[ifthereisarighttime]

> kafka

> they/song/it

> 19

> DID system

> cluster b + c

pfp

[ifthereisarighttime]

lowk thinking about moving vent blogs. the tags of ts are a mess im crying we've had this shit for years. let me ponder

[ifthereisarighttime]

lowk thinking about moving vent blogs. the tags of ts are a mess im crying we've had this shit for years. let me ponder

[ifthereisarighttime]

oh and im supposed to? what? be understanding of your weird mental state while my brain desperately attempts to process your worst betrayal? you still didn't treat me like a human being in the moment. you still talked to me like i was a fucking science experiment. you didn't take actual accountability, you just wanted the punishment of it. you just wanted to use me to hurt yourself. i don't care if that's not how you thought ot it, that's what it felt like constantly. i couldn't possibly be mad at you because that's exactly what you wanted. you wanted me to scream and yell and insult you because you thought you deserved it and maybe you did but i loved you i loved you i loved you i didnt want to do that i loved you no matter how badly you hurt me and you knew that you told me you did you told me i was the only person you could lash out at who wouldn't leave you told me we'd need so much therapy for eachother in the future like it was funny you knew you weren't stupid and it was tragic and terrible and i hated that we both knew it was terrible and you were fucked but your awareness makes it feel like you're guilty in this too and maybe that means my awareness makes me guilty too but i tried it wasn't supposed to be like this but it was always going to be like this

[petaltexturedskies]

Sylvia Plath, from The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[mournfulroses]

Marisa Walz, from her book titled "Good Intentions," originally published in February 2026

[mournfulroses]

Catherynne M. Valente, from her book titled "Deathless," originally published in March 2011

[1110-pm-on-the-clock]

11:10

[mournfulroses]

Empress Jitō, from a poem titled "The Empress's Song," featured in Japanese Women Poets: An Anthology

[mournfulroses]

Edna St. Vincent Millay, from a poem titled "Interim," featured in The Complete Poems of Edna St. Vincent Millay

[weltenwellen]

Rainer Maria Rilke, Rilke’s Book of Hours

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

Red Doc>, Anne Carson

[ID: To feel anything deranges you. To be seen feeling anything strips you naked.]

[genius-lyrics]

Frank Ocean - White Ferrari

[r-siken-deactivated20210531]

saying your names, richard siken

[informationhazard-moved]

[weltenwellen]

Jean-Paul Sartre, Nausea

[zoemurphyrp]

“Just because I let you go doesn’t mean I wanted to.”

— (via have-a-goodnight)