all these lonely places

i'm coming apart at the seams, pitching myself for leads in other people's dreams. cj | twenty nine | she / they multimuse | semi-selective

[illusionxwrites]

hi! my name is cj, i am twenty nine years old, and i use she / they pronouns. this is an independent & selective multimuse blog. mature themes will be present.

rules /  characters / wishlist /  open starters / kinks

mobile-friendly muse list:

augustine rhodes | emily bader fc | late twenties. high-end escort. cheerful, proud, alluring, manipulative. | f, bi, switch

blake calloway | thomas coherty fc | mid twenties. student, groundskeeper. reckless, angry, protective, loyal. | m, straight, dom

christian foster | tom holland fc | mid twenties. account executive. nervous, high strung, rule follower, innocent, studious. | m, bi, sub

dakota “koda” mcdermott | sabrina carpenter fc | early twenties. student, waitress. optimistic, patient, vulnerable, stationary. | f, bi, sub

emerson cassell | dove cameron fc | late twenties. bodyguard. volatile, hardened, vengeful, intelligent. | alt verse: hitman, supernatural | f, bi, switch

finn alvarez | danny ramirez fc | early thirties. travel writer. restless, egotistic, solitary, forgetful, jealous. | m, bi, dom

greyson ward | ross lynch fc | mid twenties. musician, actor. egotistic, carefree, self centered, humorous, impulsive. | verse: the band | m, bi, dom 

harvey burns | austin butler fc | late twenties. stunt man. carefree, spiteful, poetic, arrogant, reasonable. | m, bi, switch 

isa calloway | hannah dodd fc | late twenties. bartender/boxer. adventurous, blunt, guilt-prone, resourceful, sarcastic. | nb, queer, switch

jeevan ‘jay’ chettiar | anirudh pisharody fc | late twenties. charismatic, funny, self-destructive, easily distracted. | m, bi, switch

lucas silva | pedro pascal fc | mid forties. humanities professor. kind-hearted, charismatic, vulnerable. | m, bi, switch 

michelle “mickey” campbell | jenna ortega fc | mid twenties. art teacher. artsy, sneaky, reliable, dreamer, abstract. | f, bi, switch 

nova davis | elizabeth olsen fc | mid thirties. wedding planner. hyperactive, kind-hearted, frustrating, jealous. | f, bi, switch 

ophelia newton | dove cameron fc | early twenties. professional dancer. artistic, control freak, charming, obsessive. | f, bi, switch 

piper burns | kristine froseth fc | early twenties. barista, student. gentle, passionate, tenacious, nurturing. | f, bi, switch

quentin ‘q’ seabrook | damson idris fc | early thirties. actor. intuitive, gluttonous, paranoid, gentle, melancholic. | nb, bi, switch

riley radcliffe | gavin leatherwood fc | mid twenties. drummer and songwriter. compassionate, sensitive, ambitious, introvert. | verse: the band | m, bi, switch

sebastian o’hale | avan jogia fc | late twenties. photographer, petty thief, bartender. private, resilient, practical, creative. | m, bi, switch

sofia hart | kat mcnamara fc | late twenties. heiress. spoiled, flirtatious, manipulative, demanding. | alt verse: supernatural | f, bi, switch 

violet knox | kiernan shipka fc | mid twenties. musician. erratic, consuming, despondent, expressive, excited. | verse: the band | nb, bi, switch 

wren ‘birdie’ chettiar | simone ashley fc | er doctor. empathetic, overworked, nurturing, strong-willed. | f, bi, switch

[lostxones]

"Sure. I'll send you an invoice." Reaching over, he ruffled her hair as she nuzzled against her pillow. "I'd like to say any time, but, uh, I don't know if I'd keep my job very long if I keep letting you run amuck." Blake couldn't help but roll his eyes. "Yeah, that sounds about right." As she settled in, he gathered a few things that would help her through the morning when she woke up: a glass of water and pain killers. "My room is right next door if you need me."

[illusionxwrites]

vi listened to him move about her room, peeking one eye open to see what he had brought to her nightstand. it brought a small smile to her lips. "mmkay," she was fading fast now that she was all curled up, the alcohol in her system finally lulling her into sleep. "sleep good, blake."

[cxntresses]

she hummed, lightly tracing a finger over ophelia’s bottom lip. “i guess i just feel like i have to help sad little virgins like you.”

[illusionxwrites]

another roll of her eyes, but she leaned into the other's touch. "so grateful to have your sympathy in these trying times. geez, really, how can i ever repay you?"

[laurens-german]

MIKA ABDALLA as Allie Hayes OFF CAMPUS 01.01 'The Deal'

[joenateuser]

ROSS LYNCH via THE DRIVER ERA Raleigh, NC (June 20, 2025)

[lostxones]

There were days when seeing Harvey felt more exciting than seeing Jack. It was complicated to come to terms with. Wasn't her boyfriend supposed to be her favorite person in the world? That's how it seemed to be for her parents. It had started out that way with Jack but whatever she felt for Harvey was far more intense than anything she'd ever felt with her current boyfriend. But she'd still clung to Jack because the thought of starting over was too hard. Another failed relationship when all she wanted was her happily ever after. A soft laugh left her at his teasing. "I still appreciate the offer but I...can't." More like she wouldn't have the slightest idea what to do. He would get bored with her lack of experience, she was sure. "I'd like that...I mean...your number. Not the sex offer. Not that I don't think you'd be, um, good at it, I just don't think that I--" Realizing she was rambling, she inhaled sharply. "I'm sorry. I can't stop talking. You make me nervous."

[illusionxwrites]

well, he'd given it a good try. even harvey failed sometimes and today was one of those times. well, partially. she said that she would take his number and hopefully she'd use it one day, and harvey would live to fight another day for her affections. at this point, he wasn't sure how far his infatuation with her went. he thought that all he wanted was to sleep with her, but the more the conversation went on, the less sure he was that it was all he wanted. "my number it is." he laughed at her nervousness, sliding over to her and reaching behind her - to take her phone out of her back pocket. "i need this, then." he smiled, holding it up to her face so it would unlock, then typing his number in. "i don't want your number. i mean, i do, but not right now, because then i'll be tempted to call you tomorrow and you aren't ready for me to call you tomorrow." he handed her phone back to her with a raised eyebrow. "so the ball's in your court now."

[lostxones]

Isabelle hadn't expected to find her roommate in a compromising position with Blake when she'd arrived home from work. The shock of it had Izzy frozen in place for longer than she would have liked, lips parting as she watched the way his body moved. It was only when her eyes met his that she snapped out of it. With face burning, she'd fled to the coffee shop down the street. That had probably been a mistake; the caffeine made her even more jittery as she returned to her apartment. Her roommate seemed none the wiser, at least for now. "I--no." Her voice squeaked and she shook her head quickly. "I...sorry. I wasn't expecting...that."

[illusionxwrites]

blake certainly hadn't expected anyone to walk in on him and his hook up, but he looked up and there she was, lips parted and eyes wide. blake couldn't help himself; he threw a wink her way, almost made a comment about it, but then she was gone and blake returned his attention to the matter at hand. later, when things had settled down and isabelle returned, he was lounging across the couch like he owned the place - fully clothed, this time. "sorry, love. i was told we had the place to ourselves for a few hours at least." the way he said it made it clear he was quoting someone else. "but you're welcome to watch round two if you'd like. er... round three, at this point."

[lostxones]

The corner of his mouth curled up in a smirk at her lack of a witty retort. Grant relished having this sort of effect on her. He was obsessed with the way she moved against him, the little sounds she made. "Glad to hear it, baby." His fingers curled inside her, thumb rubbing hard circles on her clit.

[illusionxwrites]

"baby," she repeated in a purr, her hand working the length of his cock as he played with her. it sent a thrill down her spine, hearing him call her pet names. it made her feel possessive, her sharp nails digging into his shoulder. "you're really playing with fire."

[lostxones]

His hand landed naturally on the small of her back as she moved towards the bed. "A bedtime story, huh? I might have to charge you extra for that." Blake pulled back the covers, helping her settle into it before covering her back up. "Easier, sure...but probably a lot more boring. You keep me on my toes, Knox."

[illusionxwrites]

"add it to my tab," she yawned midway through her words, getting settled into her bed. the blankets were pulled up to her face and she smiled up at him from her cocoon of blankets, his words warming her from the inside out. "definitely a lot more boring, there's no doubt about that. thanks for tonight. i needed it." she closed her eyes, nuzzling her face into the pillow, smearing it with make up. "no more niceness from me for at least a week, mmkay?"

[lostxones]

"I get most peoples' good sides," she teased. "I'm incredibly charming." It was easy for her to talk confidently even if she didn't truly feel it. The way he was looking at her almost made her believe it. There was a slight tinge of jealousy at his tone when he talked about her sister. Molly had a complicated history with her brother and their sibling dynamics had suffered because of it. Shimmying closer, she hooked her leg over his hip. "First rule, no matter how irresistible we find each other, we can't touch each other outside of this room." She questioned her level of self-control and they hadn't even slept together yet. God, she wanted to, though. "I don't have a second rule mostly because I'm going to be very focused on not breaking rule number one."

[illusionxwrites]

"i'm going to have to agree with that one." he teased her. his hand went down to cup her leg as it was thrown over his hip, fingers skimming down the back of her thigh. he was drawn in by her, enthralled by her presence; it was like his hands just couldn't get enough of her, his gaze unable to be torn from hers. finn laughed softly at her rules, knowing he was going to have trouble with the first - the only - rule. "cruel, but fair. it would make it very obvious very quickly." he paused, thoughtful for a moment. "the second rule is that we can't have sleepovers. everyone needs to be back in their room by sunrise. tragically, and i do consider it a massive character flaw, i snore. we would be caught instantly if i fell asleep in your room."

[lostxones]

One corner of her mouth curled up in amusement. "Nobody has ever asked you that before, have they?" Lyra set her highlighters down on the coffee table, leaning forward to rest her elbow on the table as she listened to him talk. "I could see it, actually." Her shoulders lifted in a shrug. "Maybe a publisher...I don't know. I thought about teaching but I don't think I have the patience for it." She closed her book, far more interested in the man sitting in her living room than the homework she had. "Do you want a drink?"

[illusionxwrites]

he blushed at how quickly she picked up on what he was thinking, nodding sheepishly. was he really so easy to read? for her, apparently so. his heart picked up speed when she gave her stamp of approval, smiling wide. "i can always test out my teaching skills with you, when you request tutoring." he said, rolling his pencil between his fingers. "publishing would be cool. you must really like to read, huh?" he's still pretending like he can get some work done when she closed her book, eyebrows raising in surprise. "oh. uh, sure. i'm not a big drinker, but one doesn't hurt, right?"

[cxntresses]

huge brown eyes turn doelike, practically glossy with tears. “i am sooo selfless!” leah pouts. “why else would i let you suck me off? you’re not even good at it.”

[illusionxwrites]

"then why do you keep coming back for more?" she challenged, rolling her eyes at the sudden display of emotions. leah was the single most frustrating person she'd ever met, and yet, she couldn't stay away.

[cxntresses]

sweet smile never leaves the petite brunette’s face. “i’m just trying to help you,” she hums. “i can get off any time with any other girl.”

[illusionxwrites]

she can't help the spark of jealousy at the mention of other girls. not that ophelia was living a life of celibacy when leah wasn't around; well, she kind of was. between competitions and training, there wasn't much time for other activities. "i don't believe for one second that you're ever trying to help me. you would never be so selfless."

[mynorthernattitude]

need my pussy licked and my attitude adjusted. not necessarily in that order.

[lostxones]

"I'm flattered that you think I'm interesting." Blake certainly didn't think he was. Not now that he'd found another line of work. "Alright, c'mon." He moved her legs aside before he stood and held his hand out to her so he could pull her up from the couch. "Let's get you tucked in. I don't know how to fucking function anymore without you being a thorn in my side."

[illusionxwrites]

she took his hand without thinking about it, letting him help her off the couch. the room spun, violet stumbling over her feet as she moved towards the bed. "read me a bedtime story too," she teased with a grin, leaning her bodyweight against him. "you handle my thorniness very well, if i do say so myself. but you'd be just fine without me. better than fine, probably. you'd have a much easier life."

[angelicviced]

" y'know what the most fucked up thing about this situation is .ᐣ you had your chance years ago and you choose her. yet like a std you keep coming back here, looking for me. " she was already beyond sick of him and his fuck boy ways. mentally she wanted to throw him against a wall and scream at him. but she won't do that. not today at least. eyes roll at his words, figure walking closer to him. " thats a bold face lie. you just want me to keep the secret because you know for a fact she will run off an annul your marriage and she should .ᐟ you'll never fucking change. you'll keep coming here until i say something or you grow a pair. "

[illusionxwrites]

there's only so much he can listen to before his frustration and anger gets the best of him. "then say something, val. you want to stand there and complain that i keep running back to you, then tell me to fuck off. you won't, cause you'd rather have me around, wouldn't you?" he shot back, stepping forward into her space. the two were uncomfortably close in the small space, angry heat rolling off his body. "maybe i never change, but you don't either." it's not fair, what he's doing. he's the one with the ring on his finger, the one who should have never shown up here to begin with, but he can't help himself.

[sarcasmpersonified181]

In a way he respects that she’s willing to do whatever she feels she must to get what she so desires. It makes him think that in another life they could have been together. Really together. But they didn’t live in that world. They lived in the one where he wouldn’t leave his wife and the one where she’d now elected to use their affair to her advantage. Hands moved behind her body, finding the zip at the back of her dress and tugging it down with authority. All the while he felt her touch, how swift it was, how his belt stood no chance against her need to get him bare before her in a hurry. “Fuck” he grunted in her mouth before his hands worked to pull her attire down her body. “Mm if you want it so bad, take it. Don’t be shy now. Show me that you deserve to be pumped full.”

[illusionxwrites]

"yes, sir," she purred, letting his slide her dress off her body with ease. as always, she wore one of her best matching sets beneath, always dressed to the nines for him. no matter how long they'd been having their affair, she was always determined to be her best for him. that was the difference between mistresses and wives, after all - effort. slowly she sank to her knees, keeping her eyes on his as she did, and released his cock from the confines of his pants. mouth full of saliva, she took him in her mouth with ease. her head bobbed, one hand on the base of his shaft, working the rest of his cock that couldn't fit in her mouth. soft moans were muffled by his cock, one hand grasping the back of his thigh to keep herself steady.