Original Poetry by JWC

~~~Abandoned On Paper~~~

[illguidedhand]

I Sow So Shall I Reap

Seconds passing like hours, All these hours pass like they're days

Pain is draining any power, Sleep might tease but never stays

Steep price I pay for all the bliss, Effortlessness is never cheap

Steeped and teeming with torment is what the side of this coin keeps

And so that is what I now reap, I count these days but can't quite know

How many still crawl on toward me, this costly toll for what I sow

JWC (Mar 2021)

[illguidedhand]

~Held Against Me~

Her body holds me captive like she’s not sure that I’m real

Her eyes are pleading to me voicing love that I can feel

Her presence stirs inside me breathing life into my purpose

Her touch it runs so deep that all her love pours out its surface

Her want returns my need as endless as lost time is wasted

Her need I want so bad that all I needed was to taste it

Her lips exhale my name in love I take in all I feel

When wrapped in sudden pain I fall awake and she’s not real

JWC (Feb 2016)

[illguidedhand]

I wrote this after the waking up from a dream took what felt like at the time the love of my life. -JWC-

[lostinhistorypics]

Spanish Flu, 1918. Family Portrait.

[illguidedhand]

History repeats itself...smh...isn't that the truth.

[illguidedhand]

The End

It feels like she wants to leave me

All I know is I can't leave her

All her actions hurt me deeply

But her words make me believe her

Denying that she doesn't see me

Looking through me her eyes linger

Acting if the empty spot

Is what's suppose to grace her finger

Faced an empty seat beside her

Her snare on me only strenghtened

When traced the maze back from the ending

My loss only seemed to deepen

Her hold unsure her fake love shaky

Breaking all the frail ties binding

My sight adjusts she knows I'm waking

The fading spell now not so blinding

Her grip is lost all once numb senses

Fully awake it seems quite clear

Distorted memories hold all our dances

But this last dance must stay right here

JWC 07/2019

[illguidedhand]

The Fall

Imprisoned breath held in suspense

Hung suspended in an instant

Good intentions left to clinch

All that's ended now seems distant

Defending every choice I make

Giving fact the stone to stand on

Ending abruptly but so late

Leaving no feet left to land on

Sigh of relief with sad relief

Heavy hands lift off my back

Falling from you now all you see

My new leaf has turned its back

JWC (May 2019)

[illguidedhand]

~Delilah~

Drawn down an alley Easily tempted by a temptress Drowning in my folly Falling lungs completely breathless Eyes that pull me in All her curves I feel them out Word that seem to touch Giving lips and mindful pout Skin filled full of heat Folding neatly into mine Sinfully so sweet Clearing any fight from mind Replaced with deaf desire Blinding any choice I see Framed within her body Losing any piece of me… JWC (Feb 2016)

[illguidedhand]

~Face Never Known~

Night after night her blank face haunts my mind

Emotion and love when awake I can't find

A connection so real that all others seem fake

A connection so strong that it hurts just to wake

So caught in this memory of a past we don't share

So drawn to a beauty of a face that's not there

It's so hard to have faith in a love only shown

In the memory of a dream of a face never known

I've been searching so long with great hope that I'll find

This girl of my dreams that's been haunting my mind

JWC (2014)

[illguidedhand]

~The way home as told by the lost and forgotten~

"May all the bridges I burn light the way..."

(Dec 2016)

[illguidedhand]

~Loved~

Homesick for the place only present in your presence

Sickened by the pain soundly grounded in your absence

Nights devoid of sleep steeped in loss left by your touch

Your sight my sore eyes seek it’s steep though still the costs not much

Reaching to embrace my reflex gives way in your memory

Starving for your taste hungered my sense amiss and empty

Fractured incomplete my peace is missing left in pieces

The bitters not so sweet your kiss is held beyond my reaches

In love I know your mine the test of time has only shown

If it could not be you then I’d just learn to live alone

JWC (Aug 2017)

[caelsmum]

[illguidedhand]

A Shot At Random

I shot an arrow into the air

I don't know how it fell or where

But strangely enough at my journey's end

I found it again

In the neck of my friend

~D.B.W. Lewis~

[illguidedhand]

~One and The Other~

Hand selected for the job

Both are firm within their standings

One now stands out part transparent

The other stands up quite demanding

One is wanted now that discarded

The other lost but now found needed

Bound to bleed opposing hearted

In suspense no inch proceeded

A breath of just a quiet instant

Shattered peace of shards and pieces

Objected movement forced persistent

Brilliant score sounds pleasing teases

One now fractured the other looming

Fulfilling sound failed right from start

Instructed web spun unassuming

Each captured puppet has played it’s part

JWC (Sep 2017)

[illguidedhand]

~Held Against Me~

Her body holds me captive like she’s not sure that I’m real

Her eyes are pleading to me voicing love that I can feel

Her presence stirs inside me breathing life into my purpose

Her touch it runs so deep that all her love pours out its surface

Her want returns my need as endless as lost time is wasted

Her need I want so bad that all I needed was to taste it

Her lips exhale my name in love I take in all I feel

When wrapped in sudden pain I fall awake and she’s not real

JWC (Feb 2016)

[illguidedhand]

~Holding~

I ask you this question But I’m scared what you’ll say Will you trust in my Love Or just push it away If I asked you once more Would you answer my prayer Or leave me holding my heart For a Love that’s not there

JWC (Nov 2012)

[lostinhistorypics]

“Keep Calm and Carry On”. London readers continue to browse at a bombed library, WWII.

[illguidedhand]

~Delilah~

Drawn down an alley Easily tempted by a temptress Drowning in my folly Falling lungs completely breathless Eyes that pull me in All her curves I feel them out Word that seem to touch Giving lips and mindful pout Skin filled full of heat Folding neatly into mine Sinfully so sweet Clearing any fight from mind Replaced with deaf desire Blinding any choice I see Framed within her body Losing any piece of me… JWC (Feb 2016)