I talk a lot about mental health; mostly trauma, osdd1, autism, panic, pd's, neurodivergence in general and more.
I am a feminist, a disability advocate, antifa, POC ally, anti trans ID's, pro Lgbtqia, sex positive, pro education, anti psych, anti AfD.
I do not identitfy with endogenics and do not interact in their spaces.
Random likes: Musik, partying, going out at night, solitude, found family, woods and animals, alt clothes, sitting on roofs, red bull, ASMR, therapy
I'm trying to figure myself out and since im fronting more frequently it gets even more important. If I can educate people on systemhood and introjects, why not?
Russian songs that make you feel like your eyes are bloodshot, your veins are poisened and like youre about to either die or overthrow the governemtn with your hot companion while manic, why?
Do you mind questions from the fandom abt your source? Probably not but im curious and thought maybe it's fine?
Idk, I don't think I mind much. Asking doesnt hurt ig. It's fine. Plus more actual introject awarness in fandom spaces. Ya'll have permission to ask stupid questions, but if its insensitive shit I wont answer, tyvm✌️
I hope it's not an insensitive question, but how are you anti-psych, but like therapy?
I can explain, but CW here for discussion of psych wards and abuse.
Its a little of an emotional topic, but I can def explain. When I say anti-psych, I mean anti-psychiatry. Therapy is (sometimes under certain circumstances and with the right person) helpful, but psych wards tend to be inherently traumatizing and abusive, especially ones our *Host has been to.
Our Host read the Percy Jackson franchise while he was in a ward for the forst time out of three, it was a very traumatizing environment so me and a few others split. He talked abt the specific abuse (partially illegal stuff they did) on our main blog.
Because of the experience most of us are anti-psych and I think people should know that even tho sometimes those wards safe lives: it is horrible how they operate. For me personally it goes a step further and I struggle taking meds and trusting adults, but I still manage and understand it's important.
We do have a nice and actual helpful therapist we are willingly interacting with. That is a whole different story then what is going on in psych hospitals. Anti psych isn't anti therapy. You probably cant say all wards are abusive, bc Im sure many people had good experience. But as long as people frequently get CPTSD from wards (including us) it needs to be discussed.
I like therapy because I want to be seen and I want us to function, despite my caution. In the ward I formed as an *protector, since we are out I have been functioning as just me. Maybe I'm a *caretaker by now, but im trying just to be me, yk?
All in all I'm not sure if I like therapy or just want to challenge the therapist. But I'm pro-healing, so I gotta do what I gotta do for our well-being.
Anyway, asks are open.
*Host: an alter that fronts frequently for everyday stuff
*protector: an alter that physically or emotionally protects from abuse and pain
*caretaker: an alter that takes care of the wellbeing of other alters
I just noticed that when our Host will move in with his bsf/bf I will life there too ... idk that guy. Xe's nice, but ... situation 's awkward, bro. Before that we'll move in a group home tho. At least there will be no masking nessecary, I love hearing my own name for once, especially as one of the only girls here. I'm cautious and excited for unmasking tbh. It's gonna be good for finding myself tho (sappy, ik, shut it).
I think the lack of medical research and the amount of false information about introjects on the internet is damaging as fuck.
This is confusing enough as it is. Imagine youre here and confused and traumatized and alone and on top of it everybody tells you what to be and how to feel. You try to deal with it and do research on osdd1 introjects only to internalize it and learn it was all wrong. I just want to know what I am and why im here and what to do.
I feel so damn let down. I cant find any credibal research on my literal existence. I already struggle with just being and then this. I hate how we are being treated.
I'll try to share actual information on my blog and answer questions/asks as truthfull as I can. Especially now where we are seeing a trauma therapists and psychiatrist, I will be able to give actual insight soon, hopefully. Mostly for my sake tbh.
