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SW: 156,5 lbs• CW: 135.1 • GW1: 132 lbs • UGW: 116

[laced4ngelx]

so that 2 months later i won’t say i would’ve been there by now

[dankmemeuniversity]

[moonlithe-shadow]

[anxietyproblem]

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

I just don’t care about life that much anymore

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

I didn’t want to, and I tried to avoid it for so long but u were so persistent so I gave u my heart.. and now u r stepping on it. Thanks boo

[kosmogrl]

[g3r4rd5-bl00d]

No ones ever missed me and I'm sure that people are glad that I'm out of their lives and I hate that I still think about them daily

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

I am so lonely lol 😂

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

Also, I want to quit smoking and I tried that today, had 4 cigarettes today, but I was struggling so hard omg

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

30 days restricting but not looking at the scale •

Day 1 today, ate nothing (yay)

Day 2: ate nothing, but drank a lot of alcohol

Day 3: ate a lot🤮 my friend came over and stayed during dinner, I did manage to convince her not to order in but we had bread with dips and different unhealthy snacks

[skinnygirlwannabeskinny]

[the-street-look]

[bec0ming-ash]

and body…stop complaining about being hungry

we are still at least 50% body fat…USE IT!!

🤬

[bec0ming-ash]

[iamdancingwiththedevil]

I feel so disgusting

[need2bthin4himx]

my motivations to lose weight!!

so i wont compare myself as much to others

so i will be able to always fit cute, small clothes

so i wont worry about my stomach

so people will like me more

so if a boy ever likes me ill be small and dainty for him

so people will be amazed at how small i am

so people wont even believe i can weigh so little

looking cute and thin in pretty dresses!!

summer/warm weather!!

so i can learn to love myself

so i can feel happy

so i will look effortlessly good because of how small i will be

so i can be guys' crushes

so people will admire me

so people will talk to me more

so people will worry about me

so i can be small and fragile

so people might be jealous

revenge on the guy who played w me (bonus!)

and also..

so i can workout without hating it

so i can be less hungry

so i will have more self-control

so i will be more active

so i will look good in photos and videos

I am determined to do this, even if I fail one day, I will get on track the next.