Color Me Curious
oozey mess
@theartofmadeline
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RMH
"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
ojovivo
Product Placement
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
if i look back, i am lost
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Fai_Ryy
occasionally subtle
Claire Keane
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EXPECTATIONS
d e v o n
Monterey Bay Aquarium
The Stonewall Inn
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
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@iamcutester
I guess nobody's gonna understand how i felt... and what I am struggling of...
Sometimes I just wanted to feel lost and let the air get to my skin and feel every second that I could breath.
I want to hear the sound of the waves just to make me feel that there is calm in every storm.
Nalulunod na ako,
Ang hirap bumangon araw araw, pag mabigat nararamdaman ko.
Hindi ko alam kung tama bang sabihin sa iba , kung makikinig ba sila sa mga gusto mong sabihin.
Kaya ba nila akong intindihin? Ang hirap dahil araw araw nilalabanan ko kung paano makakalabas sa sitwasyon na to..
Kung paano ako hihinga ng maayos,
Kung paano ako ngingiti,
Kung paano ako siya tatanggalin sa isip ko,
Kung paano ako hindi magiging sagabal sa ibang tao,
Kung paano ako maiintindihan,
Kung paano ko matatanggal sa puso ko lahat ng sakit.
Kung paano maging matatag sa harap ng mga tao,
at kung dumating man yung araw na mawawala ako, maiintindihan na ba nila gaano kahirap ng laban na pinagdadaanan ko sa sarili ko.
Maaalala pa kaya nila kung paano ako huminga o mas maalala nila ako bilang isang suicidal na tao.
3.2.2020
Umaga pa lang pero alam ko na hindi magiging maganda yung araw na to para sa akin.
Una pa lang nag iisip na ako sa pwedeng mangyari.
Kung saan ako nagkamali kung pwede gawing tama yung lahat...
Nung mga unang araw namin ok naman eh! Kinaibigan ko sila, at ako yung naging dahilan bakit magkakasama kami ngayon.
Bakit parang ako yung mas left behind sa kanila.
Katulad kanina... kain dito
kain doon sila.
Mas ok ata ako na lang mag isa parati para hindi ko din napapansin mga ganun na bagay.
Totoo man lord nakakapagod makibagay, nakakapagod makita silang masaya habang ako hindi ko alam gusto ko gawin sa buhay 😭 kung kaya ko ba mag desisyon para sa sarili ko 😭
kung kaya ko bang maabot lahat ng pangarap ko na walang pipigil sa akin 😭
Kaninang lunch lord, doon ko po naramdaman lahat,
inis dahil pinaramdam nila sa akin na para bang hindi ako kasama sa grupo.
selos dahil may sari sarili na silang usapan ngayon, na parang bang i dont belong.
worthless napamukha sa akin na wala ako kwenta ng mga time na yun 😭😥.
Gustong gusto ko na po sumuko sa laban ng buhay pero iniisip ko lang po yung taong mahal ko 😭...
Id rather die than to be fighting a life i am not happy anymore.
Nakakapagod mag isip
Nakakapagod umiyak gabi gabi
Nakakapagod makibagay sa lahat
Nakakapagod maging masaya kahit alam mo naman na hindi ka okay
Nakakapagod mabuhay 😥😭
Blog 6: Hello 2018!
Starting my year by unplugging some of my social media accounts (Facebook, Messenger, Twitter). I just wanna stay relax and stress free. I dont wanna think of anything else except my work loads, year end reports and duties in the office. I still don't have any plans or travel plans for this year, I just want to earn and save money for emergency use or i have some stuffs that I wanted. My ultimate goal for this year is spread love thru God's words, happiness and independency.
Blog 5: 10.30.17_ Lost in the midst of the night.
Sometimes I'd rather be trying to get lots of sleep or just spend the whole night fidgeting or surfing the net, I usually find more travel places to go and add to my travel goals.
Chasing the stars is my thing right now...
But I need to learn how to capture it.
I love the sky so much, so as the galaxy... i'll update you on my next star gazing.. excited to capture stars from my travel days 😍😍😍
Blog 4: Anong nangyari sa atin? 10/13/17
Eh? Ano na ba ang nangyari sa atin. Bat naging cold sa akin? Bakit tayo nagkaroon na distansya sa isat isa?
Parati kong tinatanong sa sarili ko yan? Kung bakit nagkaganito ang relasyon natin? Kung kaya ko pa bang mag stay sa tabi mo? Kung kaya ko pa bang magtiis sa lahat ng sakit? Kung kaya ko pa bang hindi pansinin ang pagbabaliwala sa akin?
O sadyang sobra lang talaga ako mag isip? Kaya kung ano ano na lang ang natatanong ko sa sarili ko?
Tama ba ako? O talaga hindi muna ako mahal?
Ihihinto ko na ba tong katangahan ko? O itutuloy ko lang hanggang sa masaktan pa ako ng sobra sobra? Kaya mo pa ba kaong mahalin o napipilitan ka na lang?
Ang dami kong tanong pero kailan kaya maisasagot lahat ito?
“Depression”
Sorry but I’ve already did it. Its a big talk nowadays and I’ve been in this situation and dealing with it currently.
This is not me, I dont hurt myself, I help people with there problems and good in talking, I’ve never imagined being in this kind of situation.
I was so hurt and wanted to ease the pain. And in that moment I just wanted to feel the pain physically and to lessen the pain in my heart.
Depression makes you overthink and feel alone.
I’ve been suffering with this kind of disease, Ive already stopped myself from hurting but sometimes when I am down and burning from all the pain, i am tempted to do it again.
Scratch, slap and even give myself a scar.
“I’m Sorry God.” you always hear this whenever I hurt myself. “Thank you family and friends for always being in my side.”
The only cure for depression is a simple hug and never let them feel alone.
MAY Favorites!!! I am so inlove with embroided florals this month.. Not beacause its summer!!! I just love every entricate flowers has been made and how much effort to create an amazing floral design.
I'm dying
I'm dying inside, i'm literally drowning right now i just want to escape every bits from it... Im turning to be the girl that I am not... Here I am wanting to hurt myself again looking for an alternative aid. Trying to get over all of it. Please God help me fix this, help me get out of this mess. God help me find peace and find myself.. 😭😭😭😭😭
“All i gave him is loved, in return he gave me suicide.” -Athena Dizon She’s dating the Gangster.
This quote remind me of myself two weeks ago. I attempted to kill/hurt myself. Sorry but I am so emotionally hurt and confused at the same time. Everything seems not getting in my way.
This is not me, my friends know me as a strong person and the happiest one. I just want to hurt myself to ease the pain in my heart. Yah! So stupid of me, to think that way but thats only reason to escape a nightmare/heartbreak I was going through.
I was being weak and a loser! I was so fool to overthink things!.
Favor can I spare a little bit of your time. All I need is attention and love. Why are you so good in ignoring me? Do you still love me?
😢😭😣😭😭😭😭😭😢😢😢😭😢
I'm having a hard time while you wanted to be alone.
"It's so easy for you to ignore me."
Mind: Sneakers 😍😍😍
Gusto kong ako yung masabihan mo ng, “samahan kita kahit saan” dito sa mundong puno ng, “sorry busy ako”.
Blog 3 : 12.22.16
3 days to go!!! What are your plans this christmas? Are you having your noche buena and spend with your love ones. December is one my favorite months! It about giving and sharing what we have. Getting up early for misa de gallo, wrapping gifts, get together with your collegues, putting up the christmas tree and decoration, christmas party every where and being with your love ones. But the annoying part of this is TRAFFIC. Everyone is in a rush to do some shopping. So all the famous mall is jampack with people buying gifts and for their pamasko. Suggestion if your going to buy gifts or going to the mall, make it early or first thing in the morning.
Blog 2: 12.13.16
“Tama lang na malaman niya kung ano yung hinnanakit na nararamdaman mo. Para alam niya kung kailangan na niyang huminto at kung saan lang ang hangganan niya.”
Sige ibuhos pa natin dito sa tumblr.
Ihugot mo pa! Ipush mo yan!
Ayun wala pang time mag travel pero madaming plano next year!!!
Blog 1 by: iamcutester
12.12.16 Sabi niya ang “taba ko na daw!” Kailangan ko na daw magpapayat… Sukatan na din ba ng pagmamahal ngayon ang timbang?
Ang pag mamahal nga hindi natin masukat, ngayon naman hihingin mo sa akin ang ganitong bagay?
Kung mahal ka ng isang tao, wala yan sa itsura mo o sa physical appearance mo. Mahal ka niyan kasi “Mahal ka niya!!!”.
Hindi kailangan ng rason, Hindi kailangan mag bago, Ang kailangan niya lang TANGGAPIN kung sino ka man.
Mahalin ka kung anong kaya mong ibigay, Mahalin ka kahit ano pang itsura mo, Mahalin ka kahit gaano kapa kataba, Sapat na yung mahalin ka!!!
No need for changes!!!
Sa panahon natin, Papansinin ka lang! Pag maganda ka! Hello siya lang ba ang maganda sa mundo?
Ang daming magagandang loob diyan at magandang pangarap para buhay niya… Yun ang mga hanapin niyo!!!
#beastmode #hugot #malakiangpinaghuhugutanko
