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my severe truth

[illfymism]

I just love my cats so much bro! Like I really go to work to provide for them….

Now they tag teamin to kill this bug

[winouna]

[illfymism]

I am so excited to start a new job where I am financially stable ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️🧿

[illfymism]

6.14.25

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Hii I’m doin alright. Not too bad, I been putting my energy into painting my water bottle so thats been fun as my creative outlet. I have been seeing the protest here and golly it’s such a bummer that America has gone backwards in time. The fact that this country’s pride is providing an opportunity for the people and thus having such hatred towards each other’s differences is shameful.

unfortunately does affect me but I’m “white passing” sadly so I go unnoticed. However, I feel for those who are directly impacted by such events.

Today I do wanna smoke, so I’m gonna watch smoke sesh vids to cope!

Also gonna face a plate of wings snd like two mozzarella sticks and not feel too bad bc I’ve already meal prepped for this week (tomorrow’s task)

Love ya,

Byeeeee- baddie 🥰

[illfymism]

One of the many things I dislike abt my job is that, they don’t care for the workers. The fact that it’s been a week and there’s still no cups is beyond me! Like their sense of urgency to refill dog treat containers is far more appeasing than the well being of the employees that work here. Maybe I’m extreme, but it’s just ridiculous atp. The managers claiming to say they bought them and waiting for them in the mail is a poor excuse to not refill them for the mean time. There’s still no foil in the break room nor plates.

I even went to the bathroom. To finish and see there was no handsoap. I even looked in the cabinet to see & there was nothing. Talk about unsanitary an understatement. I told them and they said they didn’t have any … but their sense of urgency is pathetic if you ask me. The same energy that is installed when guests arrive is not the same to when their employees are asking for bandaids and there are still none. What a fuckin joke. But they want to be all corporate and enforce strict regulations and hire cleaners but no ceilings in the break room.

I even had to make a sign to NOT place the mop in the bathroom bc it was UNSANITARY & I caught one the mngrs placing it in there and I told them the sign says not too! Like wow! Common sense is not common! What a fruckin joke… I can’t wait til this place is exposed for what it truly is… a money grab and coalition of network of ppl who use money to get what they want.

Count your motherfruvkin days TAT 🌳… DEADASS!

[illfymism]

It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

[illfymism]

This feels so good to be in my own tumblr world. Like I feel like a video vixen by night but by trade a bad gurl in the day! The aroma in the air feels sexy and effervescent

[illfymism]

06.02.25

11:11 am

I will get a remote job where I will be financially set so that I will be able to save money for my savings!

I will work hard all this month to remove beong content at my current job to a career more pleasurable for myself!

I will no longer be working paycheck to paycheck and living more freely in my youth of LA!

I am so grateful for the life that I have!

I will be making 500,000 a yr at minimum because the God and the Universe is opening several opportunities for me to be able to live my ✨Dream Life✨🧿🧿🧿

Thank you God for this wonderful opportunity of life you have given me!

This is my wish for my birthday & everything will work out 🏋️‍♀️ in God’s time 💕

[illfymism]

5.30.25

So I woke up very light! My right side of my body feels very toned, like I can visualize it…

I had a dream that made my soul feel at ease. It was centered around defining my past roommate! I feel like I had resentment toward her and that I couldn’t let go due to a blown ego. And in the dream I met her at a reunion and we were in the auditorium and sat next to her. I remembered she started talking to me and suddenly I felt to let go of all the left emotions I had from the friendship we had.

I remember seeing a silver hair pin that had a ruby gem in the middle and it was used to pin her hair back in the fashion of a slick back.

I sat next to her and I think I complimented it on her and that caused me to just forgive and give me this settling peace. It was really something that I needed. Cuz I recently watched one her YT videos where I learned that she lives in SA, so it made me realize we are living different worlds and each have different experiences and goals and that is completely okay!

I think I had to learn that we each had to experience wa j other to grow from th pain and evolve from that place to be better. And I am so grateful. So I woke up light and refreshed.

Every experience is made to learn from not keep. My spark has been ignited

- stay lit 🔥🤭

[illfymism]

5.15.25

Today drained meeeee

I almost got in an accident while I was driving home from the movies due to my tire blowing out.. like that was scary ngl! I usually brush things off when it comes to serious things… but like this shif was no joke.

God was looking out for real & very grateful no one got hurt and that I’m safe, I’m just so tireddd! I’ll check back later

[illfymism]

5.6.25

I almosttttt folded yday bc of cinco de mayo, but I juggled with the idea too long to the point matter came over my mind. I was like I made it this far… I deserve a treat.. but then I had to ask, what am I doing it for? I want my life to be different, I want to approach it with mucho vitality, instead of disappointment & poverty! viscerally it was something needed. Starving the flesh

-conxious

[illfymism]

5.3.25

Okaaaay so yday I started my cycle and i almosttt folded! lol it’s cuz whenever im on, I give myself whatever I want (😈). But I didn’t have the appetite too much! Like I made Mac & cheese & wasn’t feeling it, so I just amped up the girl dinner & sufficed with toast w/ jam & butter 🧈🍞🍇.

I started on my Nina Simone portrait using projector to help loosen me up & not feel so tangled! It was quite fulfilling honestly bc I stuck with focusing on what was on my plate (the commission) .

-💋✨

[illfymism]

5.2.25

Morning debrief from (5.1.25)

Okay so after work I went home and kept myself pretty occupied with cleaning and posting so that helped me get my mind off of oui’d.

Then it was time to sleep and it took me a moment to get there not gonna lie. I do remember my dream… parts of it. I remember was in the VIP room at my job and these two Asian ladies lured me in there … and when the door shut, I couldn’t get out.

Like they were about to take me for whatever purposes. So I panicked thinking no one could hear me, and then I don’t remember exactly how, but the doors opened. I remembered one of my cats there tho.

[illfymism]

5.1.25

So today is the day I’m sober from oui’d and meat! I wanted to just start over after thinking abt stopping but just couldn’t get the courage too

So far: I’ve been not thinking about it just cuz I’m at work (although) I work at a dispensary, but I wanna push myself bc I CAN do it & I know the person coming out of it, WILL be stronger than right now!

I’ll see ya later

[illfymism]

Alrighty, im retiring the content of my channel and moving on to a solidcore

[june1994-deactivated20240530]

death rose from my herbárium

[miamaimania]

“Swimming in Crimson” - Two boys contrast against the surreal red of Lake Retba, a natural marvel in Senegal known for its vivid hue.