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masterlist. recent work(s). ↝ anger issues (part 1, part 2 & part 3)
CONTAINING. fluff, established relationship (mates), no use of y/n, living together with ao'nung, time skips, mama ronal
WARNING(S). mentions of blood! mentions of violence!
WORD COUNT. 1.7k
synopsis: ao'nung's sudden change in attitude ends in a heated argument that lasted for days; cold shoulder, silent treatment, absolutely no interaction between you two. however, he couldn't risk you leave his life the longer you don't talk to each other so he pleads and asks you to give him another chance.
translation: marui pod - metkayinan shelter/house, skxawng - moron/idiot
after the talk you and ao'nung had during breakfast, and after placing away your bowls.
you and ao’nung stepped out of your marui pod, making your way to his family’s pod. his mother ronal, your mentor in your healing duties; just finished up treating a na’vi as they stepped out.
you two immediately bow lightly signing your greetings to her with your fingers from your forehead outwards,
“good to see you two, what made you visit?” she asked approaching you two at the entrance of the hut, which made ao’nung slightly nervous at the thought of explaining what happened.
ao’nung did his best to swallow his nervousness and put on a brave face, however his mother immediately noticed giving him a lecture-like stare so he immediately spoke up. “mother, i must tell you something…” ronal tilts her head ushering him to continue with his words, eyes slightly widening as she glances to you a bit worriedly but then she suddenly smiled which ao'nung looked at her confused as what he was about to tell was definitely not something to smile about.
"are you with child?" ronal steps forward placing a gentle hand on your belly, as she gave you a small but bright smile. her actions immediately make you turn red and glance to the ground in embarrassment. ao'nung's eyes widen as well, but he smirked and coughed out a bit.
"no mother! she's not... not yet atleast..." ao'nung mutters the last part making you blush harder as giving him a side-eye and i nudge him hard in the ribs making him wince. "a-anyways, mother..." he continues.
his mother smirks at you teasingly, making you look down immediately to your feet as your ears twitch.
“i started an argument between us... and i am here to ask you for consultation and help. please let me improve my attitude.” he says cautiously as ronal’s eyes widen the more he spoke, her demeanor switching compared to a while ago making him feel small as soon as his mother approached him.
ronal definitely did not expect that, maybe she did because she was aware of ao'nung's attitude, but she never expected you to be the one who would experience it first hand.
ronal looks to you, her ears tilting downward. “my child… what happened?” she softly says as she brushes your hair lightly, and pats your head.
ronal invites you inside as you tell her what happened as she wanted to comfort you two, knowing how this could affect you two if anything went wrong or worse and as you tell exactly what happened her face flicked a variation of emotions glancing back between the two of you.
“alright, listen to me son. starting today i will be disciplining you into doing meditation and exercises to help you improve… this type of behavior is looked down upon. especially if you're mate is the one you happened to- which it is.” ronal trails off, placing a hand on her forehead continuing to explain to ao’nung.
seeing that ao’nung was listening attentively really made you happy that he’s really willing to improve himself for you.
you’ve been picking up and dropping off ao’nung when he had to attend his sessions, which made him happy that you were doing that for him. during times you didn't have a shift to help with the injured you'd just wait and meditate at the shore or check out some seashells on the sand
making your way to one of ronal’s treatment huts, to do your tsakarem duties. receiving and treating the injured na’vi hunters that came by. some arriving with major but not fatal wounds, while others with just light bruises or scratches that were easily patched up.
“you need to go to the emergency hut, now!” a worried hunter, which you recognized as one of ao’nung’s hunting companions that he usually hunts with; saying it in a panicked voice to you. you immediately wrap up the bandage on the hunter i was treating as they felt empathy and said that i can go.
you stood up to your feet, tossing whatever you were holding to somewhere in the hut as you swiftly ran outside, immediately heading to the emergency hut.
'please, please, be okay... oh eywa.' were the thoughts running in your head. as you felt so anxious about what could've happened
your heart broke at the sight of ao'nung on the floor. body bruised in multiple areas, blood dripping down to his ankles from a graze in his upper leg. but seeing he had the guts to smile nervously at you meant he was completely fine, and most likely got into a fight rather than getting injured from the hunt.
making a sound with my teeth as you inhaled simila, smacking his shoulder muttering a small 'you skxawng.' and being careful not to hit ao’nung’s bruised areas or wounds. as you felt the stares of other na’vi hunters who helped take your injured body here.
after bowing your respect and signing your fingers from your forehead, you motion your hand outwards to make them leave and give you and ao'nung privacy. you quickly make use of the supplies inside the hut. you grabbed the basket taking some woven-like gauze pads to stop your bleeding. adding pressure, ao’nung hissed at the pain.
“what happened? ...talk to me.” you asked him squeezing his hand, but he stayed silent avoiding your gaze as his ears went down, so you followed up: “fine. hope your wounds self-heal then—”,
”i was done with my hunting for today, and some of the hunters that are gonna be hunting tomorrow were talking about you…” ao'nung cut you mid-sentence.
”what did they say?” you softly asked, wiping more of his bleeding area to stop it. you wrapped his leg up gently after cleaning the wound.
ao'nung sighed deeply, his tail wagging slowly. "what did they say...?" you pleaded to know. ”that they were going to be the one to snatch you... if you leave me, and then i ended up scolding them; and they did it back to me and i ended up punching out of anger… got a bit heated since they were three, and here i am.”
you stayed silent, my ears turning down but your tail lightly swished which ao'nung noticed.
you sigh as your grip on the gauze pad loosened. you looked at him in an expression he never liked, and you grabbed some ointment to rub into the bruised areas to help him feel better.
“are you disappointed in me?” he asked in a tone as if he was almost whispering. ao'nung looked up to you with tears threatening to fall out, which you immediately smiled at and gently wiped using your hand without the ointment.
”for what? defending me? ...no. that was lovely to hear about." you start off. "but-" you say and got caught off by him asking a "but???" which you laughed at "but... losing control and punching first, yes i am. you should've just let them be, a scolding would've been more proper, or...” you said which caught him off-guard.
”i’m sorry… wait- what?” ao'nung asked a bit in disbelief if he heard you right, you weren't exactly disappointed in him getting into a fight... but more disappointed of being the first to punch?
”you should’ve taken a punch first, so it would be self-defense no matter how bad you beat them up…” you said which solved ao'nung's thoughts.
”...i didn’t think you’d be disappointed in that, my love.” he started to laugh, but slightly hissing as his abdomen tensed up from laughing which you inspected to have a bruise, hopefully no internal bleeding.
you lightly grazed your hand over the area, and thankfully he didn't react badly meaning it was just a bruise.
"you know... if word gets out. you might get in trouble with your mother if she hears about this." you tease him to which he nervously laughs and shook his head at.
"and come on, i bet they look worse." you proudly say, knowing how ao'nung is tough as he looks. which makes him proud and have him wagging his tail as he loved how your proud you sounded
"so... have you thought about it?" ao'nung asks you as you start to unwrap his bandages to check his wound healing. you two were back at your house, came home together after you picked him up from a session.
"about what?" you throw the bloody bandage to a basket to discard later on as you clean his wound, seeing that the skin is already regenerating beautifully.
"you know..." he trails off. "about what, ao?" you ask a bit sternly as you wrap a new on his wounded thigh.
"you know what i'm talking about, love..." he says as he trails a gentle hand on your thigh. as you look to his hand on you, you realized what he was referring to, you swat his hand away. as you stood up and crouch behind him to check the other bruises on his body.
"you're injured." ao'nung's ears perked up at your response, it wasn't a yes... but it definitely wasn't a no. "does that mean... i can?" he asks, wanting to hear a proper answer from you, as he lifts himself up to turn around and face you.
you laugh softly at his action, as you slowly nodded. in a second he already has a hand on your collarbone, but you quickly swat it again making him pout. "when you're all healed. what if your skin tears while we're at it?" you laugh at him, but he quickly shakes his head.
"if your mother knew that we... while you were injured i'd probably get demoted." you tease him,
"my skin will be fine." he replies instantly, "no." you reply, as he immediately sat properly, not wanting to touch you as you said, he sighed.
"alright, i'll make sure to get healed as soon as possible..." making you smile and pat his head, "i don't want you to still injured, so be patient." you say,
"you have my word, my love." you continued, as he whips his face up to look at you with wide eyes. he grabbed your hand in an instant, squeezing it gently.
"did you just-?" he asks, making you nod and laugh. "yes, my love?" you say it again, as he wraps his arms around you and peppers your face with kisses.
you two cuddled all night, as ao'nung was stoked hearing you call him 'my love' again. he was so determined to finish his sessions, and ofcourse... heal as soon as possible.
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a/n. sorry for the delay in posting! i'm trying to cook up a bonus part for anger issues so please look forward to that!
status: ongoing
length: 3 parts [temporary]
sypnosis: ao'nung's sudden change in attitude ends in a heated argument that lasted for days; cold shoulder, silent treatment, absolutely no interaction between you two. however, he couldn't risk you leave his life the longer you don't talk to each other so he pleads and asks you to give him another chance.
status: ongoing
length: 3 parts [temporary]
sypnosis: ao'nung's sudden change in attitude ends in a heated argument that lasted for days; cold shoulder, silent treatment, absolutely no interaction between you two. however, he couldn't risk you leave his life the longer you don't talk to each other so he pleads and asks you to give him another chance.
CONTAINING. fluff, established relationship (mates), no use of y/n, living together with ao'nung, time skips, soft ao'nung
WARNING(S). none (please inform me in the comments if you spot anything!)
WORD COUNT. 2.0k
synopsis: ao'nung's sudden change in attitude ends in a heated argument that lasted for days; cold shoulder, silent treatment, absolutely no interaction between you two. however, he couldn't risk you leave his life the longer you don't talk to each other so he pleads and asks you to give him another chance.
translation: mawey - calm down, yawne - beloved
the night that fell upon pandora quickly disappeared with the sun rising. the sun radiating on your skin, as you felt warmth. warmth from the sun and him, you slowly opened your eyes adjusting it to the light. you panicked a bit seeing you and ao’nung cuddled up in bed. suddenly having a bit of a relapse to your argument, so you squirmed and breathed out in panic waking him up.
ao'nung awoke eyes widened looking at you, seeing that you were panicking which made him feel a bit hurt. “hey, hey. it’s okay… i’m not angry. you're okay... we're okay....” he said softly pulling you back in his arms, he brushed your hair gently to provide you a sense of comfort as your breathing stabilized.
“i’ll never ever shout at you like that again, hm? i give you my word” ao’nung said softly planting a kiss on your forehead, hesitating to kiss you on your lips. it’s been almost a week since you two kissed each other, which had him on edge for your love. little did he know that you were too craving for his touch as well.
you sat up, unwrapping his arms from your body. standing up so you could go to the kitchen and drink some water. ao'nung follows behind you like a sad lost puppy, your tail swishes a bit remembering the time how he followed you around like this when he couldn't admit that he liked you and wanted to court you. “can we talk?” ao'nung asks you, also drinking water.
you nod as you grab his hand to lead you and him back to the bedroom so you could talk in a more private setting rather than the open area-d living room. this made him smile as you grab his hands.
you and him sat on the bed as you try to avoid his gaze making his ears tilt downwards. ao’nung broke the silence, “i’ll immediately book an appointment with my mother… and i’ll attend as possible." causing your ears to tilt a bit which he notices.
"is there anything else i can do to show you just how sorry i am for what i did?” he softly says, grabbing your hands into his, desperate for to hold you.
with his grip on yours, you stood up making him stand as well. you pulled him to the table inside the bedroom, tilting your head to it to make him look there, as your tail lowly swished. showing the broken necklace that laid there untouched since you placed it the day of the argument.
the sight of the necklace immediately made ao’nung’s heart sink. he couldn’t believe that he damaged such a gift out of anger, such an important token of you two’s relationship. seeing the shell have a cracked signified the current situation of you two,
“i’m… so sorry, my love.” he whispers out as tears threaten to come out his eyes, he lightly squeezes your hand. “i don’t want to make you a new one, as it might seem that i’m replacing the memories it had… but would you prefer one?” he asks as you continued to stay silent, frowning a bit as you stared at the necklace.
“give me the chance to fix this, to fix us. to make you happy again? i know what i did was horrible, i- i have no words to reason out, but i promise to work hard to improve myself… please” he kneels down still holding your hands as he now sobs, hearing him cry and sniffle tugged your heart.
“stop crying…” you whisper out, squeezing at his hands to make him stand up. he stands up, still crying as he looks at you with his now puffy and teary eyes.
“leave me alone for a while…” he gave a sigh of relief when you mentioned for a while. he gives you a nod and a smile, “i’ll give you time, as much as you need. i just want you to be happy, and i’m willing to wait…” he says, letting go of your hands. his dropping to the sides as he steps out of the room.
"ha... it's you and me again." he mutters to the living room woven floor as he sat upon it, not knowing what else to do as he felt lost.
you lay on the bed feeling tired and exhausted from doing absolutely nothing so you took a nap.
waking up hyperventilating, you struggled to breathe. you were feeling scared of your surroundings so you broke down on the bed. ao’nung heard you crying as he ran inside, forgetting about the space and alone time you asked.
he immediately wrapped his arms around you as you sat up, he gently caressed your head whispering sweetly to your ears to calm you down. “mawey, yawne… mawey…” he hesitates to peck your lips so he plants a soft kiss on top of your head instead as he tries to cradle you in his arms.
“what can i do? please… i don’t want you to leave me.” he softly says, his voice breaking as you look up to see him starting to cry. you nuzzle your face into his chest, taking in his scent.
“stop asking, and… i’m not leaving you, okay? i’m not… i just, i’m lost in my thoughts because i want us to be okay but i also want you to know that what you did was wrong so i'm distancing myself.” you said, looking up at him.
ao’nung kisses your forehead gently, hugging you tightly. “i really am sorry for what i did. you’re very important to me and i want you to feel better.” he says letting out the tension inside of him, he was glad that you to are at least talking again as you now gave him replies instead of the usual silence. “i know…” you softly reply to him, nuzzling back into his chest.
he kisses your forehead again gently, “i love you, you are my ocean. i hope you can forgive me one day, and i hope that by holding on to me at least feel some reassurance that i’m here…” he says softly as you only nod, not saying it back which he visibly frowns.
you two spent the day talking forgetting about the time was past eclipse. he had you in his arms again giving him relief that you two are finally sleeping on the same bed again, he disliked sleeping on the cold woven floor of the living room area without a mat, but he had to endure it considering his past actions hurt you.
you squirmed in your sleep, slowly waking up. jolting awake as ao’nung noticed you, yawning. “hi…” he says yawnily, still a bit sleepy. “hi…” you reply back in a hush tone hiding your face in his chest which gave him flutters. “you got therapy today?” you ask.
ao’nung forgot to visit his mom to ask for a therapy session due to staying with you at home all day yesterday, he didn’t want to lie to you by saying he has one so he chose to be honest not wanting to break the current fixation of you two’s relationship right now. “no, i don’t… i forgot to go yesterday.” he whispers, scared of your reaction but he knew it was the best approach rather than lying. “but i’m going to tell my mom today though.” you give him a nod and a small smile for choosing to be honest.
“i know i said it countless times- i really am sorry for ruining the necklace, the things i said- shouted…” he trails off, “i love you, so, so much. i’ll go today, get therapy until i improve myself. i understand if you’re feeling confused right now with me…” ao’nung says softly but sternly, feeling genuine remorse for what he did.
you planted a soft kiss on his nose, avoiding his lips in the meantime. ao’nung can’t help but smile at the kiss you planted, it’s one of the most familiar gestures between you two after all. it brought him back to your first kiss after your first date. “do you forgive me? can you forgive me?” he asks. “i’m trying, don’t rush me. you skxawng.” you sternly say, letting out a small giggle which makes his ears perk at the sound of you. “alright, sorry… tell me, is there anything i can do right now to make you feel a little better?”, “make me breakfast?”, he laughs at your request but complies as he unwrapped his self from you to stand up.
“i’d love to make you breakfast, will anything do?” you nod in response as he proceeds to cut up some fruit and place them in a bowl.
“here you go, love! breakfast in bed!” ao’nung exclaim happily, his tail visibly wagging behind him. “thank you… my love.” you whisper the last part, and fortunately ao’nung heard making his tail wag more a few bites later which gave him an idea.
“do you want to talk? as we eat? if it’s okay…” he cautiously suggested which made you happy. you and ao’nung loved to look back at you two’s memories, anniversaries or any celebration to lift up the mood or simply for fun, which became a routine for you two whenever one of you had a bad day. you assumed that it was what he pertained to so you nodded.
“where do you wanna start? from the beginning?” he smiles. “i remember asking you to help me with carrying my shells back home when we were children…” you smile at the memory as we ate.
“that’s because you took to much to carry! you should’ve brought a basket back then...” he playfully scoffs at the memory of you roaming the shore and grabbing shells as many as you can back then, where he would pick up the rest that would fall out of your arms.
“yeah, but you clumsily made me one the next day…” you softly smile, knowing the basket with shells is somewhere in the room. “hey! i did my best okay! i even asked my mother and tsi’reya for help…” ao’nung’s ears turn a bit pink in embarrassment.
"what about that one time where i came home from a hunt? where i had light bruises and some wounds." he mentions to you, which kinda agitated you remembering how badly you scolded him while he was just enjoying you lecture him. "you're the reason i keep having to make ointments! you should take care of yourself more when you hunt!! quit bumping into corals."
you and ao’nung continued talking til both of you ended up with empty fruit bowls. “…but then our argument…” you trail off, getting cut mid-sentence by ao’nung. “yes, i said terrible, awful things when i was mad. i should have never... under any circumstance said what i said or shouted at you.” his ears go back and down, feeling guilt.
“well… how about we approach your mother so you could attend a therapy session and consult her?" you suggest to him, as you look at ao'nung with love in your eyes.
"i… i want to see your attitude improve, my love. not that i think you have a bad attitude-! i just don’t… i don’t want you shoving me… calling me a freak or shouting things like that… when you have a bad day.” you softly say, grabbing his hands and rubbing your thumbs on it.
you noticed ao’nung’s ears immediately perk as soon as you called him love which made you happy inside causing your tail to swish, and for sure ao'nung as well.
“it’s okay, i understand what you're saying..." he whispers looking into your eyes. "i want to improve myself and for you as well… shall we go?” he says grabbing both of your bowls to place away.
you nod, “i’ll escort you on the way and pick you up after your session” smiling, as both of you fix up the bed and bring the dishes back to the kitchen area.
ao’nung’s heart feels a bit lighter. he feels confident that he can fix this, and improve himself for you.
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a/n. hope you enjoyed reading you and ao'nung's relationship improve through this pt.2! likes, reposts, and comments are appreciated! lmk what you think cuz there is still a pt.3!! (and i might add a bonus!)
CONTAINING. a bit of angst, fluff, established relationship (mates), no use of y/n, living together with ao'nung, time skips
WARNING(S). slight violence, ao'nung having an attitude
WORD COUNT. 2.1k
synopsis: ao'nung's sudden change in attitude ends in a heated argument that lasted for days; cold shoulder, silent treatment, absolutely no interaction between you two. however, he couldn't risk you leave his life the longer you don't talk to each other so he pleads and asks you to give him another chance.
after your tsakarem shift, helping ao'nung's mother ronal with the injured hunters' from today's hunt. you happily hopped your way to meet ao'nung at the shore in the usual spot, under the shade on the big rock where you two would hang out. your feet shuffled in the sand which immediately caught his attention.
ao'nung looked to you irritated which confused you, "are you okay, ao?" you asked him, cautiously approaching him to place a hand on his shoulder. "get off me! you- freak" he shouted at you, your ears tilted down as you visibly frowned. you retracted your hand quickly, realizing that his anger issues were acting up.
your first instinct was to calm him down so you immediately pulled him into a hug and rubbed his back in comforting circles which calmed for a while, whispering “mawey… mawey, my love.”, before he shoved you to the sand seeming as if calming him wasn't gonna work. you gasped as he raised his fist, "don't touch me-".
you sat on the sand slowly standing up on your feet as you raised your hands to show you meant no harm. "you wouldn't hurt me, ao. i just want to help you. let me help you, love." you said calmly, almost in a hush tone still attempting to calm him down.
"what makes you think i wouldn't? and don't call me that!" he hisses out on you as he tightly clenches his fists at the side of his body, careful not wanting to hurt you, which broke your heart the moment you heard how he didn't want you to call him your love. "i don't care about you- go away!", he shouts in a hiss, but you persisted.
"you care about me, ao. see this? you gave this on my birthday, and confessed. the most precious think you ever crafted for the both of us." you gestured to the matching shell necklace you had just like ao'nung's, giving him a soft smile.
he took a second before yelling "that don't mean shit!", he takes the necklace off your neck, leaving a cut on the side of your neck making you hiss. luckily it was only superficial, gone deeper you would've been dead if it cut through. you widen your eyes in horror as he throws it on the sand, leaving a crack on the shell of your necklace.
you immediately crouch down on your knees, picking up the necklace gently in your hands careful not to break it. "why- how could you?!" your voice getting louder, tears brimming your eyes as you looked up to him.
"because it means nothing! you mean nothing to me!" he huffs. "you! this relationship! and that stupid necklace!" he shouts at you. you immediately stood up to cup his cheek. "that's not true... not true at all!" you try to convince him but he looks away from your eyes. "look at me, ao... look at me, please." you plead him, as he finally looks at you which made you scared seeing your worried reflection through his eyes.
ao'nung pulls away from your touch turning his head sideways, "no. you mean nothing to me." he says each word with hate making you frown as you cup his face again with a hand, "look at me..." you whisper, as tears start to fall onto your cheeks.
he pulls away again, angrily he yells "i said no!" as you notice tears forming in his eyes but he's trying hard to not let it fall. you took it as a sign to still fight, so you hugged him tight. "ao... i know. you're just angry right now. i may not know why, but please. calm down, my love." i say softly. "don't call me that" he hisses, "what don't you get! i feel nothing for you!" he backs away from the hug.
"you're lying... you promised- you promised!" i shouted, my voice breaking. "i did lie! i don't want you! you're such a pathetic freak" he shouts and emphasizes the latter. "i don't care if i look pathetic to you right now, i'm doing my best for us." i say softly, sniffing as my tears keep flowing. he looks away huffing in anger.
"fine. go on and tell me that you don't love me, then i'll leave. say it with hate and make me leave." you hiss out at him to get a reaction.
"go away! leave me alone!" he shouts, his tail twitching in irritation as tears fall from his eyes as he clenches his fists tightly.
you scoff, holding my necklace carefully. walking away from you hurt, every step i took felt like i was giving up but deep inside you slightly felt relieved that he didn't say he didn't love you and just told you to leave.
ao'nung turned to watch you walk away, everything he ever wanted. as he kneeled on the sand to cry, clutching his own matching shell necklace.
you reach home. your shared home. you and ao'nung's very own marui pod, which, luckily, was approved by both families seeing your unbreakable bond with each other. you immediately head to the master bedroom which was just a more secluded pod that gave privacy than the usual openness a marui pod had.
after placing your necklace on the table, you sat on the bed. you pulled your own emergency kit, grabbing a woven cloth and the little jar of ointment you had incase ao'nung would have injuries from a hunt. you skillfully treat your neck despite not seeing it, sticking the woven cloth above the ointment. your ears perk up.
ao'nung head straight to the you two's bedroom, he stood by the doorway. visibly frowning, you looked away from him as you felt he slowly stepped near you. he kneeled on both knees and grabbed your hands gently pleading you to look at him. "my love...?" he softly says to you, almost in a whisper tone. you can see him slowly start to cry when you decide to finally look at him, seeing him breaks your heart.
you slightly roll your eyes at the sight, eyes also brimming with tears. "i should be the one that's crying" you mutter as you squeeze his hands a bit, which resulted in his tail wagging.
"i'm sorry." he says, "i'm so, so sorry. i shouldn't have shouted at you like that..." he softly says, which tugged at your heart making your ears tilt a bit upwards and made your tail swish. seeing the reaction motivated him to be more sincere to earn you back.
"i shouldn't have ripped your necklace..." he eyes your bandaged wound. "most importantly, i shouldn't have told you to leave after calling you something degrading..." tears start to fall from his eyes, which by habit you immediately cup his face and wipe the tears, instantly retracting your hands you freeze as he grabs a hold of them again planting a soft kiss on each of the back of your hand.
"thank you... for staying..." he breathes out, feeling relieved not seeing any baggage in the house. you stay silent, not wanting to respond so he stands up to sit beside you and pull you into a hug. you feel warmth radiating off of him.
"leave me alone..." you whisper, trying to push him and remove his grip on your hands. "please! i don't want to lose you! you matter so much to me! i can change- i will change, please. give me a chance. my love... yawne, please..." you hear his voice breaking in desperation as he holds your shoulders firmly.
you stay silent, staring at him with glossy eyes which tightens his heart at the sight of you, he attempts to plant a kiss on your lips but you move your head sideways only allowing him to plant it on your cheek. he sighs as he pouts. "you're not losing me. just... please, step out... i want to think..." you pleaded softly, so he nods understanding and not wanting to make you uncomfortable so he complies. standing up and walks to the living room area of your pod.
days past and you've given him the silent treatment, you awoke hungry so you went to your shared pantry silently grabbing a fruit as he was asleep on the woven floor of the living room area which made you feel bad.
you went back inside and sat on the bed, munching on the fruit as you noticed he was sleepily standing at the doorway. "can we talk?" he softly says, rubbing his eyes approaching you when you nod. "will you forgive me? please?" ao'nung kneels and asks with fear in his eyes, fear of being rejected by you, almost to much to bear.
"i haven't eaten in the past few days, nothing but pain and guilt in my bod-" you cut him off by shoving the fruit which made his eyes wide, nonetheless he bit the fruit finishing it. "why did you do that?" he asks. "...you said you haven't eaten in the past few days." i say, concerned despite our argument.
"so you're feeding me? like i'm a child?" he asks in disbelief. "aren't you happy i even let you in here so we could talk?" you reason out.
"you could've come out, so we could work things out like a normal couple." he swallows. "but no, me and my stupid emotions, acted up and screw things over. so what now, you let me in to feed me thinking i'm going to fall into your arms and kiss you?" he sighs.
you scoff not liking his response, your eyebrows scrunched and my tail visibly twitching behind me in irritation. "what's with the attitude? i thought you wanted to talk in hopes of fixing us?" i ask. "i do, but you're treating me like i'm some kid... what kind of adult would miss a few meals due to an argument... i don't deserve you..." he trails off.
you place a hand under his chin, "i'm treating you as my lover despite our argument, ao.", "please, forgive me. please" he pleads.
"ao... look, i want to forgive you. but-" you breathe out, while ao'nung's breath hitches, tears start to brim his lids. "you need to learn, ao'nung." his heart drops as soon as you say his name, you called him ao'nung, not ao, and most definitely not 'my love'.
"you hurt me with your words, making me overthink about you, overthink us." i say with my voice audibly shaking. "i know... and i'm deeply sorry, my love." he grabs your hands before continuing, "i'll do anything and everything to make up for my mistakes, i want you to know that, please." he softly says rubbing his thumbs on your hands.
"i don't want your apology- i want your love... you made me lose trust in you, and the audacity of you to raise your fist at me? after shoving me to the ground??" i finally bring it up. ao'nung's eyes filled with guilt he bows down looking at the floor, embarrassed to even look at you. "i know, i know. i tried my best so i clenched it instead because i'd never hurt you no matter what, you know that."
you stayed silent, "i'll rebuild your trust, i promise. i'll even go attend therapy sessions with my mother, i'll do whatever it takes. i love you so much, i can't bear to live without you by my side. i resisted to sleep beside you as you asked to be alone so i slept at the cold woven floor of ours... please, i need you." he says still kneeling, feeling the mat puncture his skin a bit.
"cuddle me..." you whisper as hush as you could, ao'nung's ears perked up hearing you loud and clear as he got up brushing his knees with slight pain. he gently lays you on the bed, grabbing your arms to wrap around him as he grazes your waist and hugs you tightly.
you missed the feeling of sleeping and waking up in his arms, the past few days made you feel lonely, nothing but an empty space beside.
"you're my everything, if i ever hurt you like this again. i don't know what i'd do..." he says holding you closely to his heart. "i won't forgive you just yet, you'll have to work hard." you say sternly, cheek against his chest. "i will. i’ll fix myself for us. i won’t let you down, i’ll love you and make you feel it so you don’t ever doubt.”
ao’nung held you, both your hearts calming as you two fell asleep. he was happy to hold you even if things are unsure and unclear, atleast you two were trying to work things out.
ao’nung’s eyes may be closed but his mind ran wild, he couldn’t get over on how he made you cry, he hated seeing you cry whenever you had a bad day or got scolded during your shifts. he hated himself more than ever for being the reason you cried.
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a/n. hope you enjoyed my first ever writing! please look forward to part 2 as it's already wip!! lmk if you want to be tagged in the next part and i'll add a new section below to my posts if you agree to be added to future posts!!
