[ 生霊黄泉 ] today i offer my palms to dead lands and muted streets before death seams my eyelids, sews me in the skin of all the earth and sleeps forever in my hands.
—— the fact that this death fails to destroy me altogether means that i want to live wildly, madly, and that therefore the fear of my own death is always there, not displaced by a single inch.
# 𝐈𝐊𝐈𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐌𝐈 - independent, low-activity, headcanon-based 𝙺𝙸𝙺𝚈𝙾 from the anime / manga of the feudal fairytale titled 𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑦𝑎𝑠𝘩𝑎. re-established once again, with mix portrayal of both the anime and manga kept in mind, but overall considered to be canon-divergent. cherished forever by ailli ( she / 25+ ) and formerly known as : ofbellflowers.
GUIDELINES / QUICK RULE SNIPPET
1) this was a childhood series for me, and because of that it has been a very long time since i genuinely engaged with this content. because of this, there are a great many things i have forgotten and while i will attempt to rewatch / re-read certain scenes, my main focus will primarily be of kikyo and her role.
2) the love triangle, while it was a major component to the canon characterization of certain characters, it will not be for my kikyo. she will always carry complicated feelings for those two, but it will still carry a deep level of respect and distance. i, of course, will not force anyone to fit in my interpretation and i would appreciate to be given that same courtesy. the ship war is stupid, kikyo just wanna pick flowers with kids.
3) there is a very big difference between kikyo who was alive 50 years ago and the kikyo was remade 50 years later. a large component was how living kikyo’s powers was greatly connected to her emotions, and how she pushed herself to be exceptionally different from other humans. undead kikyo is not confined to this limitation. her powers is no longer intertwined with her emotions, nor is she as restricted as before. this blog focuses on the newer outlook she receives, her fascination, her pettiness, the joy / pain of re-living again, and accepting the inevitability of her fate. kikyo will always be a powerful priestess regardless of timelines, and i will not limit the extent of her abilities and intuition in anyway. her death(s) were very circumstantial and will not represent the gauges of her overall capabilities.
4) over all, this blogs want to put an emphasis about “how healthy it is to move on” and for kikyo to truly experience that. i want her to establish long-lasting relationships and explore how it would influence her. friendships who can empathize with her, kin-ship and familial ties who can allow her to further her own personal growth. relationships are important, and frankly i want people to see that kikyo is more socially awkward than how she presents herself.
5) I DO NOT PRACTICE EXLUSIVITY WITH ANYONE, especially given how small this fandom is. i also will forego the concept of mains at this time. this blog is single-ship with : kaimettsu. HOWEVER, unless otherwise plotted, this does not change the canon / lore that is related to kikyo and her tragedy. the rule only means i am not interested in writing more romantic ships, at this time since i am incredibly busy. platonic / friendship / kinship is highly encouraged.
𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃, 𝐄𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐍.silence forever a chosen contender within the cracks of solitary. so many years had changed them. so many words said. so many experiences shattering any remnants of sweet yesteryears. there is no going back from any of this. not when she once held a dagger to his throat, not when he questioned her character time and time again. the trust between them was already broken long before the spider tore into their tale.
and she has grown so dreadfully tired of this twisted fate.
❝ distance is necessary between us. ❞ marble lips utters at his presence. gentle like snowfall with a little hint of bittersweet sadness. there is forever nostalgia whispered in the air. she was no longer suffocating. ❝ — but nevertheless, i do sincerely wish for your happiness and peace.❞ // @thesilvermoonrays
kikyo, when she was alive, was considered a shinto miko whose powers was closely intertwined with the kami amaterasu. she preformed in the classic purification rituals, prayers, and was adept in strengthening her communication with the divine. needless to say, she is also well-verse in countless of feudal ceremonies that involves song and dance. her spiritual abilities was originally discovered when she was young and from then on, she was sent away to study under a notable shaman. her lifestyle since became extremely strict, but her powers only grew stronger by the day. her dedication and devotion to amaterasu originally marked her as beloved by the gods, but even the divine is shown to be quite petty the moment the miko begins to stray emotionally.
kikyo's abilities is said to have withered the moment she begins to fall in love, but in all likelihood it just conflicted with her original vows of abstinence ( even a simple kiss was seen to be incredibly scandalous ). kikyo's downfall was that she was slowly turning away from the practices that raised her and not because of tsubaki's curse / her emotions. the fact that she was implied to have been sent to hell --- also shows how much the kami's did not forgive her for tainting her original oath to them. nevertheless, the bond between kikyo and the gods was severed and when she finally returned to the land of the living, it was clear that those restriction no longer confined her. ironically, kikyo only became even more powerful dead then she was alive.
VERSUS / XV : once considered an extraordinary priestess in ancient times, kikyo lived in an isolated territory that was later claimed by the kingdom of tenebrae. more accurately, she once belonged to the oracle tribe gentiana hailed from ( unlike xv, gentiana was the oracle in versus. ) kikyo was originally marked by the fal'cie lindzei, but following her untimely death, it was etro who took mercy on her pitiful soul. reborn to modern lucis, kikyo continues to exhibit unusual and unique abilities that is considered exclusive to tenebrae. following the fall of lucis and niflheim invasion, kikyo serves as healer to the displaced regardless of affiliation. due to her prior passing with etro, kikyo too maintains her death-seeing eyes.
MODERN : due to the events of the final act feudal fairytale, kikyo's great soul was split into two. the first one being that in which kagome and the shikon jewel are reborn, and the other being the combined essence of the spirit kikyo and midoriko. kikyo is reborn once more with kaede. due to her talents and educational merits, kikyo follows a career path befitting that of a doctor. however, despite the modern lifestyle, kikyo still maintains a heightened sense of spiritual abilities and alertness.
❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state, priestess? ❜
𝟐𝟎𝟎 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒
@arrachnes
𝐀𝐍 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐎𝐁𝐒𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐑𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐘 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐂𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐒𝐄𝐃. one of vengeance and the other dancing alongside the fine line of love and hatred. the spider and bell-flora. his beginning and her end, their fate intertwined and painted with the bloodiest red. porcelain features beheld timeless attribute, her gaze ever-defiant and noble remains uplifted with divine confidence. she commanded his heart was the undeniable truce between overwhelming powers. free to move, free to run, free to laugh. how terrifyingly ironic that it had been this twisted bond to free her from her pitiful state of mortality.... she abhorred it : her own existence and righteous oath.
❝ the only way i am able to appear before you, is simply if you or rather your heart, willed it to be. ❞ calm exterior manifest within the clarity of her lips. yes, she abhorred him. however, there is still a purpose left for his unforgivable life. the jewel and this halfling shall share the same end, that is her promise she shall make to him alone. ( does that bring you joy, onigumo ? ) the priestess that once offered him clemency, had ultimately given her untimely demise. she shall do the same to him as penance. she teases, ❝ unless perhaps you seek to recreate the first time we had encountered each other ? ❞ back when he was a bandit, broken and defeated. she holds back her smile at the absurdity of such remark. ❝ you are certainly as miserable as you were then. are you hoping for another treatment from your dearest kikyo ? ❞
𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐋𝐘 𝐏𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇 𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐀𝐘 nimble fingers labors through demonic effervescent. sharp and suffocating : it tears through unseen flesh and atoms until it is met with holy retribution. behold, the power of a priestess. purity-wielded. virtuous. restrained. ebony strands tugs alongside faded gesture and ivory ribbon. silence commands certainty, and with it comes prodigal potency. she has never lacked for skills, and sending prayers was nothing more than routine. the gods scorn her and the demons fears her perfection. gentle diligence whispers orison from her lips and as she turns to you, she regals you with her own keen observation.
❝ your heart ... is troubled, is it not ? ❞ she can sense yearning hidden within the mist. an unhealthy obsession nearly in par with a deceitful spider, and yet unlike him, in the place of hatred was overshadowed with love. ❝ this fog is connected to you. or rather, it was made for you. ❞ the problem lies deeper in the unknown and regardless of it's intent the fact remains that it must be destroyed. ❝ if you allow me, i can end it and the fog should no longer haunt you. but, know that you will never receive the closure you seek. is this what you desire ? ❞
❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜
❛ what are you smiling at? ❜
❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜
❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜
❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜
❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜
❛ i’m not sorry. ❜
❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜
❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜
❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜
❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜
❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜
❛ i could show you the way. ❜
❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜
❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜
❛ don’t go. please. ❜
❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜
❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜
❛ don’t run away from this. ❜
❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜
❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜
❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜
❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜
❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜
❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜
❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜
❛ i made a mistake. ❜
❛ am i not good enough? ❜
❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜
❛ why did you bring me here? ❜
❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜
❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜
❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜
❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜
❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜
❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜
❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜
❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜
❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜
❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜
❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜
❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜
❛ how did you find me? ❜
❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜
❛ rough day today? ❜
❛ snap out of it! ❜
❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜
❛ why are you still here? ❜
❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜
❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜
❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜
❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜
❛ well, this is where i live. ❜
❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜
❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜
❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜
❛ can you forgive me? ❜
❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜
❛ why are you really here? ❜
❛ i wish we never met. ❜
❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜
❛ would you run away with me? ❜
❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜
❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜
❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜
❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜
❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜
❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜
❛ are you threatening me? ❜
❛ did you ever care about me? ❜
❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜
❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜
❛ why did you come? ❜
❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜
❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜
❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜
❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜
❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜
❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜
❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜
❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜
❛ just try to hang on. ❜
❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜
❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜
❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜
❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜
❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜
❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜
❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜
❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜
❛ i bought two. here. ❜
❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜
❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜
❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜
❛ walk with me? ❜
❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜
❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜
❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜
❛ are you going to kill me? ❜
❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜
❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜
❛ take me with you. ❜
❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜
❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜
❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜
❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜
❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜
❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜
❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜
❛ why did you wake me? ❜
❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜
❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜
❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜
❛ promise me? ❜
❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜
❛ i feel safe with you. ❜
❛ i don’t need your help. ❜
❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜
❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜
❛ i do care. ❜
❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜
❛ i have a spare bed. ❜
❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜
❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜
❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜
❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜
❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜
❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜
❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜
❛ did you miss me? ❜
❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜
❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜
❛ is this what you wanted? ❜
❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜
❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜
❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜
❛ i’m still learning. ❜
❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜
❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜
❛ i’m on your side. ❜
❛ i risked my life for you! ❜
❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜
❛ you can stay with me. ❜
❛ i just need time. ❜
❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜
❛ who the hell invited you? ❜
❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜
❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜
❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜
❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜
❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜
❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜
❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜
❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜
❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜
❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜
❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜
❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜
❛ knowledge is power. ❜
❛ you scared me. ❜
❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜
❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜
❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜
❛ just who do you think you are? ❜
❛ you look… amazing. ❜
❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜
❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜
❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜
❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜
❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜
❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜
❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜
❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜
❛ i only wanted to help. ❜
❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜
❛ you don’t scare me. ❜
❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜
❛ change isn’t easy. ❜
❛ why did you help me? ❜
❛ why do you hate me? ❜
❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜
❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜
❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜
❛ are you here to kill me? ❜
❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜
❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜
❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜
❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜
❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜
❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜
❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜
❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜
❛ just let me do this for you. ❜
❛ why were they coming after you? ❜
❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜
❛ how much do you value your life? ❜
❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜
❛ don’t lie to me. ❜
❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜
❛ have a drink with me. ❜
