"She was my girl first"

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Intro!

Hi there, i used to be @rottenavocados

You can call me calamari or mari for short, i use she/her pronouns

on my old account i wrote strictly Billie eilish x reader fics. But on this account i would like to widen my horizons.

Its been a minute since ive written anything so please forgive me if my writing seems a little dry

Thanks for reading!

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Maturing is realizing that he never actually liked me, he just liked that i was a child

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Fatal risk

Warnings | DDDNE, Stockholm syndrome, infantilization, manipulation, sadism, mentions of blood, fem!reader, teacher x student (college), age gap, lmk if i missed anything

Pairing | Professor!Kylo ren x Student!Reader

Word count | 746

I wake up and my alarm isn't ringing on my bedside table. My phone is dead. The power is out in my dorm.

The heater is off and I'm shivering already even under my four blankets. 

  My room is freezing cold and i cant even take a hot shower. These buildings are so old I have no idea when they were last inspected. The pipes are frozen which means I can't even brush my teeth.

I have to walk all the way across campus to the gym locker rooms just so I can bathe.

Of course there's a line to the co-ed showers, clearly everyone else having the same idea. 

  I already woke up late and my first class started thirty minutes ago so it wasn't looking good. Finally after twenty minutes I got my shower and brushed my teeth at the sink.

I dressed myself and bundled up before walking to my second class even with only twenty five minutes left.

A thick sheet of ice has coated the two feet of snow on the ground. 

  With my luck I bust my ass and by the time I stand up I notice my knees are bleeding and my palms have road rash. I walk into class, my nose red and my eyes glassy.

Everyone’s gathering their things and walking out of the lecture hall. I forgot about the fucking time change. I turn to walk out. “Miss [insert last name], I'd like you to stay for a minute.”

I pause and close the door behind me, everyone now gone leaving just professor Ren and I. 

 I turn to face him, a tear slipping down my cheek. “Why the tears?” Said as if they annoy him.

Clearing my throat and wiping the singular tear away I shake my head.

“Nothing, I just slipped outside and I'm being a crybaby.” I cast my gaze down at the floor. “Let me see sweetheart.” he coos, the nickname rolling off his tongue in mock pity.

“I'm okay, really it’s just a scrape.” Nonetheless he opens his hands, palms up, arms out stretched towards me. “Let me patch you up.” I nod and show him my scuffed palms.

“I was wondering why you were so late-” “I forgot about the time change and the power was off in my dorm and then the pipes froze-” I anxiously ramble and my tears fall. “-Im sorry I don't know what I'm crying about.” 

  “Okay- it's okay don't worry about it you don't have anything to cry about.” He gently caresses my shoulder before grabbing a first aid kit from his desk.

“Sit up here.” He pats his desk and I hop up onto the desk sitting with my legs dangling off the front. 

“I can email you the lesson today, okay?” I nod. “Yes please.” He disinfects my hands and glances down seeing the blood seeping through my jeans.

“tch your poor knees.” He reaches for the bottom of my pants and rolls them up an inch above my knees.

His tone was far from sympathy. He wipes the alcohol pad over both of my knee caps and I wince at the rough cotton and stinging sensation of the disinfectant.

He doesn't apologize, he actually presses it harder onto the wound. I grumble and go to turn my head away not wanting to watch him wipe away my blood any longer.

“Dont whine.” For whatever reason he’s frustrated. “I’m sorry-”

“-Well maybe if you were more careful and watched where you were stepping you wouldn't be so terribly sorry.” 

  He actually mocks me.

“Look at me when I'm talking to you.” He grabs my face and my eyes lock onto his before dropping to glance at his lips and back up again.

“I expect you to be here on time tomorrow.” I nod. “Say it.” He spits. “I’ll be on time tomorrow professor ren.” I mumble.

“Good enough.” The look in his eyes is almost scary.

Finally satisfied with me, he places two bandaids on either of my knee caps and rolls my pant legs back down.

I slip off of his desk and walk to the door.

  “[insert name]?” He calls and I turn around. “Yes?” "Be careful– behave and stay warm.” “You too.”

I nod and leave the lecture hall. I returned to my dorm instead of going to my other classes that day and slept till five in the afternoon.

pt. 1

AN- Hi! I hope you enjoyed this. It feels quite rushed when i read through it and please excuse any typos. i do plan on making this a series! The chapters will likely get longer as the story progresses and i do have a good bit planned for this. I love you all have a great rest of your week!

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Natural Release

Setting | Star Destroyer, "The Finalizer"

Warnings | !SMUT! blurb, masturbation, rough housing, use of the force, mentions of spit/slobber, one use of "[insert name]", please lmk if i missed anything

Pairing | Kylo Ren x Reader

Word count | 615

!Smut under the cut, not proofread!

Kylo Ren never got much time to himself. Especially not to "de-stress". You are very aware of this fact that somebody always needs something from him. So his alone time is limited to say the least. 

  You’ve just recently gotten back from a mission and are conversing with General Pryde on how your mission went. It was less of a conversation and more of beration about how you fucked up in his eyes more ways than one.

Ending the conversation you walk down the halls of the star destroyer and head towards your shared chambers with Ren. 

  You step inside and the hydraulic doors hiss as they close behind you. The sound of muffled grunts hit your ears and you stand there slightly in shock as you watch Kylo humping his own hand. 

  A polaroid he took of you the first time you’d ever had sex sat on his thigh and he stared shamelessly at it as thick ropes of his cum spurt onto his hand and clothed thigh.

He laid there on the bed with his head back, his chest heaving from the rather strong orgasm he’d given himself. 

  His pants were pushed down just far enough to get his cock out as if he was rushing with need to rub one out. You step forward into his line of sight “Wow.” You exclaim. 

His head snaps up and his eyes lock onto you. “[insert name.]” He breathes and you’re able to see he’s quickly getting hard again at the mere sight of you. “That was a show.” You mock. “How long were you-” He starts to ask and you cut him off. 

  “-Just long enough to watch you come.” You can’t help but laugh, this was something you’d never expect to see especially from Kylo Ren of all people. He extends his hand and begins to use the force on you.

Feeling the invisible hand tighten around your throat your smile doesn't drop. You know he’s just trying to rile you up. “Don’t laugh at me, you just watched me come to a picture of you and you’re laughing at me, really?” 

  You chuckle and the invisible force tightens its hold. As soon as your eyes nearly roll into the back of your head he pulls you forward with the force and you land right next to him in the bed.

Rolling onto your back he holds himself up over you peppering kisses on your face. “How was it?”

“The mission or watching you come?” He rolls his eyes and you reach up to smack him playfully. 

  He grabs your hand and licks the sweat and remnants of spattered blood from your forearm. It sends chills down your spine feeling his tongue lap at your skin. “Both.”

He presses his thigh between your legs and you grind down onto his leg. He tenses the muscles in his thigh giving you something harder to hump. 

  He hides his smile as he slobbers on your neck marking your collar bones with deep purple hickies.

“The mission was alright…” You trail off. He’s rasping his thigh up into you when all of a sudden he stops. “Keep talking” “Ben-” “Keep. Talking. Keep talking and I'll give you what you want.” He pulls off your robes, your pants coming off last.

Lying bare underneath him “...The mission was alright, I got it done.” He presses sloppy kisses to your bare chest working his way down your stomach.

A hologram lights up the dim room. “Surpreme leader, you’re needed in the Supreme Council conference room.”

You groan and Kylo quickly dresses himself and puts his mask on leaving the room before you could get up to say goodbye.

AN- Hey people, i understand i haven't written in months and this is actually my first time writing smut for a man so i hope this isn't horrible i love you all, have a good rest of your night or day.

Thank you for reading!

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Keep salting the wound I'm close

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Me if starting books/fics and not finishing them was a competition

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My next fic Pairing Country!Toji x Housewife!Reader

pick one please

just (m receiving) oral

both oral and p in v

Voting ended onMar 3

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i used to be @rottenavocados and i used to write billie eilish x reader smut fics before i deleted my account, so heres a smut! blurb i never finished

  I couldn’t sleep. I had just started my period and my cramps were killing me. I looked over at the alarm clock on my bedside table 3:30am. Only four minutes had passed. “Kill me” I mumbled curling into the fetal position and clamping my eyes shut.   My roommate Billie had so graciously taken the couch, but the bed in the small cabin was basically a wooden plank compared to the itchy duck feather filled couch. 4:12am my cramps finally let up and I drifted off to sleep.  At 5:16am I stirred feeling something holding my leg up and grinding against my crotch. I open my eyes and in the dim blue light of dawn I saw my roommate grinding her bare pussy against my clothed crotch "What're you doing?” I ask, fighting the feeling to grind up into her hips. “Shut up” Billie says shoving the middle and ring finger of her right hand into my mouth, i gag and turn  my head away

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the stupid thing is i used to get 500-ish likes on posts and now i get like none 🥲

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  I weakly clawed at the dirt as he dragged me across the basement floor. “You think i wont fucking kill you.” He growls, his rough hands were like sand paper against my ankles. 

  “You’re stupid to think you can leave me, there's no use in trying to escape.” He drops my ankles and stands over top of me “You’re worthless without me.”

  “I'm sorry.” I sputter, nearly choking on all the blood in my mouth. I hadn’t stopped sobbing, grimacing at the taste of the blood in my mouth. 

  His words weren’t anything new and I was starting to believe him, I really was nothing without him. I needed him and I should be thankful that he saved me. “I-im really sorry.” my voice wavering.

  “You better be, because next time you won't be able to apologize." He grabs my face, his hand cold on my cheeks. “But I won't have to worry about that will I?"

AN: i honestly have zero clue if this is worth posting the rest of this is almost four hundred words long

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gonna write something about this later