because two weeks ago, in a conversation with my dad, he said to me "were filipino. i think no matter where we go, people are going to see us as lesser." because when i was 18, in my first group roleplay, a 26 year old white woman wrote a black man as a rapist and a serial killer, even going to far as to roleplay sexual harassment on the dash. because when i was 19, a writer i roleplayed against repeatedly called my character of colour a pet, a toy, and a dog. because people say they would continue to roleplay faceclaims who have done blackface / brownface because "who gives a shit." because people still defend the fetishization of east asian faceclaims. because i've sat through multiple microagressions over the course of three years roleplaying here, fearing that if i spoke out, i would be written off as the annoying sjw! the irrational, angry brown woman! because i have to make my anger smaller for it to be taken seriously. because i have to make my identity palatable to appear nonthreatening. because when i finally gained the courage to speak out, i was repeatedly dismissed and made to feel irrational before people finally listened to my side. if you say, 'there are bigger things to worry about!' that's the fucking point. we continue to endure so much trauma off the internet; we don't need our online communities contributing to our pain and grief.
power and privilege decides whose anger gets taken seriously. so im fucking begging you to listen when we, people of colour, tell you that you are hurting us. we deserve to feel safe. fuck you, treat us better.
