My ESCAPE

31 yo Autistic burnout Fandoms, Halloween and more Fandoms Trust me nothing to see here keep moving. ✨️ shitty takes & constantly word vomiting ✨️

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

Pinned Post? I feel like those are a thing?

Okay so I've been here for 12? 13? Years idk I'll update that when I get a notification.

I was a teen when I created this blog and I am completely a different person than who I was when this was created. It's crazy what healing and learning you have autism does to you mentally.

I use this as a journal when I'm suicidal because it's the only place I feel safe and authentically me. This is the only social media I have the rest I either never got or they got purged during a suicide attempt. I also share a lot of fandom stuff because this was first a fandom obsessed blog and will remain one.

In my free time, I like to host Taskmasters for my friends, and I share the process here if asked. I love devouring books, shows, video games, and movies. I will recommend the TV Time App to anyone who will listen. I will yap about every fandom I'm in there and here. (This aged poorly with them selling us out and deleting the whole app, so I'll recommend Refract instead)

Idk I think that's it? What else do people put in these? There's not really a lot to follow here as I don't like being perceived, and I have bad takes half the time.

[i-say-stupid-things]

i’m gonna hold your hand with a glove on when i say this

when disabled/chronically ill people tell you they can’t do something, then that is not your cue to tell them that they can actually or that they’ll always find an excuse if they’re looking for one.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes that doesn’t mean it’s outside the realm of possibility, sometimes it means if they (attempted to) do that, they will seriously hurt themselves.

when a disabled/chronically ill person says they can’t do something, sometimes it’s preventative care, and they refuse to do that thing to prevent a flare up from happening/their symptoms getting worse in the first place.

disabled/chronically ill people are not “looking for excuses”, they are giving you reasons why. something they don’t even have to do! so maybe just accept the reasons they give you.

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

Being called lazy by my family because I can't work. I've tried working since I was 17 and 15 jobs later and 6 suicide attempts later I've finally accepted I can't work a normal job because the world wasn't made for disabled humans.

I keep telling my family I can't exist like they do and instead they take it as me being lazy and staying in my pity party world and not pulling myself up and out of it.

Yet they wonder why I don't spend time with them.

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

I'm all out of will to live. I tried to get a job to help my husband pay bills and it caused a suicide attempt.

I am at my wits end here and then our only car to which he gets to and from work with finally died. Then my state banned the only thing truly keeping me alive. He has a bad knee so walking to work will only get us one step closer to homeless. We have no groceries in the house either.

Just at lowest right now and things keep piling on. Our dryer broke recently too but I asked my mom for help with that one. Which wasn't free I paid her back and paid her back with guilt as well.

I almost killed myself a week ago and here I am about to finally go through with it because I am not helping my husband im only hindering him.

My friends say they care but also tell me to suck it up and pull myself up. One friend promised we would struggle together but after she found money she chose greed instead.

I don't have a problem working I have a problem with my mental health and can't reliably hold a job. I am diagnosed autistic and major depression and major anxiety. I'm not on disability. My husband makes too much for any state Healthcare or ebt. I help friends clean or organize for pennies. I do shitty surveys for pennies. I cut our food budget to $80 a month because we can barely afford rent.

I hate to ask for help when I know others have it way worse than me but I deserve to live even though I'm disabled. I have tried to work a standard job and I've had 6 suicide attempts from it. I need help.

How long until my friends decide im too much and not worth the effort. How long can my husband put up with me.

Fuck I don't know what to do maybe I should just end it all

[livelovelaugh-777]

[stillnotmollified]

willing to bet money that “no, go back” is the least-pressed button in the history of the internet

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

April Fools they should switch the buttons around because muscle memory would catch so many people

[justsomepetermemes]

[eraserheadadult]

can i be real with you i'm gonna start biting people

[phantomrose96]

job interviewer: would you be willing to destroy and betray yourself for nothing?

[teathattast]

[salmonella-destroyer-of-worlds]

[bowlby4]

[myquitebluetomb]

Catherine using all her brain cells to figure out the game early on only to get stuck in a Pic Pong limbo because the images are too nonsensical to her 😭😭😂😂

she may have lost the game but she won our hearts for sure!!!!

[stonathantruther]

source: unknown

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

There's a movie like this but a sea bouy and a space satellite idk I haven't seen the movie

[iamnotallowedinmybrainanymore]

I want to be a PA on GameChanger for a day. I'm free if you fly me out, Sam. I promise not to ask where you're from. @samreich

[liberalsarecool]

Capitalism rewards extraction, not creation.

[passionpeachy]

a message for workaholics + people who call sunfish “useless” animals

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