with chronic illness the fun never ends

Sam. 30. ▪general anxiety disorder & depression▪ ▪pelvic floor dysfunction▪ ▪interstitial cystitis▪ ▪endometriosis▪ ▪vulvodynia▪ main blog: leiahappenstolikenicemen

[paulfrankjuliusthemonkey]

shirt that says my childhood drags behind me like a dead body

[ic-probs]

Top 5 most painful moments...

1) getting my iud put in 2) when I think my ovarian cyst sprouted 3) this past thanksgiving when I filled my softcup like three times in eight hours 4) the time on the road trip to Dallas when I was bleeding so heavily it sounded like I was peeing 5) Post surgery co2 gas pain that in my weakened state I said was a 10 but it was probably a 9

[ic-probs]

UPDATE

1) dye study on my fallopian tubes

2) IUD placement

3) ovarian cyst

4) Thanksgiving period pain

5) co2 pain

Fuck that dye study. I’m wrecked.

[ic-probs]

UPDATE:

1. Ovarian cyst 2020

2. Dye study

3. Iud placement

4. Ovarian cyst 2012

5. Thanksgiving period pain

Fuck me, man

[leiahappenstolikenicemen]

Update:

Nothing to change, just want to point out that giving birth doesn’t make the list.

[ic-probs]

Update:

1. Ovarian cyst 2020

2. Dye study

3. IUD

4. Ovarian cyst 2012

5. THIS MOTHER FUCKING EAR INFECTION OH MY GOD

[freshpickle]

fuck i completely forgot i need to curl up on my couch and scroll my phone for six hours. can we reschedule

[bizarrelovesquare]

unironically love the phrase “but I’m being so brave about it” because truly, like, what other choice do we have in this wretched existence? what a beautiful way to remind yourself to keep going, even if only out of spite

[crazycatsiren]

Bragging about refusing to take medications/never wanting to be on medications/managing without medications ever to someone who requires medications to live is a real dick move, has nobody told you that.

[hellyeahscarleteen]

How to Finger Your Partner When You Have Chronic Pain in Your Hands

A few minor adjustments can make fingering easier, even when chronic pain is cramping your style.

[chaotic-archaeologist]

Yes. Excellent. All of the above. In this house we love inclusive and accessible sex education!

[ieailu]

it’s so crucial that i lay down for a bit

[valtsv]

"you look tired" well the torment is relentless and the horrors never cease

[nepofledgling]

in pain and I’m not being brave about it I’m actually being very whiny and dramatic

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

So many people genuinely believe that if you're struggling with your mental or physical health, it must be because you're doing something wrong or because you aren't doing enough. So to the disabled people who need to hear it: I believe that you're doing everything you can to manage your diagnosis. Life isn't actually fair and your struggles aren't your own fault in any sense of the word.

[ic-probs]

Greatest hits of doctor idiocy:

* telling me at three years old that if I didn't suck it up and have surgery, people would make fun of my appearance for the rest of my life.

Accuracy rating: 2/10.

* calling me out for self injury in front of my mother and blaming my migraines on choosing to be depressed.

Accuracy rating: 4/10. I was cutting myself but neither choosing my depression or migraines.

* telling me I am at fault for my stroke because I took birth control.

Accuracy rating: who's to say? But considering I was seeing this doctor for a UTI, it wasn't really relevant.

* "if I'd known to take your anxiety seriously, I never would have treated you."

Accuracy rating: 10/10 he definitely should have never treated me 🤣

* "you won't lose anything spending the next two years trying my fertility plan"

Accuracy rating: 0/10. Obviously.

* telling me there was no way his office authorized my refills and I was buying my Lexapro on the street.

Accuracy rating: do people sell Lexapro on the street? I definitely don't know the right people for that.

* "you can't take any antidepressants when pregnant and you have to take a pregnancy test before each appointment to prove to me you aren't pregnant"

Accuracy rating: misogyny

* telling me I don't know what my own period cramps feel like after I passed out into a trash can.

Accuracy rating: embarrassed apology after CT results showed a ruptured cyst.

* the fact that I cross my legs is the reason I have vulvodynia.

Accuracy rating: unknown. But I don't flash my patients my underwear at every appointment, so I must be doing something right.

* "you need to ttc for six months before we'll help you"

Accuracy rating six months later: "you need to try for a year before we'll help you." 0/10

* telling me I can't cancel my appointment because I'm not in charge and that's not how this works

Accuracy rating: 0/10. Kiss my entire ass.

* "we need your food diary so we know you aren't starving yourself!" (Laughs like this is a ridiculous assertion)

Accuracy rating: all 12 years of eating disorder recovery offended at once.

[harmonymelody]

"Before I’d gotten sick, I assumed that the medical system would care for me as well as it possibly could, with the entire objective rigour science could muster. As a previously healthy upper-middle-class white cis woman – a person of privilege, in other words – I had been given, in my brief encounters with medicine, no reason to suppose otherwise. But as I became more entangled in the medical system, I discovered that I was deeply mistaken."

The Invisible Kingdom: Reimagining Chronic Illness by Meghan O'Rourke

[disagigglebilities]

Doctors be like

[selves-acceptance]

there is no way to hate myself into becoming a person i like.

there is no way to shame myself into a better life.

i can’t motivate myself to heal in the same ways i encouraged my own destruction.

[knifefightscene]

The truth is most people think being disabled is a death sentence but instead of advocating for disabled people they r convinced that they’ll never become disabled as if being disabled is some biblical punishment. Guess what? Accidents happen. You will get old and your body will stop working like it used to. Imagine if we live in a world where disability is seen as normal. Where we actually take care of each other.

[naturesafterthought]

Friends, I am straight up not having a good time.

[zodiyactus]

Just because I turn my pain into humor doesn’t mean I find it funny