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[ifuckmountains]

Good luck

When my bare feet hit the wet grass

I think of you

The replica of you from a far off past

Before the final crash blew

Your beautiful big brain

Upon the left turn passing lane

That version now dust

In the rear view pain

Young and strong

And full of lust

For someone else

That I’ll never be

You think you hide it good and well

But your stagnation

Tells me go to hell

And hell is me

This version and the last

And my name it spells

Your final chance

[ifuckmountains]

Existential dread

Holds me down

On my disappointment bed

Because of the things

He did and said

Because of the things

Inside my head

The past swims in open seas

When the souls has no place to be

You giveth

I’ll taketh

From the sycamore tree

Slowly climbing

Dead branches

For a taste of glee

[ifuckmountains]

Good luck

When my bare feet hit the wet grass

I think of you

The replica of you from a far off past

Before the final crash blew

Your beautiful big brain

Upon the left turn passing lane

That version now dust

In the rear view pain

Young and strong

And full of lust

For someone else

That I’ll never be

You think you hide it good and well

But your stagnation

Tells me go to hell

And hell is me

This version and the last

And my name it spells

Your final chance

[ifuckmountains]

Life is a red curtain rising

Ever so slowly

Exit left

Enter the ushering

Of wood plank floors

Tacky paint on textured walls

Books forgotten on shelves

Promises collecting dust

Empty confused tears

Lost dreams

Somber years

Wasted youth

On an oath

Desiccated fears

No future to stoke

Wasted truth

On a whimsy of hope

Sticky rotten fruit

Life is a joke

[ifuckmountains]

Existential dread

Holds me down

On my disappointment bed

Because of the things

He did and said

Because of the things

Inside my head

The past swims in open seas

When the souls has no place to be

You giveth

I’ll taketh

From the sycamore tree

Slowly climbing

Dead branches

For a taste of glee

[ifuckmountains]

when i sit in the chair

across from you

countertransference

convergence

it can’t be true

i

am

nothing

nothing

nothing

something

worth wanting

for a mind

so

daunting???????

[ifuckmountains]

I would have followed you into every room

To fight

To kiss

To jab

To be right

But you are not capable of being the other person

So consumed with self

You have no other purpose

Do you even know who you are

How to be

Anything other

Than the scared

The tired

The lonely

Version we see

[ifuckmountains]

The push and pull

Back and forth

Up and down

Forward we march

A dyslexic brain

Jumble the letters

Tumbling down

With

Soldiers

With

Jesters

When we entered the slide

It was all sneers and pesters

Now we sink to the bottom

Where

Hope

Does

Fester

[ifuckmountains]

I think about all the places you’ve been

All the faces you’ve seen

How I’ve never left this place

What do you see in me

I think about the time behind

That we can’t get back

If you think I’m pretty

Or just dumb and blind

I think about the space ahead

How love turns to scorn

If you really want me

Or if I’m better off dead

[ifuckmountains]

You did not want to be human with me

You wanted me to make you human

Because you are not

A man

The only thing you ever wanted

Was to see your crowns hanging from

My ceiling

You did not want them on my head

Proof that you existed

In a space so hard

To attain

The shrine I once had of you

Washed away with your remains