Those idiots. With all due respect, mostly towards her, however still applying. None of them got any idea what's going on, and Jax cannot decide if it's funny or terrifying. A little bit of both. For the more boring probably just terrifying. Trapped in a digital world, memory not working, blah blah blah.
As much as he realised that he doesn't need to be that much of a prick, he had decided a long time ago that if it's the darkest under the lantern, therefore if he wants not to be found out, he needs to stand out as much as possible. Even if at an expanse of a few broken masks.
If he actually were to put effort into this, he'd end up wooing someone and even if one girl in particular was just his type, he couldn't afford such a distraction.
Not flirting with anyone was slowly getting to him, yeah, the thrill of making someone a blushing mess or trying to match his attitude was the best kind of emotional rollercoaster. He absolutely loved it. The constant conversation monitoring and looking for ways to woo his current chat partner even just a bit... Yes, that's what he missed.
A little switch up from the current carousel of fuckery, some fun interactions... Will it be weird if he becomes a drunken flirt? One can't live off constant high bully-like tensions. Violence is funny, but he needs a break. Maybe Gangle could take over his duties as The Funny One, or something.
The game of life out there in real world was far better than whatever this circus had going on. This circus was not his, the monkeys weren't his either, and yet he was supposed to save them. Somehow.
As soon as he remembers how to save himself, possibly. Cause oh boy, he is d r o w n i n g.
Either in love or in madness. Undisclosed detail.
They might be one and the same either way.