The Disgraceful Oli Grace @idontknowhowdude-blog - Tumblr Blog

And we try.

I bought a new skateboard. still not sure if I want to relearn how to push not mongo, or just embrace the mongo.

got a piercing, helix, we like.

#im taking strides #the disgraceful oli grace

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I’m back?

about a year ago I was deep in my minimalism journey, trying to distinguish who I am and what I want.

Since then I’ve made some progress, but I havent put a lot of care into myself in that same way for most of this 2019.

I have reached maintainable minimalism and its comfortable and my apt is always as clean as I like.

I’m mostly working on good habits at the moment, like remembering to moisturize and physical care.

the last few weeks I have thought about skateboarding again...and I think the issue is that I crave a sport.

I miss badminton, and skateboarding, though I never got that good. Running on the path nearby or lifting at the gym is not vibeing the same way...I want the play of a sport.

so I hope to progress this account on my newer journeys. face some fears n such.

I don’t know how, but I can try.

#the disgraceful oli grace #idkhowdude

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Me, at my character whom I created, whose dialogues I write, whose actions I decide, whose development and personality are completely under my control: Why are you such a bitch

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It’s the projection.

hiatus much?

I took a minimalism journey over the last few months. I ended up getting rid of tons of things so I could move more easily. Barely a month later I decided to do the minimalism challenge, getting rid of one thing day one, two things day two, etc.

I reevaluated my true self, ideal self, and fantasy self.

I came to the conclusion that skateboarding is a part of my fantasy self, and I sold my skateboard. so no more of that happening.

In other news...

I keep having thoughts and inquiries about the trans and nonbinary experience.

with no answer... so maybe I make my own?

#i tried minimalism #its feels good #the trans experience is what we make of it

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“And kid, you’ve got to love yourself. You’ve got wake up at four in the morning, brew black coffee, and stare at the birds drowning in the darkness of the dawn. You’ve got to sit next to the man at the train station who’s reading your favorite book and start a conversation. You’ve got to come home after a bad day and burn your skin from a shower. Then you’ve got to wash all your sheets until they smell of lemon detergent you bought for four dollars at the local grocery store. You’ve got to stop taking everything so goddam personally. You are not the moon kissing the black sky. You’ve got to compliment someones crooked brows at an art fair and tell them that their eyes remind you of green swimming pools in mid July. You’ve got to stop letting yourself get upset about things that won’t matter in two years. Sleep in on Saturday mornings and wake yourself up early on Sunday. You’ve got to stop worrying about what you’re going to tell her when she finds out. You’ve got to stop over thinking why he stopped caring about you over six months ago. You’ve got to stop asking everyone for their opinions. Fuck it. Love yourself, kiddo. You’ve got to love yourself.”

— Unknown (via help-n-quotes)

#because i always need this

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#space!#are we an aesthetic blog now? nope

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#this is me #my dark aesthetic #this is it

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#things to remember

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Someone: vaccines cause autism

Me:

[image description: the “guess I’ll die” meme but “die” is replaced with “be autistic because there’s nothing wrong with that and I’d rather not die of measles or some shit”]

#but damn if this aint true #rather not be sick or dead

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Want

Taking my board with me today. Trying to get in a little practice pushing not mongo today, as ive been putting it off for weeks.

Just saw two guys at the intersection skating to school. Or they looked like college students. Backpacks n all. And the first one i noticed because he had a board and i hoped he wasnt judging me for walking the cross instead of skating(im super self conscious about skating and being seen as a poser, im not, just a beginner whos really bad at being a beginner), but i noticed he crossed in mongo goofy like i usually push...

My biggest issue is worrying people are watching, and walkers passing is awkward too.

If i just stopped worrying i could take my time and LEARN.

#im a perfectionist #skate specific anxiety #i have a fear of falling #skating is fun #but also terrifying for a multitude of reasons #the disgraceful oli grace

Adventures of a new skater on an old board

I picked my skateboard up today, for the first time this year...

Im still super afraid of falling.

My balance is shit, and ive been learning mongo...

So basically I have to stop that right now and learn a more normal goofy push/stance.

I realised just now that that is what i have been doing, glad its a thing, but also hate that i cant turn via the tail and lifting the front as is. So imma have to relearn everything in goofy,(my preferred stance) but relearning to push with the weight in different places and on a new foot is gunna be hard.

#new skater #the disgraceful oli grace #i dont know how dude #i also realised my board is 10 yrs old #should i practice more falling