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[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

Turski Sed - i od sad pišem o tebi

- turski sed uvek rešava stvar -

tako govori

zamišljena učiteljica u mojoj glavi,

dok se na žici suši i ćarlija

Plava Atmosfera Leta

i svi njeni noževi

čekaju da dodje vreme da ih skinem

kao ustajali kajmak bele kafe ;

turski sed i poza kojim sam

ranije kopirala

nesmirene ljubavi

kristališeš mi šiške

svakojakim priznanjima

jer sam "Sigurna Luka",

a Znaš Li?

da sam joj rekla da bih čekala

zauvek

ako potom usledi ono - Uvek

moja alatka za Ispolj

oko tvog

pogrešno izabranig kožnjaka

ej mili.

ti bi da se iživiš

personifikuješ rolerkoster mladosti

o kom sam buncala kao tinejdžerka

a ja sam glupa,

tako mnogo glypa

i verovatno prokleta da samo

ja

umem da te čekam

kao niko na ovom celom

pustom svetu

i NajCrnje od svega ---

rado ću.

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

just say when i'd play again

he was my best friend and

that was the worst part

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

but in fact, i do not wish to have never met you.

i wish to never remember though, or a least not as vividly.

the biggest trap is never growing up, it is the ability to remember everything along the way.

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

in solitude only do i realize just how big of a chunk you have inhabited in my soul

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

Onegin to his Tatiana

maybe i'm not the loving kind or simply, not to be loved kind

maybe inches of my skin are made to suffer and suffer greatly for the higher cause called art.

is it in out favour to love deeper than love received in return and should i accept that all i give shall return only through what flows right back on the paper?

can artificiency of the deepest pits of being expressed on the stage ever be enough, so enough i turn into artificial machine of giving and never receiving feelings back?

am i the stealer or the one who's being robbed of innocence?

why be so clever and catch me at times you know i'm most vulnerable, when i have my cards layed out so freely exposed to you?

isn't that selfish? aren't you the single selfless person i had privilege to touch knees with?

are there any other seventeen year olds that get the privilege to touch your gentle side and fall for your lies over and over, at three in the morning?

if so, my time is wasted, feelings so worn out sleeves drench on the sides of my arms,

i can no longer differentiate if i miss you or all that i was when i was with you.

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

all of my salvations are all of my words that my brain so bravely pukes on this parchment,

yet the only blemish that so proudly sits across my entire face are words themselves,

please kindly offer to hug them.

please graciously ask to be the source they feast off of.

please benevolently nod their way and acknowledge that they're your daughters, as much as mine.

words my darling is all i can offer, and only steak i can ever bring to this ferociously opulent dinner.

my thorns are the only way i can caress you gently enough not to shed a few layers of my skin with them.

please love my scars as much as me, for we are one and the same.

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

rememberance and imagination go hand in hand cause like, yes i can remember every detail of that day we went out for the first time and sat in my favorite park on the bench i'll forever call ours long after we end, and then you said you hated the goddamn park but no, i can never imagine someone else taking up your place there nor will i ever take someone there, in fear of them repeating what you said.

who can guarantee that the next one will not scar you in the same place, in the same way?

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

nothing ever screams at me

that you're right around the corner

of this goddamn street

in this beloved city that cradled me,

soul of my soul.

[elizabeth-bennets]

@paletmblr event v: quotes

PERKS OF BEING A WALLFLOWER (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky

[tibby]

thinking about taylor going on stage for the speak now tour every night wearing sparkly dresses and singing about true love and fairytales and sparks flying and enchanted meetings…and how jake’s words about how she was immature and too young for her would have been ringing in her head…and how she changed her style so drastically as soon as the era came to a close…presenting herself in a way that was So Adult while still feeling obligated to be this Good Girl who never drank or went to parties…and how much she wanted to stress that the red tour was mature and more based in reality…and while a lot of this is undoubtedly just the natural result of her growing up i have to wonder….was part of it her trying to prove to jake that she was mature and sophisticated like all his friends? like the girl he wanted her to be?

[screamingiminlovewithyou]

this is literally what it feels like to listen to a taylor song about something you’re going through

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

may everything be excused of my greatest desire to be remembered.

may i bath in forgiveness for every air grasp in which i looked for remembering.

may everything i do be interwoven with all the dispensation of the heavens,

for i know not how to be walking over desires to forever be preserved in everyone's memory.

all i fear is vain, and fear is vain too, everyting i yearn for is a paradox so therefore

remember me,

please.

[c0ssette]

Alexandre Cabanel “Fallen Angel” detail.

[hyun-swift]

Saturday Night Live (2021)

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

you kept me like a secret but i kept you like an oath

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

this is not about Gryffindority, but it can also apply

have courage to be hurt.  be dauntless enough to let pain integrate into every blood cell, to enter your heart,  because that’s where your passion for living despite of it is cradled.

be so fearlessly curious about your next obstacle, that you forget worrying about how big of a sword you need to bring to the fight.  to be concentrated on the goal and all the sharp edges that come within rather than how softly you can press your skin against them is what puts ‘’a fighter’’ as an emphasis to your soul.

how gallantly you enter is how divinely you exit.

[theselfcarelifestyle]

I have the courage and the fight in me to get through this.

[illbeyourfondestsummerfriend]

why else are we there than to soak up all the hurt off of this earth?