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Do you know the this feeling?

I had a nightmare one that wouldnt end well i knew that. I always know it will be fucked up. But just a short moment i met someone in my dream who brought me such comfort such safety. Like a soft blanket all wrapped around. I felt comfortable i felt loved and for that second i didnt feel as lonely as i usually do. And then you wake up. All you can think about is that persons comfort even if you dont know them and the things that remind you of that moment makes you feel warm. Even if you know it is a nightmare it brought more comfort then being awake in this lonely prison called life.

Do you remember those days, yes indeed the days you would see your friends on a daily basis. Or those days where you could never feel alone. Those late night chats and those long time chillings in the sun. Those days oh what do i miss them. Why did it even stop. People call it growing up. Now we need to plan the dates. Weeks or even months before we see eachother again. No random visits or late nights. We grew up. And for what to work and sleep. To pay our bills even if we cant work at all. What i would give to bring back those days. Not worrying about tomorrow just here and now. Nobody cared if they went to bed on time or even went to bed at all. Those days people called me just to clear their head and we talked for hours. Those days where the only worry was the supermarket closing time to get some snacks. Those days where i didnt feel alone. Those days i didnt feel left out. Did i something wrong to the people around me? Or did they just grew up. Left town or just forgot about me. Oh what do i miss those days.