*insert witty quip*

"34 year old female with extensive history of star wars addiction and self-inflicted poly-relationship emotional abuse – including mainlining han/leia – here with a cough productive of several character names. patient previously followed regularly with primary care md but missed last two scheduled appointments and was last seen trading her home address to strangers on the internet in exchange for star wars toys." 34/F/NV I'm Joelle Rose, and I'm taken.

[joellesolo]

remember to always be a D.R.E.A.M.E.R:

Delight in the Revelry of Eating A Multitude of cotton candy grapEs Repeatedly

[joellesolo]

Happy spring friends 🌸

(I just finished the tags and realized I could've just written out a post instead of making the post in the tags, but hey, I've been on this hellsite for over fifteen years and that's how we used to do it, so... 🤷🏽‍♀️😂)

[importantcatpics]

[drtanner]

The whole photo is gold but I especially like that the automated feeder is taped to the fucking floor.

[joellesolo]

@monkeymeghan

[joellesolo]

Lately, my fatigue has been... overwhelming, I guess? I don't know the right word for it, my brain is fried, mush, whatever. I can't wake up in the morning (it takes me literally an hour and a half to two hours to wake up), and then I spent pretty much all day sleeping after I take the girls to school unless I have an appointment or I have to take the girls to one... and you can bet your ass I'm passed out in the meantime between. So I saw my internal med doctor on Monday and she ordered a bunch of bloodwork for me to do which I was going to do yesterday after I dropped the girls off, but I ended up, you guessed it, oversleeping, to the point that Michael had to bring the girls to school, so I didn't even leave the house yesterday. The plan was to bring them to school today, hightail it back to the house for a telehealth appointment, and then go get it done, but now that I'm done with the telehealth I'm just like... nooo... don't make me change again from my cozy pjs... especially because it's about to rain... and little Elsa bun curled up in my legs... and... I'm just so eepy I can barely keep my eyes open... send help...

BUT the problem is if I want to stop being eepy I need the bloodwork done... to get the bloodwork done I need to get changed and leave the house... but I am so so eepy... I know there's a term for this conundrum but I cAN'T FUCKING REMEMBER WHAT IT'S CALLED BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO FUCKING PASS OUT 😭

[emiliamildner]

The One who is born of Blood and Ash, the Light and the Fire, and the Brightest Moon 🌙🗡️

A poster spin on one of my older artworks of Sera. By now you probably figured out posters are my favourite thing to design and I would love to make a couple more in various styles. Any character/book suggestions?

Inspired by A Shadow in the Ember (Flesh & Fire series) by Jennifer L Armentrout

[joellesolo]

14 and 17 for the ask game :)

14. if you could give a TED talk on anything, what would you talk about?

Oh, jeeze. I don't really know! I don't actually really know what TED talks are?? Don't you need to be super smart for those 😂 my only areas of expertise are the ex-canon Star Wars expanded universe and romantasy books, ha. I don't know, maybe my lived experiences with chronic and mental illnesses I guess? Unless you're supposed to give out advice, then, I have no advice 😅

17. do you believe in luck and superstition? Do you carry any lucky items or follow any lucky rules?

Kind of! Enough to believe I'm super unlucky, anyway, ha. I do wish at 11:11 every time I catch it though, which is nearly every day? But, I don't throw salt over my shoulder or avoid ladders or... I don't know, that's all the superstitions I know, I think!

[sesamie]

simple asks to help bolster ask culture again

What's your blog title from?

What movie have you watched most recently? What did you think of it?

what are you looking forward to right now?

if you could do anything at all today, what would it be?

What's your drink of choice? (Coffee/tea order, alcohol of choice, pop, etc)

What's your hair routine like? Anything special?

what's your favorite way to travel? Is there a mode of travel you haven't done that you want to experience?

favorite month of the year and why?

favorite time of day and why?

do you play or follow any sports? & elaborate on that?

what kind of music is stuck in your head a lot lately?

dishes or laundry?

what's something you learned recently?

if you could give a TED talk on anything, what would you talk about?

What's a piece of advice you find yourself giving a lot?

what's a piece of advice you would give to yourself five years ago?

do you believe in luck and superstition? Do you carry any lucky items or follow any lucky rules?

Are you musical? Play any instruments or sing? Would you ever perform for an audience?

Write, type, or speak?

what do you wish someone would ask you?

[kaelio]

[bagadew]

[roboco-san]

you have to play drums on the dog. you have to. it's essential to their health and happiness.

[ebb-is-learning]

being anti ai is making me feel like in going insane. "you asked for thoughts about your characters backstory and i put it into chat gpt for ideas". studies have proven its making people dumber. "i asked ai to generate this meal plan". its causing water shortages where its data centers are built. "ill generate some pictures for the dnd campaign". its spreading misinformation. "meta, generate an image of this guy doing something stupid". its trained off stolen images, writing, video, audio. "i was talking with my snapchat ai-" theres no way to verify what its doing with the information it collects. "youtube is impletmenting ai based age verification". my work has an entire graphics media department and has still put ai generated motivational posters up everywhere. ai playlists. ai facial verification. google ai microsoft ai meta ai snapchat ai. everyone treats it as a novelty. every treats it as a mandatory part of life. am i the only one who sees it? am i paranoid? am i going insane? jesus fucking christ. if i have to hear one more "well at least-" "but it does-" "but you can-" im about to lose it. i shouldnt have to jump through hoops to avoid the evil machine. have you no principles? no goddamn spine? am i the weird one here?

[joellesolo]

We took Elsa to get pampered and while wandering the aisles so she couldn't see us through the glass and freak out, the girls spotted this AMAZING collar, and, well... it's me. LOOK AT IT. How could I pass it up?!

So, look at her. What a smart looking pup 😏😎😍

[cheaphalloweencostume]

this puppy currently being fostered by a rescue i follow makes me feel like. like. i don’t know. she’s a bug

[cheaphalloweencostume]

her name is Primrose. jesus christ man

[cheaphalloweencostume]

i cant fucking do this

[cheaphalloweencostume]

team used napkin and mold spore

[jmoonjones]

Mermay 2024

[jmoonjones]

I meant 2025.

Life has been ON ONE as they say 🤦‍♀️

[joellesolo]

tw: death

Today would be Gabe's thirty eighth birthday. Friday, he'll have been gone twenty six years.

If you've been around for a bit, you'll know I've always struggled with this time of year... throw in Jill's death a couple of weeks ago, and Michael leaving for a work trip at five am this morning, so, I knew it wasn't going to be a good week.

I did not, however, figure into the mix getting a phone call a few hours ago that my aunt (my mom's younger sister) is brain dead. That was way out of left field.

Struggling with two young children who miss their dad and are rebelling with a grieving mom who can't keep it together is really not, not fun. You'd think I'd be grateful it's bed time, except the normal bed time routine takes roughly an hour and a half (sometimes longer) and I just... don't have that in me right now.

Oh, did I mention my endo is flaring? send help.

[joellesolo]

tw: death

I found out a couple hours ago a close family friend died in a house fire. She happened to be an amazing singer/songwriter.

She was instrumental in helping me get through my brother's accident/death and the trauma that followed, when she stayed at our house for a month the following year. She taught me to play the guitar and we would make up the silliest songs, and play her songs, and... I'm just absolutely devastated. I got the text from my uncle and just collapsed. The girls have never seen me lose it like that. I'm just... I don't even know how to put it into words, this gaping hole in my heart.

Rest in peace, Jill. You will be so missed. Thank you for everything you did for that eight year old girl twenty five years ago, and ever since.

[polls-everyday]

How many first cousins do you have?

none

1

2

3

4

5

6 - 10

11 - 15

16 - 20

more than 20

Voting ended onMar 3, 2025

[joellesolo]

Thanks for the love and thoughts you guys. We just got Lil home a little bit ago. She's in good spirits and feeling a bit better, and we've got an action plan. I appreciate you all ❤️