Stanuary week 2: what’s the Stanuary mood?? TROUBLE
But I’ve bought a big bat.
I’m all ready, you see.
Now my troubles are going
To have troubles with me!
songs:
“Rather Die” - Barns Courtney
(I take a beating, but I/ I’ll never give up/Oh, oh, I think I’d rather die)
Rumble And Sway - Jamie N Commons
(Don’t you tell me no truths/I want all of your lies/Don’t leave your money at home/just a word to the wise)
“Ordinary Man” - Jonathan Coulton
(Such a charmed life, nothing ever mattered/Everything was yours to take/One mistake and Everything fell apart, everything changed)
Based off one of @hellsquills s aus. Check it out!
I really like it. Hmm yummy angst.
You know those drawings you just say trust the process all throughout and at the end you realise you shouldnt have.... this is one of those. Bleggh me no likey
Dartann back with the bangers (they never stopped)
Oh this is SO GOOD. I'm glad you posted it in the end even though you're not fully convinced about it because!!!! IT'S SO PEAK
I wasn't lying when I said I imagined it in your style because your lighting is always SO FUCKING GOOD. I LOVE the composition so much, with Dipper on one corner and Mabel on the other (god they look like such kids it breaks my heart -> girl who wrote them getting shot lol).
MABEL'S FACE IS SO GOOD. Ohhh that girl is the spitting image of her grunkles. The rage and the hate and the tear rolling down her cheek because there's such sadness and terror behind her expression (but she can't let it show. Not yet)
Honestly this chapter was a leap of faith for me as well, and I wasn't that sure about it even after posting it. But seeing pieces like these make them all worth it. Thank you so so much <3<3<3<3<3
Stanford watched from the porch as his brother ran around the yard, happily playing on the new equipment Stanford had constructed for him. It had come about as sometimes when Stanley mentally regressed to a child, he would beg to go to the local playground. He didn’t understand that it wasn’t socially appropriate for a grown man to do so, or that he was too big for the slides there.
Stanley had always looked so downtrodden when Stanford told him no. It made Stanford’s heart twinge having to look into those hopeful eyes and crush that hope each time. But he couldn’t bring his physically adult brother to the playground and disturb the real children there—not to mention the parents and what people would think of them.
After a dozen times of this happening, Stanford had had enough. Wanting to bring a smile to Stanley’s face, he began to plan out and construct adult-sized playground equipment for his brother in his own yard. His property was certainly large enough for it, and then Stanley could play as much as he pleased.
The project had just been finished this morning, and a smile tugged at Stanford’s lips as he sipped his coffee, seeing how excited Stanley was with his new playground. It was a little funny honestly, how Stanley’s childishness had slowly started becoming endearing to him. Stanford remembered when he’d first picked Stanley up at the courthouse, and how disturbing he’d found his brother, watching him act like a child.
But now, after having spoken with doctors and psychiatrists and therapists… Stanford couldn’t help but wonder if maybe things were better like this. He may not know all the details of what Stanley had been through, but he knew the kind of trauma his brother had been subjected to. How the things that had been done to Stanley had been so horrific his brain had regressed back to a younger mental state as coping mechanism.
Stanley didn’t remember what had happened to him. Stanford had been told that this wasn’t abnormal; that sometimes the mind would repress traumatic memories to protect itself. Stanley’s therapist was currently working on trying to coax those memories back in a safe environment, in order to help him process them properly and recover.
But Stanford couldn’t help but wonder if maybe Stanley shouldn’t. If perhaps letting Stanley stay the way he was, regression episodes and all, would be kinder. Stanley was happy like this. Wouldn’t it be cruel to force him to remember the trauma he had been through? To wipe away the innocence he had now?
Stanford sighed, conflicted. “Stanley,” he called, “keep both hands on the swing, please!”
“Okay!” Stanley yelled back, holding properly onto the chains of the swing, correcting himself from dangling precariously.
“Thank you!”
Stanley beamed at him brightly, and fondness softened Stanford’s eyes. Could he really ruin that smile? He wanted to help his brother, he wanted to do the best by Stanley that he could as Stanley’s guardian. But what if the best he could do was to allow Stanley to remain as he was? What if trying to bring back his memories and stop the age regression made things worse for him?
Stanford wanted Stanley to get better, he did. He wanted his brother back the way he should be, as a grown man both physically and mentally. But… but was that unfair to Stanley? Was it more merciful to just let him be as he is now? He didn’t want to withdraw Stanley from therapy, but was it right to make Stanley relive his traumas again?
And if it was best for Stanley to remain like this, always fluctuating between adult and child, was Stanford prepared to take care of him for the rest of their lives? He’d accepted to be Stanley’s conservator as a temporary position until Stanley was well enough to make his own decisions again. But what if that never happened?
Stanford knew that he would, in a way, lose his twin. He would cease to truly be Stanley’s brother and become something more like a parent to him. He would be responsible for Stanley for as long as they lived, looking after an adult who didn’t always know he was an adult. That was no small thing. He would be Stanley’s dedicated caretaker, always having to factor Stanley into every decision he made.
Stanford stared down into the dredges of cold coffee left in his mug. He didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want to see that childlike, joyful expression on Stanley’s face fade away forever. But it also wasn’t about what he wanted; it was about what was best for Stanley.
“Sixer! Look at me!” Stanley called happily.
Stanford looked up and squawked in alarm. At some point unbeknownst to him, Stanley had climbed fairly high up in a tree and was gleefully waving at him from a not-so-sturdy looking branch.
“Stanley! Get down from there, you’re going to get hurt!” Stanford rushed off the porch to help Stanley.
Because in the end, helping his brother was all that mattered. Whether that meant Stanley got better or not.
“if you love this character then you must make him happy in your fics, right?” wrong. the horror. suffering. internal hemorrhage. hospital. immediately
I often wonder... what if the Mr.Rabid gets lost? Or will the gnome steal it for their queen? Dr. Pinington would be very upset..(
Have a nice day, cute alien 🍪
I think if Dr Pinington lost his little nurse he'd be... well... more sadistic? For lack of better words.
Stan is a lil guy most of the time but he can be a good doctor, he is genuinely curious although sometimes come off as creepy but it usually stems off the scars and lack of social skills.
Stan's little plush is a comfort item, a connection to his childhood, a friend. You take that away and bro just becomes unstable. To everyone he may appear more creepy like, a silent sort of angry, he may allow his curiosity to break morals and do more morally questionable experiments...
But to Ford he just looks sad really. It's the equivelent of a big tough dog turning into sad lil puppy as soon as their owner come in. He's just a lil guy! Sure he may have collected a few kidneys on a little meltdown spree but thats because his Nurse Rabid is gone!!!
Someone should remind me to draw Deltarune but like Kris going through those big gates that " may never open again" and finding Ralsei ready to stop them. Maybe Susie too but shes on Ralsei's team. Like...theyre the final bosses.
Do you guys want Selkie!Stan WIP that I probably won't finish because I am always forgetting it? Do you guys want it? Do you?
Anyway- you're getting it. The introduction to the AU is much longer than the actual Stan content ngl
Selkie Stan One-Shot (Uncompleted)
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It was that dream again. He knew the moment he drifted off to sleep and heard the waves from back home.
Opening his eyes, Stanford Pines found himself out in the street, near the beach. He was in his pajamas, flashlight in hand and still sleepily rubbing his eyes as he made his way down to the sandy floors.
“Stan?” His young voice called as he began to search for his twin in their little boat, the Stan O War.
Stanford already knew his brother wasn't there but the memory played out as usual.
It wasn't the first night this had happened, as Stanford grew up he couldn't help curse his brother's sleep walking tendencies though, feeling them to be a burden. His father had told him to just let him roam free after the third time it happened in a single week but this young Stanford was unable to leave his brother be. They were siblings, twins…he couldn't just leave him.
It wasn't an everyday thing. More often than not, Ford would find his brother snoring loudly like a walrus peacefully in his bed, the snores only having begun after his smoking addiction did.
As teens, when Stanford tried to ignore his brother but ultimately failed, he'd take his time getting dressed and putting on shoes rather than the uncomfortable sandals his brother opted for. He would then walk over to the beach, barely spare their childish project a glance as he headed for the water where his brother usually stood, water up to his knees as he stared off into the distance.
“Alright” he'd sigh tiredly, used to it by then “let's get you back to bed” and just like that, he'd carefully take his brother's hand and walk him back home.
Now, however, or rather- Before, as he was still a preteen in this dream… Stanford would look around the beach in confusion, freezing at the sight of a familiar silhouette.
“Stanley?”
Stanley was standing in the water, waist deep and getting his pajamas, that he was so excited to match Ford with, all wet. He seemed to be still walking towards the pitch black ahead.
“Stan?” Ford called again, hesitation just a step away from the waves and taking a step back any time they got too close.
“Stan, what are you doing?” The boy was too confused, shining the light towards his twin and still not seeing where the sky and water ended “this isn't funny, pa will be so mad when he sees you”
But Stanley just kept on walking and walking until-
“Stan!”
His brother slipped, a dip in the sand where the waves usually hit. Stanford knew as that's usually the area their mother told them to not swim in rare days she came to the beach with them to sunbathe
“I don't want to have to keep worrying about you twos drowning while I'm relaxing” she'd nag. Stanley and Stanford always loved to swim past the area when she wasn't around, a reef with different fishes hidden just a little further out was waiting for them every time.
“Lee!!” Ford cried out, dropping his flashlight in a panic and rushing in the water after his twin. In hindsight, he should've taken the light with him so he could see where his brother was in the dark depths of the water but all he could think about was getting to his brother’s side, to keep him close and safe. All he could think about was losing his twin at that moment.
Blindly he searched…and Stanford knows how that memory ends, he knows he ends up feeling around far too long for his brother and he knows he struggled with the weight that comes with swimming with clothes. He also knows the moment he felt a hint of skin against his hand and freaked out a bit, worried it was some sea monster rather than his brother but had grabbed on anyway until his hands felt around enough to conjure a picture in his head of a leg he had grabbed.
Stanford remembers how he thought he saw a pair of eyes shine in the darkness like a lighthouse before they drifted closed and the feeling of bubbles waved past his face. He remembers wrestling in the water to turn his brother upright so he could bring them both back to land…
Stanley would cough as he hit the ground of the beach with Stanford, Stanford had never been more happy to be a nerd and having learnt CPR.
Stanley had ended up confused and disoriented when he woke up to Stanford yelling and crying at him, demanding to know why he thought a night swim was a good idea-
“Why am I here?” He'd ask Stanford instead.
Then they'd go home at last, both shaky from the panic of the moment and the night breeze hitting their cold bodies, they'd huddle close to each other for warmth and open the front door to find their mother.
Their mother in no way was cruel, she was never as bad as their father… but in that moment, the moment Stanley opened the door for them as Stanford’s hands couldn't stop shaking and his head couldn't stop spinning from the little air that entered his lungs, he saw her. Arms crossed, shawl over her shoulders keeping her warm, eyes out the window she liked to sit by when she received calls…. She looked awake. She looked as though she had been awake for a while.
Stanford knew the window had a perfect view of the beach.
“Your brother is broken” she said, eyes distant… and she never clarified which of them she meant.
Instead of continuing the memories as it should, Stanford’s dreams end with him in the darkness of the water and the feeling of bubbles hitting his face. Nightmares of his brother drowning following him when he isn't awake taking his hand to bring him home.
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Like most days, when Stanford has such nightmares, he wakes up with a headache.
“Mornin’, Stanford” Fiddleford McGucket, his lab assistant and old college friend, greets him in the kitchen and Stanford manages a tired smile at the scent of coffee that greets him as well.
“Good morning” he sighs, pouring some coffee for himself as well. As usual, Fiddleford seems to notice his exhaustion but doesn't comment on it, instead he takes a sip of his own coffee before asking-
“You ready to head on over north?”
North. Right… They had planned to take their boat further out to research some new species of seaweed they had discovered that had been carried by the current.
They were meant to have started the previous week when they set off from the river to sea but the sight of sandy beaches had brought the nightmares back to Stanford.
“Yes, I will grab my coat” Stanford sighed. Somehow, even far away, Stanley managed to disrupt his plans.
Fiddleford had some vague idea of what his nightmares were about, every once in a while Ford would have them again and his friend would find him on their dorm couch staring into nothing in particular.
On worse nights Stanford would wake him up with his crying, feeling foolish for missing the person that betrayed him.
“He used to sleepwalk” he whispered in the dark of the living room, surprised to hear himself talking, especially since his friend hadn't probed him to talk about it this time.
The rummaging in the kitchen had stopped, as though F had been surprised himself. It continued soon after and Ford had felt it was easier to go on when his friend wasn't looking at him or giving him much attention.
“He'd always go down to the beach…first time it happened he–” he choked on his own words and shook his head “he nearly had–” he couldn't even say it and wasn't that pathetic? It had been years…Stanley hadn't seemed as traumatised as Stanford had been with it.
“Before he left…was kicked out-” Stanford corrected “he was still having those episodes. Walking to the beach, through the water…” Ford went on in a hushed tone as his friend returned with a steaming mug of tea in each hand.
“Sometimes I…I worry”
The mug was hot as he took it, both his freakish hands wrapping around the ceramic, letting themselves burn to root himself to the present.
“I worry he still sleep walks…” he whispered into the darkness, glad he couldn't see his friend's expression. Not that he was looking at him…
“and I'm not there to pull him out of the water”
Stanford never did tell Fiddleford who ‘he’ was but Fiddleford never really did ask after that.
As he came to the deck of their little research boat, Ford with his heavy long coat lined with fake fur underneath as he wore some wool undergarments and a thermo cup in his gloves hand, Fiddleford soon joined him with his own coat made of real animal pelt that Stanford unfortunately had the pleasure to witness being gifted one Christmas he had spent with his friend. He never did spend another Christmas with the McGuckets after that.
The two went over their notes as they sipped their coffee, the cold icy wind hitting their faces. According to their research, this new species of seaweed could be quite nutritious and used for medicine…there is just one problem-
“It seems to be coming from this direction” his friend pointed to a white area on the map.
The seaweed was coming from frozen areas.
This is a problem, how? Well; first, they wouldn't be able to obtain it as it would be under the freezing waters, and second, the seaweed itself would most likely be frozen in unachievable areas.
Stanford sighed. How did he end up here? Researching weeds of all things… He should be out there, exploring the extraordinary, the weird! He should be researching things like him… Anomalies.
He had taken this assignment because- well- it would get him closer to his dream of researching anomalies. There are countless sea stories talking about them, afterall, the fact that he has to sail around with a friend has nothing to do with his choice at all.
It's not like he wishes Stanley was here. That would be foolish.
“Perhaps its best we dock” Fiddleford recommend “there is land pretty close to here, three days out”
“Yes” Stanford sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose to ease the headache away “we can decide on a new plan then”
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Norway was as cold as any of them expected, the grounds damp from the constant rain that comes and goes.
The people there seemed polite, happy to help when asked but also seeming to run from interactions. As they set up camp to take a night off from the constant sway of the waves, Stanford couldnt help but think about the legends of trolls… it was nighttime, if they were real surely he would see one.
Did he want to see one?
Fiddleford was going off about their surroundings, commenting on how lovely it is to have moss everywhere rather than the dry, almost hay-like, grass everywhere to make you struggle to sleep with. Each rock covered in moss lump played with Stanford’s imagination and he found himself sketching little ideas of what a troll may look like based off each shape while his friend photographed anything and everything to have some sort of evidence to show about their studies to their college.
Their campfire cast shadows around them, making their surroundings appear much darker and scary than it actually was.
“Fish cake?”
“Yes, thank you” Stanford thanked, taking the offered snack as he kept doodling the weird lump on the ‘beach’ - it could hardly be called a beach really, there was barely any sand and the water was surrounded by volcanic rocks. It was honestly more mountain and boulders with nearby water than a beach.
The lump moves with the light of the fire and Stanford chuckles to himself as he munches on the awful texture of the fishcake. He is sure Stanley would've pulled a prank to scare him by now or began making stories about trolls approaching them…
He's also sure Stanley would've sleep walk right into the waters as soon as he let his guard down… messing their travels like he messes up everything else.
‘It's not his fault’ Stanford thinks he hears a young naive voice say and quickly shakes his head, instead focusing on the advancing lump.
He turns to watch his friend set up his camera to photograph the stars, a telescope right by its side and-
Stanford does a double take. He looks at the lump. The one that's wobbling towards them.
Flabbergasted, all Stanford can do is blink at the dark shadow that's shuffling up the beach and towards the forest area where they are camping. It couldn’t be….could it?
Quickly, Stanford grabbed a flashlight and stood, coat fluttering in the wind from where he left it open to lounge. His eyes widened with wonder, his heart raced. Yes…it must be…
A troll!
“I'm going to the beach” he announced in a hurry, already running down to the beach, not listening to Fiddleford's scolding or complaints- he had important things to do! Those things were called: Science!
Slowing down to a jog, Ford panted as he turned on the flashlight and pointed it around, trying to find the moving creature in the darkness.
There!
Stanford gasped as the light squared in on the….the…
Seal.
A regular seal. Well- a baby seal, specially… one with white fluffy fur and big black pupils that look up at him all shiny and adorable and-
The baby seal flopped over and began to slap at its chubby belly. Stanford stood by, watching.
“Uh…” he looked around for the baby's parents but saw no other seal but the adorable fluffball.
SLAP SLAP SLAP SLAP
“I can assure you, I am no threat” Stanford tried, lifting his hand to show he was unarmed. Perhaps it was not good to teach a young pup that humans were safe… Stanford hears they are hunted for their coats often…
“Well…excuse- I- I didn't mean to bother you-aand I'm talking to a seal” he realised, immediately dropping his hand and allowing the disappointment of finding a seal and not a troll roll in.
“I need sleep” he sighed and turned around to walk back up to camp, walking away from the seal pup.
Glancing back, Ford noticed the seal roll back onto its belly and huff through its nostrils, a nice curt nod that made it seem as though it was saying “that's right walk away”. Stanford chuckled, shaking his head.
“Nice beach walk?” Fiddleford asked, not looking away from the peephole of his telescope, only doing so to take notes of what he saw. Ford looked up at the bright night sky, taking in the stars.
“I suppose” Stanford’s reply was laced with disappointment "I thought I had seen something but turns out it was just a baby seal”
There was a crash and the fluttering of paper, Stanford jumped and looked to his friend. His friend who looked back at him. Wide eyes and looking ready to squeeze his eyes out.
“You saw a baby seal?! And didnt tell me?!”
“Im telling you now-”
“And why do you sound so dissapointed?!”
“Well-”
“ARE THEY STILL THERE?” Fiddleford squinted into the distance, hand on his forehead
“I guess-”
And there he goes. The man sure can run when he wants to. Stanford stood by, watching his friend run to shore before turning to look at his hand where he held the flashlight.
“Hm… I’m sure he'll come back for it”
It was later when he was cozy writing in his journal, in his little sleeping bag inside their tent, that Fiddleford returned looking just as disappointed as Stanford had earlier.
“There was no baby seal, Stanford” he whined “and even if there was, it was too dark for me to see”
“I'm sure I saw one” Ford lift a brow at his friend's drama, watching him unroll his own sleeping bag just to collapse on it and sulk “and I doubt a seal could move away that fast on land, you probably just didn't look hard enough”
He got a middle finger in response so Stanford showed Fiddleford all his four middle fingers in return.
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There was some rummaging going around. Stanford groaned, covering his head with the extra blanket he packed.
“Fiddleford, keep it down” he complained loud enough for his friend to hear it outside.
There was movement next to him. A squeaky yelp that Stanford recognised.
Someone shook his shoulder, Stanford quickly sat up to find his friend still in his sleeping bag, eyes wide. Stanford’s own eyes widened.
“I thought that was you” he whispered as the noise outside continued “if it's not you then…who..?”
“Or what” Stanford quickly reached for his glasses, blinking rapidly as his world focused once again. The light of the rising sun peeked through the small gaps of their tent and the thin layer.
Outside, galumphing about, was the same seal as yesterday- No no, wait. That’s not a seal…
Two extremely human (and normal) tiny hands poked out from the fur, wriggly fingers readying to dig into their backpack. Stanford watched, vaguely aware of his partner’s panicked whispers as he watched the seal(?) with human hands(??) go through their things.
“What is it?” Fiddleford finally let his own curiosity win past his fear, pushing his head against Ford’s to take a look outside as he fixed his own small glasses.
The anomaly outside curved in a way no seal should be able to, both men watching in horror as it grew two small feet, tiny toes poking out of the fur as it shoved its head inside of their bag. Suddenly-
“Hurra!” the anomaly popped back up, two arms holding up one of their lunch boxes, their head falling off to reveal brown curls and a wide smile on a-
“It’s a child” Fiddleford gasped as the kid rearranged themselves to sit propped up against the bag, legs stretched out in a way it was so obvious they were wearing seal-fur that it made Stanford feel like an imbecil.
Stanford squinted as the child struggled to open the tupperware, slamming tiny fists at it when their tiny fingers couldn’t pry it open before using their all too sharp teeth, gnawing at the plastic like an overly excited puppy. Slowly, Stanford crept out of the tent, waving off Fiddleford’s hushed warnings to not scare the child (“You’re no good with children, Ford! Let me”) as he wondered if he should let the infant know there was a latch on the lunchbox.
The infant stopped, freezing as soon as they noticed Stanford. Two big brown eyes lifted towards him, teeth still around a corner of the plastic box.
Now that he was closer, Stanford could make out the details of the child’s face. Such as how their nose curved downwards and their full cheeks were covered in freckles that stretched and became more of spots towards their ears that were smaller and more round than any human ear should be or how their tanned skin glistened in the first rays of the Norwegian sun, brown curls dusted in white from dried sea water.
Stanford could also make out how they were more masculine than feminine, probably a boy, and how sharp his teeth were or his small hands had a darker tint than the rest of him, sort of like the spots near his ears.
Curious of all was how similarly this anomaly resembled him when he was younger… Although with the way the kid was acting, the sun-kissed and freckled skin Stanford never quite achieved during his summer breaks, and how casually he seemed to act despite stealing Stanford’s things right in front of him, resembled someone else entirely. Resembled Stanley.
With a quiet gasp, the boy scrambled to his bare feet (isn’t it freezing?), dropping Stanford’s tupperware and puffing up his chest in a way that made his round cheeks puff up adorably with it. Then, suddenly, the anomaly/boy began to drum his belly rapidly, the thick fur of his coat muting the sound to be less potent in comparison to the seal’s yesterday. Stanford blinked.
“Uhh..”
THUMP THUMP THUMP
Unsure on what to do, Stanford finally glanced back to Fiddleford for help. His friend seemed to have already been in the process of leaving the tent, sighing as though he knew this would happen.
THUMP THUMP THUMP
“Hello” Fiddleford’s voice was a pitch higher, his hands resting on his knees as he crouched a bit to the anomaly’s height “What are you doing here, little boy? Aren’t you cold?”
“Way to be creepy” Stanford muttered to the side, crossing his arms
THUMP THUMP THUMPTHUMPTHUMP
“I am not creepy!” Fiddleford turned his way with a hiss
“What are you doing here all alone, oh little boyyy” Stanford made a bad imitation of a witch from the fairytales, it was, admittedly, childish.
THUMPTHUMP … THUMP THUMP
“I did not sound like that!”
THUMP
“Debateable”
THUMP ?
As the two of them argued, the small anomaly’s little belly slaps grew weaker before they came to a stop completely, his head spinning from Fiddleford to Stanford as they got into another of their little childish quarrels.
Stanford ignored the ache in his chest as he remembered such fights with his twin… Their last fight had been far from childish though.
He found himself missing said fights.
Somewhere in between their quarrel, the small anomaly must have decided this was the green light for them to go on with biting the tupperware. They casually took a seat, propped themselves back against Stanford’s bag and began gnawing at the lid once again.
[To be continued? If I survive??? Probably???? Only €9.99?? A cookie???]
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