A short story about the different wounds Damian Wayne has sustained.
tw: graphic description of injuries.
There are many wounds that Damian Wayne sustained in his short life. And if he were asked, and if he must reply, he would rank the wounds he sustained.
A head wound is the least painful, and the hardest to recover from. He loses his grip on consciousness, and reality slips like oil between his fingers. It's hard to worry about that when he's delirious. But in the aftermath, when recovery begins and time starts ticking, measuring how long it takes him to put himself back together—that is when head trauma becomes excruciating.
Muscle memory is all you have because your muscles have atrophied in your rest and your memory is stuttering back to life. He can't trust his mind to keep him safe and conceal his secrets—his tongue is loosened and speaks before he tells it. Green eyes watch him and count the days it takes him to recover.
And all shall pass, until a day comes when he's stabbed in the chest and the knife nicks his lungs. Suddenly, he's pooling blood into his lungs with each inhale, and the chest wound in his side sucks in air with him in nasty, wheezing sounds that haunt him.
The silver lining is how effective first aid measures are for a sucking chest wound. A little square of silver foil covers the wound, and the blood is sucked from his lungs with a tube. Blue eyes watch him and count the ways he could have avoided nicking his lungs.
And all shall pass, they say. But Damian would add, 'unless you've had a broken back and a doctor screws it in place with a metal rod.' It's a slow crawl up two steps in a staircase. Sweat beading his forehead when he sits up in bed. A hand clutching the railing, or palm splayed on the walls, or fingers gripping someone's elbows, hanging on.
It's a small distance to fall from your feet to your knees, but it ricochets up the metal rods in his back like a hail of bullets. Blue eyes watch with concern and Damian counts the new wrinkles around them.
And all shall pass, again. When you're ashes, dust to dust, bones and metal in a casket, these physical wounds will be reduced to bad memories.
Which is why, if Damian were asked, and if Damian must reply, he would rank these physical wounds as child's play compared to the sucking chest wound in his heart. Sharp words stabbed it and didn't even leave the knife to stop his blood from going everywhere. No, they took their knife and left.
This wound in his chest heaved in breaths that taste like blood and sound like ghosts hissing their hurts. Blue eyes, green eyes, teal eyes, brown eyes—he counts them all as they turn away one by one by one.
And when he's ashes, dust and metal in a casket, these wounds in his spirit will be more than bad memories.
On a cold night like any night in Gotham, when patrol is cut short and Damian is rushed to the med-bay, he lays in a white bed and catalogues his hurts. The heart monitor is worried and insistent, but Damian has never felt so calm. There's a bullet in his chest, so what?
There's a blurry edge to Drake's face, and Todd's voice is muffled behind cotton in his ears, and a white halo is above Richard's head—the operation lights, the back of his mind says—and Alfred's hands are a magical blue—surgical gloves—and Father is...Father is here, looking Damian in the eye, mouth moving in silent words. Damian nudges his mind, shakes it like a bag dispensing dog food, tries to get it to read Father's lips.
There's a bullet in my chest, he wants to tell them. It's okay, he wants to tell them. The bullet is still in there, so the blood is not going everywhere, and you should take care of that because he can't feel his arms, but. But most importantly. It's a physical wound, and. And everyone is here, like a little silver square of foil that will close his sucking chest wound and make the horrible wheezing go away.
It's okay, because they stayed and made sure this wound would only be a physical one.
Stay with me, Father's lips say before Damian is out cold.