bit of a vent. it's not really hugely sad it's just me kinda going 'AAAAAGGHHH THIS SSSSUUCCCKKKKSSSSS' 😋 anyway trigger warning, all of tetro is mentioned..... this includes chapter 3 tetro blue... beware❗❗
i wanna leave the tetro fandom so bad but that means deleting my entire tumblr account 🥀🥀🥀 and also potentially leaving the whole fangan community because it's all intertwined with tetro 🥀🥀🥀
AAAAUGGGHHHHH
i wanna move onto fandoms that actually make me happy, like going back to tma or watching my favourite tv shows or object shows or even finally finishing reading crooked kingdom. instead i keep brainrotting about my favourite characters. which is not good when your favourite character went crazy after chapter 3 and replaced some guy's eyes with 8 balls 😁
it's like when i left c.ai and i knew i would keep going back to it so i had to delete my account. except now it's tumblr 😨 which kinda sucks. also as someone who wants to be a writer tetro is one of the worst possible pieces of media i could be into because it is, quite frankly, absolutely shite ❤️ like i've tried defending it, then i tried saying it was alright to keep enjoying it even though the writing, then i said i could enjoy it because the fandom was creating art for ourselves and rewriting it. none of that really worked out so like... 💀
also this is one of my longest and most crazy fixations and i'd honestly like it to go away now but it's not going to if i don't do anything about it, that's lowkey just how my brain works i guess?
aaaaalso also also tetro massively reminds me of a friend i used to have who really wasn't in a good place mentally and i don't think it's helping me move on from them by continuing to engage in a piece of media that is VERY MUCH like their ocs. and by VERY MUCH i mean... the shock therapy and lobotomy aspects. ☹️. yeah not great!!!!!!
fangans were something i was very into a few years ago around lockdown and i don't know what it is about them that i find so interesting but tetro was especially refreshing because like. i get cool voice acting? and deep character stories? and angst? and some of the original danganronpa concept? niceeeee!!! and then it went to shit obviously. some part of me thinks that the longer i stay in the fangan community, the more likely it is that there will be more fangan creators exposed for things and more internet controversies. i knowwww that's pessimistic 🥀 but this is danganronpa and i think people kind of left danganronpa behind in 2020 and i wonder if it's time for me to do that too?
so yeah. cowabummer












