have ran away from the idea of “selling out” and totally surrendering all. Afraid to give up my idea of what my life should look like, afraid of disappointing my parents, afraid of failing as a mother, afraid of living a lonely life, afraid of letting go of what felt good to my flesh, afraid of losing the people that somewhat conveniently loved me, and the list runs long of all the fears that kept me from giving Him a for sure yes. Who wants to look like a failure? Who wants to be perceived as weak? Who wants to be falsely accused? Who wants to be talked about? Who wants to be lied on? Who wants to be betrayed? Who wants to be abandoned? Who wants to be rejected? Who wants be heartbroken? Who wants to be left behind? Who wants to be overlooked? Who wants to be alone? Who wants to lose everything? A person desperate for the life they were created to live, a life that gives Him glory. A person who realizes the reward of not counting their life dear in their own eyes.  I have been allowing fear to invade my heart and mind and in that my decisions have brought every contrary to what I desire. I allowed everyone else’s words to frame my life. I allowed my experiences of my childhood to frame how I viewed life as an adult. I spoke failure over myself before I would even try. Until today!!! There is so much in me. Power I haven’t even tapped. Gifts that haven’t even been activated. I am full of purpose. I can no longer run from what He said. I can no longer give any more excuses. I have placed my trust in so many knowing they were incapable of being all I needed, yet I was avoiding placing all my trust in the ONE incapable of failure. I was created for a purpose I may not yet know to its entirety what it is, but just knowing I was created for a purpose is enough for me to pursue it! Its funny how no matter what we do, no matter how off course we may get, no matter how much we rebel, no matter how much we disobey, God seems to use all that to get us right where He wants us to be and right on schedule. I don’t know what the future holds for my children and I, nor do I know what will become of my most recent decision but what I am completely confident and sure of is that if I lose everything, and if everyone walks away; He will NEVER leave me nor forsake me and He most definitely has a plan! Even when He seems silent He still speaks. Even His no is a blessing. Even what He delays is a set up for His plan to work out perfectly and right on time. I am so grateful that He is not like man. For a long time I preached what I was not living. Able to tell someone else about the goodness of God and all He can and will do if you simply trust Him and surrender all to Him, yet I was running, yet I was not surrendering all to Him, yet I was making my problems bigger than Him, yet I would purposely show up late to church service to avoid being used.  I was a coward. NOW my heart cries out “ALL I WANT, ALL I NEED, AND ALL I CRAVE IS......YOU LORD” and my actions follow!!! Everything I was, am, and will be is all because He created me for HIS GLORY!!

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Music

Music has always been my escape, my safe haven. It doesn’t even have to be words sung, it can simply be sweet melodies intertwined together and it will send me to a place I am completely unbothered. It’s as if I escape to a place that no one knows about but me. As crazy as it may sound, but I am sure healing takes place each time I listen to my play list. My worries disappear and although alone I don’t feel as alone...... 

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“The only way to get what you really want, is to know what you really want. And the only way to know what you really want, is to know yourself. And the only way to know yourself, is to be yourself. And the only way to be yourself is to listen to your heart.”

— Mike Dooley

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A must see!! I love a great love story ❤️

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