IDK, I Like Denial

I probably look like a bot. I'm not a bot. I just like denial and want a place to keep all kinds of smut to look at when I'm horny.

[black-operations-deactivated201]

romantic bedroom idea: make it hurt

[girlhumiliation]

20 Reasons why I don’t deserve orgasms (Female self humiliation)

(1) 12.10pm: I don’t deserve to cum because I’m a pathetic toy whose pleasure doesn’t matter. I’m supposed to give pleasure, not get any. Whether I cum or not is irrelevant. (2) 12.25pm: I don’t deserve to cum because it’s my job to keep myself frustrated and focused on other people’s pleasure. The faster I understand that I’m not going to cum anytime soon, the more I’ll work to make you happy. Your pleasure becomes mine. (3) 12.32pm: The hornier I am, the more open I am to your ideas, the more malleable I am to become the thing you want me to be. I shouldn’t be allowed to cum because my purpose is to become what you want me to be. (4) 1.14pm: I don’t deserve to cum because I haven’t been useful today. I haven’t served anyone or made anyone cum. I need to work for my pleasure. (5) 1.20pm: I should be grateful I even get to touch my sopping filthy hole and it isn’t just locked away. I have two other perfectly functional holes; keeping this one wet and ready is irrelevant. (6) 2.26pm: Women get to cum. Women actually get to cum first, multiple times, even before the man does. But I’m not a woman. I’m a toy for your amusement. (7) 3.00pm: When I’m horny, I stop thinking, which is the best state of mind for me. I don’t need to think. I need to obey. My mind and my preferences are not important. (8) 3.00pm (actually did these together): The more desperate I am, the more ready I’ll be to do ever more filthy and pathetic acts for you. Things other women, those with dignity refuse. I need to be kept desperate so I forget concepts like self respect and dignity. (9) 4.20pm: I shouldn’t be allowed to cum because it keeps me ready for abuse. There’s no need to waste time on getting me ready and I’m still wet and slick for you to use. Just bend me over and enjoy my holes. (10) 4.25pm: The longer I go without cumming, the harder it is for me to deny that I’m just a cunt. I smell like one, I’m always aware of it. I can’t pretend to be a normal person with all this throbbing and leaking between my legs. Denial shows me what I really am.   (11) 4.35pm: I don’t deserve to cum because it teaches me that I’m not a person with free will. I need to beg for everything I want and depend on your kindness and mood to let me have it.   (12) 4.48pm: My orgasms are meaningless if they aren’t sanctioned by someone else. The only way I should be allowed to cum is if it somehow amuses someone. Just as I am useless without having served someone, so are my orgasms. (13) 4.55pm: I don’t deserve to cum because it keeps me focused on my true purpose. I plan my day around edging and sex toy tasks. I don’t waste time on silly gossip or eating junk. Edging becomes my drug and sort of pushes out all the other negative habits.   (14) 5.05pm: I shouldn’t be allowed to cum because it makes other people’s orgasms so much more precious. My entire life should be about getting fulfilment from their satisfaction. (15) 5.18pm: I don’t deserve to cum because it reminds me I’m a sloppy stinky set of holes that deserves contempt and pity rather than a person deserving of kindness and equality. (16) 8.25pm: I don’t deserve to cum. I barely even deserve to be fucked. All I deserve is to sit in the corner of the room while you fuck someone prettier and laugh at me. (17) 8.42pm: Orgasms tend to signal the end of a fucking. But my role as a fucktoy never really ends. I’m always a pathetic whore who needs cock and cum. It’s who I am. Being allowed to cum would strip me of purpose. (18) 8.55pm: I don’t deserve to cum, especially for pleasure. The only way I should get to cum is in hugely humiliating situations. Covered in piss or embarrassing myself in public. Make me cum to prove to me how much you’ve broken me. Make my orgasms proof of my debasement. (19) 9.11pm: When I lie in bed tonight, wide awake in the darkness, my cunt wetter than ever, my clit throbbing, it’s going to be very hard for me to think about anything other than cock and cunt and orgasms. That is where I need my mind to be all the time. Sex toys don’t need to worry about anything else. (20!) 9.28pm: I don’t deserve to cum because you’ll probably find it funny to see me so desperate that I’m humping inanimate objects and rubbing myself on your shoe like a dog in heat - all in the hope that you’ll let me have one tiny orgasm.  

[devotionaltraining]

Devotional Training

[cass-ie-opeia]

Nearly all of these realllly do it for me.

[deliciae-delectae]

Need to reblog frequently for cunts to read and be reminded why a “sloppy stinky set of holes” doesn’t need or deserve orgasms.

[feministfuckdolltrainer]

@pretty-pink-wifey, read all of these out loud to yourself.

[femaleteaseanddenial]

Words to live by, sluts.

[idk-ilikedenial]

I fucking love lists like this ☺️☺️☺️

[idk-ilikedenial]

So does that mean you will?

Guess you’ll have to find out in the morning 🤷🏻‍♀️

[idk-ilikedenial]

Obviously I’m not your Dom, but if you’re looking for advice/guidance/opinion/preference, I think you should. And let us know how it feels in the morning. I cant wait to read it.

I don’t mind a little advice/guidance/opinion/preference from followers/strangers. Helps make decisions easier sometimes.

[idk-ilikedenial]

Are you going to sleep with the dildo in again tonight?

I don’t know. I’m torn. It’s sore but I like how wet it makes me but I am sore. It’s in right now and it’s not as comfortable as it usually is. 😣

[idk-ilikedenial]

Now accepting synonyms for dildo

I played a little, I teased, etc. I still haven’t cum. I can’t decide if I should sleep with my dildo or not. Still sore, but it’s such a turn on.

Decisions are hard. And I’ve been drinking which makes them harder.

I hate the word dildo. Now accepting alternatives.

[idk-ilikedenial]

I spread some (read: more than I should have) arousal gel on my dildo thinking it wouldn’t really be that effective.

Guess who was happily wrong.

[idk-ilikedenial]

Now accepting synonyms for dildo

I played a little, I teased, etc. I still haven’t cum. I can’t decide if I should sleep with my dildo or not. Still sore, but it’s such a turn on.

Decisions are hard. And I’ve been drinking which makes them harder.

I hate the word dildo. Now accepting alternatives.

[idk-ilikedenial]

I have a snow day from work tomorrow so I’m drunk and wet. I’d be wet even if I didn’t have a snow day tomorrow but I do so I’m also drinking.

I should not be drinking and playing because that’s how accidental orgasms happen but 🤷🏻‍♀️

Actually that’s kinda a lie. I’m usually much meaner to myself when I’ve been drinking. Or want someone to be mean to me.

[idk-ilikedenial]

Even though I was still a little bit sore from sleeping with my dildo the night before, I couldn’t help but play this morning and by play I mean a slow gentle fucking with my dildo. 😂

[idk-ilikedenial]

I gotta admit, denying on my own, all self directed, isn’t quite as good as denying for someone else or being teased by someone else, even super casually one scene at a time.

Like, I don’t want a 24/7 dynamic. I don’t do well with that. I don’t know what I want, but it isn’t 100% solo time, either.

[idk-ilikedenial]

For anyone keeping track

Okay I know it’s just me but still.

I’m continuing my not cumming again tonight. I’m a bit sore from sleeping with my dildo last night, so I might skip that part. But I might sleep bound instead, either spread eagle (might be too cold for that) or something more simple.

[idk-ilikedenial]

For the last three days, every time I try to start playing with the intent of not cumming, I let myself cum anyway. I have no regrets, but tonight I’m actually gonna try really hard to not cum. For real this time. 😂

[idk-ilikedenial]

Update: it’s 11:00, I’m pretty much on my way to bed (with my dildo because i really like sleeping with it so sue me) and I haven’t cum tonight.

Go me. Look at all this self control I have.

[idk-ilikedenial]

There are few feelings I like better than a dripping cunt. Few feelings I like better than a cock sliding into place, whether real or fake. Few feelings I like better than the way my brain gets fuzzy when presented with an edge or two.

[idk-ilikedenial]

For the last three days, every time I try to start playing with the intent of not cumming, I let myself cum anyway. I have no regrets, but tonight I’m actually gonna try really hard to not cum. For real this time. 😂

[idk-ilikedenial]

I’ve been being a productive person today so I haven’t done much teasing but now I’m laying in bed with hard cider and trying to decide if I want to continue being productive or if I want to toss it all aside and play.

Decisions are hard 🤷🏻‍♀️

[idk-ilikedenial]

Would you believe it I’ve decided I should play. Totally unexpected. Who woulda guessed.

[idk-ilikedenial]

I’ve been being a productive person today so I haven’t done much teasing but now I’m laying in bed with hard cider and trying to decide if I want to continue being productive or if I want to toss it all aside and play.

Decisions are hard 🤷🏻‍♀️

[kinkykatdomme]

One of my favorite fantasies is casual teasing. Watching a movie with my hand down your panties, completely ignoring you as you become a wet whimpering mess. I’d pretend not to hear you panting or feel you squirming against me. What a wreck, getting hot an bothered while I sit composed and unaffected. And then just as randomly as I started, I’d leave you bereft and wanting. 

[idk-ilikedenial]

This is literally my dream tbh. This exactly the kind of dynamic I want.