summary: you're a member of the cross guild. one night, in search of a quiet place to fall apart, you slip into the garden—only to end up in the arms of a certain swordsman... however, despite the way your heart aches for him, you refuse to fall in love with dracule mihawk. you know it could never work. you're venus, and he's mars. you were never meant to be what the other needs.
...right? tag list: mihawk/you, slow burn, mutual pining, soft angst, made from mihawk brainrot, cosmic metaphors, enemies to lovers (kinda) chapter list:
chapter one
chapter two
chapter three
chapter four
chapter five
chapter six
chapter seven
chapter eight
chapter nine (end)
Chapter 9: Venus and Mars
Mihawk turns the moment he hears you.
His coat catching the torchlight, his eyes already locked to yours like they never stopped watching the door.
The hallway holds its breath.
And so does he.
He sees the tears instantly. Sees the way your shoulders tense, the way your throat works around words you can’t say. The grief in your silence is louder than any outburst, and it cuts through him like no blade, no opponent, no duel he’s ever known.
But he doesn’t move.
He just lets you speak.
Lets you give him that single, broken word:
“Goodnight.”
And when you turn—shoulders curling inward, fingers trembling as you reach to close the door—
He catches it.
His hand, warm and steady, presses gently to the wood. Not to force it open.
But to hold it still.
“I won’t come in,” he says softly, voice barely more than breath above your ear. “Not unless you ask.”
A pause.
Then—
“But if you need me…”
His voice falters, just for a second.
“If you want me—say it.”
A breath.
“Let me in, Y/N.”
The smallest sound slips from you in reply.
Not a word.
Barely a plea.
Just a sob.
And it guts him.
He watches you. Shoulders hunched, back trembling, hands shielding your face from his view.
And for a moment masquerading as an eternity, Mihawk doesn’t move.
Because this—you—is sacred.
And he’s never been one to trespass where he isn’t wanted.
Gently, wordlessly, he steps forward. Not past the door. Not past your defenses.
Just close enough.
You feel the warmth of him at your back. Pressing, ever so slightly, against you.
And when his voice finally comes, it’s the softest it’s ever been.
“…I never wanted to hurt you.”
A beat.
“You don’t have to let me in. Not all the way. Not tonight.”
Another pause.
“But let me hold the door.”
“—Y-You didn’t come after me!”
Your trembling voice ripples through the late silence.
You can’t see it, not with your back turned, not through your tears.
But Mihawk winces.
His hand falls to his side from where it was right behind your nape.
Fingers curling tight, knuckles white.
He doesn't speak right away.
Because there’s no defense.
Not for that.
Not for you.
When he does, his voice is low—hoarse, like something is finally managing to wound the world’s greatest swordsman.
“I wanted to. I thought about it.”
A breath.
“But I thought giving you space was what you needed. That staying back meant respecting you.”
Another breath—sharper this time.
“I didn’t realize that by not chasing you…”
He swallows hard.
“I was leaving you alone.”
You turn your face just slightly, eyes still hidden, lips parted as if searching for something to say—but the only thing left is the hurt.
The absence.
God, you knew it’d end up like this. You called it from the start.
Why can’t you be wrong for once—
“I was afraid,” he murmurs. “That if I reached for you… I’d lose you anyway.”
“But I see now—I lost you the moment I didn’t.”
Then, lower:
“Forgive me.”
Your reply comes in the form of another soft sob as you quickly wipe the tears from your eyes with your wrists.
You turn towards him, and fresh tears replace the ones you just wiped.
“S-See? We’re already hurting each other. I told you. Venus and Mars.”
A shaky inhale.
“All that we'll leave each other with is ghosts and scars. We just don’t belong together, Mihawk.”
A shaky exhale.
“Even if we want to be,” you whisper as you turn away from him again.
And for the first time in all his calculated, collected life…
Dracule Mihawk looks shattered.
Defeated, even.
He steps closer after a few silent moments.
Enough for you to feel the warmth of him—
the trembling restraint behind every inch of distance he doesn’t cross.
He doesn’t argue. He can’t.
Because you’re right.
The ache in your voice is already proof. The way your sob breaks in the middle, how your hands hide your face, like admitting the want was more painful than denying it.
But then—
His voice.
Low. Rough. Barely holding steady.
“…You’re right. We don’t belong in the stars.”
You blink through your fingers.
He steps forward again.
“We don’t align in the sky. Don’t spin in harmony. Don’t dance like constellations are supposed to.”
He’s in front of you now, no longer behind you.
And gently, so gently, his hand reaches up—
Not to pull you in.
But to lift your hand away from your face.
So he can see you.
So you can see him.
Golden eyes full of ruin and restraint.
“But I’d rather collide with you until there’s nothing left of me,” he breathes, “than admit I’d be better off without you.”
And just like that—
Mars reaches for Venus.
Your breath hitches.
His fingers brush your cheek—barely—just enough to wipe a tear that hadn’t yet fallen. The touch is reverent, hesitant, like you might shatter in his hands if he’s not careful.
But you already have shattered.
And he’s here now—not as a swordsman, or as a pirate, or even as a planet, but as a man who stayed too far from you when you needed him the closest.
And now?
He’s close.
Your eyes meet his—wet and vulnerable and full of all the pain you tried to hide.
And his?
They're devastated.
He clears his throat softly, like anything louder might break the fragile thread of courage holding you both together in this moment.
“I’ll be frank with you, I don’t know how to do this.”
A breath. Words you never expected to hear Dracule Mihawk admit.
“I know how to fight. To wait. To watch. But I don’t know how to love, how to chase after something as delicate as a heart, like this.”
Like yours.
Another breath.
“But I want to learn. With you.”
Your lips part—trembling, uncertain. You don’t even realize you’re already shaking your head.
“Mihawk…”
He takes your hands.
Gently. Firmly. In his.
“If we’re both going to get hurt,” he murmurs, “then let me be there to stop the bleeding.”
And that’s it. That’s all you can take.
He catches you instantly.
No hesitation. No breath missed.
His arms wrap around you with a gentleness that betrays the strength behind them—tight enough to hold you together, but soft enough to let you break in his arms.
The duality wielded only by a man, like Dracule Mihawk.
Your face buries into his chest, warm and steady, the scent of him wrapping around you like something familiar, like something you didn’t realize you missed so, so badly until it was gone.
And Mihawk—the man who never yields, never falters—lowers his head, rests his cheek against your hair, and just holds you.
No words.
No time limits this time, either.
Your fingers clutch at his shirt.
You shake against him.
And still—he stays.
One hand gently rubs your back. The other cradles the back of your head. His breath is slow, steady, controlled—but only just. Because he’s feeling it too. That trembling swell in his chest. That quiet terror of getting it wrong. That aching relief that you let him back in.
Minutes pass.
Maybe hours, all the same.
But in his arms, the noise fades.
The ache dulls.
The distance disappears.
And when your sobs soften into breaths, when your grip loosens but doesn’t let go—
Mihawk finally speaks again, lips pressed to your temple.
“I’ll stay as long as you’ll have me.”
Sniffle. “Out here in this hallway?”
You murmur it softly against his chest, your voice still fragile, but touched with that worn spark he knows too well.
Mihawk stills for half a second.
Then—
The faintest huff of a breath against your hair. Not quite a laugh.
But close.
“As poetic as it would be,” he murmurs, “I imagine you’d complain about the draft within minutes.”
You feel him shift, just slightly—one hand sliding from your back to brush your cheek, coaxing you to lift your face.
His golden eyes meet yours—quiet, open, and unbelievably close.
“Let me in,” he says softly. “This time… properly.”
The door closes behind you both with a gentle click.
Like a breath finally released after being held too long.
You stand there for a moment, hand still on the handle, your back to him, the quiet wrapping around you both like silk.
He doesn’t speak.
Doesn’t move toward you.
He waits for you.
Not because he's unsure—
But because he wants you to set the tone this time.
So when you finally turn around—eyes still pink, lips pressed together like you're afraid more truth might spill out—Mihawk simply straightens his posture.
Calm. Present. Open.
“I don’t know what to do,” you whisper.
Your fingers twist in the hem of your nightclothes. “I still feel like running. And staying. All at once.”
He nods once. A slow, deliberate movement.
Then steps forward.
Not to grab you. Not to hold you again.
But to kneel.
Right in front of you. Silent. Grounded.
Golden eyes lift to yours from below.
His hand grabs yours, his lips brush your knuckles. Like a man kneeling at the altar of something he worships and treasures, both at once.
“Then stand still,” he murmurs. “And I’ll stand with you. Until you don’t want to run anymore.”
He catches you immediately—again—as you fall to your knees and embrace him.
But this time, you don’t collapse.
You choose him.
Your arms wrap around his neck, desperate and full, and he folds into you like a man who’s been holding himself back for far too long.
He exhales shakily into your shoulder, one hand rising to cradle the back of your head, the other curling protectively around your waist.
Not fierce.
Not forceful.
Violently gentle.
Like he’s afraid if he lets go now, you’ll vanish again.
You cling tighter. You both do.
Kneeling on the floor of your room, holding each other like you’ve survived something—and maybe you have.
Mihawk’s voice is low. Threadbare.
“Don’t run from me again.”
You shake your head against him. A silent promise.
He pulls back just enough to look at you.
Hair tousled. Eyes rimmed red.
And still—the most devastating thing he’s ever seen.
“Beautiful,” he whispers.
And this time?
When he leans in—slowly, reverently—
You don’t pull away.
It’s soft. Softer than you expected.
Not timid—
but aching.
A kiss born not of heat, but of gravity.
The kind of kiss that says I’ve waited
I’ve ached
I’ve come undone in silence for you.
Your lips meet his like a whispered truth—trembling, slow, desperate in the gentlest way. And Mihawk… he breathes in like you’re the air he’s been denied for too long. His hand rises to cradle your cheek, thumb brushing away a tear you didn’t know was falling.
He deepens the kiss—not to consume,
but to stay.
To tell you, without words:
I’m here.
I’m not leaving.
Not even if you ask me to. Not even if you beg.
Your hands frame his face, fingers sliding into his hair, and when your lips crash into his this time, it’s no longer trembling or tentative—
it’s need.
It’s everything unspoken spilling into action.
And Mihawk?
He melts into it.
His hands grip your waist—firm, reverent, grounding—like he can’t believe you’re real. Like he’s afraid you’ll vanish if he holds too tight, but terrified you’ll slip through his fingers if he doesn’t hold you at all.
He kisses you back like he’s making up for every minute lost.
Every step you took away.
Every door you locked.
And now, here—on the floor, in your room, in a moment that shouldn’t exist but does—
He lets go.
Not of you.
Of the restraint. The distance. The silence.
And when he pulls back—breathless, golden eyes wide with something that looks far too close to love—he whispers, forehead to yours:
This conclusion is such a powerful, heartfelt conclusion to a great story; buildup and tension between the two is so strong, I could feel it from across the screen XD glad to know mihawk finally gets the guts to go after the poor reader before he loses her forever 💖
varka wrote a letter to you right before heading back to mondstadt. you respond.
part one (click the link above). part two (now reading). part three (coming soon).
Masterlist
The journey back home was supposed to be shorter. Easier. The last group of knights Varka was travelling with was smaller, not to mention a large part of the time they were on a boat, sailing from Nod-Krai to Bayda Harbour. Then the journey continued on foot across Liyue until they reached home. It was the shortest and fastest way to travel. Yet, by the time the knights finally reached Wangshu Inn, Varka felt like time was keeping him chained away from you.
He regretted being so cocky in the last letter he had sent, being more preoccupied with petty little games you often played to outsmart each other. He really did hope you were waiting at Wangshu Inn for him. He hoped with all his heart that you would appear out of the Silk Flower bushes, running into his arms. Or that your eyes were following his steps from the high terrace of the Inn, eager to welcome him in the room you had already rented.
None of that happened. He cursed himself for not begging you to come to him earlier because the days seemed to stretch one after the other and the moment he could finally see you again was still out of reach. Varka’s patience was wearing thin. Nevertheless, his troubled soul was not something others could guess. To the knights he was the same man they’ve always known. Now that the dangers of the expedition were left behind them, the grandmaster seemed more easygoing, humming songs to fill the silence, joking around, sharing plans for the future. Varka was a reassuring presence, both in battle and in ordinary life.
Every small wave of knights that returned to Mondstadt had followed the same route, making sure the people at Wangshu Inn had the rooms already prepared to accommodate Varka and his people for one night on their last stop before the end of the journey. As they were checking in, the owner handed the grandmaster a letter that had been waiting for his arrival for a couple of days. The faintly fragrant paper and your sigil on top of it was enough for Varka’s heart to skip a beat. With a gleeful command he allowed the group of knights to retreat to their rented chambers for a couple of hours of rest before meeting at dinner. On his way to his own room, Varka’s long, skillful fingers all but almost ripped the paper apart, no drop of patience left in his tired body.
Grandmaster,
Varka chuckled at the sober tone of your letter. He could almost hear the familiar strain in your voice as you tried to hide the rosy pink shade in your cheeks whenever he got you flustered. The letter he had sent before departing must have made you feel like that.
I used to consider you a reliable and responsible man, the kind of man who would protect and shelter his people from both sickness and danger. It seems the Nod-Krai expedition has used up all of these qualities you used to show.
Brows furrowed and eyes narrowed, Varka checked the envelope and seal of the letter that had been waiting for him. Unmistakably your writing, but sealed with formal red wax instead of the usual dark blue your letters used to have. Seal colors were an unspoken language, revealing much of the letter’s contents before even reading it. Love letters were usually sealed with blue wax. Varka considered that a deeper shade symbolized a deeper love and, while his love was so immense it was impossible to show through trinkets and whatnot, he always searched for the deepest shade of sealing wax when he was writing to you. He had endless examples of this since he had kept every letter you sent him during the expedition, all sealed in blue. Red was for impersonal, formal letters, the kind he would send or receive from other countries’ officials or businessmen.
Mondstadt needs you, grandmaster. I assume the tribulations you encountered in the past year, like abyssal power, 500 year old fiends and Fatui harbingers, are nothing compared to administrative, logistic, social and economic issues of state. I am also aware that you would rather fight Boreas all over again than sit at your desk and go through official papers. Yet, I must remind you that these aspects are also part of your duty, and more frequent than you hope.
Before he could reach his room Varka had to sit at a table on the terrace filled with travelers and finish this reprimanding letter. What was going on? He had written his heart out to you and this is the response he gets instead? Sure, maybe he allowed himself to complain more than usual around you, felt comfortable enough to act like a child, show his vulnerability and his most intimate thoughts and wishes. Isn’t that what you liked? Isn’t that what you missed? Having the strongest man in Mondstadt wrapped around your finger?
I do not have the heart to ask Jean to keep on going even a day more. She always wants to prove herself to you, and she did more than enough. The girl is overworked. As much as you hate administrative work she gets buried in it, as if she can fix the whole nation’s problems in a day. You chose her well, grandmaster. She is indeed a responsible, hard working and intelligent knight. The burden is too heavy for her shoulders, though she resisted this much. So, please, have some consideration for her.
Varka knew, even though he never addressed it directly. He heard people talking, both praising and pitying the young acting grandmaster for her dedication. Of course Jean would get the recognition she deserves, it’s just that he never really needed to prepare speeches like these ahead of time. When he’ll get there he’ll know what to say. After all, if Varka ever felt anxious or insecure enough not to find the right words it was way back when he first met you. He ran his fingers through his hair, trying to get rid of the guilty feeling that seemed to stick to his golden locks.
Instead, my humble suggestion would be to establish a council. Indeed, a group of people takes too much time to decide on important matters and each person has their own interests they pursue. During your long absence, leaving only one person to take on your duties was the right choice. Now that you are returning, however, having a council that could keep things running for a day or two so the grandmaster can rest from time to time sounds like a reasonable idea to me.
Varka had already been thinking about setting up a council. The thought that you still shared the same ideas helped soothe his confused mind a little. Now that he was going through the letter again, maybe your tone wasn’t as harsh as he perceived it at first.
Sending Diluc to Fontaine on the other hand… That is something even you can agree is a little too much, grandmaster. I don’t think I need to remind you what this expedition had cost Mondstadt. Supplies, manpower and most of all mora… It wouldn’t be an exaggeration to say the economy was kept alive thanks to the Ragnvindr family business. To think you’re willing to pour it all into the primordial sea for free…
Varka huffed, defeated and put the letter down to rub his tired eyes. Even though he had been travelling on foot for so long this letter of yours was stirring him up so badly he felt like leaving for Mondstadt right at that moment. You had a way with words that made him do anything you asked for. Always pushing and pulling, scolding him and treating him coldly throughout the letter yet the way you kept repeating the word grandmaster, grandmaster, grandmaster felt extremely flirtatious even on paper. Was he getting delirious? Was he so deprived of your love and attention that he was imagining things? Was he so desperate to be welcomed in your arms, be showered with your love so badly that anything else felt insufficient? He only had one paragraph left to read and he picked the letter up again in both hands, placing his scarred forearms on the table like he was going to debate the toughest decision in Mondstadt’s history.
Do you remember that we have a cavalry captain, grandmaster? His name is Kaeya and he’s been asking me about the horses you took away constantly. I cannot tell him there are no horses anymore. Firstly, because I cannot witness the sadness on his face when he realizes his title now means nothing. On the other hand, as we have already discussed privately about this matter, the lack of horses is a real problem.
Of course Varka remembered your private talk. It was his birthday when the knights almost forced him to take the day off and you spent the night together in Nasha Town. That night you told him it was a real pity they didn’t have the horses anymore since he looked, to quote your own words, irresistible when riding one. In return, Varka got to see how good you looked while riding him.
You really liked messing with his poor heart. He barely had the time to relieve his needs since the journey was taking most of the day and by nightfall he was so tired he would fall asleep instantly. During his time at sea, however, Varka had had enough spare time and privacy in his small cabin to touch himself while thinking about you. It barely helped, though, so he did it over and over again like an inexperienced teen who had just discovered the concept of masturbation. He was a starved wolf in an empty cage and you kept pushing a stick through the bars, riling him up even more..
I would suggest you return with at least five horses, grandmaster. Make your entrance through the gates like a triumphant leader, give the people a reason of celebration and pride. After that, you can let the newly established council handle the horse crisis and take some time off.
I hope I have answered all your propositions.
That was it. With a simple signature of your name you ended the letter, leaving Varka blinking in confusion. He checked the other side of the paper: empty. He checked if, perhaps, there were two pieces of paper stuck together, a secret second letter waiting to be discovered. Not the case. His finger traced the curve of every word, like he was able to feel you through the ink and find the answer to his confusion.
He didn’t even hear the young boy who asked if he wanted to have some tea or a meal. The place was buzzing with people eating, talking and playing games at their tables, yet Varka rested his head on his arm on the table, holding the letter with the tips of his fingers, clear blue eyes narrowed and scanning for something, anything that could explain why you didn’t acknowledge his love. It was a pitiful sight, truly. The grandmaster’s wide shoulders slouched over the table, his large frame taking up too much space. Yet he looked so small, his fingers pressing against his scalp in an attempt to soothe his mind and the letter in his other hand, obsessively reading it over and over like he was clinging to your feet begging to receive some kind of acceptance. He could have been at the table for ten minutes or an hour, time didn’t really have any meaning, when Varka finally sighed, completely crushed, and sat up. His armored attire clinked and rattled imposingly, drawing other people's eyes to his tall figure before he retreated to his room.
Varka’s eyes were filled with so much disappointment and his mind was so clouded with questions that he probably wouldn’t have noticed the envelope carefully placed on the pillow if it weren’t for the sweet and seductive aroma that captured his senses as soon as he stepped foot inside the small chamber. The paper was practically soaked in what was without a doubt your perfume, mixed with something else he couldn’t quite name, so much that the whole room smelled like you. In a couple of large, hurried steps, Varka made his way across the room to sit on the bed and claim the second letter, sealed in deep blue.
My poor husband,
I can only imagine the pout on your lips right now. Was I too harsh in the previous letter? You’ll have to forgive me for messing with you, it is not my fault you're as adorable and as playful as a small pup waving his tail in excitement.
The frown on Varka’s face melted instantly.
I cannot welcome you in advance and that’s entirely your fault for sending the troops in waves. The first group arrived before your letter and spoiled your surprise and your plans for some peaceful moments between husband and wife. The whole city is going crazy with preparations as I’m writing this letter and, as the dutiful wife of our grandmaster, I have to contribute to the organizational effort. I ask you to forgive me for not being there as you’re reading my words. Being away from you for one more day is enough punishment already.
To have his heart beating so wildly in his chest after being together for such a long time was a feat only you were capable of. Varka bit the inside of his cheek in an attempt to suppress the enormous grin on his face, even though nobody was there to witness it.
Everybody is waiting for you. I should have known when I first met you that with a face so dashing, strength unrivaled and heart so virtuous people would gravitate around you and I’ll have to patiently wait for the time I can have you all for myself. Maybe that’s why I like to mess with you now and then, so you take your eyes away from duty and look at me more.
Your letter has stirred a fire within my being that I cannot extinguish. Please have some decency, grandmaster, for when you show no restraint and pour out all your desires I have to be the responsible and sensible one and I don’t think I can do it much longer.
How I wish to lock you away in our bedroom and never allow you to see anyone but me.
How I wish to run away from this whole commotion and have you all for myself.
How I wish to tell everyone that you are mine and mine alone, that you belong to me and only me, that no one has the right to steal even one moment of your attention.
Do you know what I’m doing instead? I pick flower arrangements for the celebration, I make sure everyone has enough food and is paid well, I chatter about people’s worries and reassure them the grandmaster is coming back.
If I were to let go of my morality, restraint and dignity do you know how I would answer your letter? Yes, let Jean handle the work a little more. Yes, pour all the wine in Cider Lake if you wish. Yes, do anything you want just take me away from here and never leave me again.
Is that what you wanted to hear?
I suppose the other letter is my last attempt to preserve my honor. You turn me into a woman so selfish, so greedy, not to mention lustful. If only you knew the ways I imagine you in my mind before I go to sleep…
Please, please, please hurry.
Your ever dutiful wife
P.S. The only reason I suggested getting some horses is so you’ll travel faster. It doesn’t have anything to do with the fact that I get weak in the knees when I see you ride.
By now, Varka was laying on his back, the uncomfortable mattress and the strain in his legs completely ignored. His eyes kept tracing line after line, again and again, almost like he couldn’t believe what he was reading after being fooled before. Endless days of marching meant nothing right now, he would crawl back to you if his legs would give out. A bolt of energy surged through his body, fueled only by the thought of you yearning for him as much as he yearned for you. After bouncing his leg on the floor for a few moments, he decided he was restless. He brought the letter to his lips, inhaling deeply the scent that was so close yet so far still, like it was going to allow him to breathe for one more day. And with that, he sat up again, on his way to find a traveling merchant selling horses.
— a/n — hello everyone!! i know i’ve been neglecting you all for so, so long… you guys are prob sick of all the apologies, and the only way i can make it up to you guys is with yet another fic! this is my first nsfw fic, i truly hope that i did well enough for you all! :3
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you and boothill shared a long, winding history—one stitched into your childhood long before either of you had the language to understand what attachment really meant. before you learned heartbreak, before he learned how to hide his.
it began the day you arrived in that tiny, sun-bleached town. a place that had once been something but now clung to the scraps of its former life. the kind of place where every porch had a rocking chair, every window had someone peeking through it, and every stranger was treated like they were otherworldly.
your parents claimed it would be better for all of you—cheaper living, slower pace, “a chance to start over.”
you were too young to question why adults always said start over when what they really meant was run away.
for weeks, you felt like an outcast wandering a community that had no room for you. the children at school watched you like you were some rare animal. the neighbors smiled, wide and polite, but their eyes flicked over your worn shoes and your parents’ tired faces with judgment sharper than a knife.
you spent your afternoons alone in the tiny patch of dust that passed as your front yard—drawing lines with a stick, kicking pebbles, pretending not to hear the whispers or see the side-eyes from the kids passing by.
one such afternoon, as the sun dipped lower and you finally decided to retreat inside, you heard it:
“oi!”
it wasn’t a polite greeting. it wasn’t even a question.
it was a full-bodied yell that clattered across the street like a thrown stone.
you turned just in time to see a small blur racing toward you—a boy, white-haired even back then, with an oversized cowboy hat bouncing on his head, dusty boots, and a grin too big for his face.
he skidded to a stop in front of you, chest heaving, hands on his knees as if he’d sprinted miles.
“yer new,” he declared, not even bothering to let you speak. “i mean, i knew ya were, ‘cause i ain’t ever seen ya ‘round before.”
you stared at him, baffled. he barely paused long enough to breathe.
“i saw you playin’ alone all day,” he continued, practically vibrating with energy. “so i figured i’d come over and ask if yer up for lassoin’ somethin’. i’m real good at it. practiced on miss cheryl’s mutt once—oh, i live next to her! but you don’t know her yet. she’s real sweet but her dog’s possessed or somethin’. keeps barkin’ at me like i stole its bones.”
he spoke to you like he’d been meaning to tell you all of this for years, like you were a long-lost friend he’d finally caught up to.
then, with theatrical flair, he whipped off his cowboy hat, bowed so deeply he nearly tipped over, and beamed up at you.
“boothill’s the name!”
cute, you thought. ridiculous, actually. he had a whole tooth missing right in the front, and it only made him look more absurd.
you tried to keep a straight face, but your giggle escaped before you could stop it.
“you look silly,” you said honestly.
boothill froze.
his cheeks burned red enough to match a sunset.
for a moment, he glanced away, suddenly shy—something you’d later learn was rare for him.
but instead of hurting him, your laughter seemed to put him at ease.
you tugged at your sleeve, suddenly feeling braver.
“we can play together,” you offered.
he blinked, stunned for a moment, before his entire face broke into a grin so bright it almost hurt to look at.
from that day on, he became a constant—your shadow, your partner in crime, your anchor in a town that had rejected you. boothill, with his dusty boots, loud voice, and stubborn loyalty, was the first person to make that place feel less like a prison and more like a home.
he was at your front door every morning before school, without fail—sometimes knocking, sometimes just waiting on the porch steps with his legs dangling and his hat tipped back. your mother always peeked through the curtain before opening the door, and every single time, she’d smile and whisper, “that boy has a heart of pure gold.”
and she was right. even back then, boothill had that stubborn, loyal spark in him—the kind that made him cling to the people he cared about like they were lifelines. he seemed like the kind of boy who’d never give up on you, not even if the whole world told him to.
“ya ready?” he’d ask, grinning wide enough to show that missing tooth, offering to walk you to school even though it meant leaving his house earlier than he needed to. even though he took the long way just to walk the same route as you.
after classes ended, you could always count on hearing his voice before you even spotted him.
“hey! wait up!”
he’d sprint toward you, waving frantically, dust kicking up behind him like he was in some makeshift western scene only he understood. he always offered to walk you home, and most days, he did—whether you agreed or not.
“i found a real good spot today,” he’d say breathlessly. “there’s a tree shaped like a horse if ya squint one eye! i can show ya!”
never mind that your small town barely had anything worth looking at—no malls, no arcades, nothing but faded storefronts and long stretches of dirt road. boothill always found something. a rock that looked like a rabbit. a tree that bent funny. a patch of wildflowers he swore only bloomed for him.
to him, every corner of that town was full of magic as long as you were there to see it too.
he knocked on your door almost every single day, for every reason possible. sometimes he had an excuse. sometimes he didn’t.
“my ma told me to bring ya some eggs ‘n a tart she baked,” he’d announce proudly, holding up whatever he’d been entrusted with. “it’s real good, miss! i’m eatin’ it like it’s my last life.”
other times, he clutched his hat in both hands, looking up at your mother like a polite little gentleman.
“i wanted to ask if ya’d let (name) come out ‘n play with me today,” he’d say, standing on his tiptoes. “it’ll be fun, i swear on my cowboy boots—cross my heart!”
and whether he came with an offering, a story, or just pure eagerness, boothill always showed up.
every day.
rain or shine.
dust storm or blistering heat.
you were his first friend, maybe his only real one back then, and even as children, he held onto you with a kind of devotion too big for a boy his age.
and you—though you didn’t realize it yet—were becoming the most important piece of his whole world.
you two became inseparable in a way that didn’t make sense to anyone else but felt completely natural to you. what started as childhood closeness settled into something much deeper as the years stretched on—something steady, loyal, bone-deep. people called you two siblings, twins in spirit, a matched pair. boothill himself laughed and agreed most days, slinging an arm around your shoulders as if he’d grown up with the right to do so.
you watched him change, slowly and all at once. his hair grew out, he shot up in height, became broader in the shoulders, more confident in his stride. his grin sharpened into something dangerous, the kind of smile that made strangers step aside and friends tug him back by the sleeve.
but for all the growing and shifting life forced on him, there was one thing boothill never abandoned: that cowboy persona. the swagger, the hat, the spurs, the sharp-shootin’ bravado—he clung to it like a badge of identity. and maybe it was silly, maybe it was dramatic, but god, he made it work.
your mother never stopped teasing you.
“he’s grown into a fine man,” she’d hum with a little smile, pretending not to watch your reaction. “and he treats you better than most men treat their wives.”
you’d roll your eyes, insist she was reading too much into things, but she was only voicing what everyone could see: boothill always treated you differently. softer. gentler. protective in ways that made even hardened men raise a brow.
because the truth was simple—he never fooled around. not once. not when every other young man his age was chasing thrills, seeking attention, bragging about conquests. boothill didn’t. if he ever did even think about someone, you’d know instantly. but he never did.
and if someone flirted with him?
he’d brush it off with a lazy smile and a bored drawl, eyes flicking back to you as if to say, “they ain’t you.”
meanwhile you—oblivious, or refusing to see the truth—kept brushing off the way he looked at you. the way his stares lingered too long, warm and intense. the way his flirtatious comments, light drawls, slow grins, always landed just a little too close to sincerity.
you chalked it up to “that’s just boothill,” ignoring the heat behind his voice, the softness behind the bravado.
but he wasn’t simply playing around.
he wasn’t practicing.
he wasn’t waiting for someone else.
from the very beginning, boothill only ever had eyes for you.
prom night was supposed to be the one small miracle the town still offered—an evening that felt borrowed from a different life, soft with lights and music and the delicious idea that maybe, for once, you’d be the kind of girl who sparkled. you’d fussed for hours over your hair, smoothed the dress until it obeyed your body, practiced a smile that felt brave enough to fool the whole world. your date was meant to come for you. he was meant to be the carriage that traded your tiny life for something cinematic, if only for one night.
and then he didn’t come.
you waited on the porch until the streetlights seemed to grow tired. minutes bled into something else—hours, maybe—and the quiet of the town tightened around you like a noose. you told yourself it was a mistake, an accident: his car broke down, something urgent kept him, there was a reason. you told yourself anything that would soothe the sting. but when the reasoning ran out you were left with the hollow of expectation and the hot sting of tears threatening to spill.
“y’alright?” the voice came, familiar as dust and warm as sunlight, and you hadn’t even noticed when boothill had slipped up beside you. you realized then you’d been crying—small, wet tracks on your cheeks you’d been too proud to wipe away.
you told him everything in a rush: how you’d rehearsed the laugh, how you’d pinned your hair just so, how you’d imagined the photograph you’d show your mother, how you’d wanted, more than anything, to feel seen. he listened the way he always did—entirely, without dramatic pity, with a kind of quiet consternation that felt like armor for you.
“didn’t i say that fool’d be no good?” he said, low and ragged, and the roughness in his voice had nothing to do with mockery. “guys like him? worse than cockroaches in yer damn kitchen.” his mouth quirked into a half-grin, trying for lightness. “get a wiggle on, sugar. i’ll take you somewhere that won’t make ya feel small.”
in that grin, something childhood bright and shameless flickered—the same boy who’d bowed with a hat in hand, who’d bragged about lassoin’ invisible horses and outrunning miss cheryl’s mutt. but under the bravado, his hands were steady when he took yours. he didn’t tell you then what he’d seen earlier: the man who left you stranded had slipped off with another girl, laughter too loud for a night that wasn’t his to steal. he kept that like a stone in his throat—an anger you didn’t need to see.
he hustled you to his car, the paint a story of scraped years and countless escapes. boothill drove with that familiar rough precision, one hand on the wheel, the other impossibly light on your knuckles. his eyes kept sliding back to you, again and again, drinking you in like someone cataloguing treasure: the way your lashes clung together from crying, the subtle tremor at the corner of your mouth, the tilt of your jaw that had always meant something to him and nothing to you.
he’d imagined this—countless times. he’d rehearsed the idea of your lips under his, the reckless intimacy of a kiss that would change everything. he’d imagined exploring the curve of your neck with fingers that knew how to soothe and how to claim. but imagination and confession were different beasts; courage was a narrow bridge he’d never quite been brave enough to cross. to tell you would be to risk everything: your friendship, the easy loyalties you shared, the small, stubborn refuge you’d carved together in a town that felt otherwise unkind.
for all his rough talk, boothill’s tenderness was careful. he didn’t collapse into possessive displays or grand, clumsy gestures; instead he kept you close enough that the warmth from his shoulder seeped into your arm, close enough that when you leaned away he could still catch the shadow of your breath. it was a kind of intimacy that hurt and healed in equal measure.
you sat like that for a while—silent, both of you watching the blur of the passing road—until he murmured, quieter than the radio, “i hate seein’ you hurt.” his voice was raw with something he didn’t have words for. “i’d take the hurt if i could. hell, i’d take it from ya and keep it in my chest if that meant you’d be okay.”
you wanted to tell him that his presence already fixed something inside you, that his ruined car and scuffed boots felt like home. you wanted to tell him that even years ago, when he’d been a toothless kid bowing in the dust, you’d felt the first, faint, dangerous flutter of something that would not let go.
instead you reached for his hand and squeezed. it was a small thing. it said more than you were brave enough to say aloud.
boothill eased the car to a stop at a little clearing on the edge of town. nothing fancy, just a patch of scrub and broken beer cans where other kids had parked to shout their laughter into the dark. the sky was wide there, enormous and honest, and even the dry brush seemed gilded in the slant of late light.
“i know this ain’t the best place ever—” he started, voice tainted with the apology he never learned to soften.
“it’s perfect.” you cut him off, turning to face him properly. the light caught his profile and for a moment he looked almost unreal—edges softened, the shadow of that old scar on his cheek a small, stubborn map to the years you’d shared. the memory of the tree that’d sent you both tumbling, of him taking the brunt of the fall so you wouldn’t, felt like a warm, secret thing between you. it reminded you, in the plainest way, that you’d always had each other.
you swallowed. “i just wanted to feel special for one night.” your voice came out thinner than you meant it to.
boothill leaned forward, hand finding yours—the way he’d always reached for you when words couldn’t do the heavy work. “y’are special, missy,” he said, thumb tracing slow circles over your knuckles like he was afraid the motion would vanish if he didn’t keep it steady. “jus’ ‘cause that fudgin’ mutt’s off foolin’ around don’t mean the restta the world don’t see ya.”
he wasn’t showy about comfort. his brand of tenderness was blunt and certain—a shove at anyone who’d be cruel to you, a voice raised for your defense, a presence that never left your side. shy wasn’t a word that fit him; fierce, maybe. loyal, always. tonight, under that wide indifferent sky, it felt like protection and confession rolled into one small, steady gesture.
you stayed quiet for a long moment, listening to the soft creak of the car and the faraway hum of the town. then boothill’s hand came up, steady and warm, cupping your jaw with a gentleness that always felt too big for him. he turned you until your face was full to his, the world narrowed to the tilt of his head and the light in his eyes.
“didn’t i promise ya i’d keep ya safe?” he tipped one eye closed in a lopsided wink that should’ve been ridiculous if it weren’t so exactly him—clumsy, sincere, impossible to resist. the attempt at levity softened the hardness in him and made your chest ache all the same.
you let out a small breath that was almost a laugh. “you always know how to cheer me up,” you said, the sentence fragile at first, then steadier as you let it land between you. your fingers found his, settling over the back of his hand where his thumb still traced the slow circles on your knuckles.
you leaned forward, on impulse and on habit, and pressed a quiet kiss to his cheek. it was brief, warm—a punctuation in the soft conversation you shared without words.
the sight of it shoved him off any careful balance he’d kept; his heart stuttered, then began to race. color crept up his neck and into his face until he matched the sunset, the same tomato-red you’d teased him about when he was a kid. he froze for a heartbeat, stunned by how much that small gesture had knocked him sideways, how much he’d wanted it without admitting as much.
“thank you,” boothill managed at last. he swallowed, then added, quieter, barely for your ears, “don’t ever let nobody tell ya different.”
you couldn’t even remember the moment the space between you vanished—one heartbeat you were just breathing, the next your noses were nearly touching and the world had narrowed to that fragile, electric silence. boothill stared at you with that wide, ridiculous look he always wore when he’d been caught feeling something too big for words, and when he whispered, “may i?” it was the softest, most dangerous question you’d ever heard.
you didn’t stop him.
the first contact was a jolt—sharp, startling, impossibly precise. your lips met and something inside both of you folded and reformed; they fit together as if they’d been learning each other in secret for years. it was everything and nothing you’d expected: tender, urgent, and inevitable all at once.
he pulled away a breath later, eyes searching your face as if trying to read a map. before he could say anything, your hands were at his temples, fingers splayed warm and certain, hauling him back like you’d been holding that pull in reserve. he let out a muffled, breathy “atta girl” between a laugh and a groan, and the sound sent heat down your spine.
what came next was messy, hungry, kisses deepened—a give and take like tides. tongues brushed and tested and danced, hands explored without hurry: one of his palms settled between hip and waist, anchoring you; the other drifted up and down the back of your skull, tilting you as he needed, then settling gentle against your neck, not to control but to feel the wild, steadying thump of you beneath his fingers.
you could feel him—not just his hands but the tremor in his shoulders, the hitch in his breath, the way his whole body curved toward yours as if he’d been learning to fold this shape his whole life. and you—your hands at his face, your weight pressed close, felt the truth of him in the small, urgent pressures and the rhythm of his pulse under your palm.
when you finally broke apart, it was only to breathe, foreheads resting together, both of you grinning a little too wide and with the embarrassingly vulnerable relief of people who have at last crossed a border they’d been circling for years.
boothill leaned back against the seat, drawing you with him until your thighs were hooked over his and the world outside the windshield blurred into nothing. his hands splayed warm and possessive at your waist, thumbs tracing lazy, dangerous circles as if mapping you anew.
“can’t believe that flippin’ idiot lost a beauty like you,” he murmured, words rough as gravel. his mouth found the hollow of your neck, pressing open-mouthed kisses. “fudge me, sugar. you’re like the damn sun—i could burn and never get tired.”
you laughed, breathless, a sound that trembled and fell apart when he caught a soft spot and nipped it there, light and practiced. every road crossed back to the press of his lips and the quick, hot spark that went through you every time his teeth grazed.
his hands slid higher, palms resting against the soft curve of your thighs, fingers digging just enough to anchor you. you felt the mark of him already—his claim in small bruises that would bloom later and that you’d secretly love to find. he spoke between kisses, voice low, confessional.
“did ya know how much my mind’s been spinnin’ round ya? like a wheel i can’t stop. everythin’ else falls away when you’re close. it’s like i got no head for anything but you.” his thumb brushed across your hip, gentle now, unbearably intimate. “and it’s drivin’ me mad, missy. mad enough i’d throw away hell if it meant you’d stay.”
you could hear the truth in him—the way his words trembled on the edge of something bigger. you pressed your forehead to his, heartbeat matching his, and for a moment neither of you spoke at all. the silence was full of all the small moments that had led here: the early mornings at your door, the scraped knees he’d kissed better, the way he’d always been there to take the hurt from you.
“i’m not askin’ for forever,” boothill said after a breath, raw and honest. “i’m askin’ to be allowed to be near you. to be the one who gets to hold you when things break. hell, i’ll take second-best if that’s what you give me. but don’t make me be some fool watchin’ from the edge.”
you swallowed, the weight of it settling in your chest like both promise and danger. his hands tightened at your waist, and somewhere between the want and the fear, you found a steady, careful answer.
you leaned in and kissed him slow, soft at first, then deeper when the world let you. when you pulled away, your voice was a breath. “please,” you said. “stay with me tonight. let me see if this—us—can be more than what we always were.”
his grin split through his exhaustion, equal parts relief and disbelief. “thank you.” he whispered, and then, without ceremony, he sealed it with another kiss, more desperate now—like you'll only be a ghost of his past.
you felt it in the way his breath stuttered against your mouth, in how each kiss grew hungrier—need carving itself into every touch. his hands roamed up your sides, tracing the shape of your ribs with a reverence he never showed anyone, then slid down to cup your ass, pulling you closer as if he couldn’t stand even an inch between you. every little sound you made, every gasp, every soft tremor only fed the fire in him; you could feel his confidence sharpen with each reaction.
but that wasn’t the only thing rising.
you paused just enough to arch a brow at him, lips swollen, voice low. “are you seriously…?”
boothill didn’t even try to hide it—didn’t look away, didn’t pretend. he just flashed that cocky, lopsided grin that always made your stomach flip. you could feel him through the denim, hard and unmistakable, pressing against you like he’d been waiting years for this.
“ain’t my fault you’re so damn attractive, sweetheart,” he drawled, voice dropping into that southern roughness he only slipped into when he lost control. his mouth brushed the edge of your jaw, his words a warm breath against your ear. “question is… d’ya wanna do anythin’ about it?”
you barely had time to breathe before he tugged you closer, guiding your hips down to grind against him with a slow, deliberate roll that stole the air from your lungs. your dress—already half-ridden up from the way you’d straddled him—kept slipping higher, and boothill had tried, tried to be decent, tugging it down earlier between kisses.
but now?
now he didn’t bother.
his hands slid from your thighs, fingertips dragging upward in a slow, claiming path until they disappeared under the hem of your dress. his palms were warm, and when he gripped you again—skin to skin—you felt his restraint snap another thread.
“been imaginin’ this for longer than i care to admit,” he murmured against your throat, voice shaking with honesty he’d never dare speak in daylight. “and hell… you’re even better than what i dreamed.”
“boothill—” you tried again, the word catching somewhere between breath and wanting, but he drew back just enough to look at you—eyebrows raised, lips tilted in that infuriating, beautiful smirk that said go on, sugar. say it.
you didn’t.
not with words.
instead, your palms pressed flat to his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat under your hands. you leaned into him—head on his shoulder, body softening in a way that told him everything you couldn’t yet say aloud.
boothill sucked in a breath, quiet but sharp, and his hands slipped lower, curling into the fabric of your dress. with one slow, aching pull, he dragged it higher, the hem gathering around your waist until the cool air touched your skin.
your pretty panties came into view, and his expression shifted—darkened, sharpened, something dangerous flickering behind his eyes.
“supposedly these ain’t for me, huh?” he murmured, tracing the edge of the lace with a finger that felt far too gentle for the heat in his voice. “good thing that fudgin’ punk won’t get to see ’em. he don’t deserve a damn glimpse.”
he talked too much—he always had, but now his words were laced with something harsher, deeper. jealousy bleeding into hunger. anger into desire. it rolled off him in waves, each one hotter than the last.
you barely had time to think before you felt him press up against you again, harder this time, making your breath hitch.
boothill’s hand slid to your hip, gripping it firmly, guiding your body just a little closer as his lips brushed the shell of your ear.
“tell me what ya want, pretty girl,” he whispered, voice lower than you’d ever heard it. “i’ll make it happen—on hell, i will.”
“you, boothill. i want everything you have.” your whisper melts right against the shell of his ear, slow and sinful, your fingers already sliding over his wrist to guide his hand. you feel the way he tenses—just for a heartbeat—before that familiar lazy grin curls against your skin.
“eager, are we?” his voice felt full of promise, full of hunger he doesn’t bother hiding. he kisses along your neck, open‑mouthed and warm, like he can’t stand the idea of not touching you anymore. his hand follows the path of your own, moving down your stomach, over the hem of your underwear, until—
“mmh… there we are.” his fingers press into the soaked fabric. your hips jolt. you can’t help it.
“ya really been achin’ for it, huh?” he murmurs, thumb pressing right over your clothed clit, rubbing small circles that make your breath stutter. “don’tcha worry, sugar. i’ll make damn sure ya feel good. better than anyone else even dreamed of makin’ ya feel.”
you choke back a moan, but it slips out anyway—soft, needy, desperate. boothill inhales it like it’s the sweetest thing he’s ever tasted, like the sound alone could get him drunk.
“there she is… that’s what i wanna hear.” he kisses your jaw, your throat, each one hungrier than the last. “don’t hold back on those pretty sounds, girl. no one’s gonna hear us out here. ‘n even if they did?” he nips at your neck. “i’ll make ‘em jealous. make ‘em wish they were the ones makin’ you beg.”
with one smooth motion, he pushes your panties aside, the cool air hitting your swollen heat right before he sinks one finger inside you. your breath catches, arms instinctively wrapping around the back of his neck, pulling him closer.
“look at ya,” he groans, pupils blown wide as he watches you take him in, “takin’ me so easy… suckin’ me in like you’ve been waitin’ on this for ages.”
his mouth is back on your throat, sucking, biting, claiming, as his finger moves deeper—then he adds a second. the stretch burns just right, and your hips twitch toward him without you meaning to.
you don’t know how he’s so good with his hands—how he knows exactly where to press, how to curl, how to make your legs shake—especially when you’ve never seen him with anyone else.
but he knows. he knows everything you need, like he’s been memorizing the idea of you long before he ever touched you.
you wanted to praise him—god, you wanted to.
you wanted to tell him he was perfect, that he was ruining you in the best way, that nobody had ever, ever touched you like this. you wanted to scream about how good he made you feel, how every curl of his fingers hit that spot so deep it made your vision blur, your eyes roll back, your whole body tremble for him.
instead, you dragged his mouth to yours, desperate, messy, breathless.
he groaned into the kiss, hungry—like he’d been waiting for you to break like this. he swallowed every sound you couldn’t hold back, lips moving with yours, tongue slipping against yours as his fingers pumped faster, deeper, curling with wicked precision.
your walls clenched around him, tight, hard enough that he swore under his breath.
“oh, i felt that,” he murmured against your lips, smug and wrecked all at once. his fingers sped up, dragging moans right out of you. “come on now, sugar. don’t fight it.”
you couldn’t.
your body betrayed you.
your breath hitched, your thighs shook, your arms wrapped around his neck like you needed him to stay right there, right inside you. your forehead pressed against his shoulder, and that was all the warning you could give before the orgasm slammed into you—sharp and hot and overwhelming.
“that’s it,” boothill urged, voice a rasp in your ear, “c'mon girl, make a mess all over me.”
and god, you did.
you came with a sound you would’ve been embarrassed about if you weren’t too far gone to care—half gasp, half cry, all pleasure. you clenched tight around his fingers, soaking his hand as your whole body trembled in his hold.
he let out a stunned little laugh, half-delighted, half-in disbelief.
“well, i’ll be damned…” boothill drawled, slowing his fingers inside you, easing you through the aftershocks. “look at ya… never seen someone fall apart so pretty.”
he kissed your temple, your cheek, your jaw—soft now, almost tender as he gave you a moment to breathe, his hand still between your legs, feeling every pulse of you coming down.
“fuck.” it slipped out of you, breathless and shaky. your chest lifted and fell fast, like you were still trying to remember how to breathe.
boothill laughed softly, a low, warm sound that wrapped around you. “what’cha sayin’, sweetheart… am i good?” he teased, but there was something gentle under it—something proud, something almost tender. his free hand moved up to your head, brushing your hair back with a softness that didn’t match the heat in his eyes.
when he pulled his fingers away, the sudden loss made you whimper—a tiny sound you immediately wished you could bury in your hands. his grin only widened at that. “aw, you’re gonna kill me if you keep doin’ that.”
he glanced down at his hand, coated in the proof of what he’d just done to you, and the light caught on the sheen. his eyebrows shot up like he couldn’t quite believe it—even after seeing it himself.
but the moment didn’t last long.
because the pressure against your thigh was impossible to ignore—hot, heavy, and unmistakably eager through the denim of his jeans.
you saw the realization in his eyes when he noticed that you noticed.
his gaze dropped to your thighs around him, then slowly dragged back up to your face. he didn’t try to hide the hunger in his expression, or the way he bit the inside of his cheek like he was barely keeping himself grounded.
“would ya care to be a cowgirl for a day, miss?” he asked, voice low and absolutely sinful.
before you could answer, he reached up, took off his hat, and gently placed it on your head. it dipped a little over your eyes, too big, too ridiculous—and boothill’s face broke into the softest, dumbest smile you’d ever seen on him.
“now that’s a sight,” he murmured, thumb brushing your cheekbone. “prettiest thing i ever laid eyes on.”
he leaned up, nose grazing yours, breath warm as he whispered:
tws: CorpseBride!AU, (soft?) yandere, obsessive/possessive behaviour, AFAB!reader, gothic horror (I hope), age difference, arranged marrige, Flins being an eerie gentleman he is.
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As usual, thank you all, my dear sweethearts, for your support!
part 1 - part 2 - part 3 (you are here) - part 4 (WIP)...
NOT SUITED FOR MINORS. Not proofread. Author does not endorse or condone any of the actions depicted in real life. Also, English is not the author's first language, so there might be some mistakes.
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Inspired by Tim Burton's "Corpse Bride" and The Unequal Marriage, 1862. Vasili Pukirev.
Danny Elfman - Barkis's Bummer
Danny Elfman - Moon dance
Consciousness seeped in slowly, through the velvet weight of darkness that swaddled you. You opened your eyes to a touch so light it might have been no more than a dream. A ghost of pressure glided against your hair gently in a soothing motion.
A dim light crept through the thick windows, pale as a corpse. It gave shape to the place: towering walls of age-darkened masonry that curled upward in a dizzying spiral, a chamber built so high it seemed to touch the sky. The air sighed with the sea’s voice beyond the rocks, carrying a mournful hush.
Your cheek rested not on a pillow but on something firmer, colder, stone-smooth yet strangely yielding. The truth struck like ice: you were lying across someone's lap.
Your eyes flew wide, and there he was. Hovering just above you, his pale face contorted in a strange but gentle expression. His hunched figure loomed with the solemn elegance of a statue raised to the forgotten. His garments, tailored with an artistry that had long passed from the world, gleamed like polished obsidian where the light struck. Long, alabaster fingers were threading through your hair, stroking in an endless, mesmerizing rhythm.
And his eyes…
The same eyes you saw before the pitch-black of nevermore. Those eyes were twin pools of starlight trapped in crystal, gazing down at you as though you were the sum of eternity. There was no hunger in that gaze, no carnality; only an ancient tenderness, the devotion of a man who had waited beneath the soil until patience became part of his marrow. It could’ve been a wanted awe, if he was not the one to abduct you.
"My heart,” the vision murmured, his baritone folding into the chamber like velvet smoke. “How sweetly you slept…”
The words shattered your breath. With a strangled cry, you jerked away, tumbling from his lap and scraping your knees on the chill stone of the floor.
“No! That’s not real!” Your own voice pierced the calamity, sharp as broken glass, rebelling against the impossible serenity in his. The blueish lips of the man parted, and with his hand in the air where your head was, he looked completely stunned.
“Stay back!” you cried into the damp cold. The need for escape surged through you like fire, raw and animal. Skirts of ruined silk dragged at your ankles as you stumbled to the heavy oak door carved into the wall. With desperate strength, you wrenched it open and plunged into the dark beyond.
“Wait- please!” his voice followed, no threat in it, only a pleading grief so deep it cracked like old wood. “Pray, do not flee! You’ll hurt yourself!”
The spiral stair clung to the insides of the tower, narrow and treacherous. You clutched the railing, the stone slick beneath your hands, and half-slid, half-ran down, down, down, down into a suffocating shadow.
The downstairs door yielded beneath your weight, and suddenly the world opened wide. You staggered out onto sodden ground, the lighthouse revealed itself behind you with its crown piercing clouds like a sentinel of the dead.
But the land before you was not the land you remembered. The sky had drowned in a ceaseless pall of azure fog. No sun reigned above, only that eerie light that bled from nowhere and everywhere at once. It turned earth and stone to shades of bone and shadow, a sepulchral cold world.
Blind with terror, you ran, feet slipping in the sodden moss. Your breath came in ragged sobs, stolen by the fog that muffled sound and sense alike.
“My heart, please, a moment of your time!” Somewhere behind, the man’s cries unraveled into the mist – always close, never near.
As you stumbled among crooked stones, the very earth seemed to change beneath your feet. Headstones, tilted and lichen-cloaked, thrust upward like teeth. Panic twisted into nausea when the realisation struck you.
A cemetery.
Why here?
Why me?
Why-
Your thoughts splintered when you tripped against a pair of feet rooted firmly in the cold dust. You fell hard, palms sinking into the earth, silk tearing against the wilted bushes and harsh stones. Gasping, you looked up-
“Oh, dear!”
“Be careful, young lady!”
And froze.
A man and woman stood together by a moss-choked headstone. The man was pale, wearing simple farm clothes. His eyes, gray and weary, brimmed not with malice but concern. He would have looked alive if not for the horrific slash marring his throat, gaping like a second smile.
Beside him, an old woman leaned on her stick, her green velvet gown sagging on her brittle frame, her face a map of ash-gray wrinkles. There were no injuries on her, but she looked so pale that you swore you could see the gravestone through her.
Both looked too human, heartbreakingly human, though their stillness betrayed them. Upon seeing you, their faces contorted in surprise.
“Dear Heavens! She is alive!” the woman wailed in shock.
“A breather!” the man whispered.
The shock tore the breath from you. With a cry, you staggered back, tore your dress against a rusted fence, and fled once more into the thickening fog, until-
The land fell away into nothingness. A cliff yawned before you, dropping into restless waters that glowed cobalt in the strange half-light.
The scream tore your throat raw. Your right foot slipped on the crumbling edge. A cascade of stones and earth rattled the silence as they plunged into the abyss. Your body pitched forward, and you saw the dark water rushing up, felt the dizzying rush of wind against your face, tasted the copper tang of fear.
But you did not fall.
The very fog rose around like a living tide. It was no longer mist, but a living substance, curling around your waist, your ankles, coiling into a thousands of chains, luminous with cold fire. It arrested your plunge in a violent jolt, suspending you a breath-hold above the roaring deep.
From the heart of that azure storm, a figure coalesced. The fog yielded shape, resolved into the man himself, stepping on the edge of the cliff with the composure of a gentleman. His coat was flawless, his hair unmoving despite the frenzy that bore him, and his eyes seared through the mist, frantic not with rage, but with fear.
“I begged of you to stop, my heart,” he whispered, putting his hand on the lantern that was attached to his belt. The luminous chains seemed to obey the silent command and lifted you gently, setting you back upon the crumbling dirt, “as these grounds could be hostile.”
Your legs, weak with fatigue and dread, gave way. Instinctively, you braced for stone, for pain, but collided instead with the cold firmness of the body. Man’s arms closed around you, supporting your trembling frame by waist, holding you with utmost gentleness. You shivered in his embrace, sobbing uncontrollably, your tears smearing rivers through paint and powder.
He only cooed, lowering his face until his ghostly breath ghosted across your forehead. The hand, the one you had so unknowingly adorned with a simple band, rose between you, and when your trembling palm finally met the fine cloth of his coat, he enveloped it completely. His hand, vast and cool as the deepest stone, closed over yours, and in that silent joining, he drew you in. Your slight form was enfolded within the shelter of his stature.
The cold of him sank into your bones. It hollowed out the panic, replacing it with a stillness so silent it was terrifying. He smelled not of earth or rot, but of ozone before a storm, of silence itself.
“Hush, my heart,” he murmured, soothing you gently as one might soothe a fevered child. “This world is cruel to things so warm and precious. But I-” his lips brushed your hair, lingering, “…I shall never be.”
Long you stood there, sobbing out your fears and sorrows into his chest. The man waited patiently, humming at you. Only when your sobs subsided, he coiled his hands around you, picking you up in his arms.
Oh, what a sight it must've been. The man, a vision dressed as midnight and raven-wing, a sculpture of terrible beauty and deathly chill. Around him, the air stirred with the perfume of wilted roses and ocean fog, the whisper of eternity’s sigh. And you, the living treasure caught in his eclipse, held close as a blessing. Your gown, white as mourning lilies, drank the hue of his obsidian robes, colours entwined like dusk embracing dawn.
His hands were steady as he carried you back toward what you recognised as a lighthouse. The spiral of the stairway moaned under his careful feet. Your dress clung damply to your skin, and the salt in the air bit at the back of your throat.
When he carried you back in the circular chamber at the top, it felt, at first, like being placed in a painting. You stilled, taking in the landscape of what seemed like a living space. The room was round as a coin and held its odd comforts with the neatness of someone who liked everything in its place. There was a low wooden table at the center, its surface scored with coins and faint rings of old cups. Two sofas flanked it – a faded river green, their arms bowed in the places where someone had once leaned far too often. A small kitchen sat against the curve of the wall: a hearth big enough to roast a fish, a narrow counter, hooks with a few copper pans. Across from the hearth, an enormous bed dominated the alcove, so vast it could have been a small island, draped in quilts and a scatter of old scriptures.
In one corner, behind a heavy curtain of deep black, there was a private partition: you glimpsed the edge of a tub. The dim light of oil lamps and scattered candles warmed the dark. You had not seen this coziness at first, when you ran, but now the place felt less like a cell and more like a home.
“Here,” the man said, placing you on the velvet sofa. He moved with an effortless grace to a small, dark wood cabinet inlaid with silver filigree. After a couple of minutes, he returned with two delicate porcelain cups and a steaming pot of what smelled like spiced rose tea.
“Drink this, my heart,” he offered, his blueish lips curving into a tender smile. “It shall soothe your spirit and grant you respite from the damp of the mists.”
He held the cup out to you, and the steam curled upward between you like a beckoning spirit, fragrant with roses and spice.
You stared at the cup. For a moment, you leaned toward it, fingers twitching with the memory of warmth. How easy it would be to indulge in a liquid serenity. How sweet.
But another voice rose from the depths of your childhood, as vivid as firelight:
“If you are ever in the burial grounds, child,” it warned, “mind ye well this counsel: Never, under any circumstance, allow a morsel of their food to pass your lips. Neither should you dare to sip a drop of their water. Do not, I say, partake of any consumable thing found in that cold and mournful place.”
Your grandmother’s words struck like a nail driven through your spine. She hadn't said what would happen, but the deep-seated fear of superstition made you obey her vision on instinct.
“Keep yourself apart, child. Hold fast to the living.”
You took a shuddering breath, forcing your voice to be polite despite the terror that was tearing at your insides.
“T-thank you,” you stammered, raising your hand to gently push the cup away. “But I... I couldn't. I am feeling much better now, truly.”
For the span of a heartbeat, the chamber froze. The man did not move, did not blink. The cup hovered in his elegant grasp, steam still spiraling upward in fragile ribbons. His eyes remained locked to yours, unreadable, until the faintest shift cracked through the perfection of his face. The exquisite smile faltered, and behind it, a grief older than stone quivered like a shadow across his features.
“Ah…”
Then the mask reformed. His lips curved once more into that flawless, courtly smile, though now it gleamed with something sharp.
“Of course, my heart. I quite understand. Such simple fare is perhaps unworthy of you. The living are accustomed to subtler fragrances. Forgive me.”
The apology, though graceful, pressed upon you like a weight. You could feel the faint edge beneath his velvet tone. He set the porcelain aside, and you spoke again.
“Please,” you whispered, your own words clumsy with desperation. “Tell me where I am. Who are you? I need to go home–I must return to the church, to my family–”
He was already moving. With a motion fluid as moonlight upon water, the man crossed the narrow space between you and lowered himself onto the sofa next to your side, his presence vast despite his gentility. At once, the chill of him began to seep through the silk of your ruined dress.
“I am Flins,” he murmured. His dark lashes lowered, then rose again, his gaze fastening to your ringed hand with certain calamity, “your rightful husband.” His baritone caressed the chamber, warm in tone yet glacial in truth.
He reached for your wrist, so carefully, as though approaching a bird that might break its own wings in panic. His fingers, alabaster and long, enfolded yours with an elegance that denied their strength. Slender thumb traced across the fragile vein that beat beneath your skin, lingering in languid circles as though coaxing your pulse to steady.
“You are here with me, in the Underworld,” he continued, voice a lullaby, though each word echoed with a terrible finality. “This is our home. You are my beloved wife now, bound by vow and ring.”
Before you parted your lips, Flins leaned closer, his presence filling the small world of the sofa until you felt dwarfed by him, a lone candle shivering before a vast cathedral. His lips did not touch, but his breath ghosted across your cheek when he spoke.
“If you wish to ask how this happened, hh, my gentle one, it was a moment of destiny that bound us together.” He murmured, his face aglow with rapture. “You paused before my solitary perch, your spirit burdened by the weight of chains invisible to the mundane eye. Shackles of silk, perhaps, yet forged from the solemn promises of a world that claimed you. And you danced,” he breathed, “my darling, you danced in your grief. A little bird snapping her wings against the bars of a golden cage.” His hand slid from your wrist to your palm with devastating tenderness.
“You cannot fathom,” he murmured, his voice breaking into something almost pleading, “the holiness of that moment.” Alabaster fingers interwove themselves with yours. In the dim lights of the room, two matching wedding bands glimmered.
“I had not sought a bride. That desire was buried with my bones, left behind when I slipped into the silence. My world was distilled to the stark comfort of quietude, and a silence I held sacred,” his free hand rose to hover just above your cheek, not quite touching, his restraint more intimate than contact, “and yet, defying all reason, you came to your knees near my resting place. You lifted that fragile band, and with a touch that stole my breath, made it mine. You gave it to me, child of sorrow, and that made me yearn for the light.”
His thumb still moved against your pulse, drinking the rhythm of your life as though it were a hymn.
“My darling,” Flins whispered, “what you gave me was the truth. A vow torn from your soul, not gilded with lies or bound by duty. You belong to me now, not by right of conquest, but by a celestial accident of fate. And I..." his voice trembled with the sheer weight of his feeling, "...I would gladly welcome the ruin of all creation before I allowed the shadow of grief to touch you again. I swear to hold you. To adore you. To shield you. In this nevermore, you will not hunger for love."
The sincerity, the reverence in his tone struck deeper than any command. His every word dripped with worship, and though terror knotted your throat, you felt the warmth of a blush rise against your skin.
No living man had ever spoken to you so. Not your parents with their bargains, not Varka with his thunderous declarations. This was different and this was…
No, you shouldn't indulge in these thoughts.
“Flins,” you uttered his name, and his pale lips curled into a small smile.
“Yes, my wife. What is your bidding?”
“You... you are so very kind,” you whispered, feeling your chest tighten with a horrible guilt. “And you are so gentle and handsome, Flins. You are... perfect. Like a mirage I do not deserve to see...”
This praise was too much for the dead groom.
Flins immediately recoiled, raising his hands to cover his face in a gesture of childlike shyness. His pale cheeks took on a faint indigo hue.
“Oh, I beg you, my heart–” he mumbled, embarrassed. “I–”
The instant his hands covered his face, something astonishing happened. The lamp of the blue light on his hip began to glow intensely and levitated before him. Flins's marble body seemed to melt and dissipate into a plume of soft, pinkish fire. The blaze flew into the floating lantern, filling the glass chamber. Inside, the rosy tongues of fire danced, twisting and coiling into the faint shapes of miniature hearts.
You stared, speechless, at the pinkly burning lamp floating in the air where moments ago Flins had been sitting. It was the most awkward, vulnerable, and utterly amusing display of shyness you could imagine, but swallowing hard was enough to pull your emotions back into sharp focus.
“Flins,” you said, awkwardly addressing the floating lantern, “you are truly so very sweet and beautiful, but… I apologize. I was only rehearsing. I have a fiancée, and I must return. It was a mistake.”
When your words fell, the lamp violently flashed red.
“No.”
The heart-shaped flames vanished, replaced by a pulsing crimson glare, which instantly coalesced, and Flins reappeared next to you, his posture stiff, his lips pressed into a thin line.
“A mistake-” he repeated, the velvet tone having evaporated entirely, replaced by something cold, “it was not.”
His words broke the last of your composure.
“But I have to go back!” you cried, finally jumping to your feet. You took two panicked steps, spun around, and faced him, tears streaming anew.
“You don’t understand! I need this wedding! I don't care if I was scared! I don't care if I hate the vows! I need the Grand Master’s wealth to save my parents! They will lose everything! They won’t have a penny!”
You were screaming now, a sobbing, hysterical flood of truth. You fell to your knees before him, grabbing the hem of his coat.
“Please, Flins! Please! It was a mistake! A terrible, horrible mistake! I belong to the living! I belong to Varka! Please, I must go!”
He simply watched you, standing tall now, his starlight eyes observing your breakdown with a detached pity. He waited until your hysteria had exhausted itself, until you were only gasping and shaking, before he bent down, lifting you firmly back onto your feet.
“And how, my beloved wife, did you intend to manage that?” he asked, his voice returning to its silken baritone, but now carrying the weight of finality.
You froze. The hysteria died in your throat, replaced by a numbing horror.
How do I get out?
You didn't know the way back. You couldn’t command the blue chains or step through the swirling abyss. You were a mere guest here, powerless and helpless.
Flins felt your utter stillness and leaned down slightly, and his cold lips ghosted over your ear.
“The thread of life, once severed, cannot be re-spun,” he began, his voice descending to a resonant baritone. “If your form has manifested upon these shores, you are bound to this land. Forever.”
He tightened his grip on your waist, his hands resting on the small of your back.
“Besides, why would you wish to return to a life of such anxiety? To that loud man who terrified you so profoundly that you fled your own wedding? To those selfish parents, who only saw you as a means to an end? Do you harbor the slightest belief that they would cast aside their counting to commence a diligent search? Or that the grief for their lost gold would not utterly overshadow any sorrow for the loss of you.”
The dread bloomed in your chest at his words. You knew, with a certainty that chilled you deeper than his touch, that Flins was utterly, horrifyingly right. That cruel, final truth about your parents was a stone he placed in your gut, and there was no longer any fight left to push it away.
He pulled you closer, forcing your eyes to meet his. “You were merely a pawn in that sunlit world, my heart. Here, within my keeping, you shall be cherished.” With those words, he closed the distance entirely, his lips pressing briefly into the crown of your head, inhaling the warmth of your living scent.
“I assure you, my heart. No one will be so foolish as to come looking for you now.”
You gasped, a trembling shiver running through your body, and Flins savored the tremor.
“Now, my wife,” he continued softly, looking down at your wet, mud-splattered gown. “This magnificent silk is ruined, and the cold is seeping into your precious skin. You must be chilled to the bone. We cannot permit you to remain in this state.”
He released you from the embrace, taking a step back and turning to the large, carved wooden wardrobe that stood against the far wall. He pulled it open with a heavy sigh.
“I only have some old-fashioned attire here,” his voice was laced with genuine-sounding distress. “It is… it is all rather modest compared to the finery of your dress. It is not nearly fine enough for my bride, but it is dry. It shall have to suffice for this moment.”
You were trembling, your chest still heaving with the remnants of your sobs.
“Yes,” you whispered, the word hollow, your eyes fixed on the damp silk clinging to your body. “Yes, please.”
Flins nodded and retrieved the items – the intricate shirt with frills, a voluminous dark skirt, and a pair of soft, cream-colored, thigh-length stockings – folding them neatly. You just stared at the delicate clothes in awe.
“W-where did you get such things, Flins? I thought... I thought no one down here needed things like these.” You stared at the soft fabrics and the intricate lace of the oversized ruffled shirt he held.
“Ah,” he sighed, his voice melancholy. “Sometimes, the mourning families leave offerings at the graves of their loved ones. Things they believe the silent will need for eternity. Clothes, bottles of wine, coins. If no one claims them, and they are left undisturbed, I bring them to the lighthouse.”
He handed you the garments, and the realization hit you with devastating clarity: the gifts left for the dead were of superior quality to the garments you, the living bride, had owned. Your life was so poor that the detritus of the Underworld was an upgrade. You nodded, defeated, accepting the clothes.
“Y–you–” Flins shifted awkwardly, “–shall step behind the curtain now, my heart,” he stammered, his voice losing its customary silken control. “Please, take your time. There is a basin of fresh water there, if you wish to clean the mud from your body. I merely… I shall wait here, facing the wall.”
As he stepped back, you stumbled toward privacy, clutching the clothes and trying to avoid stepping in the pooling water from your ruined gown. Once behind the thick cloth, you struggled with the wet lacework of the silk dress. The material was impossibly heavy, but it's not the weight that defeated you – it was the corset. A traditional Monstadt wedding gown was designed in accordance with old customs, and the intricate lacing at the back was pulled tight, intended to be untied solely by the groom on the wedding night.
You reached around, your fingers slipping on the tight knots. Panic surged, followed by a wave of hot shame that brought fresh sobs bubbling up your throat. The irony was a cruel joke: you were trapped in your wedding dress, captured by the dead husband you never wanted, and you couldn't even undress without his help.
Tears streamed down your face, silently this time, but the desperate urgency was worse than the loud hysteria. You knew you had to ask. So with a shuddering breath, you whispered.
“F-Flins?”
“Yes, my heart?” His voice echoed immediately, concerned and perfectly gentle again.
“I–I am so sorry,” you whispered, your throat closing with mortification. “My dress... the corset. It’s the traditional lacing. I can’t undo it myself. It requires… someone.” You couldn't bring yourself to say the word husband.
There was a pause – a long, cold beat of silence that felt heavier than the dress itself.
“I see,” Flins murmured, the words almost a sigh. He sounded flustered, yet profoundly intrigued.
You heard the rustle of his coat as he moved to step behind the curtain, his polished black boots making no sound on the stone floor. You stood utterly still, your side turned to him, your hands frozen on the impossibly tight laces.
“Turn slightly, if you please, my love,” he instructed, his voice now entirely under control, deep and melodious. “Just enough for me to see the knots.”
You turned, giving him access to the column of lace running down your spine. His cold fingers, slender and elegant as bleached ivory, brushed against the small of your back just above the corset's end.
At the sheer, agonizing intimacy of the touch, a catastrophic, deeper blush erupted in Flins’s face. It was no longer the faint indigo of shyness but the color of the deepest, most forbidden twilight – a pulsing, electric violet staining the glacial marble of his skin, his sharp cheekbones, and the rim of his pointed ears with the tint of sin.
His cold fingers, performing the rightful duty of a husband, burned with the phantom sensation of the sacred fire radiating from your life. Gulping down the temptations, Flins started untying the lace swiftly.
For a suspended, silent moment, your living back was laid bare, like an altar of life dedicated solely to his vision, from the nape of your neck down to the delicate indentation of your waist. His dead eyes devoured every subtle curve, every delicate shadow. It was the most beautiful sight in his existence – a perfect valley of living silk, a text of purity he was now allowed to read with his hands.
When the corset's grip finally loosened, Flins's entire spectral body locked for a fraction of a second, fighting the visceral betrayal of his composure.
"It is…” he breathed, the sound like dry ice on marble, “...I–I "
A white-hot surge of pure but forbidden feeling erupted through his normally crystalline stillness. This reaction was the most mortifying proof that his dead spirit was still so violently human.
Flins spun away from you, his entire figure dissolving instantly into a plume of magenta fire. The flame shot through the air and, with an indignant hiss of self-loathing, squeezed through the crack of the closed oak door. A beat later, the glow of his lantern outside the room brightened intensely.
You remained behind the curtain, trembling, until you had managed to shed the sodden silk and dress in the strange, antique clothes. The dark skirt and the soft cream-colored stockings provided a welcome warmth that settled your nerves slightly. The water-filled basin shone, and you washed your face, scrubbing away the grime, sweat, and ruined makeup. For a split second, you stared at the girl in the water, whose face was contorted in something akin to sadness. Pity coiled in your stomach.
It was better not to think about what was awaiting you.
You emerged and walked toward the door, your new stockings silencing your steps on the cold stone.
“Flins?”
The heavy door swung open without a sound, and he glided back in. His marble skin still retained that faint indigo flush. He avoided direct eye contact, holding his gaze focused somewhere just above your shoulder, his thin lips pressed tightly together in contained shyness.
“Yes, my heart?” he whispered, his voice taut but full of cold grace.
“I… I must apologize,” you said, fumbling with your hands, but trying to appear collected. “The floor is very cold. My shoes are ruined. I fear I require boots.”
The mention of his coldness and your subsequent need caused Flins to visibly tense. The look of ashamed containment instantly vanished, replaced by distress.
“Oh, my dearest, forgive me! Forgive me, I quite forgot how fragile life is, and that the stone is so cruel. I shall instantly…”
He broke off, flying to the large, carved wardrobe once more. He ran his hand over a shelf of shoes before retrieving a pair of small, sturdy black leather ankle boots on hooks. They were clearly too big for you, but they looked soft and dry.
“They are... perhaps a touch generous in size, my dearest, yet with your wool stockings, they shall afford the most suitable protection from the chill until we visit the tailor's parlour,” he said, turning back, carrying them carefully toward you.
“Is there truly a tailor's shop here?” you wondered quietly.
“Naturally, my love. A most excellent craftsman resides within the town proper. But for now, I ask you, rest a moment,” he responded, as his hand gestured toward the inviting expanse of the velvet sofa.
You complied, sitting on the edge of the seat. He knelt before you instantly, his elegant form dropping to one cold knee on the frigid stone. He was entirely focused on your feet, whose living warmth was a devastating contrast to his own icy presence.
When he gently took your right foot – still warm and slightly trembling from the effort – in his glacial fingers, you frowned slightly.
“You… you don’t have to. I am quite capable of doing this myself.”
Flins looked up at you, and his gaze was piercing, the light of stars in the night, his indigo blush brightening again.
“I must insist, my love,” he stated quietly, his voice soft. “Pray, permit me this small service.”
His fingers were incredibly gentle when he slipped the first ankle boot onto your foot with reverence. His fingers lingered on your instep as he pressed your skin into the soft interior of the boot. He bent closer and, with meticulous care, began to tighten the laces and hooks, securing them firmly so the boot wouldn't slip.
“Truly, Flins,” you murmured, attempting to withdraw your other leg, the sheer intensity of his service feeling unbearable. “I can manage the second one.”
He stopped for a moment. Then, as if transfixed, Flins raised your foot slightly and brought it toward his pale lips. His kiss was light, placed gently on the curve of your clothed ankle like an icy spark. The gesture was so simple, but so adoring, that your living flesh betrayed you with a fuzzy feeling in your chest.
“No, my darling,” he whispered. “A loving man must never refuse to tend to his lady's comfort, especially after such shock and cold. Look how weary you are, my heart. It is my duty, my honour, and my greatest pleasure to adore you. The privilege of a husband.” He lifted his head, his luminous eyes filled with a sorrowful depth that seemed centuries old.
You felt your face blush violently, a heat that had nothing to do with the room's chill, rushing to your cheeks and neck. His words, his actions – they were so intensely loving, so deeply gallant, and undeniably effective at disarming you.
Stop it, a desperate voice screamed in the back of your mind.
He is dead.
He is a thief.
He is trying to trap you.
He wants you dead.
While you were drowning in your thoughts, Flins finished the second boot with the same meticulous care, lacing it securely and tying the final bow with an elegant flourish, and then stood, his eyes shining at you.
“Now you are both safe and protected from the stone. One final touch is…” he glided to the cupboard and retrieved a thick dark shawl, edged with antique lace.
Quietly, Flins stepped behind you, lifting the shawl and settling it over your shoulders. His cold fingers lingered for a bare moment on the nape of your neck as he adjusted the fabric, sending a fresh shiver down your spine.
“There. I would not have you catch a chill.” He circled you and extended his arm, curving his elbow and offering it to you with the elegant formality of a courtier.
“My heart. I believe you must wish to fully acquaint yourself with your new home. I propose we take a small excursion. Those whom you saw earlier – they are merely the visitors of my lands, remembering their lives. Allow me to walk with you outside and introduce you to the departed. They are far kinder than they appear, I promise.”
You looked at the proffered elbow, deep in thought. You had no strength for another fight, and if you truly wanted to understand the rules of this realm and get out, you needed a guide.
Taking a deep, calculated breath, you decided.
“Very well, Flins,” you replied, your voice now steady and firm. “Let us walk.”
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It literally took forever, didn't it?
I just wanted to give Flins a special way of speaking, as if he were a prince or something like that. But I'm not a native English speaker, so I spent ages rephrasing his lines. Anyway, I just hope it's not too cringey.
As for the third character who might join. Well...
My beloveds, did you notice how Flins addresses you?
:D
My heart..... I have a guess as to who that third character could be.... 😏
Flins is such a spooky simp XD like a Victorian gentleman who gets hot around the collar at the sight of a bare ankle lmao
But there's something so unnerving about him that you can't help but feel uneasy around him... so we're constantly questioning: are we truly safe with him or not?
Dude I love flins my beautiful emo boi (and he loves me too based on my pulls for him and his weapon 😉)
So at this point everyone knows that flins is the lantern fae, and that fae are mischievous creatures. Even though he would never harm humans, he still enjoys playing the usual tricks to weave people under his spell (maybe even cause some psychological trauma XD)
Upcoming warning for (probably) unrealistic depictions of the fae!!
Now just imagine him with a reader who just straight up doesn't fall for his antics. Not because you know who he is or because you dislike him, but simply because you're just that oblivious to his advances.
For example, from your very first meeting, Flins asks you for your name. And you give him your first name... and only your first name.
He blinks, confused. Weren't you supposed to give him your full name? So he tilts his head, a clear invitation for you to keep talking. So he can fill you, possess you, own you mind, body, and soul—
And you smile brightly at him as you continue to say nothing.
Flins probably should have felt annoyed, but the joyous sparkle in your eyes captivates him so fiercely, like a rare, polished gemstone, that he can't bring himself to feel even the slightest hint of frustration.
So he lets it slide.
A few months into making your acquaintance, he offers you a gift. An exquisitely crafted bracelet, made of the finest silver and rose quartz. He slides it on your wrist before you can refuse, and when you try to return it, Flins refuses, smoothly reassuring you that "Such a trinket pales in comparison to the splendor of your beauty."
You flush. And he smiles, silently urging you to accept his goodwill, his generosity, his love, his affection, his undying devotion—
You immediately dart back inside your humble abode, only to re-emerge a few minutes later with a bottle of wine. "I was going to give it to you at the upcoming festival, but I suppose now's a good time as any," you explain jovially, carefully placing the bottle into his obstinate hands. "I'd never let such a wonderful gift go unreciprocated. It's not much, but please accept it!"
Flins' eyes narrow. You just denied him. You denied him, and you did so with such a dazzling grin that his lips curl up in a soft smile before his mind can comprehend his actions, and he subconsciously cradles the bottle close to his heart.
"You have my most sincerest thanks." The words slip out his accursed lips, and with a flawless bow, he walks away from your infuriatingly tantalizing presence.
You're so unlike the other humans in Nod-Krai; you're so sweet, so naive, so innocent—a delicate flower blooming amidst a forest of weather-hardened trees. Yet you somehow manage to slip through all of his traps, all of his tricks, like a petal in the wind narrowly avoiding the snapping hands of an eager fae.
And it is this trait that makes Flins desire you all the more.
For all of his elegance and etiquette, he cannot escape his fae nature of desiring something... or someone... so deeply that he's willing to destroy his very being to obtain you, the object of his obsession.
So as he walks home, bottle safely secured in his hands, he crafts his plan.
And on a quiet evening only a few weeks later, he executes.
Flins invites you to a meal at his abode, under the excuse that the wine you gifted him ought to be shared.
And in a fashion that is so inexplicably you, you smile and say, "Oh, no thank you; I don't drink!"
A vein throbs in Flins' neck.
How long will you avoid him? How long will you deny him? Every rejection, every refusal, sears itself into his soul, a fiery brand that aches with every glimpse of you, with every flash of your smile, with every whiff of your scent.
His fingers itch to dig the digits into the fat of your hips, to squeeze so tightly they'll leave marks for days, to sink his teeth into the skin of your neck and leave his brand on you, a sigil to ward off those who were unworthy of you, undeserving of your beauty and talent.
How he wishes. How he yearns.
And as any good fae who wishes and yearns with all their might, it will only be a matter of time before Flins decides to take matters into his own hands.
So you best be ready.
When a fae's patience snaps... do you really want to be standing next to him as easily as you do?
tws: CorpseBride!AU, (soft?) yandere, obsessive/possessive behaviour, AFAB!reader, gothic horror (I hope), age difference, arranged marrige, Varka is bigger than you (doesnt matter which size you are because have you seen this man?)
(If you find some more, please let me know.)
As usual, thank you all, my dear sweethearts, for your support!
part 1 - part 2 (you are here) - part 3 (WIP) - ...
NOT SUITED FOR MINORS. Not proofread. Author does not endorse or condone any of the actions depicted in real life. Also, English is not the author's first language, so there might be some mistakes.
Please remember that you are responsible for your own media consumption.
Inspired by Tim Burton's "Corpse Bride" and The Unequal Marriage, 1862. Vasili Pukirev.
mehro - pirate song
Hozier - Sunlight
“Darling! Where are you?!”
Within the hour, the fragile quiet of Nod Krai was shattered by a whirlwind of organized chaos. The entire mounted cavalry of the knights was deployed after your escape and complete disappearance.
“I want every inch of this miserable, fog-choked soil searched! Every derelict church, every crumbling mausoleum, every shadow that isn’t supposed to be there!” Varka’s voice was hoarse, amplified by a controlled shout that terrified the younger knights. He stood at the head of the detachment, his eyes blazing, a figure of unstoppable purpose. “Check everywhere!”
“Yessir!” The answering shout was sharp and disciplined.
The moment the last horse’s hooves faded, the oppressive noise of their search was replaced by an even heavier silence. Varka, usually a man who filled a room with his booming presence, felt the quiet as an ache in his ears. The perpetually wet air of Naha Town, thick with the scent of wet coal and the quiet despair of old wealth gone to rot, seemed to press against him, demanding an explanation for his failure.
He couldn’t spare a second for the truth of his aching heart. Every second mattered, and that meant wading into the parlor, where his next source of information sat: your parents.
Varka strode toward the entrance of your house, his greatcoat and heavy boots tracking the well-known way to the humble abode of yours. He threw the door inward without a knock, the wood cracking against the plaster wall. The parlor, which had always felt merely small during his visits, now felt sickeningly cramped and suffocating. The air was colder inside than out, and the stale scent of old water and desperation was a physical punch to the face.
Your father was huddled by the cold hearth, silent and defeated, but your mother was a study in shattered greed. She sat stiffly in a sagging armchair, clutching a handkerchief she was shredding with thin, nervous hands. The expensive makeup she'd worn to the rehearsal – an attempt to look the part of the mother-in-law of the Grand Master of the Knights – was now smeared with streaks of tears.
“Oh, Grand Master Varka!” she pleaded, fluttering like a distressed pigeon. “Please, don't cancel the wedding! Girls often take a fit of nerves before the wedding. She’s merely run off to reflect, she’ll be back by-”
“Silence!”
The single word was a thunderclap. Varka rarely raised his voice to civilians, let alone his prospective mother-in-law, but the dam of his restraint had burst. The last few hours had turned his living dream into a nightmare, and the face of the architect of his betrayal was right in front of him. His eyes, usually a laughing blue, were cold, storm-tossed grey, fixed on her with merciless intensity. The poor woman recoiled, stumbling back against the wall.
“She did not run off to reflect,” Varka articulated, his voice low, shaking with held-back violence. “She ran off because she was terrified of me.Terrified, and unable to speak the lie you forced upon her.” He took a step forward, his greatcoat shifting and casting a massive shadow over the tiny woman. “I should have noticed! I should have seen the fear beneath the silk. I thought her silence was shyness, a delicate flower yielding to a boor like me…”
Knight paused, a ragged breath tearing through his chest as the full weight of his self-deception hit him. Varka had wanted your love to be earned, a choice made by your free will, to be as fierce and untainted as the fury you showed him back then. He gestured widely at the decaying room, his expression one of profound contempt.
“You starved her, you pressed her, you convinced her that the only way to save this rotting family was to lie to me. And she listened. Because sheloves you. And that, madam, is the one thing I cannot forgive you for!” He concluded, the realization making him dizzy with a sickening self-reproach. “I am Grand Master. I face down the literal Abyss. How could I have been so blind as to believe a force like her would be bartered like a piece of dry goods? I mistook her terror for girlish modesty and that, old woman, is a mistake I will not forgive myself for!”
Your father, a man whose ambition was only exceeded by his fear, squeaked, “But… s-she is happy! She is marrying the Grand Master himself! She, a peasant’s daughter, should be grateful that a powerful man like yourself decided to claim her!”
Varka didn't answer. He focused on maintaining a rigid stillness, struggling to regain the control he had so easily lost. But instead of serene calamity, the chilling thoughts arrived:
Does she think I am like them?
Does she think I'm the monster?
Does she hate me?
He could feel a tremor in his very teeth, a primitive urge to crush your father's neck between his jaws so the old man would just shut up. The violence was a terrifyingly simple solution to the complexity of his failure, but he was the Grand Master, not a barbarian. He forcibly suppressed the urge, converting the raw, physical energy into a renewed, laser-like focus on the task at hand. His mind, once lost to self-reproach, clicked back into the cold, calculated mode of a hunter.
“Now,” Varka demanded, his gaze sweeping the small room, his nostrils flaring almost imperceptibly as he searched for a familiar scent. “The latest family portrait. The one you had taken just two weeks ago when you sold those few pieces of jewelry I gifted her.” His head was tilted, a slight, almost predatory movement as he took another deep, measuring breath, attempting to isolate a lingering trace of your scent in the air. "And something of hers. The shawl I gifted her, even if it carries the scent of your rotting house." His voice was a low growl.
Your mother, shaking, retrieved the new photo and a woolen shawl that smelled faintly of you. Varka snatched items from her hands and tucked the precious card, warm with the heat of his hand, deep into the inner breast pocket of his greatcoat, right over the drumbeat of his own heart. The shawl was secured as well, folded safely in his coat’s pocket.
Just like that, he departed, not uttering a single word to a miserable joke of humanity trembling behind him.
The evening wore on. The knights searched methodically, their heavy footsteps echoing through the narrow streets and their lanterns casting hurried, yellow light over the grim, silent stone of Nod Krai. Varka searched with them, his exhaustion forgotten, fueled only by terror and self-reproach. He moved with the precision of a hunting wolf, checking drainage tunnels, tearing apart abandoned wood sheds, and interrogating the few startled ratniks. Hours bled into one another, and he found not a single, clear trace.
Finally, as the sky turned a bruised purple, melting into the cold Autumn sky, Varka’s monumental strength gave way, his fury exhausting itself against the impenetrable fog. He met the arriving knights at the edge of the town.
“The cavalry shall continue the perimeter sweep. I want fresh eyes on every road out of this town. Every. Single. One. Report all findings.” His voice, when he spoke, was a grated command that cut through the chill. “I am taking a brief reprieve to reorient the search myself.”
"Yessir!" the choir of voices replied.
Varka stumbled back to the edge of the command camp, seeking the canvas-walled quiet of his temporary tent. The methodical failure of the search had left him hollowed out, and the suffocating presence of Nod Krai's mist seemed to follow him inside. He didn't bother to remove his greatcoat, his boots, or the intricate armor beneath. Instead, he collapsed onto the narrow cot, the damp chill of the Northland seeping through the muddy floor and straight into his bone-deep weariness.
His massive hand, still heavy from the weight of his claymore, instinctively went to the inner sanctum of his greatcoat, to the exact place where his heart beat its earnest rhythm. With the care of a man handling something sacred, he drew out the cherished card from the depths of fabric. In the flickering lantern light, it shimmered like a fragment of sunlight – you, caught mid-smile, eyes bright with shy joy, standing modestly beside your parents.
A soft sigh escaped him, almost a whisper, and warmth spread through his chest. He thought of countless campaigns, the endless nights by firelight, where his comrades clutched photographs of wives, of beloveds, of children, murmuring promises that the paper could somehow carry them home. Varka had always stood apart – the iron sentinel, the solitary knight bound to Mondstadt and the wind, to duty alone. He had believed himself untouched by such yearnings, free of attachment, beyond vulnerability.
And yet… here you were. A quiet gravity that pulled at him, softening the edges he had long thought immutable, filling him with a yearning both sweet and aching, a feeling he could barely name.
Varka gazed at your likeness, simple and fragile on paper, and felt the quiet lie of all his years unravel. His eyes, warm and tender, burned with an affection that had nothing to do with battle and everything to do with you – an adoration that filled him utterly. To look away, even for a moment, felt impossible, as though even a second without you would dim the light he carried in his chest.
The thought scalded him. He, who had stood unflinching before ruin and death, who had fought monsters without hesitation, now trembled at the idea of losing a girl whose silence he had mistaken for consent, whose fear he had failed to see. His throat constricted, a sound half-groan, half-prayer clawing its way out, so raw it frightened him.
“My little fury,” he choked out, the huge frame of the Grand Master shaking with silent anguish. “I swear, I am no Prince Charming. I am merely a brute and a soldier. But for you? I will tear down the sky, defeat a thousand monsters of the Abyss, and bring you the richest treasures. If only you would glance at me, just once, and let me see you blush, as you did that day by the river…”
The memory surged unbidden, sharp and sudden, a blade slipping between ribs, leaving a hollow ache that lingered long after.
It had been barely two weeks ago. Two weeks that now stretched like centuries, as if time itself had fractured into a “before” and an “after.”
Varka was returning from the northern patrols, weary from the endless march of stone and wind. Dust clung to his armor like memory, his body craving nothing so much as a bath, his great claymore heavy across his saddle. He guided Nordt, his steadfast steed, to a winding tributary of the shallow river, letting the horse drink with patient thirst, the ripples breaking in languid arcs.
Then came the sound. A sharp, exasperated note that cut through the murmur of water and wind.
“Seriously?! Get out of my rinse water!”
Varka blinked. The voice was high, trembling with indignation, yet resolute, fierce enough to command the river itself. He looked downstream and saw you, balanced like a small doll atop a slick stone, sleeves rolled, bent over a wicker basket. Your hands moved with almost violent precision over the washboard, scrubbing fabric with a rhythm that sent tiny white sprays dancing across the water.
Grand Master’s lips curved into a grin. Such fury - so concentrated, so brilliant, so alive - had never been aimed at him. It was magnificent: a storm contained in someone so delicate, a miniature hurricane of domestic authority.
“You’re scolding the Grand Master of Mondstadt for standing in a river?” he asked, laughter threading through his voice.
“I don’t care if you’re the Barbatos himself! Move!”
You spun around, brandishing the wet piece of cloth - a ridiculous, sodden, oversized pair of men’s wool underpants, surely belonging to your father.In your haste, you lifted your long skirt with one hand, revealing shins and ankles kissed pink by the cold river. The sight struck Varka like a drumbeat in his chest, urgent and familiar, a rhythm he hadn’t felt since the reckless days of youth.
The wet curves of your legs, smooth and delicate against the rough stone, sharpened his senses. Fragility, so exquisite, it stole the breath from him, leaving his chest hollow.
She is so small, he thought, a fragile spark in this unkind world…
He stepped forward, you stepped back, chin lifted in defiance. Water swirled around his boots, sunlight glinting off the edges of his pauldrons. You smelled of soap, river chill, and the faint sweetness of berries. Suddenly, he was acutely aware of the dirt on his hands, the streaks along his jaw, the lingering warmth of exertion clinging to him like a second skin.
“My apologies, madam,” he murmured, voice low, rough as river stone. “My stallion is thirsty, as am I.”
“Then drink upstream,” you spat, fire in your eyes.
“A fair order, little fury,” he laughed, the sound rich and deep. “But it is hard to leave when the view downstream is so… captivating.”
Your cheeks flamed crimson. “You’re disgusting!”
“Perhaps,” he admitted softly, eyes lingering on yours, “but only because the gods were cruel enough to make you real.”
You stomped, sending arcs of water leaping around your ankles. Nordt, startled by your sharp voice, shifted its colossal weight in the shallows, churning the mud into a swirling, murky brown that crept into the clear water where you were rinsing.
“Oh, you brute! Look what you’ve done!” Your voice cracked and sparkled with outrage, cheeks pink with cold and indignation. You sprang from the stone like a small tempest, the wet trousers held aloft like a defiant banner, water streaming down your wrist in glittering rivulets. “You’ve upended the entire riverbed! Do you even know how long it takes to wash the must from wool? Get your enormous, clumsy feet and your stupider, stupendous horse out of my river this instant!”
Varka’s surprise gave way to laughter, a deep, rolling sound that rang across the banks and rippled over the water, shaking loose a joy he had not felt in years.
Archons, she is fire, and soap, and fury, and she is wielding her old man’s underpants like a weapon!
“My apologies!” he called, mischief dancing in his eyes, a grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. “I assure you, I seek only water, not domestic ruin, though your indignation is nothing short of enchanting.”
“I do not care what you find enchanting! You must leave!” You surged forward in three determined strides, your small frame vibrating with righteous anger, a shaking pulse that belied your diminutive size. And suddenly the Grand Master of Mondstadt, vast and imposing, found himself staring down the full force of a five-foot whirlwind of laundry and fury. He barely opened his mouth to-
SPLAT.
The impact was harmless, yet it struck with the force of revelation. Cold, soapy water cascaded across his face, droplets clinging like tiny crystals, and the sheer audacity of the blow sent him spiraling into another peal of laughter. A girl, armed with her father’s old, bile-colored underpants, had dared to assault the Grand Master of the Knights of Favonius. He sputtered, half choking on laughter, half reeling from the fierce huff you released immediately after.
“Mercy!” he coughed, staggering back. “You’re deadlier than the Abyss!”
“Then stay out of my river!” you shouted, swinging again, your small hands aiming for his ear with earnest fury. “You think this is funny? This is the last rinse cycle for my father’s only decent pair of underpants, and you’ve ruined them! You’ve ruined everything!”
“That’s enough, little fury!” Varka said, retreating with a graceful, almost absurd leap, sidestepping your second strike as though dueling a masterful, invisible foe. He had faced monsters, storms, and men with blades sharper than moonlight, yet never a tiny woman wielding wet wool with such precise, dangerous intent. He ducked and weaved, an enormous figure chased by a storm that smelled of cold soap and river water, intoxicated by every moment of it.
You pursued him with solemn determination, your brow furrowed, legs splashing through icy shallows. Fingers numb and slick from the wet fabric, you aimed with all your focus, ignoring the treacherous riverbed beneath you. A mossy stone betrayed your weight, your foot sliding violently, skirt flying, and a sharp gasp escaped you as you began to fall backward toward the stone-strewn river.
Varka’s playfulness vanished like smoke. He moved with impossible speed, the greatcoat snapping around him, a banner of resolve. His hands shot out, his entire body intercepting yours just before the water could claim you.
You clutched the soaking, silly underpants to your chest with one hand, your other arm instinctively locked around his neck for balance. The cold of the river had soaked through your shirt, and your small body was pressed against his chestplate, wet and trembling.
His large, calloused hands wrapped around your waist, pulling you flush against him. The fit was devastating in its perfection, a key sliding into a long-forgotten lock. He felt the fragile curve of your ribs beneath his thumbs, the frantic pulse of your heart echoing against his own, and a wave of adoration crashed over him. Varka inhaled deeply, the river’s crisp cold mingling with the faint sweetness of soap clinging to your damp hair, and the vast, rough world contracted to this singular, small creature in his arms.
This is perfect, he thought, she fits perfectly.
A monstrous yearning seized him, a desire to halt the relentless march of time. To freeze the river around them, the foam suspended in motion, the sunlight captured in every droplet, and turn you two, his great stallion, and the ancient stones into a statue of embrace. To hold you like this, this closely, for all eternity, never once letting go.
Your face hovered inches from his, eyes wide, indignation melting into a blazing blush.
Varka leaned closer, his battle-scarred face bright with the bold confidence of a man convinced that saving someone demanded its own reward. He aimed for a heroic kiss, a moment to tether warmth to this perfect instant.
SPLAT.
You moved faster than a striking falcon, delivering a sharp headbutt squarely beneath his chin. Then, for good measure, you thwacked him again. His reward for heroism was cold, damp wool and a ringing skull.
“Don’t you dare, you brute! You absolute, river-polluting, predatorous brute! Put me down!” you shrieked, wriggling in his arms as though trying to escape the grasp of a mischievous giant.
Varka staggered back, momentarily cross-eyed from the unexpected thump of your head against his chin. He rubbed the spot, blinked the soapy water from his eyes, and then erupted into a strangled giggle, half laughter, half the snort of a startled war-horse.
With the gentlest care, he set you upon your feet, though his hands lingered at your waist for a heartbeat longer, ensuring you were steady. His laughter dropped lower now, rich and warm, threaded with quiet wonder and something close to adoration.
“Magnificent attack! I concede!” he gasped, water sliding down his neck like liquid sunlight. “I swear, I deserved that. Every splash of cold water, every bruise, worth it. Tell me your name, little fury. And do allow me to apologize for my foolish horse by escorting you home. I cannot have this brave girl catching a chill after such a valiant defense of her father’s laundry.”
You hesitated, still trembling with indignation and shivering from the icy river. Pride warred with necessity, but the cold won, and with a reluctant sigh, you allowed him to help you mount Nordt. Clutching the drenched underpants and basket like precious relics, you settled into the saddle, furious, dripping, yet somehow triumphant, riding before the loudest, most chaotic brute in Mondstadt.
That soaking, fiery defiance was a memory Varka would hold onto like a talisman. He spent the ride restraining himself from laughter, a feat that taxed all the strength of his enormous frame. The next morning, he arrived at your tiny home not with soldiers, but with two great baskets brimming with sunsettias, Zaytun peaches, lavender melons, and the sweetest cacahuatls, tokens of a gratitude too large for words.
And new underpants for your father, of course, carefully folded, as though even mundane acts could be rendered noble in the story of a little fury and the giant who adored her.
The memory curled around him like a warm sigh, coaxing a reluctant giggle from deep in his chest. The fragile photograph crackled beneath his fingers as he shifted, and he froze, heart hammering in terror that he might have damaged the shard of your presence. Carefully, Varka pressed the delicate paper back into the wool of his coat, letting it rest against the chaotic drum of his own heartbeat, steadying him with its quiet weight.
“I am not angry, my love, promise,” he whispered into the damp air, his voice raw, frayed by unshed tears. “Please, my little fury, where are you?”
He had to find you. Every nerve, every muscle, every thought burned with it. His life had been a scorched earth of battlefields, campaigns, and endless marching, a magnificent but sterile legacy. He was Varka, The Grand Master, The Knight of Boreas, the soldier who charged ahead without pause. And yet all that glory, all that hard-earned prestige, felt hollow, pointless, emptied of warmth. You had filled a space in him he had never known existed, a space lit by the wild spark of soap-scented fury, by the brilliance of your impossible courage.
He had even begun trying to soften his edges for you, discarding the heaviest mail, polishing his ceremonial boots, thinking: What does a crude soldier have to offer a delicate fawn? Only a safe place to rest, an unyielding shield, and a heart that will never turn away.
Varka had everything the world could give him, and yet nothing he truly craved. Without you, his life was merely motion, the next battle, the next duty. With you, it might be something else entirely: tender, warm, alive.
“Just come back to me, my dear,” he choked, pressing your photograph so hard against his chest that the card seemed to tremble beneath his fingers. “We do not need to marry. I will lay the world at your feet, ask for nothing in return but the sight of your face every morning, the warmth of your small, defiant heartbeat beside mine…”
He shifted on the cot, every vertebra aching from cold and grief, and his hand moved instinctively toward the woolen shawl tucked nearby, faintly chilled, a relic of warmth he could almost hold. Varka lifted it to his face and inhaled, letting the scents unravel like fragile threads around him.
The aromas struck him with an almost painful clarity: the musty, mildewed tang of your parents’ decaying home, the sharp, resinous pine of his own greatcoat. But beneath it all, subtle and fleeting, was you. A clean, sweet trace of cold soap, a whisper of wild berries, a tender, feminine scent that belonged only to you – an essence he had been memorizing since the day you had nearly fallen into the river.
Varka’s mind sharpened, his discipline slicing through the fog of anguish. When he had been searching earlier, moving through the chaos of panic, he had crossed a narrow stone bridge at the town’s edge, a path toward the overgrown cemetery. There, his keen nostrils had caught it: your scent, fleeting and impossible, stronger than anywhere else, tangled with another, colder presence. By the time he reached the far side, it had vanished into the mist.
Why would you go there?
The questions hammered relentlessly. You were afraid, yes, but never foolish. The night was cruel and biting, yet you should have returned. If you had been taken, there would have been signs of resistance, evidence of struggle – but the knights had found nothing. And the unnatural chill lingering at the bridge…
The realization struck him, slow and unshakable.
Varka rose, his enormous frame brimming with purpose, the cold retreating before the fire of his resolve. He tucked your shawl beneath his greatcoat, a talisman against the dark, and pressed his hand to his heart, where your photograph was hidden, lips moving in an iron vow.
He stepped from the tent, massive boots crunching in the frost, and the faint rustle of his movements carried the promise of something not entirely human, a predator awakened, a sentinel who would track you through shadow and fog, through forest and bone, until you were safely in his grasp.
The night had come, and the time for men was over.
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Ugh, this part was so tough to write (probably because Flins isn’t in it, haha) but after the latest Hoyo stream I CANNOT-
Is it just me or would he be so smitten with his wife? Like, he would genuinely enjoy being bossed around by you. Also… did you see how BIG this man is? Doesn’t matter your size, you ARE smaller, and he could lift you up without breaking a sweat…
Also!
I’ve almost finished the next part, and my beloveds, Flins helps us get undressed in it~
P.S. I think this fic will end up being 4–5 parts, maybe more, because I have an idea for another character joining the obsessed party… hehe.
Ok I was not expecting a part 2 for this, but I love the mental image of soggy wet puppy varka yearning hopelessly for his love (I love the nickname he gives her- "little fury" is so in-character and so sweet tbh) XD also I'm glad he opened his eyes to how utterly trashy his "in-laws" are. But oh dear, now that varka's on the hunt... I don't think flins will be all too happy about another man pursuing his "wife" 🤔
tws: CorpseBride!AU, (soft?) yandere, obsessive/possessive behaviour, AFAB!reader, gothic horror (I hope), age difference (early 20s reader and early 30s Varka), arranged marrige (Varka loves you but your parents push you to marry him),
(If you find some more, please let me know.)
As usual, thank you all, my dear sweethearts, for your support!
NOT SUITED FOR MINORS. Not proofread. Author does not endorse or condone any of the actions depicted in real life. Also, English is not the author's first language, so there might be some mistakes.
Please remember that you are responsible for your own media consumption.
Inspired by Tim Burton's "Corpse Bride" and The Unequal Marriage, 1862. Vasili Pukirev.
Danny Elfman - The Finale
Kerry Muzzey - The Secret History
The air in Nod Krai was perpetually the color of old pewter, thick with the scent of wet coal and the quiet despair of old wealth gone to rot. You lived on the fringes of that decay, your family’s home nothing more than a few sagging timbers holding out against the damp. But even a crumbling house holds dreams, and your parents, starved for status, saw the solution in the bold, brash figure of Varka, Grand Master of the Knights of Favonius of Mondstatdt.
He was a force of nature, truly. Too bright, too loud, too living for your small house on the outskirts of the Nasha Town. He moved like a storm front, all greatcoats and booming laughter, and when his heavy boots strode through your cramped parlor, they tracked in the sunlit confidence of a world you didn’t understand.
Varka’s eyes, when they found you, lit up with the unfiltered adoration of a young man, though he was older and vastly more powerful. He wasn't subtle; his devotion was transparent, way too generous, and directed with equal enthusiasm toward your thrilled parents. He charmed them effortlessly with tales of his great adventures and booming promises of security.
“My little flower, my treasure!” he’d call out, his large, warm hand taking yours for a moment, the heat startling. “Be my wife and I swear, as Grand Master, you and your family will know only ease and comfort all your days.”
Ease. The word tasted like ash on your tongue. His presence robbed you of air, of voice. You were young, naive, and terrified by the sheer force of his dedication. Every booming compliment, every hearty laugh, every eager touch that lingered too long on your cheek or the small of your back felt less like affection and more like the heavy weight of an oath you hadn't taken yet. He loved the idea of you as a wife, as a symbol of domestic tranquility and beauty to contrast his battlefield life. He needed you with a desperate intensity that made your skin crawl.
You tried to argue, but your mother’s voice, sharp and thin as a razor, cut through your protests, no longer merely advising.
“Nonsense! The Grand Master, my dear! His manners are impeccable, his future secure, and he has been nothing but kind to our family. Think of it – a spacious house in the shining city of Mondstadt! You will be the wife of the Grand Master of the Knights! You will save us all from this terrible life! You will be happy, and you will agree to this gift!”
You swallowed the tears and the fear, and agreed.
The day of the wedding rehearsal arrived, cloaked in the town’s usual mist, but inside the small, shabby room your parents had rented, you were draped in the splendor of Varka’s gift: the wedding dress. It was heavy silk the color of pale moonlight, intricately embroidered, mocking the sorrow in your chest with its pristine beauty.
You stood before a dim, pitted looking mirror, the reflection showing a stranger swathed in opulence. The gown was magnificent, entirely overwhelming your small frame. Your face, usually pale, was ghostly white with terror beneath the perfect arrangement of your borrowed veil and flowers. The image was a portrait of a beautiful but doomed bride. You pressed your fists into the cold silk, a profound wave of nausea washing over you as the reality of your fate crystallized. You looked every part the groom, but your eyes, wide and luminous with unshed tears, screamed a frantic denial. You were a sacrifice beautifully packaged. A small sound escaped your throat, and you clamped your hands over your mouth to stifle the rising sobs, terrified that a single tear would ruin the expensive makeup and bring your mother rushing in.
The moment passed, but the image remained – a porcelain doll, terrified and ready for breaking.
You were led through the chill evening air to the church for a rehearsal, a cold stone structure where the air was stiff with incense and the judgmental silence of pastor.
Varka, however, was a blaze of color and sound even in his formal uniform.
He stood opposite you, magnificent and dominating, utterly transfixed. His bright blue eyes were fixed on your trembling figure. Grand Master seemed to drink you in, every fragile shiver only fueling his resolve. His yearning was palpable as it radiated from him like the sun and made your small space feel hot and inescapable. He was older, yes, but in this moment, he looked like a joyous, slightly wild boy about to receive the single object he’d always longed for.
He took his position, settling his greatcoat, and his baritone, when he spoke his half of the vows, was not merely loud, but a heartfelt declaration that vibrated with the certainty of destiny.
“With this hand, I will lift your sorrow…” His voice filled the entire cathedral, a declaration that echoed off the cold rafters. Varka looked at you, utterly consumed, his gaze burning with a devotion so bright it felt predatory. In those moments, he wasn't just ready to marry you, on no. He was aching, absolutely convinced of your shared destiny, desperate to finally possess the gentleness he saw in you. He was ready to sweep you up into his massive life and never let you go.
Then it was your turn.
The silence that followed was suffocating, heavy with your parents' hope and Varka's unyielding love. The words of the vow – to love, honor, and obey – were a lie coated in sorrow and dread, and they welded themselves shut in your throat. You could feel the tremor starting deep in your core, rising until your whole body was violently shaking beneath the heavy silk of the gown. Your fathers's furious, hopeful face blurred in the congregation, and the very air shimmered with the intense, expectant heat of Varka’s gaze.
You opened your mouth. You tried to force air past the knot of pure panic, but only a pathetic little gasp escaped.
“Speak up, girl!” Pastor hissed, his long shadow lengthening across the aisle, his voice a lash of judgment.
You tried again. The first word caught, cracking on a sob.
“With-“ But it dissolved into a frantic whimper. The ring felt like a lead weight in your palm. The pressure, the silence, the sheer magnitude of the commitment – it broke you.
“You are shaking...” Varka’s voice boomed, rich with a protective tenderness, the sound like thunder trying to soothe a sparrow. He took a heavy step forward, his immense presence filling the gap.
“My heart, there is no need for this rehearsal. This day is a formality. I see your fear, but I will erase it. Tomorrow, say only what you can bear to say. Say a simple 'yes' or speak the full vow – it doesn't matter. I will accept whatever leaves your lips.”
That was the moment you shattered. The sheer magnitude of his devotion, the crushing certainty in his boyish voice, and the way his strong hand was already reaching to secure you… It was too much.
The ring slipped from your shaking fingers and clattered onto the stone floor. It rolled toward the darkness under the pews. You lunged forward, heedless of the shocked silence of your parents and a blue-haired knight with the eyepatch. Your nimble hand darted and snatched the cold band just as it touched the shadows. Clutching it tightly, you didn't apologize. With a cry that was halfway a strangled scream, you turned and scrambled, not running, but flying, propelled by blind panic. The satin gown swayed, its rustle an insignificant sound against the magnificent roar of disbelief that tore from the Grand Master’s chest.
“Darling! Stop!” Varka’s command was less a threat and more a desperate cry of a man whose heart had been physically ripped out. It ricocheted from the vaulted ceiling with a broken sound, following you like an accusation. You didn't dare look back. You slammed against the heavy oak doors, bursting out of the suffocating, silent church and into the endless, foggy twilight of Nod Krai.
You didn’t remember crossing the bridge.
Your lungs burned with the cold air, thick with the damp rot of ancient forests, clawing at your frantic lungs. Your white shoes, useless against the mud, slipped on slick earth as you plunged blindly through the crooked trees. The chase was internal now and the sound of Varka’s distant roar faded behind the deafening rush of your own panicked heart. The dense wood abruptly surrendered to the desolate, overgrown ground of the oldest resting place: the cemetery.
The atmosphere of it was crushing. A heavy smell of wet stone and sweet decay clang to everything. You stumbled between the crooked, moss-furred tombstones and snapped iron fences, tears streaming down your face no longer just fear, but bitter rage. You hated the life your family had bartered away, hated the Grand Master’s suffocating confidence, and most of all, you hated your own pathetic weakness.
You collapsed at the base of a crumbling but tall monument adorned with an engraved lantern, and sobs rippled through your body until you were hollowed out. But even in that despair, the cruel reality surfaced: you had to return. Your family's ruin was tethered to this unwanted marriage. Their poverty was your inescapable burden. You had disgraced them, but you couldn't abandon them to destitution. You had to go back, had to face Varka, had to speak the vows and give up yourself in their names.
You had to conquer the words that had betrayed you. Thus, you opened your hand, revealing the unblinking circle of the silver wedding band clutched tight in your palm. The one and only valuable thing in your family. Taking a deep, shuddering breath, you forced yourself to stand before the broken monument. You would rehearse the vow one more time, here among the silent dead, until the terrifying words were nothing more than meaningless sound, spoken mechanically.
Choking on the grief that tasted metallic and sharp, you began a theatrical dance of sorrow. Your silk wedding clothes were ruined, snagging on the thorny bushes and wet, cracking marble. You wept openly, the sound echoing flatly off the silent stones, your body turning in ragged spirals, mimicking the terrible joy you could never feel.
“With this hand… I will lift your sorrow…” The words trembled, a prayer you didn't mean, a prayer choked with tears. This was your macabre rehearsal, your final, bitter defiance. You spun until dizziness forced you back down, the world tilting under the oppressive, fog-laden sky. You fell to your knees again, facing the crooked root. You forced yourself to breathe, pulling the last of your strength for the awful words, whispering the terrifying vows to the silent.
“Your cup will never empty…” you were weeping, the lie of it tasting bitter and metallic, “for I will be your wine…” You reached the final, critical line. You needed something to secure the ring upon, a practice gesture of binding yourself forever. Your eyes fell upon a jagged branch jutting from the damp earth in front of you, its end curled like a skeletal finger, slick with cold decay. It was grotesque, utterly still, and perfect for your sorrowful performance.
“And with this ring-” with a final, mournful, shuddering breath, you forced the words out, the sound ripped from your soul: “-I shall be your wife”
You slid the delicate silver band over the tip of the root.
“Till death do us part.“
The instant the metal touched the bark, the world compressed into silence. The distant sounds of Nasha Town were swallowed instantly, the wind dying in a single, held breath. Every hair on your body stood on end, signaling a presence older than time itself, now entirely focused on you.
Then, the root moved.
The branch coiled inward, securing the ring with the crushing finality of a lock snapping shut.
The air crystallized around you. The cold mist of the cemetery curled into a palpable presence. A sound, colder than the grave and sweeter than any living music, resonated from the swirling blue vapor, mimicking your pathetic sorrow with chilling perfection.
The very second the mist began to coalesce, whispering a terrifying echo of your vow, you realized the monstrous bargain you had struck.
"With this hand," the mist sighed, the sound like frosted velvet sliding over stone, "I will lift your sorrow..."
You snatched your hand back, screaming soundlessly, your entire body launching into a blind, desperate, immediate flight.
The earth exploded into motion as you ran, abandoning the ring and the fear of Varka for a terror so immediate it paralyzed your breathing. The root was pulling itself entirely from the ground in pursuit, shedding the damp soil to reveal a pale finger. It was clad in the tattered, elegant remnants of a black velvet cuff, the silver wedding band resting perfectly on the marble skin.
"Your cup will never empty," a whisper, deep and full of ancient satisfaction, pursued you from behind the headstones. "for I will be your wine."
Something was pursuing you and very air pulsated with its dedication. It almost felt like a wedding dance, a macabre, inescapable pas de deux.
As you stumbled, sobbing and frantic, toward the bridge, the shadows stretched and elongated into the outline of a tall figure, racing ahead of you only to snap back into the mist the moment you looked. The blue fog swirled into ribbons, and you could feel the presence everywhere.
"And with this ring," the chill voice promised from right behind your shoulder, even though there was nothing there, "I shall be your husband."
The commitment echoed in your ears. Your desperate escape was merely a dance step to him. A soft, rhythmic click, clack, click – the sound of the perfectly polished boots on damp stone – was an audible promise, always inches away behind you.
You scrambled forward, tasting blood where you had bitten your tongue. You were blind, dizzy, and utterly spent. The stone bridge came into sight finally – the boundary of the dead world and the last sliver of hope. You stumbled onto its mossy stone. Freedom was just ahead.
But then – a sound.
A great, harsh cry ripped through the stillness. The piercing shriek of a crow taking flight from the highest arch of the bridge tore the silence apart.
The sound was so immediate, so violent, that you flinched and cried out, stumbling forward, losing your footing on the wet stone. You plunged into empty air, certain the fall from the bridge this high would kill you.
But instead, the forward momentum carried you, not to the darkness below, but straight into the solid chest of a figure that had appeared, silent as the shadows themselves, directly in your path. His grip was as strong as Varka’s, but entirely cold, utterly still.
You tilted your head back, gazing up at your savior.
He was the personification of tragic, perfect elegance, startlingly beautiful and utterly ethereal. His skin was the unblemished white of ancient marble under moonlight, contrasted sharply with the rich, tarnished black of his exquisitely tailored suit. The fabric, though ancient, hugged a figure of impossible grace, utterly untouched by time or corruption. His hair, a curtain of dark, frozen blue-white, shone like glacial ice, framing a face of princely beauty. His eyes were a pool of liquid starlight, that was focused on you. His lips, thin and startlingly blue, parted in a gentle smile when your body crashed into him.
He gazed down at you, his focus absolute, a love that had waited centuries and was finally sated. The cold radiating from his body was seeping into your frantic heart, slowing its desperate beat. He held you tight, a dedication born of the earth itself, one that would never let you go.
His voice, when it came, was the same chilling melody from the air, but now clear, a breathtaking, smooth baritone. It was cold, deep, and final. He lowered his head, his cold breath ghosting over your ear.
“My dearest...”
He pulled back just enough, his gaze pinning you where you stood. His eyes drank in the ruined silk of your dress and the exquisite exhaustion on your face. He had been longing for the sorrowful creature who performed the unnecessarily beautiful ritual right on his modest grave. The moment you swayed in that desperate, tear-stained pas de deux among the dead, he knew you were the one.
“And now-” he murmured, his thumb, frigid as buried silver, tracing the line of your jaw, his adoration overwhelming, “-the groom shall kiss his bride.”
You couldn't move, couldn't scream, couldn't breathe. His face descended, a beautiful mask of cold porcelain against your hot, tear-stained skin. His lips, freezing and impossibly soft, pressed against yours.
The shock was absolute. It was the deepest cold you had ever known, the one that reached into your very core and stole the panic from your lungs. It was an acceptance, a claim, a violation, all wrapped in a kiss that tasted faintly of cemetery mist and forgotten roses. The intensity, the utter certainty of him...
The world dissolved into a smear of blue and gray, and with a final sigh, you fainted, your body going utterly limp and small in the arms of your husband.
Flins smiled. The gentle gesture was a chillingly serene smile that banished the shadow from his perfect features. He held you against his chest, your living warmth a shocking and intoxicating reality against his eternal cold. This was the exquisite paradox of his claim: till death do us part meant he could never return to the sunlit world, but you, his bride, could join him in his beautiful stillness. Kyryll lowered his face, breathing in the scent of you and submerged into a beautiful dream – a sublime longing for the moment your desperate heart would finally achieve his perfect peace, allowing you to become the beautiful spirit destined to stand beside him.
With a soundless grace, Flins lifted your limp body, cradling you like a relic of impossible value. The stone beneath his polished boot cracked, yielding not to mud, but to a swirling abyss – a vertigo of indigo and silver. This was the gate. His home. He was taking you beyond the vow's final clause.
And then, just as he was about to step into the vortex, a frantic sound tore through the cold quiet.
“Darling! Where are you?!”
It was Varka’s voice, manic and seeking, slicing through the mist from the direction of the town. The sound was wild, filled with an animal panic that was both terrifying and utterly powerless.
Flins’s brow contracted into a profound, elegant frown. The Grand Master’s voice was nothing more than static against his eternal stillness. Kyryll pulled your warm body into the unyielding shelter of his coat, tightening his grip to ensure the living world could not reclaim its own.
With a final glance at your still face, he stepped into the swirling vortex, pulling you, his delicate prize, down into the realm of the dead, sealing your fate with his cold dedication.
“Till death do us part.”
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Likes, comments, and reblogs are appreciated!
So, i was rewatching Corpse Bride, then went to play Genshin, and sudeenly, Flins came home!! Isn’t that fate, my darlings? And yeah, that’s basically how the idea for this scenario came to me.
Idk if i’ll write some more parts, but if you end up loving it… who knows.
Holy shiiiiiit, this is such a cool idea!!!! I can definitely see varka driving himself insane trying to find a way to reach you, while flins uses every trick in his arsenal to keep you in his dark world. Who will win? Do we even want a winner??
Wc: 21.8k+ (woops)
Summary: You were promised to him as a child. You were raised within temple walls, trained to serve, to revere, and to love the god you would marry. But love between a mortal and a god was never meant to be easy. Especially when he never showed up.
Cw: God!Phainon x Fem!Mortal!Reader, Alternate universe, Semi-smut, OOC Phainon, mentions of blood, slight 3.4 spoilers, MDNI, hurt/comfort (I ain't Shaoji).
Notes: This is my first time writing (somewhat) smut + something this long, pls be nice (◞‸◟)
CHAPTER I
You sighed for what felt like the hundredth time that day, your gaze fixed on the horizon beyond the temple’s arched windows. The sunset bled across the skies of Okhema in a soft orange and gold. You could see the view of the city from afar as people began lighting up their burning lamps. The view should have brought comfort and peace to your restless soul.
But it only made you angrier as the color of the sky reminded you of him.
You closed your eyes and inhaled slowly as you tried to still the tightness in your chest. You lifted your elbows from the cool marble sill and turned away from the window, the warmth of the sun’s dimming rays brushing your back as you made your way across the quiet bedroom. You collapsed onto the cushioned couch near the hearth, arms folded. Soon, the temple maids would come, their polite voices chiming in another reminder for dinner.
Another formal, joyless meal at the long table meant to seat two — yet always ended with you alone at one end, the other left hauntingly empty. What was the point if your supposed husband never came home?
You tried to remember the string of events that had led you here.
It began twenty years ago, during the last days of the Black Tide.
Your father, General of the Okheman Knights, stood on a battlefield soaked in blood and shadow, surrounded by the groans of the dying and the monstrous. His comrades, once proud warriors, now lay lifeless or worse — corrupted into twisted, grotesque abominations, their bodies overtaken by the force of the Black Tide.
Smoke and ash choked the sky, painting it red. His vision blurred as the stench of rot and scorched steel filled his lungs. He sank to his knees, despair clawing at every inch of his body. It was then he whispered, eyes clenched shut.
“Oh… God Khaslana, protector of Okhema… Save this city. I will give you the greatest gift I can offer — My firstborn, to be yours, body and soul.”
Khaslana, the Worldbearing God, was known among mortals as the Deliverer, an eternal flame against the crawling darkness. He was radiant like the blazing heart of the sun and has long shielded the human kind with his light.
From the heavens, fire rained down. Meteors streaked through the sky like divine spears, crashing into the earth with fury. The monsters of the Black Tide screeched, then fell silent beneath the weight of the stones.
The battle was won, and the city was saved. The army cheered, thrusting their swords and shields upward as your father roared out a victory saying that Khaslana was with everyone.
When your father returned, he was hailed as a hero. He told the people of Okhema of the divine intervention — how the god himself had descended to save them. What he did not speak of, however, was the vow whispered on the battlefield, the promise made from a man to the divine.
It had been a desperate, spur-of-the-moment plea. Yet breaking a vow to a god? It was unthinkable. Especially when the god had answered so grandly, only his family and the priests of Okhema’s temple knew the truth. When he confided in the high priest, he was met not with comfort but with pressure.
“A vow to a god must be honored. To break it would only invite ruin,” the priest said.
That night, your father returned home. You were only a babe, swaddled in white linen, cradled in your mother’s arms. He watched the two of you quietly. His wife smiled, not yet knowing what burden had been placed upon their daughter’s shoulders.
You were raised in the temple, trained as a priestess to serve the god who had spared your city. Your father hoped that by living among the sacred — tending to the shrines, memorizing the old hymns, and praying beneath Khaslana’s ever-burning flame — you would grow to love the god who would one day be your husband.
You tried. You really did.
Now, you stand as a woman of the age when they became brides. Your time had come.
But your wedding was not like those you had seen in Okhema’s gardens or among the white-stone courtyards where laughter and music would echo. No streamers were fluttering in the wind, no tables heavy with food or jugs of honeyed ambrosia. No children dancing. Nothing.
Yours was a private affair. It was quiet, solemn, and shrouded in ceremonial gravity.
Only your family and the temple clergy were in attendance. You were dressed in a flowing white chiton, its fabric soft as breath, trailing behind you. A circlet of gold leaves rested atop your head. Golden cuffs adorned your wrists, broad and gleaming like sunlight pressed into metal. Your ears bore the weight of gold, your neck cradled by an intricate collar, etched with celestial symbols.
You climbed the stairs alone to the temple’s highest balcony — a sacred circular platform open to the skies above. The wind was gentle, brushing against your skin. You swore you felt a hand brushing your cheeks, the touch hidden in the gust of wind.
You stepped into the center of the platform as the archbishop began to pray.
You knelt, head bowed, hands clasped in practiced devotion. You said your vows, promises of loyalty, of faith, of love, offered not only as a worshipper, but as a bride. You spoke the vow you’d rehearsed a thousand times.
Then, light emerged from below you.
A brilliant, blinding glow burst from the platform, golden and radiant. It was more intense than anyone had ever seen. The wind surged around you, lifting your robes and tussling your hair. The archbishop froze, priests shielded their eyes. Even the people in the marmoreal market turned their eyes, wondering what miracle had occurred.
You closed your eyes against the brightness, heart thudding at your chest. But then, it was over.
The archbishop announced that your vow had been accepted. You were now the wife of Khaslana.
There were no cheers, only whispers, nods, and quiet awe.
You stood, shoulders stiff, eyes lifted into the sky. You breathed in deeply, calming yourself.
That night, you packed your things in silence. The carriage was already waiting for you at the gates of the temple. You said your goodbyes under the night sky. Your little brother, Atlas, clung to the hem of your dress, though you had never been close. His small hands trembled as you soothed his head with gentle pats.
Your mother embraced you next, brushing your hair behind your ear and murmuring her pride through teary eyes. Your father hugged you last, his was longer than the others. He didn’t speak first. Just held you.
“I’m sorry,” He whispered.
You forced a smile, “It’s all right. I’m lucky, aren’t I? Anyone would want this.”
You weren’t sure if you believed it.
As the carriage wheels creaked into motion, you stared out the window, watching your family grow smaller in the distance.
When you arrived at the temple atop the hill, the sanctuary where they said Lord Khaslana often rested, you couldn’t help but pause at the sight of it. It was… vast.
The marble pillars stood tall like pale tree trunks, disappearing into vaulted ceilings. The halls echoed softly with every step you took. Looking around, you realized there were a few staff members in this temple compared to the temple you stayed in, Okhema City. You later found out that only a few priests and priestesses served here — trusted ones who had long devoted their lives to silence, prayer, and sacred duties.
The elder priestess who guided you eventually stopped before a towering set of doors inlaid with gold and sunstone. Looking back, this place was separated from the temple, yet still connected by the long corridor. Your head turned back to the priestess when you heard a slow creak of the doors.
“This is Lord Khaslana’s chamber,” she said softly, “It is yours now as well.”
You stepped inside and gawked at the sight of the room. The bed alone was large enough to hold your entire family, heck, maybe twice over. The ceilings soared high, so distant that they would definitely fade into shadow if not for the chandeliers. The furniture was grand and oversized, built for someone not quite mortal. It really did feel as if a giant was living here.
You bathed in silence, the temple servants having prepared a warm bath perfumed with wildflowers and sweet oil. You dressed yourself in soft nightwear, brushed your hair, and sat carefully at the edge of the bed.
You even tried to make yourself look pretty.
You heard whispers about what a wedding night should be like. Servants at your old temple murmured things when they thought you weren’t listening. Stories passed between maids like secrets. Surely, this would be the same?
Right?
You flushed at the thought — embarrassed by where your imagination wandered, especially toward a god you had worshipped all your life. But he was your husband now, wasn’t he? It should be fine to think of him that way… shouldn’t it?
You didn’t even know what to call him. Should you call him with the honorifics still? Would “Khaslana” be too familiar? Would “my lord” be too distant? Could you ever say his name like a wife should?
You covered your face with your hands, trying to quiet your flustered thoughts. Still, you waited.
Would he descend in divine form, or would he look like the murals? Golden-dark wings stretching wide, with hair like woven sunlight, and eyes that could pierce souls. You told yourself it would be enough just to see him. To hear his voice. To feel that you weren’t alone.
Minutes passed.
Then hours,
The moon rose high above the temple, then it drifted past its peak.
Still, he did not come.
You stayed awake as long as you could, eyes fixed on the empty half of the bed. But eventually, exhaustion took you. You fell asleep with your body curled to one side, the silken sheets untouched beside you.
When morning came, nothing had changed. The bed was still smooth, the air quiet, the god you had been bound to in sacred ceremony had made no appearance, left no message, cast no shadow on the marble floor.
Was it supposed to be like this?
You told yourself he must be busy with the divine duties that kept him from descending. Gods moved differently through time than mortals did.
But as you sat in silence, a pit formed in your chest.
Were you not worthy of his presence?
Had you done something wrong?
A soft knock at the door startled you. A priest stood in the hallway, politely informing you that breakfast had been prepared. You forced a smile, thanked him, and got dressed. As you walked the corridor, you felt hollow. There were too many thoughts swirling in your chest.
Was this what marriage with the divine looked like? Was he disappointed in you? Displeased? Disinterested?
Still, you didn’t see him that day. Nor the next. Each night, you lie in the vast bed alone, heart aching a little more. The heart ached, pushing you to eventually gather the courage to speak to the Archbishop.
After morning prayers, you lingered near the sanctum until he approached. You explained your worries as delicately as you could — stumbling over words as you worry about how much was appropriate to say.
The Archbishop listened to you with patient eyes, “All things Lord Khaslana does,” he began gently, “Are done with purpose. Continue your devotions. If you wish to speak with him… speak through your prayers.”
That’s just their way of saying “I don’t know.”
You nodded and left the room. Nonetheless, you followed his advice.
The next day, you waited until the temple’s roofed balcony was empty. You stepped onto the stone platform, the one that overlooked the city below. The sky stretched endlessly above you, behind the round glass roof, the clouds painted with soft morning light.
You knelt on the cold marble, hands folded. At first, you whispered the usual verses. Then, you opened your eyes slowly. You looked up.
Hesitantly, you spoke.
“Greetings… husband,” you said, wincing at the awkwardness of it. When there’s no response, you felt your cheeks burn. But you still continued.
“I… I just wanted to say hi. Um…” You trailed off. You had no idea what you were doing.
“I hope you’re doing well. I’ll take my leave now!”
You stood abruptly, flustered beyond belief, and walked away with your heart pounding. But that soon became your routine.
Each day, you woke, ate a modest breakfast in the quiet dining hall, wandered the temple, sat in the garden with a book, prayed, ate lunch, wandered again, returned to your room, wrote idle thoughts on parchment you never sent, ate dinner, and finally prayed to your unseen husband.
Sometimes you’d say nothing, sometimes you’d ask him how his day was, even though you knew you weren’t getting a response. You smiled less. Spoke less.
Days blurred into weeks, weeks blurred into months.
You were now in the present, sitting alone at the long dining table, spooning a lukewarm breakfast into your mouth. The temple was silent, as always. Only the soft clink of metal against porcelain accompanied you — a small, hollow sound swallowed by the high ceilings and marble walls.
Once finished, you rose, gathered your plate, and made your way to the kitchen. A servant greeted you with a respectful nod, which you returned with a tired smile. You handed over the dish with a soft “thank you” before turning to leave.
Your footsteps echoed through the temple halls, vast and empty. Each corridor felt like a labyrinth of silence, lined with tapestries that did not stir and statues that seemed to watch but never speak. As you passed one of the open arches, you paused, drawn toward the view outside.
The city of Okhema lay far below, nestled among rolling green hills and sandstone streets warmed by the morning sun. From here, the people looked like ants, moving about in the rhythm of daily life.
It had been a long time since you’d last visited.
You remembered how excited you were the first time you asked for permission. The Archbishop had granted it, so long as one of the priests escorted you. You nodded and followed his orders.
You had tried to enjoy it. Truly, you tried.
But it wasn’t the same.
The entire excursion felt performative. You weren’t free to walk where you pleased, only allowed to greet your friends briefly. The visit to your family had been short and formal. They had asked you how you were holding up and if you were happy, but you could only answer with a bitter smile as you lied about your happiness. Your family smiled back, glad that you were okay. Though your father had watched you with wordless guilt in his eyes.
You had returned to the temple more tired than when you left. You didn’t feel like going through all that again, so you scratched the thought off. You exhaled and rubbed your temples as you continued to walk back to your chambers in silence.
You passed by the sacred balcony, the platform where you had once knelt and whispered greetings to a god who never answered. You didn’t even look toward it.
You had no intention of “talking” to him today. What was the point?
You had spoken your thoughts into the wind and silence for moons now. Whatever patience the priests spoke of, yours was running out. Whatever marriage this was, you were beginning to wonder if you were the only one in it.
You pushed the doors to your room and let them shut softly behind you. The air inside was still and faintly scented. The high windows poured sunlight onto the floor, casting long golden stripes across the stone.
You didn’t bother changing out of your temple robes. You simply crossed the room and slumped onto the bed, the mattress dipping beneath your weight. The other half of the bed? Still untouched, pristine, as it had been every night.
You curled to your side, your cheek against the cool pillow. Outside the window, birds wheeled lazily through the sky. You watched them, envious of their freedom.
A bitter smile tugged at your lips. You weren’t even sure if you remembered what that kind of freedom felt like.
Your mind begins to wander, a thought crept in — quiet, sharp, and unbearable.
Has he… abandoned me?
You closed your eyes and let the silence answer.
CHAPTER II
You wandered the gardens again, your steps trailing along familiar paths. The air was warm today, soft with the scent of blooming flowers and freshly tilled soil. Sunlight filtered through the trellises, casting latticed shadows on the stone walkway. You passed by the same clusters of dianthus and wild hyacinths, now fully in bloom, their petals trembling slightly in the breeze.
The gardeners sure are diligent. Their work showed in every vibrant stem, every carefully clipped hedge. But even the beauty of the flowers couldn’t shake the dull ache in your chest.
You haven't prayed since yesterday. You knew you should have—not because you expected anything to change, but because that had been your one way to pretend someone was still listening. But the silence you would receive in return had grown too loud, too painful. You couldn’t bring yourself to do it again. Not now.
So instead, you let your feet carry you aimlessly through the garden’s winding paths. Eventually, your steps slowed, and you lifted your eyes toward the sky, letting out a quiet sigh.
“It’s so lonely here,” you murmured, your voice barely above a whisper, “I miss my family… my friends… the sound of the busy market…”
The words slipped from you without a thought. The truth of them made your eyes sting. You hadn’t realized how tightly the loneliness had been coiling in your chest until you said it out loud. It was homesickness, plain and simple.
The temple, for all its golden beauty and perfection, was a cage. Not one built of iron bars, but of duty, silence, and unanswered prayers. You were its reluctant bird, fluttering from one empty hallway to the next.
As you returned inside, your footsteps echoing along the polished floors, you passed by a few servants carrying bundles of fresh linens. They paused to dip their heads respectfully, and you returned the gesture automatically, your mind still lost in the haze of longing.
As you passed them, you caught fragments of their conversation.
“The town is already setting up for the festival… the one for Hysilens…”
Your breath caught. Of course. Today was the first day of the fifth month — the Month of Joy. The festival of Hysilens, goddess of the sea.
Your footsteps slowed to a halt.
You remembered how, back in the city, this day would transform the streets into rivers of color and sound. You remembered the rows of market stalls selling sugared fruits and roasted meats, the performers dressed in sea-colored robes dancing in the square, the laughter of children chasing painted ribbons through the air.
You remembered attending those festivals with your friends, pockets full of wages saved up over weeks, spending every coin on treats and trinkets and memories that lingered long after. Those had been the brightest days.
But now… You were up here, alone. Watching the world move on without you.
For a moment, you thought about asking permission from the Archbishop to attend the festival. But the thought quickly left your mind. You already knew how it would go. Even if he said yes, he would assign you an even stricter chaperone. You would be led from one designated stop to another, rushed. It would feel less like a visit and more like a ritual of appearances.
It wasn’t worth it.
Then a thought struck you. It sparked suddenly in your chest like a match struck in the dark.
What if you didn’t ask? What if you just… Snuck out?
Your heart skipped.
Could you even do that?
It felt like madness, but the idea had already lodged itself into your mind, refusing to leave. There were guards posted at the gates. Clergy walking the halls at all hours. And yet… the idea of slipping past them, of blending into the crowd of festivalgoers, of tasting freedom even for a day — it was too tempting to ignore.
You couldn’t make it to today’s celebration, that much was certain. But maybe, just maybe, if you prepared carefully… next week could be different.
Over the next few days, you turned your casual walks into reconnaissance. You watched the guards from a distance, searched the halls for blind spots, watched the rhythm of the servants, and mapped the quietest corridors. You draw a poorly made map of the temple, scribbling notes on the paths you could take.
With your newfound determination, you’re sure you’ll be able to go to the festival this week.
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This temple was built like a damn fortress!
Every entrance was watched. Every path accounted for. You returned to your room one afternoon and slumped into your writing chair, burying your face in your hands. The frustration burned in your chest.
Curse those who assigned the layout of this prison temple.
You ran a hand through your hair, fingers tangling in frustration. With a sharp exhale, you stepped out into the quiet halls of the temple. It was nearing the hour of evening prayer anyway, so you stormed through the quiet halls of the temple, the sound of your hurried footsteps echoing faintly against the stone.
When you reached the prayer chamber, you kneeled at your usual place. You clasped your hands together. When you opened your mouth, the words you uttered were not soft-spoken, but they were razor-edged. You followed the usual form of prayer, though this time, there was fire in every syllable, a simmering fury that made the priests nearby stiffen and steal worried glances.
They had never heard you pray like this before. Were you praying to Khaslana, or were you threatening him? They didn’t know. The priests dared not interrupt and kept their heads bowed.
After your evening prayers, you passed by the front gate. You didn’t intend to do anything, just watching.
But then you saw it.
Two of the guards had stepped away from their posts, moving with practiced ease as they swapped shifts. You lingered nearby, pretending to observe a flowering vine on the stone wall. Five minutes later, they returned.
It wasn’t much — just a narrow window, a sliver of chance. But it was something.
Your heart raced as you walked back to your chamber.
If you timed it perfectly, if the halls were quiet and no one was watching, you might be able to slip through during a shift change. It wouldn’t be easy. But it wasn’t impossible. Still, you had doubts lingering. You knew how unpredictable the temple was. There might still be wandering priests in the halls. You would need more careful timing.
You would need luck. Even divine intervention.
The thought made you pause. Would your husband notice? Would he stop you? Would he… care?
You considered praying to him, you know, just enough to tip fortune in your favor. But how could you make such a prayer without revealing your intent?
You tried keeping things vague: requesting protection, for clarity, for guidance on uncertain roads. But even so, guilt festered at the back of your throat. You were a mortal trying to outwit a god.
You sighed deeply as you sat back at your desk, fingers absently brushing over your ink-stained parchment. Your eyes drifted to the row of old temple scrolls. One of them, worn at the edges and bound in cracked leather, mentioned Cifera — goddess of trickery and hidden paths. For a moment, you considered turning your hopes toward her instead. Surely she would understand. She was the patron of secrets and silent rebellions.
But even that felt dangerous. Gods did not always answer as mortals expected — and Cifera, for all her wit and charm, was as unpredictable as the ocean. One prayer could lead you to freedom.
Or straight into a trap.
You sighed, walking to your bed, planting your face into the pillow, carefully planning the escape.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
When the night finally came, you looked outside your window and gathered your courage. You had prepared everything in secret, every detail planned with precision over the past few days. Your belongings were already packed: a modest satchel with your saved coin, you wore a simple linen dress, and a travel cloak with a deep hood to hide your face.
Just before sunset, you told the priestesses not to disturb you for dinner, claiming that you were unusually tired and would be resting early. They seemed concerned but didn’t question you further.
You waited until the temple fell quiet. According to what you’ve overheard, the Archbishop had summoned all the priests and priestesses to a meeting. Something about receiving a message from Lord Khaslana himself. That timing couldn’t be more convenient.
It was almost suspicious, even.
You almost laughed. Whether it was divine providence or coincidence, you didn’t care. You were determined to leave.
With your cloak slung around your shoulders and your bag secure at your hip, you crept through the dimly lit corridors. You kept to the shadows, heart hammering in your chest as the last golden rays of sunlight bled over the hills. You arrived at the edge of the temple grounds, ducking behind a stone pillar near the front gates. Just as you had predicted, the guards began their shift change.
Now.
You sprinted across the open courtyard, your breath catching in your throat as your sandals pounded against the stone. You muttered a desperate prayer to the West Winds, begging them to carry your footsteps quietly. Reaching the outer wall, you climbed with surprising ease — the muscle memory of childhood sneaking and tree-climbing in Okhema still alive in your limbs. With one final push, you vaulted over the gate, landing softly on the other side with a thud muffled by grass.
You paused only a moment to catch your breath, casting one last glance back at the towering temple. Then you ran, cloak fluttering behind you, hair whipping in the wind as you tore down the hill toward the city below. Your feet burned and your lungs ached, but you didn’t stop.
For the first time in months, you felt free.
The gates of Okhema loomed ahead, golden lights from the festivities already glowing like stars fallen to earth. Laughter, music, and the clatter of wooden wheels floated on the breeze. Your heart pounded.
Not from the run this time, but from exhilaration.
You were finally here.
You made your way to the familiar district where your family lived. When your mother opened the door, her eyes widened in disbelief.
“By the gods… what are you doing here?” she whispered, pulling you inside.
Atlas, your younger brother, shouted your name with delight and rushed into your arms, wrapping himself around your waist. You smiled as you held him close, heart clenching at how much he had grown.
“I was granted permission to attend the festival,” you said, the lie tasting oddly natural. “Just for tonight.”
Your mother’s eyes searched your face, clearly unconvinced, but she didn’t press. “Your father’s out of town,” she said after a pause. “There was an urgent dispatch from the southern front.”
You nodded, choosing not to ask for details. “Will you come with me to the festival, then? Just for a little while?”
She shook her head with a tired smile. “No, I’m too old for those crowds now. But take Atlas. He’s been begging me for days.”
“Please, Ma? Can I go?” Atlas clutched your sleeve eagerly.
Your mother sighed, then gave you a look that was part blessing, part warning. “Come back safe.”
“Of course,” you said with a grin.
Moments later, Atlas returned with a small bag of coins and excitement bursting from every step. He grabbed your hand and began pulling you toward the heart of the city.
The festival was more dazzling than you remembered. Lanterns strung across the streets bathed everything in amber light. Stalls overflowed with spiced meats, honey pastries, roasted chestnuts, and painted masks. Atlas dragged you from one corner to the next — watching dancers spin to the beat of drums, laughing at jugglers dropping flaming torches, squealing at the scent of fresh honeybread.
He remembered your favorite food. You hadn’t even realized he’d been paying attention all these years.
“Sis, look! There’s a play! Let’s go watch!” Atlas tugged on your arm, pointing toward a crowd gathering near a stage.
“Atlas, slow down,” you said, laughing as you tried to keep up with his darting steps.
You ended up at the back of the crowd, barely able to see over the heads in front of you. Atlas strained on tiptoes, pouting in frustration.
“Come on, I’ll lift you,” you said, crouching.
He blinked. “Are you sure? I’m not that little anymore.”
“I’ve carried heavier,” you teased, and with a grunt, lifted him onto your shoulders.
His hands settled on your head for balance, and his smile widened as he finally got a good view of the stage. For a moment, everything felt perfect. It felt as though you had slipped into a pocket of time where none of your duties or fears existed. But that moment was broken when you felt something shift behind you.
Your bag. A rustle.
You turned quickly, but it was too late. A man was already sprinting away, the coin pouch clutched in his hand.
“Thief!” you shouted, quickly setting Atlas down before darting after the man.
You pushed past onlookers, dodging carts and barrels, the thief just ahead, weaving between alleyways. Then, suddenly, someone stepped in.
A tall, white-haired man blocked the thief’s path, moving with fluid confidence. Before the thief could turn, the man seized him by the collar and effortlessly lifted him off the ground. The thief writhed and kicked, but the stranger didn’t flinch.
“Now, now,” the man said calmly, his voice smooth as still water. “Let’s not ruin the festive mood with petty crime.”
He held out his other hand, palm open. The thief groaned and quickly handed over the coin pouch. Without another word, the stranger dropped him to the ground. Guards rushed in from the crowd and dragged the man away. You arrived just as the commotion died down, shielding Atlas with your arm on instinct.
The white-haired man approached, holding your pouch. “Yours, I believe,” he said.
You stared at him, not just out of gratitude, but out of something else. Something you couldn’t quite name. His presence was overwhelming in a quiet way — like a hearth fire in winter, steady and warm but impossible to ignore.
“Thank you so much, sir...” you hesitated, unsure how to address him.
He seemed to catch your pause, his gaze briefly flickering with something unreadable before he smiled. “Phainon.”
“Sir Phainon… I can’t thank you enough.”
“Thank you for helping my sister, Sir Phainon,” Atlas said with an adorable bow.
Phainon chuckled, kneeling slightly to ruffle Atlas’s hair. “It was my honor.”
You clutched the pouch to your chest. That was all the money I had left…
You found yourself staring at him; his striking white hair, his eyes the clear blue of the high heavens. He looked unlike anyone from Okhema. Had you met him before? Surely you’d remember a face like his.
You shook your head and composed yourself. “Then… let me repay you. I’ll buy you something from the stalls.”
He raised a brow, considering. “And if I decline?”
“Then I’ll insist,” you said with a half-smile.
He sighed with mock reluctance. “In that case, I trust you’ll choose wisely.”
The three of you began walking together, passing through the glowing streets of the night market. You watched him out of the corner of your eye as he lingered in front of a stall selling grilled meat skewers. You chuckled softly, stepping forward to place your order.
You handed one skewer to Atlas, then another to Phainon. As you held it out, your fingers brushed. A strange heat rose up your arm — not burning, not painful, just… familiar.
Phainon looked at your hand for a moment before taking the food from you, then offered a slow, easy smile.
“Thank you, pretty lady.”
You turned away quickly, cheeks warming. That same feeling fluttered in your chest again, unnameable and unfamiliar.
The festival lanterns were beginning to dim, their golden hues paling against the indigo sky. The evening air had cooled, brushing against your cheeks with the gentle scent of roasted spices and trampled flowers. You hadn’t intended to spend this much time with Phainon. In truth, you hadn’t expected to spend any time at all. But something about his presence was disarming. He was steady, grounding even. He had a calmness that settled like silk over your nerves. Atlas adored him; that much was obvious.
Still, as you glanced up at the clock tower at the center of the city square, you knew time was slipping from your hands. If you don’t return soon, someone might notice your absence.
You turned to Atlas, who was still licking honey off his fingers from a fruit skewer. “It’s time to go home, Atlas.”
He frowned, lower lip jutting out like it used to when he was a toddler. “Can’t I stay with you a bit longer?”
You hesitated, your smile softening with guilt. “I’ll try to visit again soon,” you said, crouching to ruffle his hair. “Promise.”
You guided him home, Phainon walking silently at your side. When you reached your family’s doorstep, your mother opened the door, her eyes widening at the sight of a stranger beside you.
Her eyes flicked to Phainon. “Who is this?” she asked, ever the vigilant matron. “I don’t think I’ve seen you around these parts, young man.”
Phainon bowed slightly, his voice smooth. “Phainon, ma’am. I’m from out of town. Recently relocated here.”
Your mother tilted her head. “I see,” she murmured, her gaze turning to you for explanation.
You cleared your throat. “He helped us earlier. A thief tried to steal my coin pouch.”
Her eyes widened in alarm. “A thief?!” she gasped, her hand flying protectively to Atlas’s shoulder. “Oh, by the gods... thank Khaslana you were there, Sir Phainon.”
Phainon gave a modest smile. “I only did what anyone would.”
Your mother turned to you, concern etched into her face. “I should’ve known trouble might stir while your father’s away. With the general gone, they think they can take liberties.”
You offered a faint nod, placing a hand over hers. “I’ll pray for your safety every night, Mother.”
She squeezed your hand gently. “And what about you?” she asked, more quietly. “Is your... husband treating you well?”
You froze, a familiar ache returning to your chest. The words caught in your throat, and you looked away. Phainon, standing just behind you, didn’t say a word. But his gaze was steady and unreadable.
“I have to return now,” you said, dodging the question. You stepped forward and wrapped your arms around your mother. “Please send father my love.”
She held you tighter than usual. “Be safe, my child.”
You pulled back, your throat tight. Atlas tugged at your cloak and hugged you around the waist once more. You turned away, waving goodbye to them, your mother’s expression sad, but you tried to reassure her with a bright smile. Phainon silently followed as you walked down the lantern-lit streets, heading toward the city’s edge. The path grew quieter as you left the bustle behind.
“It seemed like you hadn’t seen them in a long time,” Phainon remarked softly from beside you. “Why not stay longer?”
You exhaled, pulling your cloak tighter around yourself. “I can’t. My husband is... strict.”
He stopped walking for a moment. “Strict?” he echoed, with a frown. “Really?”
You glanced at him, raising a brow. “He’s a loving husband,” you said, sarcasm dripping from your tone. “So possessive that I need permission just to walk the streets. Even then, I have to bring a chaperone like I’m a child again.”
Phainon’s frown deepened, but he looked down, expression unreadable. “Maybe he’s just... worried. About your safety.”
You laughed bitterly, the sound carrying a note of pain. “If that’s the case, he has a strange way of showing it.”
He didn’t reply to that. The silence between you grew heavier as the temple walls came into view in the distance.
“I can walk you back,” Phainon offered after a pause.
You looked at him. There was sincerity in his tone, no trace of insistence — just concern. “I live somewhere... unusual,” you said carefully. “Not many are allowed near it. It’s better if I go alone.”
He nodded slowly. “Then let me walk you to the gates, at least.”
“...Alright.”
The rest of the walk was quiet. You tried to find something to say. Small talk felt foreign now, like a language you hadn’t spoken in years. You glanced at Phainon from time to time, noticing the way the lantern light softened the sharp edges of his face.
Before you realized it, you were standing at the main gates.
You stopped and turned to face him. “Thank you again, Sir Phainon. For everything.”
He smiled, tilting his head. “Thank you, too. You were good company tonight.”
An awkward pause stretched before you. You cleared your throat and stepped back.
“Well... I should go. Farewell, Sir Phainon.”
“Safe travels, my lady,” he said, his voice just above a whisper.
You began to walk, the gravel crunching beneath your feet. But something tugged at the edge of your thoughts. You stopped and turned around.
“I never told you my name, did I—?”
But he was gone.
The street was empty. Lanterns swayed gently in the breeze. Not a shadow, not a trace of him remained.
Your shoulders slumped, a sigh escaping your lips. Still, a strange warmth lingered in your chest.
Maybe you would see him again.
CHAPTER III
Ever since you went to the festival, things have gotten… strange.
You hadn’t expected the guards to make it easy for your return. In fact, you’d spent most of your walk back from the city wondering how you’d sneak past them again without getting caught. As you neared the outer wall of the temple, your pace slowed, eyes scanning the shadows. Your heart was pounding as you drew closer to the main gate.
That’s when you heard it — a low, rhythmic sound. You stopped in your tracks.
…Were those snores?
Your brows knit in confusion. That couldn’t be… right?
But sure enough, when you rounded the corner, there they were: the two guards slumped against the wall, fast asleep while still standing on their feet. Their helmets were slightly tilted forward. The gate was ajar, just enough for someone your size to slip through.
There’s a weird feeling in your stomach. This wasn’t normal.
Had someone broken into the temple while you were away? Were the guards faking it?
You hesitated, then began to move cautiously as you moved your feet against the stone path. You slipped through the gate, wincing slightly when it let out a small creak. You paused, eyes flicking back to the guards.
They were still snoring; if anything, it was louder.
You exhaled softly. You admit this situation was a bit odd, but you didn’t want to think about it right now.
The temple grounds were unusually quiet. You would’ve expected at least one priest or priestess wandering about at night. But there was no movement, no sound. There was only a gentle breeze and your own groggy footsteps.
Your unease grew, but you pushed it down. Worry about this tomorrow!
For now, you just needed to make it to your chambers without being seen. Not that it mattered, there was no one patrolling the halls. It was as though the temple had fallen into a temporary slumber.
You slipped into your room unnoticed. Changed your clothes. Lie in bed.
Sleep came quickly that night.
The next morning brought no answers; it brought more confusion.
You were halfway through your breakfast, your thoughts still adrift in the memory of last night’s strange silence, when the Archbishop passed by. He gave you a warm, grandfatherly smile and patted your shoulder.
“When you’re finished, come to my office. I’d like a word.”
Your stomach dropped. You hadn’t thought he’d found out, but now, your mind raced.
You’d explain, you told yourself as you walked toward his office. You’d apologize, say you just wanted to see your family, that you had no ill intentions. Maybe even pretend to weep if needed.
You knocked gently. “Come in,” came his voice.
The Archbishop was at his desk, scribbling notes into a scroll. He looked up, eyes bright behind his glasses. He gestured for you to take a seat across from him. You sat down and braced yourself.
“How are you feeling?” he asked casually, quill still in hand. “The priestesses mentioned you weren’t well yesterday.”
Your breath caught. Then you blinked.
What.
“Ah, yes. I was just… tired,” You said, quickly recovering. “A little rest was all I needed.”
“Glad to hear it.” He smiled, setting his quill down and folding his hands. “We wouldn’t want you falling ill, would we?”
You forced a polite laugh, tension still clinging to your spine. He laughed with you, then leaned back in his chair.
“One more thing,” he said, removing his glasses and setting them aside. “Lord Khaslana has spoken to me.”
Your heart jumped into your throat. “He… did?”
The Archbishop nodded, his expression unreadable. “He’s permitted you to visit Okhema. Whenever you’d like.”
You sat there, stunned. “Truly? I can go alone?”
“Yes. You may leave the temple without an escort.”
Your face lit up with disbelief and joy. “Thank you,” you said quickly.
“There is one condition,” he added gently. “You are expected to return by parting hour, and you must ‘talk’ with him every time before you go.”
You tilted your head. The Archbishop noticed your confusion as he let out a laugh.
“Yes, I was taken aback by his last condition as well. I take it that you haven’t been talking with him lately?” He asked.
You looked away, “I… may have.” You answered sheepishly.
“Haha! Maybe he just wanted a bit of attention from his dear wife.” The Archbishop stroked his beard.
Him? Wanting attention from you? Last time you checked, he was the one ignoring you!
“Right… But I will accept those conditions,” you replied.
He smiled and nodded. “Then that is all I wished to share.”
You stood to leave, already imagining the market stalls, the smell of roasted foods, and the distant music echoing through the streets. But something tugged at you — a bitter feeling in your chest.
You turned back at the doorway. “Archbishop?”
“Yes?”
You hesitated for a few seconds. “Does… my husband speak to you often?”
He furrowed his brow slightly, as though surprised by the question. “Hmm… I wouldn’t say often. But from time to time, yes. Usually, when he has something he wishes us to know.”
The ache bloomed again, sharp and cold inside your ribs. “I see. Thank you.”
You left the office quietly. Your footsteps echoed in the corridor as your thoughts spiraled. You were sure that your new freedom was because your husband had probably heard you talk with Phainon yesterday, he knows you snuck out, and he lets you. You were now sure that the guards and the gates were all his doing. He heard you and yet…
Why won’t he speak to me?
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
True to his word, the temple’s gates no longer kept you captive. The priests, once hovering shadows at your every step, now bowed and let you pass unaccompanied. No more chaperones, no more restrictions, no more surveillance. For the first time since your marriage, you were free. And you felt it.
You began to spend more time in the city. You walked with Atlas to his school, sneaking in conversations with your friend at the bakery and other shops. Of course, you couldn’t tell them the truth. You simply said you’d been promoted and reassigned to a more “sacred” temple. That word tasted bitter on your tongue.
Even so, the temple staff noticed your glow; how your prayers grew longer and how you seemed to have more to say to your husband in the roofed balcony when you thought no one was there. Because now, you have something to talk about. Even if he never answered.
You ran into Phainon again one sunny afternoon, just outside the antique shop. This time, you introduced yourself properly.
“A beautiful name,” he said, and before he could follow up with something else, you gave him a stern look and reminded him that you were married. He only laughed, completely unbothered. It annoyed you and, somehow, made you smile.
He began showing up more often after that, just accompanying you wherever you go He’d tell you about the fake antique he saw, and how he managed to convince someone from getting scammed. Sometimes you’d share a meal with him after you pick up Atlas from his classes. Atlas was more than happy to see him, talking about what he learned from school and even bragging about his grades.
The little traitor even stopped pulling your hand during festivals and started dragging Phainon’s around instead. The tall man always hunched a little so Atlas could reach him properly, grumbling playfully and shooting you half-hearted looks of betrayal. You only chuckled.
And now, here you were, seated on a bench near the festival square on the last day of the festival. The lanterns above cast flickering gold against the deepening dusk, music drifting from a nearby corner. You both sat with tired feet and half-eaten honeyed bread in hand, watching Atlas run off with some boys from school. You and Phainon started talking as usual.
You hadn't meant to bring up your troubles. But the words slipped through anyway.
“He never talks to me,” you muttered, biting into the sticky bread. “Never comes to see me. Sometimes I wonder if I’m invisible.”
Phainon cast a glance at you, his usually bright face dimming. “Your husband…? Maybe he’s… busy,” he said, cautiously.
“That’s the thing,” You cut in, a bitter laugh escaping. “I know he’s probably busy with… whatever he’s doing, but don’t tell me he doesn’t have time to even see me? No need to talk for hours, just… see me.”
You shouldn’t have underestimate what gods do. For all you know, he could be busy protecting Okhema from unseen threats. But you were pissed off, it’s rational for you to think this way.
Phainon looked like he wanted to say something, but swallowed it down. You stared off into the square, the sound of flutes drifting in the air.
“Maybe…” Phainon began carefully, “Maybe he’s afraid.” his voice was too steady for someone just speculating. It made something tighten in your chest.
You blinked and turned to him. “Afraid? Of me? I’m his wife.” You flail your arms, “He’s faced monsters and armies. He has helped many people as well! He has all that power— I mean skills, and yet he’s afraid to meet his wife?” You scoffed.
Phainon sighed, letting out a soft, breathy laugh, “To be fair, you are terrifying,” he mumbled.
You widened your eyes, looking at him with mock offense, “What did you say?” You asked, tone offended, though the smirk on your lips said otherwise.
Phainon raised his hands defensively, “What? I didn’t say anything. Wow, the West Winds sure are strong nowadays…” He said, looking at his surroundings as if to check the wind.
You tried to hold your scowl, but it cracked at the edges as you let out a laugh, “You defend him a lot for someone who’s never met him.”
Phainon smiled sheepishly. “Let’s just say… I can imagine his side of things. From one man to another.”
You let out a small huff, rolling your eyes with a fond smile. “How about we just enjoy the festival tonight and leave our troubles behind, huh?” You said, rising to your feet and extending your hand to him.
Phainon hesitated for a moment, his gaze lingering on your outstretched hand. Then, without a word, he took it.
You gave his fingers a reassuring squeeze before gently tugging him upward. As he stood, you released his hand and turned, stepping forward with your newfound energy. Behind you, Phainon followed, your touch still lingering on his skin.
And the evening continued — gentle, golden, warm in ways you hadn’t felt in a long while. You didn’t notice the way Phainon’s gaze lingered. The way he watched you not with curiosity…
But guilt.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
It was the sixth month now— the Month of Everday.
The days were blazing, the sun bearing down on Okhema like a merciless spotlight. You had stopped visiting Okhema City as often, worried that too much time outside would leave you sun-drunk or worse, sick. So you remained within the white-stone halls of the temple, living in routine and resignation.
Oh, and of course — you still hadn’t met your husband.
Still, you had a growing suspicion. Your prayers, though unanswered in voice, felt… heard.
Whenever you complained about the stifling heat, a gust of wind would roll in from the hills, brushing sweat from your brow like an invisible hand. Whenever you wandered into the gardens, that familiar loneliness clawing at your chest, you’d find yourself quietly joined by a bird perching near your feet, a butterfly settling on your shoulder, and a stray chimera curling beside your bench, purring softly.
Were those coincidences? Or was it his doing? You didn’t know. You didn’t want to know.
Today, the wind had picked up again. Cool enough that you decided to visit the temple library. The temple’s archive of fiction was surprisingly robust. Romance novels nestled among sacred texts, hidden like small rebellions. The priestesses pretended not to notice them, and you didn’t ask questions.
If escapism was a sin, then you were already damned.
Oh well, at least you’ll have your divine husband to save your soul later.
When you stepped inside, the doors were already open. The scent of parchment and lemon polish drifted in the warm air. Ah, the priestesses must’ve been cleaning. You walked down the rows of bookshelves until you reached the fiction corner. You were just beginning to trail your fingers across a row of colorful spines when hushed voices caught your attention from behind the adjacent shelf.
You didn’t mean to listen. You weren’t trying to eavesdrop. But then—
“It’s been a while since Lord Khaslana visited, huh?”
You froze.
“Yeah… I miss when he used to talk about the stars with us,” one voice sighed.
“He was so kind. Just… glowing. I always felt so calm around him.”
“Ever since the wedding, though, he’s stopped coming. I wonder why?”
Your blood turned to ice. The ache in your chest, the one you’d been nursing in silence for six months, splintered. So he had been coming before. He could come in human form. He had been visiting. He laughed, talked, and spent time with the others.
Just… before you came.
You turned on your heel, left the shelf, and made your way to the Archbishop’s office with purpose burning in your steps. You didn’t knock. You didn’t need to.
The Archbishop startled in his chair, lifting his gaze. “Child, what’s—?”
“Did Lord Khaslana used to visit the temple?” You asked, your voice low but shaking.
He blinked. “Yes… regularly, in fact. He often stayed in his chambers. He enjoyed visiting in his human form. Shared stories with us. Just casual talk.”
You swallowed. Your mouth tasted bitter. “When did he stop?”
The Archbishop exhaled slowly. “He… hasn’t visited since the wedding.”
You nodded, almost mechanically. “Thank you,” you said, though your voice barely carried. You turned before he could say anything more.
You walked. Fast. You didn’t know where you were going until you found yourself back in your chambers, your hands already gathering your cloak and satchel. You didn’t greet the guards at the gates like usual. You barely acknowledged them at all.
Their concerned glances followed you, but you didn’t stop.
You ran.
You ran through the dirt roads, through the burning streets of Okhema, your breath heavy and ragged. You didn’t care about appearances anymore. You didn’t care if people stared. You just needed to see someone who loved you.
You reached your parents’ home, panting and soaked in sweat. Your hand trembled as you knocked. When the door opened, your mother’s eyes went wide at the sight of your tear-streaked face. She didn’t ask questions and pulled you inside. She held you like she did when you were little, brushing your hair back and murmuring.
Your father was home too; he had just returned from his campaign. His rough soldier’s hands clenched into fists the moment he heard your sobs.
You sat between them on the couch, your words tumbling all at once. You told them everything. About the empty bedroom, the silence, the prayers that never answered in words, the dinners eaten alone.
The months of hoping for something — anything.
“I hate him!” you choked, collapsing into your mother’s arms. “I hate him.”
She stroked your hair, whispering, “Don’t say that, sweetheart. What if he hears you?”
“I don’t care! I want him to hear me!” You screamed into her shoulder. “I hate him! I hate him! He left me! I don’t want to go back!”
Your father stood in silence. Then, in a voice like thunder, he said, “I’ll kill him.”
You pulled back from your mother in shock, breathing still ragged, “What?! Father—” you sobbed, “have you lost your mind?!”
“I mean it,” He snapped. “God or not. No one does this to my daughter.”
“Dearest, calm down. Don’t say that,” Your mother gasped, rising to stop him. “You’ll get yourself killed.”
He paced, shaking. “I do not care! It is not impossible to kill a god.” He muttered, “I offered her over, thinking that he would protect her.”
You looked up at him, tear-streaked, heart pounding. The sight was enough to stop him. Then slowly, he knelt beside you.
“Forgive me… I should’ve never…” He trailed off, gritting his teeth, “This is all my fault. Forgive me, my daughter.”
You wrapped your arms around him, nodding on his shoulder.
The rest of the evening passed quietly. Atlas had just come back from school. Thank the gods you had already washed your face. You greeted him with a smile as he told you about what he learned in school. Your mother ushered Atlas to take a bath and to change. He nodded and went straight to his room.
Everyone was at the dining table, your mother bringing out your favorite food. Your father, still trying to calm himself, began recounting silly stories from his latest travels, with Atlas asking him hundreds of questions every time your father said a sentence. The sight made you smile. It was warm and familiar.
But eventually, the moment had to end.
You declined their offer to stay the night, thanking them both for comforting you. You promised to return soon. Your mother pulled you into one more hug. “I love you, sweetheart.” She whispered, her voice helpless.
“I love you, too, mother.”
You stepped back into the streets of Okhema. The warmth of home faded behind you. You wondered if Phainon would appear tonight. But he was nowhere to be found. Maybe it was for the best, you’re not exactly in a condition to talk to anyone right now.
You arrived at the temple just as the sun began to dip below the horizon. You told the priestesses not to wait for you at dinner, informing them that you had already eaten with your family. In your chambers, you changed out of your clothes, washed your face, and leaned against the window. A drop of water hit your hand, causing you to look up.
“...Rain?” you whispered. The sky above was darkening quickly, a deep grey settling over the hills. A crack of thunder rumbled in the distance.
You watched the rain fall, slow and steady. You didn’t know why, but something about the rain felt… different.
You closed the window and walked towards your bed. The sound of rain tapping the glass and thunder rolling over the skies above rocked you into sleep.
CHAPTER IV
The first time Khaslana heard your father’s prayers, he was sitting alone beneath the wheeling stars in the Vortex of Genesis. His throne was carved from marble and fiery amber, but tonight, his eyes were downcast, quiet.
The voice of a mortal reached him. It was frantic and raw. A father, kneeling in bloodied armor beneath a broken sky. He had offered his daughter to the Worldbearing God in exchange for deliverance. Not her life, but her fate. Her soul. To be entrusted to him. To become his.
Khaslana didn’t speak, nor did he descend. But he heard and he listened.
With a wave of his hand, the heavens cracked open. Meteors streaked through the red sky, cleaving through the monsters of the Black Tide with divine precision. Screams of terror turned into shouts of awe.
Your father’s voice rang out among the crowd. But the god had already turned away. There were other matters to attend to.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
Time passed differently for gods; A year for mortals was a blink for him. Yet when he returned to the mortal plane in his human form, the earth had changed again.
His hair was now snow-white, his eyes the piercing blue of high summer skies, and he walked through the halls of his personal temple, blending in like any other human. The Archbishop welcomed him warmly, inviting him into his study. The scent of honeyed tea and spiced bread filled the room. Though Khaslana had no need for food anymore, he accepted it out of politeness. Human cuisine always stirred something faint within him, perhaps it was a memory, a warm feeling.
“It seems the time has come for your wedding, Lord Khaslana,” the Archbishop began.
The god paused, a piece of pastry untouched in his hand as he raised a brow.
“The one with the General’s daughter,” the Archbishop clarified. “She’s of age now. And, if I may speak freely… she’s become quite the beauty.”
Ah. That exchange..
“Has the time come already?” he murmured with a quiet laugh, more to himself than to the priest.
“Yes,” the Archbishop replied, watching him carefully. “Though I must admit, I didn’t expect you to accept the offer.”
Khaslana didn’t answer immediately. His gaze lingered on the tea’s surface, where the reflection of his own face shimmered.
“The law of Equivalence,” he said at last, voice low. “As old as the breath of the world.”
The Archbishop remained silent.
“When a mortal offers something of true value, something that wounds them, the heavens are bound to answer. The greater the sacrifice, the deeper the prayer carves its way into us. And a daughter…” He looked up. “A daughter is no small offering.”
“So you accepted… not out of desire?” the Archbishop asked softly.
“No,” Khaslana said. “I accepted because it was owed.”
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
The wedding day arrived.
Seated upon his throne, Khaslana watched. The ceremony unfolded beneath him like a sunlit dream.
You stepped onto the temple balcony, dressed in white and gold, the light catching the silk of your dress like water running over moonstone. Every moment, the way you walked and the way your fingers clutched stirred something ancient in him.
And when you lifted your face to the sky, full of resolve, something inside him ached. You were radiant. Perhaps… too bright for a god like him.
Aglaea has blessed her, he thought. I’ll have to ask her about this later.
He could not descend. Not yet. So he sent a warm, soft, laced with summer and sunlight, breeze to touch your cheek in place of his hand. And when you spoke your vows, so simple yet earnest, he smiled—not as Khaslana, the bearer of worlds, but as a man. A soul. Phainon.
As you pledged yourself to him, he answered. Not with words, but with the divine. The stone beneath your feet lit with a celestial glow. The covenant is now sealed.
As the ceremony ended, he immediately left the vortex, but not to you.
His mind raced with questions: How does one protect a mortal wife? How does one hold her without harm?
He went to Castrum Kremnos, seeking the advice of Mydeimos, the God of Strife, and also his closest friend. He had led his people to many victories. He was battle-hardened and unshaken. His people look up to him for his protection, and almost all of his people were warriors or warriors-to-be. Surely, he’s the one best when it comes to protection, right?
That was his first mistake.
“Why ask me such stupid questions?” Mydeimos grunted, arms crossed. “Treat her like any subject… just more important.”
Khaslana frowned. “Do all Kremnoans speak in riddles?”
A vein bulged in Mydeimos’ forehead. “Just get her guards! When she goes outside, someone follows her. Feed her. Protect her.”
Ah. Khaslana nodded slowly.
And just like that, he returned to his temple, appearing in the Archbishop’s office in his mortal form. The old man barely flinched — already used to his god’s sudden appearances. Khaslana gave his orders, guards, routines, and what was expected. The Archbishop was a bit puzzled, but he obeyed.
That night, Khaslana stood again in the Vortex of Genesis. Stars spun above like galaxies caught in breath. But his gaze was fixed below.
On you.
There you sat in your new chambers, at the edge of his bed, alone. Waiting.
Aglaea, the Goddess of Romance, made her presence known behind him, “Shouldn’t you be down there with your wife, Deliverer?” She asked, voice gentle and curious.
Khaslana turned to her, about to ask what she had meant. Then his breath caught in his throat.
Ah. The wedding night. Where couples would usually consummate their marriage.
He turned back to your room. You had changed from your temple robes into more delicate garments. You sat at the edge of the bed in silence, tugging at the edges of your sleeves.
“You fear her,” Aglaea murmured, stepping beside him.
“I do not fear her,” He replied too quickly. Then after a moment, “I fear what I no longer understand.
Aglaea tilted her head. “She’s human.”
He closed his eyes. “I was, too, once. I remember what it was to love, to burn, to yearn with a heart that beat for another. But now… I remember only the shape of those feelings, not their weight. Like remembering the warmth of a fire I can no longer feel.”
His eyes drifted back to you, “I know what she hopes for. I know what I should do. But what if I fall short? What if I hurt her without meaning to?” He turned to look at Aglaea.
“She wants with no fear. Speaks freely. Cries and smiles and hopes. How am I supposed to touch that… without breaking it?”
Aglaea’s face softened. “So the god who bears the world is afraid of breaking a single girl’s heart?”
He gave a dry smile, “Because I have broken nations without meaning to. What damage might I do… when I mean to touch?”
She shook her head, smiling faintly, “Hearts don’t shatter from being touched, Khaslana. They break from being left waiting.” She turns to leave, her voice fading with her steps.
He stayed silent, watching as you curled up in bed. Alone.
He took a deep breath before he descended in silence.
He appeared in his divine form, the chamber awash in starlight and wind. You lay peacefully, fast asleep. So small compared to him. His hand hovered near your cheek, trembling slightly.
You were… fragile.
He could cover your entire face with one palm. If he tried to touch you, would he shatter you like porcelain?
He withdrew.
Then disappeared again, leaving you in the quiet of the night.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
Khaslana had watched your daily life unfold with quiet diligence. From the celestial cradle of the Vortex of Genesis, he observed everything. How you rose with the morning light, how you bathed with graceful efficiency, how you chose your robes each day with a frown of indecision. He even listened in on your earliest prayers, chuckling softly to himself at how bashful your voice became when you "talked" to him aloud for the first time. Something was endearing about the way your voice trembled.
He watched as you walked through the streets of Okhema with a chaperone trailing behind you, weaving between markets and festival stalls. He felt assured that you were safe, that you were protected, as Mydeimos had advised.
And yet, he never answered your prayers with words.
He could have. He had the power to appear at your side in an instant, to offer his voice in response. But a part of him hesitated. What if you asked why he hadn’t come to you? Why hadn’t he appeared on your wedding night? Why hadn’t he even seen your face-to-face since the vow? He wasn’t ready to answer that.
It was now the Month of Joy, and for the first time, your prayers carried a different weight. No longer just requests for health or protection.
You began to whisper your loneliness.
At first, he was puzzled. You were allowed to leave the temple grounds. Why didn’t you simply request permission through the Archbishop? A chaperone was all it took.
But then, he noticed something… odd.
Your behavior changed. You lingered in corridors longer than necessary, watching the guards with sharp eyes. Your gaze flitted from corner to corner when you thought no one was watching. You studied the temple’s layout as though trying to memorize every hallway, every path.
Suspicious. Curious. Restless.
Was this normal behavior for humans? Khaslana tried to remember how he had acted as a mortal. But his memories, though vivid in form, felt distant in emotion.
And your prayers changed again. They still asked for his blessings and guidance, but now they sounded… sharper. Each line was laced with the fire of frustration. Threats, almost.
Ah… those suspicious behaviors and those oddly vague yet threatening prayers… You were trying to sneak out. That amused him more than anything.
Cute. He thought, lips curling with dry humor.
Then came the night of your escape.
Khaslana had already planned ahead. He contacted the Archbishop using the stone tablet etched with his sigil, the divine channel between the Vortex and his temple, asking him to gather the priests and priestesses for an urgent “discussion.” The Archbishop, ever dutiful, obeyed. When the clergy assembled that night, expecting celestial orders, Khaslana simply asked how they were doing. No divine proclamations, no rituals. Just… small talk.
With the temple’s attention occupied, he turned his gaze back to you.
There you were — walking the cobbled streets of Okhema in the moonlight, your younger brother trailing behind you, eyes full of wonder. A smile tugged at Khaslana’s lips.
But then… a thief. Quick hands snatched your coin purse and darted through the crowd.
Before Khaslana could think, his body moved. In an instant, he teleported down to the mortal plane, hidden behind a tree in the city’s plaza. The thief was already headed his way, and without effort, Khaslana caught him by the collar, lifting him off the ground like a child.
He retrieved your coin bag and turned toward the sound of your footsteps. You had run after the thief, breathless, face flushed, and worried. Khaslana approached you with a quiet composure, holding the pouch in hand.
“Yours, I believe,” he said, voice steady. Though his pulse might’ve been racing.
“Thank you so much, sir...” you replied, dipping your head politely. His breath caught slightly. Your voice sounded so much clearer now, spoken directly rather than through the haze of prayer.
Then you looked at him expectantly.
Oh. You were waiting for a name.
He blinked once before smiling with effortless charm, “Phainon.”
“Sir Phainon... I can't thank you enough,” you said again, gratitude glowing in your eyes.
Your little brother approached, too, grinning up at him and offering his thanks. Khaslana reached out and ruffled the boy’s hair, warmth blooming in his chest.
He should’ve left then. It was safer that way. But—
“Then... let me repay you. I'll buy you something from the stalls.”
He paused. Considered it. “And if I decline?”
“Then I'll insist.”
There it was. That smile. How could he say no to his wife?
So he agreed, reluctantly, but with a small twist of amusement. You led the way through the colorful rows of vendors and festival lights, your brother bouncing ahead. It had been centuries since he’d stood in a human celebration like this.
His eyes lingered on a stall that sold meat skewers. Oh, those looked heavenly.
Suddenly, you stepped in front of him and ordered two skewers. Without hesitation, you handed one to him, the other to your brother. His hand hesitated as he took the skewer from yours, your fingers brushing his in that brief contact. Warm. Real. He held onto that sensation like it might disappear.
“Thank you, pretty lady.” He smiled.
Your cheeks turned crimson.
Khaslana — no, Phainon — felt something loosen in his chest.
He stayed with you longer than he planned, drawn into the simple joy of watching you laugh, eat, and enjoy yourself. He noticed how your smiles here, in the mortal realm, were fuller than the ones you wore inside the temple.
He wanted more of that.
But then he saw your expression shift after looking at the clock tower. You quickly offered to bring your brother back home. Ah, yes, it was getting late for a youngster like him. He followed you back home, greeted your mother, and stayed silent after. Just watching you interact with your family.
After that encounter, he had tried to dissuade you from leaving so soon. Really, it was fine if you wanted to stay longer. He could just tell the Archbishop to turn a blind eye for tonight.
But then, something you said made him stop in his tracks.
“I can’t. My Husband is… strict.”
His brows knit together. Him? Strict?
“Strict? Really?” He hadn’t meant to sound so offended.
You looked back at him, an eyebrow raised.
“He's a loving husband,” you said with dry sarcasm, the same tone Mydeimos would usually use on him, he notes. “So possessive that I need permission just to walk the streets. Even then, I have to bring a chaperone like I'm a child again.”
Phainon frowned, visibly stung. That wasn’t possessiveness? It was protection. But… maybe he’d misjudged what that protection felt like.
“Maybe he's just... worried. About your safety,” he offered gently.
“If that's the case, he has a strange way of showing it.”
The words landed like a stone in his stomach.
When he walked you to the city gates and watched you disappear into the night, a heaviness settled in his chest. He sighed, teleporting back to the Vortex, where the stars coiled like a divine storm above his head.
The Archbishop was still in his study. Through the sacred stone, Khaslana reached out once more and delivered new instructions — gentler rules, freer movement, and no more chaperones. The Archbishop, though clearly confused, agreed without question.
He owed you that much, at the very least.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
Truly, revising the temple’s rules had been the right decision.
You had begun to bloom.
Your voice in prayer softened from its once-frustrated edge to something warmer, more sincere. Each time you entered the temple sanctuary, he could sense it: a calmness in your posture, a gentler rhythm to your words. You spoke to him now not as a distant stranger, but as someone familiar.
You told him about your plans before venturing into town, where you might go, and what you hoped to find. And when you returned, you’d come to the roofed balcony and recounted everything to him. From the people you saw, the food you tried, to the new book you discovered tucked away in a corner stall.
It had become your ritual. And though you didn’t hear his answers, he listened to every word like scripture.
Your frequent visits to Okhema meant he could now meet you — not as Khaslana, the Worldbearing God, but as Phainon.
Still, a quiet fear gnawed at the back of his mind.
What if you came to prefer Phainon? What if the smiling stranger with the white hair and blue eyes, the one who could laugh and tease and walk beside you, eclipsed the unseen god to whom you had been bound?
But those fears melted the day he tried flirting with you in the middle of a market stall, only for you to straighten and remind him, quite firmly, that you were a married woman.
He had laughed, not because of the words, but because of the quiet, overwhelming relief that swelled in his chest.
You still remembered him.
Not just the idea of a husband, but him. Khaslana. The one cloaked in divinity, hidden behind stars and clouded sky. You still held space for him.
After that second encounter, meeting you came more naturally. Your conversations grew longer. He no longer felt the sting of hesitation when you smiled at him, or the jolt of nervousness when your fingers brushed again. And in your evening prayers, you started mentioning Phainon with a kind of amused fondness that made him laugh in the Vortex.
It was adorable hearing you try to hide how much you enjoyed his company.
Whenever you visited the city, he’d always find a way to cross your path. Never too obvious. Never too frequent. But enough. Enough to hear your voice, to see you light up when Atlas tugged on his arm, to walk beside you, even if only for a little while.
He cherished those fleeting moments more than you could ever know.
And when you were back in the temple, fast asleep in your chambers, he would sometimes return in his divine form, a silent shadow bathed in starlight. He would stand at the foot of your bed, watching your chest rise and fall, listening to the soft sighs you made as you dreamed. In those quiet hours, something stirred in his chest — something foreign and familiar all at once. A tenderness and longing he could scarcely name.
You had gotten closer. Perhaps that was why your words on the final night of the festival struck him so deeply.
You had laughed together that evening, walked through bright-lit streets beneath strings of lanterns. But when the topic shifted to your marriage, about the husband you had never seen, your smile dimmed. Your voice cracked, wrapped in quiet sorrow.
You confessed how confused you felt, how hurt you were. How you didn’t understand why he — Khaslana — hadn’t come to see you. And in a low, guarded voice, you asked aloud if he even cared.
He listened, seated beside you as Phainon, heart heavy with guilt. Each word was a knife, though you didn’t know you were placing the blade in his hand. He had wanted to speak. To explain.
To say I do care. I watch over you every day. I listen to every prayer, every breath. I’ve never left your side.
But instead, he defended Khaslana as if he were someone else entirely.
A stranger.
That night, when he returned to the Vortex with questions running through his mind. Should he tell you the truth? Reveal the name behind the face you now trust? Or would it ruin everything you had come to build between you?
No, he’d just have to keep it a secret. Just for a little longer.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
When the Month of Everday rolled in, Phainon had begun answering your prayers more deliberately.
When you sat alone in the gardens, shoulders hunched, eyes faraway, he sent soft-pawed animals to sit with you; a curious chimera here, a fluttering cluster of butterflies there, chirping birds above. Gentle companions — not enough to startle, but enough to soothe.
When you muttered beneath your breath about the suffocating heat, he stirred the air with his fingers, sending winds to cool the sweat from your brow. You never seemed to notice the small cloud that followed you whenever you stepped beyond the temple gates, shielding you from the sun like a loyal servant.
He watched you and thought, Yes, this is enough.
The days had been steady. Almost peaceful.
Until he heard your sobs.
At that moment, he was in the midst of an argument with Mydeimos, a spirited bet over who could lift an entire mountain range faster. Their fists pounded the cliffside as they compared strength like war-hardened brothers.
Your sounds reached him like a whiplash.
It was soft at first. It sounded fragile, but unmistakable.
Then, loud sobbing.
Phainon stilled.
His head jerked slightly, listening. Mydeimos raised a brow at the sudden silence.
“What's the matter—?”
But Phainon was already gone.
He reappeared just behind your parents’ house. The sky above was bright, a contrast to your emotion. And through the walls, your cries tore through him like thunder splitting stone.
“I hate him!”
He froze, eyes wide, and his breath caught in his throat. The words struck like a blow to the chest, and his pupils trembled.
“I hate him.”
No.
No, no, that can’t be right.
He stepped closer, pressing himself against the shadows of the wall, every muscle in his divine body locked in place.
Then your mother’s voice, soft and warning: “Don’t say that, sweetheart. What if he hears you?”
You didn’t hesitate as you answered, “I don’t care! I want him to hear me!”
The air around him cracked.
“I hate him!”
His heart stuttered.
“I hate him!”
Stop... please—
“He left me!”
No. No. I’m right here–!
“I don’t want to go back!”
That sentence hit harder than any divine weapon ever had. For a moment, time twisted. The world stilled. Your voice echoed in his head on a cruel loop, every syllable sharper than the last.
I hate him.He left me.I don’t want to go back.
He could no longer hear the muffled protests of your father or the sound of your mother’s arms pulling you in close. None of it registered. All he could hear was you.
The pain was unfamiliar. Foreign and all-consuming.
Why?
Why did you feel this way?
He had given you everything: comfort, safety, freedom. The power to come and go as you pleased. He answered your prayers. Protected you. Watched you. Even the smallest desire, he met with quiet, invisible care.
So why did you hate him?
He vanished once more, light splitting the space where he stood.
Back in the Vortex of Genesis, the stars above spiraled violently, distorted by the storm brewing in his chest. He hovered in the silence of the divine plane, your cries still ringing in his ears, over and over.
The look on your face. The tears that spilled down your cheeks. The grief in your voice.
It was all because of him.
Even when he kept his distance to protect you. Even when he tried to be careful. He still hurts you.
And he didn’t understand.
Phainon’s — no, Khaslana’s — breathing ragged, he fell to his knees. Divine form trembling, hands clenched so tightly the stone beneath him cracked. His heartbeat thundered like war drums in his ears. Mydeimos' spear had pierced his chest once in battle, but it hadn’t hurt like this.
This... this was heartbreak.
Tears welled in his eyes, burning hot. They fell freely, only to sizzle and vanish into steam the moment they touched the sacred ground beneath him.
“You hate… me…” he whispered.
You hate me. You hate me. You hate me.
He repeated it in his mind like a curse, and the storms began to brew.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
Okhema had been ravaged by storms for over a week.
Thunder rolled through the heavens day and night, shaking rooftops and soaking the earth with relentless rain. The fields were drowning. Crops began to rot beneath the mud. Work halted, streets emptied, and the people whispered of divine wrath. It was the worst weather Okhema had seen in generations.
High above, Aglaea watched the storm with a quiet frown. The Goddess of Romance was no stranger to divine tantrums; gods and mortals alike threw them when love faltered.
But this one had become… excessive.
Not only had Hyacinthia, Goddess of the Sky, blistered her ears with complaints about the ruined blue of her canvas, but one of Aglaea’s golden threads was trembling. Dangerously so. Nearly fraying at the edge.
A divine-mortal bond. Now that was rare.
Aglaea leaned closer, fingers brushing the glowing weave, noting its resonance. This wasn’t an ordinary thread, tangled from passing crushes or whispered longing. This one pulsed with something ancient and sacred. A thread that should never have been this brittle so soon.
She hummed, amused. “Now… who do you belong to, I wonder?”
Without another word, she vanished from her realm.
In a breath, she stood within the Vortex of Genesis. Stars swirled in slow, infinite spirals, like pain spilled into the void. She walked with grace past the twelve thrones of the Twelve, each grand in their own way.
And there he was.
At the edge of the vast platform, Khaslana stood alone. The Worldbearing God, cloaked in shadow, stared outward into nothing. His broad wings, once radiant with power, now hung heavy behind him. Their gold and amethyst plumage dulled like tarnished glass. The eternal flame of his hair, normally burning like a solar flare, flickered dimly above his brow. Even his halo had lost its luster.
Aglaea paused beside him, her presence warm, “I see Okhema’s having quite the weather — on the sixth month, no less,” she said lightly, her voice breaking the hush.
No response.
She tried again, more pointed this time. “Hyacinthia has come to me to complain that a certain Worldbearing God has been painting over her skies with stormclouds. She says they look like… hm… what was it that she said?” She tapped her chin with a playful smile, “‘a muddy, sulking bruise.’ Quite poetic, don’t you think?”
Khaslana didn’t so much as flinch. His eyes remained fixed on the stars, or perhaps… beyond them.
Aglaea folded her arms beneath her chest. “So… nothing to say about the storms, then?”
Still silence.
Her eyes narrowed, studying him more closely. His face was drawn, the sharp lines of his jaw clenched tight beneath his dim halo. Everything about him—from the slouch of his wings to the rigid set of his shoulders—radiated tension.
“The crops are dying,” she said more gently now. “The streets are flooded. The people of Okhema are starting to wonder what they did to anger their precious god.”
At last, his jaw shifted.
“…Let her complain,” he muttered, voice low and rough as crushed stone.
“Oh, she is,” Aglaea smirked faintly. “But I didn’t come for Hyacinthia.”
She raised her hand, and with a glimmer of divine threadwork, a golden string appeared. It curled in the air between them, one end wrapped around Khaslana’s divine presence, the other trailing far downward, through the layers of the world as if reaching for someone below.
“This thread,” Aglaea said, letting it swirl around her fingers, “has been trembling all week. Do you know how rare it is to see a bond like this? Between a god and a human? This isn’t just affection. It’s something sacred. But right now,” her eyes narrowed, “it’s falling apart.”
Khaslana said nothing, but his brow furrowed deeper. Then, finally, he spoke.
“She said she hated me.”
Aglaea’s eyes softened, a quiet breath leaving her lips. “Ah.”
“I did everything for her,” he said, and though his voice was calm, there was a bewildered ache behind it. “I protected her. Gave her food, shelter, and freedom. Everything she could want. And still…” He looked down at his hands, clenching them slowly. “She said I left her.”
“Well,” Aglaea said carefully, “didn’t you?”
His head snapped toward her, but she didn’t flinch.
“You gave her your temple, your guards, your blessings. But not you. You let her see her family, her brother, but not her husband.”
“I was there,” he said sharply. “I watched her. I listened to every prayer. I shielded her when no one else could.”
“But did you hold her?” Aglaea asked softly.
Her words landed like thunder on Khaslana. He didn’t answer.
“She is human, Khaslana. Mortals aren’t fed by silent devotion. They need to touch, they need voice, and presence. She needs her husband. Not just her god.”
Khaslana looked away.
“I never wanted a bride,” he muttered. “I only answered a prayer… one too steeped in blood and desperation to ignore.”
Aglaea raised an eyebrow. “Then cast her off. Let her go.”
The thread shimmered between them, its glow dimmer than before. He didn’t speak, his jaw tensed, and his fists trembling.
“I can’t,” he said at last, voice cracked.
“Even if I never asked for it, I can’t let her go. I don’t know when it happened, but I can’t imagine the temple without her steps echoing in the halls. I can’t remember what silence was before her voice filled it.”
“She was a burden I never meant to carry,” he whispered, “but now… she’s a weight I don’t know how to set down.”
“Then carry her properly,” she said. “Because if you don’t—she’ll tear herself from your hands just to feel free again.”
Khaslana’s voice turned hard. “You speak as if I could have simply walked into that room. As if lying beside her wouldn’t risk shattering her ribs or scorching her skin.”
Aglaea tilted her head. “Is that truly what you fear?”
He was quiet. Then, softly:
“My form isn’t what it used to be. I’m not some soft-lit statue. My body is lined with cracks. My shoulders are spiked. My hands are claws. I have destroyed armies with the weight of my breath.”
His claws curled against his palm.
“If I touch her… I would ruin her.”
Aglaea was silent for a long breath.
Then she said, “So instead, you let her ruin herself. Wondering what she did wrong. Believing she was unwanted.”
Khaslana’s expression faltered. Barely. But enough to show the storm beneath.
“She hates me.”
“She was lonely,” Aglaea replied, her voice quiet.
He turned from her, “You wouldn’t understand.”
But Aglaea only stepped closer.
“I understand love,” she said, her voice gaining strength. “And I understand what it means to show up, even when it’s terrifying. I’ve seen mortals risk heartbreak, war, even death, just to reach each other.”
She placed a hand on his shoulder, steady and warm, “Your body may be forged from flames, Khaslana. But your soul still longs.”
She stepped back.
“I’ll leave the skies alone for now. But if you let this thread break, the world may not end... but something inside you will.”
And then, like the soft falling of starlight, she vanished, leaving Khaslana alone with his thoughts.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
You stood by the window, worry etched into your features as you gazed out at the endless downpour. The storm still hadn’t passed.
For the past week, the rain had come in vicious cycles. It would rage from Lucid Hour to Parting Hour, winds howling, thunder deafening, and rain lashing the windows like angry fists. Then, it would slow to a drizzle during Curtain Fall Hour, only to begin again at Entry Hour the next day.
You were grateful that the corridors connecting your chambers to the temple were covered. Without them, even the simple act of fetching food would have been an ordeal.
Now, wrapped in a blanket, you remained cooped up in your chambers, your fingers curled around the warm fabric to help shield you from the cold. The sound of rain pelting the stone walls had become constant, almost maddening.
Then came a knock at your door.
You blinked, startled, and rushed to answer. Standing in the doorway was the Archbishop, his robes damp at the edges, his face weary but composed.
“Forgive me for coming so suddenly, my child,” He said gently.
You stepped aside without a word, allowing him to enter. He moved with care, as if unsure whether he was intruding.
“You’ve never visited me in my chambers before, Your Excellency,” you said as you shut the door behind him.
He gave a small nod, his hands folding behind his back as he walked a few steps in. “Is something wrong?” You asked, sending a weight in his silence.
He stopped at your question and drew a deep breath. When he turned to face you, his expression was troubled.
“I believe this storm is Lord Khaslana’s doing.”
Your brows furrowed. You stepped closer, clutching your blanket more tightly around your shoulders.
“What makes you think that?” You asked, your voice low.
The Archbishop looked down, hesitating before he met your gaze again. “This has happened before, there would be raging storms and our prayers would take more effort to be heard. And right now… He has not responded to our prayers,” he said, voice subdued. “Nor has he answered any of our calls to commune with him.”
You blinked, silence stretching between you. There was a heavy feeling in your chest.
“There are reports from the city,” he went on, “that the flooding is getting worse. The crops are dying. Food stores are spoiling faster than we can replenish them. Children are falling ill. Transportation has all but stopped.” His shoulder sank. “I fear we may be approaching a crisis if this keeps up.”
His eyes reached yours, weary and pleading. “Have you tried praying or talking to him to stop this storm? Did he answer?”
You let out a soft scoff, shaking your head in disbelief. “Forgive me, but asking me is pointless.”
You took a step back, your voice tightening. “He’s never responded to me. Not once. He has never spoken, has never appeared. Even if I did pray, he wouldn’t respond.”
The Archbishop’s expression fell, but he didn’t argue. Instead, he stepped forward and gently took both of your hands in his.
“You are his wife,” he said, his voice steady despite the desperation behind it.
You looked away, your jaw clenched. “Only in name.”
He held your hands a moment longer before releasing them. “Try,” was all he said.
Then, with a small bow, he turned and left you standing alone. The silence that followed was deafening.
You bit your lip, frustration burning behind your eyes. Was this storm his answer? Did he hear you that night at your parents’ home, shouting your anger at him?
You let out a low, bitter sigh and dropped onto the edge of your bed. It didn’t matter what you felt. People were suffering, the city drowning, and your family — your people — were in danger.
You had no choice now. You would have to swallow your pride for the sake of Okhema.
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It was useless.
No matter how many times, in however many ways you tried, your prayers were met with silence. You had offered devotion, tears, your voice hoarse with pleading. And still, nothing. Lord Khaslana remained absent, and with each passing storm-filled day, your anger burned hotter beneath the weight of your helplessness.
How could you not? He’s acting like a child throwing tantrums!
You’ve had enough. If the passive approach didn’t work, you need a more aggressive approach.
You left before dawn. The thunder, for once, had settled to a distant murmur, like a beast sleeping fitfully beneath the clouds. You threw on the thickest cloak you owned, but the rain had already soaked you through the bone before you reached the temple gates.
The guards cried after you, the priestesses stepped into your path in panic, but you didn’t stop. You shook their hands off your arms. Your boots splashed through rising pools of mud as you walked with purpose — not to the city square, not to shelter, but to the hills. To the highest point you could reach, far from protection, far from anyone who might stop you.
Your fingers trembled with cold, your soaked cloak clinging to your back like a second skin. The rain was relentless now, an endless sheet drumming down from the bruised sky. The winds howled against your face, strong enough to nearly topple you off balance with each step.
But you pushed through it anyway.
Wet hair whipped against your cheeks, sticking to your skin. Mud pulled at your feet, but you climbed higher. The temple had long disappeared behind you, and now only the city lights flickered below, blurred by the mist.
By the time you reached the hill’s summit, your breath came in shallow gasps. Every muscle in your body ached, screaming at you. Your lungs felt like it was burning from the cold, and your teeth chattered uncontrollably.
Yet you stood there against the blackened sky. Your chest heaved as you felt the air was heavier.
“Lord Khaslana!” You screamed, the name ripped from your lungs, echoing into the storm. You paused, but no reply came.
The rain struck harder now, angry needles against your skin, “I’ve prayed!” you shouted, louder. “I’ve waited, I’ve begged! But you — you arrogant, absent god! You stayed silent through it all!” Your voice cracked under the weight of months of abandonment.
“You bring storms to punish the people of Okhema just because I said what I felt?!”
Lightning crackled overhead, illuminating the sky for a breathless moment. You didn’t flinch. You glared into the storm as if daring it to answer.
“Oh, send your thunders then! Strike me down if it pleases you!” Your chest rose and fell rapidly as the words poured out in rage and desperation.
“Just stop hiding and face your wife you– you–!” You clenched your fists. Your body trembled from a final, reckless kind of defiance.
“COWARD!” you screamed with all the force your soul could muster.
A blinding light shattered the sky. Thunder cracked loud enough to split stone. Then came the strike.
A bolt of lightning split the earth just ahead of you. The blast threw a gust of wind so strong it forced you a step back, shielding your face with your arms. But when the light faded and the roar quieted—he was there.
He stood tall, towering over you by more than triple your height.
Radiant and terrifying.
Golden wings streaked with violet unfurled behind him like a storm split in half. His body glowed like cracked marble, lines of molten gold spilling from the fractures across his limbs and chest. Spikes jutted from his shoulders, golden and sharp, and his hair blazed like the sun.
His clawed hands flexed at his sides. And those eyes—those burning, golden eyes—pierced through the veil of rain like twin suns, fixed solely on you.
You staggered back in awe, your breath hitching as his presence filled the air like a pressure too great to bear. But before you could speak, the storm around you softened. A dome of warm, golden light shimmered into place above your head, shielding you from the wind and rain. The world fell quiet, save for the sound of your breathing.
You dared a glance upward.
He hovered just above the ground now, slowly lowering himself to stand before you. The closer he came, the more you felt it; his power, his sorrow, his presence pressing against your skin like something tangible. You opened your mouth, but no sound came. Your fury had carried you here, but his silence stole the words you had prepared.
With trembling breath, you forced yourself to stand firm. You could feel droplets of water dripping from your hair, your wet clothes heavy on your body. The wind no longer reached you, and the weight in the air still crushed your chest.
“Stop this storm,” you managed, voice rough. “Please.”
Khaslana’s golden eyes locked onto yours. There was no flicker of warmth in them, no spark of the god you once dreamed of meeting. His voice when he answered was low, almost cold.
“You’re asking me? The god you hated?” He said,
The sound of his voice rooted you in place. It was the first time you’d heard it, and yet something about it was painfully familiar. A memory brushed the edge of your thoughts, but the coldness in his tone and the tension in your spine prevented you from figuring it out.
“Oh for goodness sake,” you hissed, rolling your eyes as your chest heaving from anger, “You never responded to my prayers! You never even looked at me! What was I supposed to think?”
Khaslana’s eyes narrowed, the gold in them flaring like the sun. “I did respond,” He said, “You just didn’t notice.”
You blinked, caught off guard by his words. “What…?”
“I sent you winds when the sun was too harsh. I made the guards fall asleep when you returned late from sneaking out of the temple. I changed the temple rules after your complaints. I sent you critters to accompany you in the gardens. I was there, every moment, watching. Protecting.”
Your breath caught in your throat. A thousand little things that never made sense now returned like puzzle pieces falling into place.
“But you weren’t present,” you said, frustrated. “They said you stopped visiting after our wedding. You never came to see me. Never… touched me. Never spoke to me.”
“I did,” Khaslana said, quieter now. “Just… not in this form.”
And in a quiet, golden shimmer, his divine shape began to fade. The crackling marble softened into flesh. The halo dimmed. The claws became gentle fingers. The glowing eyes, still golden, now carried something more—vulnerability.
Phainon stood before you.
You gasped, eyes widening as the realization hit you like thunder, no wonder his face and voice was familiar. “Phainon… You were Phainon this whole time?!”
He frowned, looking away.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” you asked, voice breaking. “Why didn’t you say anything?”
“When we first met,” Phainon murmured, “there were too many people. I didn’t plan to talk to you for long. Then... I panicked.”
“Panicked?” you repeated, hurt blooming in your chest like fire. “You’re a god, and you panicked?”
“I did,” he answered, a note of defensiveness creeping into his voice. “And the longer I stayed quiet, the harder it became to fix it. You smiled at Phainon… but you said you hated Khaslana. How could I show you I was both?”
“Then why didn’t you just visit me—like you’re supposed to? As my husband?”
“Because I was afraid!” he shouted as a sound of muffled thunder cracked from behind him.
“I was afraid,” he said, quieter now, almost desperate. “Afraid that if I touched you, I’d break you. My true form… It’s wrong. It’s all jagged edges and burning weight. I’m not like you. I remember what it was like to be human, but I don’t understand those memories anymore. I don’t understand those feelings.”
His voice broke slightly. “I didn’t want to hurt you. So I kept my distance. I thought if I gave you the world, you wouldn’t come looking for the god you were promised.”
Something snapped in you at those words. Your hands curled into fists, trembling. And then, before you even realized it, you struck him in the chest.
He didn’t flinch. He didn’t stop you.
You hit him again, your voice ragged with pain. “I never asked for the world! I asked for you!”
You hit him once more, sobs escaping you now in messy gasps. “I waited. Every day. I waited for you to come. To say something. Anything. And instead, you watched me from your sky like some—some coward! I thought I was the problem. I thought I wasn’t worthy of you.”
Your fists weakened, falling limply against his chest as your legs gave out. You collapsed against him, burying your face into his shoulder.
“I was so lonely,” you whispered, brokenly. “So alone.”
Phainon didn’t speak. He stood still, hands trembling slightly at his sides as you sobbed into his shoulder, your pain crashing into him like waves. Each crack in your voice struck something tender in him — deeper than any spear, sharper than any blade. And though he tried to stay composed, he couldn’t stop the single tear that slipped from his cheek.
It fell onto your hair with a soft hiss, evaporating before it touched your skin.
Then another fell. And another.
You heard it, the faint sizzle of heat, and slowly, you pulled away to look at him.
His brow was furrowed, his mouth parted in a quiet breath, and his blue eyes were wet and aching. The tears continued to fall and vanish into vapor, but he didn’t hide them. He let you see every drop of sorrow, every fracture of regret written into his face.
“Forgive me,” he whispered, voice hoarse.
Unbeknownst to either of you, the storm outside the golden shield had eased. The sky was still bruised with clouds, but the wind had softened, and the thunder no longer roared.
You wiped your own tears away with a trembling hand, then reached for his face. With slow, deliberate care, you brushed the tears from his cheeks, fingertips cool and soft against the heat of his skin. The contact made him flinch, not from cold, but from the gentleness, the grace of being touched by you in kindness after everything.
You took a deep, shuddering breath and looked away for a moment. Then, voice raw but steady, you spoke.
“You hurt me,” you started, “So much that… there were nights I thought about leaving you.”
A bitter chuckle slipped from your lips, dry and hollow. When you looked back at him, you expected anger or indifference. But what met your gaze was something far more fragile.
His face was stricken. His eyes were wide, devastated, like a child who had just broken something precious and didn’t know how to fix it. Your words had pierced him in a place not even divinity could shield.
“Do you want me to leave?” you asked, quieter now. “If being married to me is just… a burden to carry, if I’m something that makes you uncomfortable —”
“No!” Phainon’s voice rose sharply, full of panic, as he stepped forward and caught your arms, holding them firmly but not harshly. His grip trembled, as if afraid you’d vanish if he let go.
“I—” he faltered, eyes searching yours.
“I never asked for this marriage, no. But meeting you as Phainon… being with you that way — it changed everything.”
His voice the softened, almost trembling as he continued, “You made me feel something I hadn’t felt in centuries. You made me imagine a life where we weren’t bound by pacts or divine duty. A life where we were just two strangers who met by chance and fell in love slowly without fear.”
Phainon’s smile flickered, touched with ache and hope. “You made me feel human again.”
“So no,” he said, firmer now. “I don’t want you to leave. Not now. Not ever.”
You stared at him, stunned, then slowly your expression softened. A new tear slipped down your cheek — not from grief, but relief.
“I see…” You murmured.
Phainon quickly released you, noticing your flinch too late. “I’m sorry,” he said. “Did I hurt you again?”
You shook your head. “No,” you whispered. “I’m… relieved.”
Above you, the sun began to pierce through the clouds, golden light filtering softly across the hill.
Phainon let out a shaky breath of relief. “Then…” he began, voice tender, “can we start over?”
You hesitated only for a moment before nodding. “Let’s start over. No need to rush.”
Then, with a faint smile and glistening eyes, you reached out your hand to him—not as a formality, but as an offering. Your fingers were cold, wrinkled from rain, yet steady.
He blinked, taken aback by the gesture. A handshake?
But the moment he took your hand, it no longer felt like just a handshake.
You gently curled your fingers around his and pulled his hand to your chest, just above your heartbeat. “I’m your wife,” you whispered, your voice warm and trembling. “It’s nice to finally meet you… truly.”
His eyes softened as he lowered his head, pressing a reverent kiss to your knuckles. His lips lingered there a moment longer than expected, like he was trying to memorize the feel of your skin, the texture of this promise, the shape of a new beginning.
When he looked up, he smiled.
“I’m Phainon,” he said gently.
You tilted your head. “Not Khaslana?”He held your hand a little tighter, “Khaslana bears the weight of the world. But when I’m with you… I’m not holding the world. I’m holding you.”
CHAPTER V
When he heard you sneeze on the hill, his expression shifted instantly to worry. Without a word, he wrapped his arms around you, holding you firmly against his chest. In a blink, the storm vanished from your senses. There was no more wind, no more rain, only the sudden warmth of your chambers and the soft scent of cedar and rose oil clinging to the walls.
You blinked in surprise, barely catching your breath as he guided you gently toward the washroom.
“Take a hot bath, quickly,” he said, already unfastening your soaked cloak. “You’ll catch a fever like this. I need to take care of a few things first—Hyacinthia’s going to have my wings for the skies I ruined.”
And with that, he vanished.
Just like that.
You stood there in silence for a long moment, the empty space where he had been already cold. The pain that flared in your chest was sharp, instinctive—not as deep as before, but still a ghost of the hurt you'd carried for months. You pressed a hand to your heart.
No. You had made peace with him. You had seen his tears. His heart. You had both made a choice to begin again.
Still…
You sneezed again—sharper this time.
You sighed, stripping off the damp layers clinging to your skin. Your fingers moved quickly as you turned on the hot water, steam already beginning to rise around the marble basin.
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Phainon returned to your shared chambers not long after Parting Hour, the quiet hum of his powers still clinging to his presence. His expression was soft but worn, likely from appeasing Hyacinthia and announcing his return to the temple priests. You heard from the priestesses earlier that the temple had rejoiced, and the Archbishop was moved to tears when Phainon’s voice finally answered the ritual prayers.
Inside your room, the air was warm. You had just finished towelling off your damp hair, your night robe loose around your frame as you combed your fingers through the tangles. The sound of the door opening behind you made you turn slightly.
Phainon approached with a tentative smile. “Sorry for making you wait,” he said as he made his coat vanish with a shrug of his shoulders, the materials disappearing into soft golden dust.
You arched a brow and gave him a small, teasing smile. “Only half a year. Barely noticed,” you said with a playful roll of your eyes before turning toward the bed.
Phainon let out a breathless sigh, following behind you with a dramatic pout as you perched at the edge of the mattress. He sat beside you, close enough for your knees to brush.
After a short silence, he cleared his throat. “So…” he said as his eyes nervously flickered between you and the bed.
“We don’t have to rush anything, Phainon,” you said before he could get too tangled in his own nerves. “Besides, I’m not spending the night with someone I barely know.”
His lips parted as if to protest, but you lifted a hand before he could. “And don’t argue that I know you because of the times we spent together. I know Phainon, the human version—the friend. But you? As my husband?” You gave a soft shrug. “That’s a whole different story.”
Phainon looked a little deflated at first, but then he smiled. It was a quiet, grateful kind of smile. “That sounds fair. Getting to know each other properly… That sounds nice.”
And so you talked. For hours.
The two of you curled into the bed, at first upright against the pillows, then slowly sinking into the comfort of the covers as the conversation stretched into the night. You told him about your childhood. You spoke of your fears, your petty dislikes, and your odd preferences.
Phainon, for his part, opened up in ways you didn’t expect. He told you about the earliest memories he had when he first became human, how he used to live in a place called Aedes Elysiae, which was surrounded by fields of wheat as far as the eye could see. He described his affinity for antiques and how he had a hobby of collecting them back then.
You laughed, cried a little, and at some point, you both lay facing each other under the shared blankets, your fingers tracing idle shapes against the fabric between you.
In the days that followed, life began to bloom around you again.
Phainon kept his promise. He was no longer just a god hiding behind the sky. He became a presence, warm and tangible. He walked with you through the temple gardens, sat beside you during meals, and occasionally dragged you just to lie in the sun.
He asked you questions often, about your dreams, your moods, your thoughts on every little thing. As if trying to memorize you in real time.
He formally met your parents again. This time, not as a stranger cloaked in mystery, but as your husband. You nervously explained everything to your family, how Phainon and Khaslana were the same person, and how things were different now. Your parents exchanged looks, and your brother seemed to be more excited, but overall, they were overjoyed to see you smiling again.
Your father did apologize for threatening to kill him once, though Phainon simply laughed and said, “I genuinely don’t remember what you said. I was too busy panicking.”
There were still days when he was called to perform his duties as the Deliverer, but every night, without fail, he returned to you. Sometimes late, sometimes exhausted, but always with the same gentle smile and whispered “good night” against your hair.
Tonight, he returned to you in his divine form.
Though he carried himself with his usual solemn dignity, there was no denying the weight on his shoulders. His movements were slower, the glow of his halo a little dimmer, and the golden lines within his fractured marble skin shimmered less brightly than usual.
Phainon rarely used this form in your presence, always quick to shift back to the human face you had grown familiar with. But when he moved to do just that, his hands already glowing with the telltale light of transformation, you stopped him with a hand on his arm.
“Wait,” you said gently. “Stay like this. I want to see you… Really see you.”
His glowing eyes flickered with hesitation, but after a long breath, he nodded and let the light fade. Then, without a word, he lowered himself onto the floor, sitting cross-legged so that he could be closer to your eye level. Even so, his form was enormous, vast in its presence.
You reached forward, both hands rising to cradle his face. You have to admit it took you effort to do so. The moment your fingers made contact, Phainon closed his eyes. His expression softened, almost like he was savoring the contact.
You marveled at the texture of his skin — it was pale gray like the statues in the public garden, but far warmer beneath your touch. Your fingers traced one of the fine, golden cracks that ran along his shoulders.
“Do the cracks hurt?” you asked.
Phainon opened his eyes halfway, a breath escaping him.
“No,” he replied quietly, “They don’t.”
“Ah, okay. That’s good.” You murmured. “They kind of look like they did.”
Your touch wandered, now to his fingers. His claws were long, sharp, and metallic gold. You turned his palm upward and traced the ridges along it with your thumb. He watched you in silence until a soft chuckle broke free from his chest.
You looked up, narrowing your eyes at him. “What?”
His smile was small but sincere. “Nothing. It’s just… It’s endearing — you asking if the cracks hurt.”
You huffed and looked back down at his claws. “I’m comparing you to a human body. If a human cracked like that, they’d be in excruciating pain.”
He hummed in amusement, eyes glinting with affection. You let your touch travel again, to the base of his wings. They were breathtaking—wide, arching structures of gold and violet. From afar, they looked feathered, but up close, you saw the sharp, blade-like edges to them, each feather-like sliver layered with precision. They shifted slightly under your hand, fluid despite their rigidity.
He noticed you staring and shifted awkwardly, eyes flicking away for a moment.
“Am I… scary?” he asked, voice low, uncertain.
You smiled at him, fingers tucking a strand of glowing hair behind his ear.
“When you appeared to me during the storm? Absolutely.” You laughed softly. “But now? You look absolutely divine.”
He stilled under your touch, eyes widening slightly as you leaned forward. With careful intent, you pressed a kiss just beneath his left eye.
Phainon froze.
He blinked as you pulled back, your cheeks warming as you began to mumble an apology. “Sorry—I just couldn’t help myse—whoa!”
He tugged you gently forward, hand firm around your wrist. You gasped at the sudden closeness, your face just a breath away from his.
“Do it again,” he said. His voice was quiet, but filled with something desperate and hungry. His eyes searched yours, filled with longing and disbelief, like he didn’t think he was worthy of what you’d just given him.
Your heart raced. Still blushing, you leaned forward again and placed another kiss on the other cheek.
“Again,” he whispered, his grip steady.
So you did. You kissed his forehead. Then the bridge of his nose. Then the top of one of his ears. Each touch was soft, reverent. You moved slowly across his face, offering gentle affection like a balm over wounds unseen. As you kissed the curve of his jaw, you swore you heard his wings flutter.
You stopped just short of his lips, both of you breathless now. His eyes were locked onto yours, wide and filled with quiet pleading. Your gaze dropped to his mouth, then back to his eyes.
And with a quiet courage, you leaned in, pressing your lips to his.
It was quick. Soft. Awkward in the way all first kisses are. You pulled back, your cheeks burning, and your hands covered your face.
He chuckled.
You peeked between your fingers to see what he was doing, but before you could say anything, he moved forward, his voice brushing your ear like wind across a harp string.
“My turn.”
In a blink, you felt the world around you shift.
You barely had time to gasp before you felt yourself being cradled by the familiar softness of your bed. The linens cushioned your fall as your back met with the mattress. And above you, Phainon — still in his divine form — hovered.
His immense body caged you gently, one hand braced beside your head, the other reaching up to brush your cheek with a touch so impossibly careful, it made your heart ache. His golden eyes were darkened by something deep and unreadable as they scanned your face, searching every inch like he was trying to memorize you all over again.
You swallowed, your breath catching when he tilted your chin up with his clawed finger, nudging your gaze to meet his, and then he leaned in and kissed you.
It was different now.
Even though he was careful, his lips dwarfed yours, overwhelming and unfamiliar in their shape and weight. You tried to match him, but it was clumsy, the angles imperfect. You shifted under him, trying to adjust, but it only made your nerves more jittery.
Phainon must have noticed. With a soft hum of understanding, he shifted course. His lips trail down the curve of your jaw, then to your neck, his breath warm against your skin. You gasped when you felt his mouth on the delicate spot just beneath your ear.
He kissed slowly, reverently. That is… until your reaction changed him.
Your gasp made him pause, then lean in again, this time with more intent. His lips pressed firmer, then parted. His tongue brushed your skin.
And then, he bites.
It wasn’t harsh, but it sent a sharp jolt of pleasure through your body, so unexpected it drew another sound from you, softer this time. Phainon exhaled against your throat like he’d found something precious. And then he began again, mouth moving along your neck with a hunger that wasn’t just physical; it was need, longing, the weight of months unspoken and untended.
But he was heavy. His divine body, though restrained, pressed down on you with weight you hadn’t realized until now. Your arms trembled beneath him as his kisses grew more intense, and you could barely catch your breath between the sensations.
“P-Phainon…” you managed, your voice small, but he didn’t stop. He was lost in you, in the way you sounded, the way you felt under him. His mouth grazed lower, teeth brushing your collarbone.
“W-wait!” you finally gasped, louder this time, your hand pressing gently against his chest.
He froze immediately. He pulled back with a worried expression, his clawed fingers rising hesitantly as if afraid he’d broken you.
“What’s wrong?” he asked, voice quiet, eyes flicking between your face and the red marks blooming along your neck. “Did I hurt you?”
“No, It’s—”
“Then… do you not want to…?” He asked again, voice careful.
“No!” you said quickly, your cheeks burning as you turned your face away in embarrassment. “I just… I mean, it’s not that I don’t want to… It’s just — your size…”
For a moment, he didn’t understand. Then, realization dawned in his eyes. He blinked once, twice, and then looked down at himself, still in his celestial form.
“Oh,” he murmured, “Forgive me.”
In a pulse of golden light, his form shimmered and then shifted.
Where divinity once loomed, now sat Phainon. He was still radiant, still beautiful, but wholly human. He was shirtless, his skin glowing faintly from the residual of the transformation, the muscles of his chest rising and falling with each breath.
There was a flicker of nervousness in his blue eyes as he glanced at you.
“Better?” he asked softly.
Your gaze had wandered without permission, drawn to the definition of his chest, the lines of his collarbone, the familiar face now so close. You met his eyes again, your breath catching in your throat, unable to hide the flush on your cheeks.
Phainon picked up where he had left off, his touches reverent, slow, as if trying to memorize every inch of you through the warmth of his hands. His fingers traced along your sides with care, learning the curve of your waist and the rise and fall of your breath.
He leaned in again, placing kisses along your collarbone before slipping the fabric of your nightgown off your shoulders.
You felt the cool air brush your skin, but it was his mouth that truly made you shiver. He pressed his lips to the swell of your chest, then just above your heart, each kiss more deliberate than the last. His mouth moved lower, a soft sigh leaving your lips when his tongue flicked across your bud teasingly.
Your fingers slid into his hair, gently tugging when he bit down with a soft pressure. Your breath hitched, a quiet moan slipping free, but you instinctively held back.
Phainon noticed.
He pulled back just enough to look at you, his expression pinched with confusion, and just the faintest trace of a pout on his lips. “Why are you hiding your sounds from me?” he asked, voice low and tender.
You averted your gaze, cheeks flushed. “I just… I don’t want to be too loud.”
His frown deepened. “Why?”
You hesitated, then whispered, “What if someone hears?”
Phainon’s gaze softened at your words, though there was still a flicker of amusement behind it. He leaned forward and placed a quick kiss on your lips.
“They won’t,” he said with a chuckle. “We’re far enough from the temple for that. And even if someone did…” He gave you a teasing look. “This is my temple, isn’t it? Shouldn’t I be allowed to do as I please in my own domain?”
You opened your mouth to argue, but before you could, his hand had dipped lower, fingers skimming along the soft flesh of your center. The sudden sensation caught you off guard, and a moan escaped your lips, sharper than before and unrestrained.
Phainon paused, smiled against your cheek, and pressed a soft kiss to your forehead.
“There it is,” he murmured. “That’s the sound I wanted to hear.”
He didn’t stop. His movements now grew more assured, guided by every breathless sound that escaped your lips. Each time you gasped, his gaze flickered to your face, watching your expression. When your body would jolt, reacting to a particularly sensitive spot he had touched, Phainon would smile softly. A feeling of pride bloomed in his chest as if he had just uncovered a secret.
He leaned down to drown your voices in him, and slowly, he pushed his fingers in. His fingers moved with a pace—long, steady, and unrelenting. Each touch sent a pulse of warmth coursing through you. One had gripped his arm, while the other found its way into his hair, fingers curling just enough force to draw a low breath from him. He leaned closer, welcoming the contact as though your need anchored him just as much as his touch unraveled you.
“P-Phainon…” You whined, and he answered with a kiss to your forehead.
“Hm? Does it feel good?” He asked, still pushing his fingers in at a slow pace.
You nod your head, “I–I need, mmh, more…”
“More? Are you sure?” Phainon asked as he adjusted his position, resting on his side while his other hand lay beneath you, hugging you closer.
“Yes, p-please…” You managed to voice out.
Phainon let out a breath before inserting another finger in. Your body arched towards his chest, and a high-pitched, strangled moan escaped you.
“Does it hurt?” He asked, planting kisses on your face.
“I’m okay…” You huffed, “Keep going.. Just… go slow…” You said.
“Okay,” he whispered, following your directions.
He moved his hands slowly and sensually, carefully checking your reactions to see any signs of discomfort. Then, after a few minutes, you nod your head.
“Okay… you can go a little faster.”
With that, Phainon picked up the pace of his fingers, curling them when he was deep enough. The rhythm of his fingers sent warmth blooming to your core, a rising tide sensation that left your breath stuttering.
You could no longer hold back the soft, broken sounds that spilled from your lips. Your fingers clenched tighter around his arm, nails digging into his skin in a desperate bid to stay grounded.
But Phainon didn’t flinch. If anything, he leaned into your closeness, entranced by the way your face contorted with unguarded pleasure.
With Phainon’s quick fingers, your body finally gave in to the building tension. The knot inside you snapped with a wave of release, your breath catching, his name escaped your lips in a cracked whisper. He watched you ride your high, his gaze filled with wonder, as though your unraveling was the most sacred thing he’d ever witnessed.
As you came down, your lashes fluttered open. Phainon leaned in, peppering your cheeks with gentle kisses, his hair brushing your skin and drawing a quiet giggle from you.
“I take it you had a good time?” he asked, voice playful but laced with affection.
You rolled your eyes at him fondly and reached up to trace his cheek with your fingers. “I did… thanks to you,” you murmured, pressing a soft kiss to his mouth.
Phainon moved to hover over you again, deepening the kiss with growing need. His hips moved slowly against yours, his breath growing heavier. You gasped as he pulled back slightly, eyes searching yours.
“Do you want to continue?” he asked, voice thick with restraint.
You nodded, more than ready, and pulled him close once more. Somewhere in the haze of kisses and wandering hands, you noticed him fumbling with his pants—an amusing contrast to his usual effortless elegance. But before you could comment, his body pressed against yours in full, his form settling into yours with a heat that stole your breath.
He paused, eyes locked with yours. “Are you ready?”
“Yes,” you whispered, heart pounding.
Phainon leaned in, resting his forehead to yours, breathing with you, grounding both of you. He finally pushed his hips forward slowly and measured. You held onto him tightly, overwhelmed by the stretch. Phainon let out quiet sighs against your neck, he pulled out before pushing back into you.
Your tightness around him was heavenly, and he’d been to heaven before.
As he rocked his hips into yours, you’d open your eyes to look at him. Small flickers of golden light danced around the corner of your vision. Every now and then, his divine form would slip through — his eyes would shift from sky blue to golden ones, even as far as only turning golden in one eye.
Soft golden flames would appear on his shoulder every time he reached a certain spot inside you, his hair would pulse from his usual white ones to his blonde ones. His voice, once deep and steady, faltered into quiet groans and murmurs of your name. Praising you, telling you how good he felt.
You kissed him again, anchoring him to you. “I love you, Phainon.”
His breath caught, but his hips still moved. When your eyes met, there was nothing hidden in his gaze. Just awe.
“I love you too,” he whispered, voice almost breaking.
With another kiss, he quickened his pace to chase your highs. The world around you blurring into quiet gasps and muffled moans, until nothing remained but warmth, closeness, and the stars flickering in his eyes.
· · ─ ·✶· ─ · ·
It was unusual to wake up to Phainon still beside you.
His body was warm against yours, his arms resting loosely around your waist in a quiet embrace. Before this, you would open your eyes to find him already sitting at the edge of the bed or by your desk, greeting you with a quiet “good morning,” already dressed.
But not this morning.
This morning, the golden sunlight filtered softly through the curtains, touching his bare skin like a blessing. The light kissed the curve of his shoulder, the gentle line of his jaw, illuminating the peaceful rise and fall of his chest. You took in the sight carefully, as if afraid that moving too quickly would ruin this rare moment.
You turned on your side to face him, your body still aching from last night. You gaze across the angles of his face. His lashes were long, shadowing his cheeks with each breath, and you caught yourself smiling, well, perhaps a little jealous of how effortlessly beautiful he was.
Your fingers reached up, slow and gentle, to tuck a stray lock of hair behind his ear. The softness of his hair against your skin made something tighten in your chest. It was the feeling of the weight of everything it took to reach this moment. The silence, the missteps, the months of loneliness, of sleeping on this very bed with nothing but questions in your heart.
And now, here he was. Real and warm. Sleeping beside you like he belonged there all along.
His brows twitched slightly, and then, with a small breath, his eyes fluttered open.
Those familiar blue eyes looked at you now with a different softness. They locked onto yours, and he didn’t say anything at first, as if trying to convince himself this wasn’t a dream.
From where he lay, the morning light behind you framed you like a painting. Your hair was still tousled from sleep, your eyes a little puffy, the wrinkles of your smile faint. To him, there was no sight more divine than this. Nothing could rival the simple beauty of waking up to you.
“Good morning,” you whispered, your voice soft.
“Good morning,” he replied, his voice still hoarse with sleep but still laced with the same tenderness he had shared with you last night.
You reached for his hand beneath the covers, and he met you halfway as he curled his fingers around yours without hesitation.
The silence stretched between you, but this time, it was warm. It was the sound of reconciliation, of finally being seen.
You rested your forehead against his and closed your eyes. You know there are still roads you’ll need to go through in the future. There would still be moments of misunderstanding, of learning how to love each other more. But now, you weren’t afraid of the road ahead.
A/N: (me studiously ignoring that the Masters of Night Wind are supposed to represent the Mictlan mythos in Aztecan culture) anyway what if ifa is the god of death yall! Referenced a bit of Aztecan mythos from the creation myth of humans for this
TW/CW: allusions to ritualistic sacrifice+cannibalism, non//con
deity! Ifa is a kind god. That’s more than can be said for his brethren, some who call down storms on whims or summon whirlpools when angered. As the god of death, he is well aware of the responsibility and power in his calloused hands. He’s the one who oversees the souls of the Night Kingdom, whom humans pray to for a safe journey. Tributes of all kinds are accepted, so long as the intention is sincere. He’s not picky nor petty.
deity! Ifa is kind to a fault—when a troublesome mortal marches into the Night Kingdom, his domain, he only gives a crooked grin and a casual greeting. As if your blasphemous entrance was just another day in the sacred underworld.
deity! Ifa accepts your bet with not a trace of concern on his handsome face. His dark brown skin is a sinewy tapestry of scars from other gods and saurians alike, a testament to the battles he’s fought. He’s undergone centuries of life, while you only had two decades, at most. Ah, but don’t think he’s cruel enough to look down at your determination, oh no. Ifa’s heart pounds at the fierceness that radiates off you in waves. It’s been so long since something made his immortal heart stir.
deity! Ifa doesn’t play games. You’re courageous and scrappy, sure, a couple of fights never scared you off, but this is more than just a trial. Ifa’s saurian emissaries, all loyal to a fault, descend upon you in droves in a chase that leaves you panting and ragged. Maddening illusions of the Night Kingdom lead you into circles–or worse, nightmares. Images of terrifying, strange creatures baring sharp bony teeth, rising out of pitch blackness. One of your family members beheaded upon an altar. Your beloved, telling you they didn’t love you. By the time your trembling hands find your lover’s bones, you’re shaking with multiple lacerations left by claws and teeth, and from the heart stopping hallucinations. You can’t fail here, not here, not now. But when you turn around, you’re face to face with the Lord of Night himself–it seems the matter was serious enough that he would lower himself to a mortal’s level.
deity! Ifa would be lying if he said he didn’t have his moments of cruelty. There had been no contest. With a simple raise of his palm, the ground shifted underneath you, making you trip and loosen your hold, your lover’s bones tumbling out of your arms. Your face is stretched in a horrified scream as they shatter into jagged pieces at your feet, cementing the reality that your lover would never be able to leave the Night Kingdom.
deity! Ifa who has been so tired of being alone. Who doesn’t tell you that this isn’t his first time meeting you. No, he was there when your beloved’s heart had been torn out and offered at his altar. Watched as you sobbed over their flayed corpse, refusing to partake of their raw flesh despite the ceremony demanding it. Being chosen as a god’s champion is supposed to be a great honor, and yet, you don’t seem to think so. It’s that burning passion for life that made Ifa’s eyes linger upon you. Yes, how brazen of you to challenge the god of death himself in a bet to save your lover’s soul–in exchange for your very own, if you should fail.
deity! Ifa, who finally has the perfect sacrifice. You’re now his consort, his Queen, his companion. You warm both his heart and bed. Although you protest, in the end, when his warm palms work their magic on your body, even you succumb to heady lust as you’re consumed by him, bit by bit.
deity! Ifa, who swallows your tears whole and croons slowly, “I hope our children carry the same fire as you,” as his hot essence dribbles down your shaking thighs and mixes with your newly crowned ichor. Life is in death too–for you can feel his seed take root within you.
Saw something on TikTok that apparently a lot of ao3's publicly posted works got stolen for generative ai. Here's a link to the video if you'd like to watch it
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So I'm going in to privatize my fics- you must be registered to read them from now on. Basically I fucking hate generative ai 🥰
@imastrangeone98 , babes I'm sorry, I promise I will write Mydei putting reader in a mating press but I had a semi coherent idea for that and this is the filth I wrote instead. Please accept my humble, horny offering and I'll work on more. Thanks for indulging me as always, this is just pure filth.
Comments/reblogs highly appreciated.
cw. smut, penetrative sex, full nelson, creampie, squirting, female reader, chubby reader, minors DO NOT interact
A blistering moan breezed past the bruised seam of your kiss swollen lips, pleasant tingles racing along the notches of your spine and pooling onto the pit of your stomach. Your head was spinning in a pleasant tizzy, eyelashes fluttering wildly over your burning cheeks and eyes just as dazed as your mind from the smouldering press of Mydei's body. You were giddy with how he handled your plump body, like your weight was a mere suggestion as he hooked his arms behind the bend of your knees and clasped his hands behind the nape of your neck. Your blood simmered hotly in your veins, his strong chest pushing against the clammy skin of your back as he rutted his thick cock deeper inside of you, your fat pussy struggling to swallow around his impressive size as beads of slick dripped down the sides in rivulets. You whined his name with a salacious moan, feeling his thunderous heartbeat thumping against your spine and making the tips of your fingers feel numb as he rutted his hips into the voluptuous fat of your arse until you were squealing. He grunted and growled behind you like a feral animal, teeth gnashing together and cock twitching between your soused walls as the slap of his heavy balls against your sopping cunt made your ears burn with a pleasant itch.
“So fucking tight” Mydei groaned, his voice a low and deep rumble as he dragged his tongue across the shell of your ear, tasting the perspiration that clung to your skin. “Keep squeezing me, little darling.”
There was nothing little about you, other than your statute compared to his. You adhered to his request, your pussy squeezing tight out of reflex when the fat tip of his weeping cock brushed against the soft, gummy patch deep inside of you that had stars swirling in your hazy vision. You swallowed the budding saliva on your tongue as his grip on your plump body became tighter, hips clapping against the scruff of your arse as your knees squished against your fat tits. When you looked down, you could see his thick cock moving intimately beneath your skin, poking against your soft, round belly as beads of his arousal continued to drip and web between your velvety folds. The wet seam of your fat cunt continued to drool and swallow hungrily around like you were trying to swallow him whole as he continued to pump his cock into your creamy hole over and over again, insides turning to mush around the shape of his cock as it memorised every detail. You shrieked, your voice echoing around your stuffy bedroom as you desperately filled your lungs with the dry air. Your hands gripped his strong forearms, nails scratching uselessly against his perfect, flawless skin as his muscles continued to flex from exertion as he pounded into you, the rippling flesh of your backside rubbed raw and stinging but causing the hot knot in the pit of your stomach to winch unbearably tight. Yet you still screamed for more.
“Mydei, harder please~” you whined with a drunken slur of his name.
Mydei grunted in response, panting against the nape of your neck as his hot breaths puffed against your skin and tickled the notches of your spine. A wicked smile graced his lips as he squeezed your soft body tighter, your irresistible pudge tempting him to grab and squeeze. But his grip was unwavering, unyielding and unrelenting as he held you exactly where he wanted you, cock pushing into the tight hug of your chubby pussy until the bliss was writhing inside his head like a swarm of insects. And when you wanted more, he would give it to you.
“As you wish, Princess.”
Your keens reached new heights, voice threatening to break and eyes rolling to the back of your head as your pulse pounding in your ears at how hard Mydei pounded into you. He caught the lobe of your ear between the sharp pinch of his teeth, groaning like a feral beast as he pounded your wet pussy like his life depended on it. The obscene wet noises coming from between your thick thighs made you dizzy, the scent of your heavy arousal mixing with Mydei's as hot ropes of his thick cum spilled into your fat needy cunt with each push of his hips. You screamed in delight, feeling his heavy, thick seed filling your womb to the brim and spilling down the soft insides of your shaking legs as you were pumped full of his delicious cum.
The coil inside your soft belly snapped in an instant, filling your veins with white hot relief that had you writhing in Mydei's grip. You squirmed in his hold, swollen nub of your clit kicking weakly as another burst of Mydei's cum flooded your womb and made your pussy squirt from the sheer rapture, your second orgasm tearing through you without remorse, nor surrender. Your soft belly felt so round and full and if you had any sense of sentience left you would rub your hand over the swell of your belly and admire the gift you had been blessed with.
Your brow was dripping with sweat but Mydei was nowhere near close to being finished, his cock still painfully hard and flushed with arousal as you sat perched pretty on his cock, squeezing him like you never wanted to let go. Thick beads of his cum leaked out of your pussy, despite his engorged cock plugging you sweet hole. You purred with content as he pressed his lips against the soft spot just behind your ear, the pump of his hips never ceasing as another load threatened to spill inside of you.
“We're not finished yet, my Princess” he promised.
Even after all this time, I am still so fucking unhinged about ✨boothill✨
I wrote a similar idea with Cyno from Genshin, but I just love the idea of a man going feral when their lover (aka YOU 😉) gets injured in any way... or even kidnapped
Boothill would be no different- the moment he sees even the slightest scratch on your cheek, his vision goes black. He's sniffing out the bastard who dared to lay a finger on you, brutal and unwavering in his hunt that lasts from sunup to sundown. He refuses to bend until it ends with a bullet in the asshole's head- what they dared to do to you, he'll do back to them, tenfold.
And heaven forbid you end up kidnapped- a bullet in the brain wouldn't even be enough to atone for the sin of taking you away from him. The blood and gore he would spill will fill oceans; no price is unthinkable for Boothill if it means that you will return to his arms, safe and sound.
And if it's Homecoming y/n, where the two of you only just reunited after believing the other died in the tragedy of your home planet.... They might as well count their days, because they are numbered.
As in, count each second they get to keep breathing- the next one will likely be their last.
He just got you back, after spending all these years believing you to be with his family in the eternal moon lily fields, and just the thought of having you ripped away from his arms once more is enough to break him permanently.
So when he returns to the now-shared ship and you do not rush to welcome him back like you normally do, that immediately sets him on edge. And when he tears the ship apart and finds a ransom note on your bunk instead of your warm body, his cybernetic brain instantly shuts down with the sheer overload of rage and insanity that swarms his neurochip.
A petal on his beloved moon lily has been torn.
A detestable, unforgivable sin.
His body works on overdrive- it helps that he's made of metal, because he works night and day without rest until he tracks down the hideout of those bastards who thought it'd be a smart idea to take you away.
Well, he can't say they're dumb- after all, they just figured out the fastest way to an early grave.
And that's a fact you too know all too well, judging by the bloodcurdling screams echoing through the hallways leading to your cell. In fact, you're almost grateful for the blindfold over your eyes, as there's no doubt blood soaking the metal floors.
The screams slowly begin to die out, one by one, leaving only the dull thud, thud, thud of heeled metal soles headed straight for you. There's a screech of metal, then a metallic warmth surrounding you. The familiar scent of gunpowder and cedar cologne clings to your nose, and you nearly buckle into Boothill's arms, shivering and weeping, clinging onto his shoulders.
"It's alright, now," he coos, making sure to wipe the blood on his hands before scooping you into his arms. "I'm here, moon lily. I ain't goin' nowhere."
(And it wouldn't be me without just the slightest touch of suggestiveness so...)
Clean from the blood and gore, Boothill gently tucks himself under your chin, nuzzling his nose into your neck, trying to remind himself that you're still here, you're still alive, you didn't slip from his fingers yet again.
If you did, only the aeons know what would happen to him.
"You saved me yet again," you coo, rubbing at the crease in his brows. "My hero."
"Sure as fudge don't feel like one," he mumbles, arms wrapping even more tightly around you. "I almost lost you. Again. I swore it wouldn't happen again, but-"
"But nothing. You found me. I'm safe and sound 'cause of you." You kiss the top of his head, moving down to his face to pepper his cheeks and forehead with more light kisses. "My brave cowboy. I'm alive all because of you. I must be the luckiest girl in the world."
Boothill finally melts under your affectionate administrations, tilting his head to meet your lips in a sweet kiss.
But you're wrong. Boothill knows that if anything, he's the one who's the luckiest in the world. You don't hate him for letting you be taken away, nor do you cower from his bloodstained hands. Instead, you embrace him with your soft arms wide open, with your even softer lips pressing hard against his own, and warm hands that tangle though his hair to keep him closer when he tries to pull away and give you some air. He feels the luckiest when you allow him to press against you even tighter, giving him access to the deepest parts of you, letting him see your bashful face, hear your sweet gasps and moans as he comforts you in the best way he knows how.
Boothill will never ask for anything more. All he needs is for you to be right here in his arms, forever his beautiful, strong, resilient moon lily. Forever his.
A/N: This is my first time uploading a chaptered story here on Tumblr. Positive feedback is welcome, comments and reblogs would be greatly appreciated. I am not looking for constructive criticism on this work, so please do not give it. Please respect this decision. This story is personal to me for several reasons ((because it's lowkey a self insert)) and I hope to do more chaptered stories in the future. This story will contain adult themes and smut in the last chapter so minors DO NOT interact with any of these chapters. I will block you. I will put warnings on each chapter for what they will contain. This is a/b/o inspired but it is not set in an omegaverse. I just borrowed some of the elements from an omegaverse and put my own little spin on it. I hope you enjoy what I've been working on.
Summary: Dan Feng has noticed that there has been something on your mind, as of late. Will you confide in him, or will you slip through his fingers?
cw. mutual pining, friends to lovers, a/b/o inspired but not an omegaverse, adult themes, female reader, chubby reader, vidyadhara reader, minors DO NOT interact
Chapter 1
"You seem distracted today."
The sound of your name falling from Dan Feng’s lips finally broke you out of the stupor you had been caught in. You blinked rapidly in surprise, your long lashes fluttering over your warm, round cheeks as you momentarily forgot where you were. Your reaction was slow as your eyes flitted around, briefly scanning your surroundings as your senses sluggishly crawled back to you.
You were tucked away in one of Dan Feng’s private gardens on his estate, the scent of blooming flowers heavy in the pit of your lungs as you took a deep breath. The sounds of birds and little critters chatting amongst the canopy of leaves filled your ears, their shadows dancing across the chess board that lay between you and Dan Feng. The chair beneath you creaked as you adjusted, the long sash tying your elegant robes together swaying softly in the balmy breeze. You folded your hands neatly into your lap as your gaze naturally fell back to the chess board and you realised that you were currently in the middle of a game. Your pointed ears twitched forward as Dan Feng cleared his throat, drawing your attention as he held your inquisitive stare.
"Surely our game isn’t that boring" he suggested as he gestured to the board, a hint of teasing in his voice.
The deep purr of his voice made your cheeks feel warm. You shyly brushed a stray strand of hair out of your face, tucking it behind your ear as you shook your head.
"My apologies, High Elder, I-"
A soft sigh breezed past his lips, tongue clicking behind his sharp fangs as he gently reprimanded you.
"Please, call me Dan Feng."
You swallowed thickly, the heat creeping over your cheeks burning all the way to the tips of your ears when you remembered that when it was just the two of you, he preferred you addressed him by his name, not his title. You timidly licked your lips and Dan Feng idly traced the tip of your forked tongue’s movement as you corrected yourself.
"My apologies, Dan Feng, I was just deep in thought" you said, smoothing the wrinkles of your traditional grab with shaky fingers, tugging out the creases that clung to your plump waist.
A thoughtful noise stirred in Dan Feng’s throat as his gaze returned to the chess board. He accessed each piece as he reached for his rook, slender fingers tipped with black nails curving around the carved ivory piece as he made his next move. The sound of the chess piece hitting the board cut through the serene silence yet you still couldn’t seem to focus. You were too distracted now as you stared at the High Elder, suddenly captivated by the elegant way he moved, even when he was doing something so mundane. You could see the focus in his jade eyes like crystal clear waters, calm and all-encompassing as he analysed the board in front of him. Even when a strand of long, flowing ebony hair fell into his face he didn’t flinch, a sharp talon tapping his chin in thought as he placed the piece down. When he was satisfied, he brushed the troublesome piece of hair back into place, his gaze falling to you once more. You sat there for a moment in stunned silence as he leaned back in his chair, serpentine tail flickering out of the corner of your eye as he waited patiently. It took you another moment to realise because it was your move.
You vehemently fought back the heat that rose to your cheeks, the tip of your feathered tail flicking as it curled around your exposed ankle. The long sleeve of your robe drew back from your wrist as you moved your hand towards one of your pieces, only for you to stop before your fingers had even touched the polished surface. You drew your hand back to your face, finger pressed into the tight, thin line of your plump lips as you tried to focus. Was that the right move? Perhaps you had acted too rash? Was there a better way? You chanced a peek up at Dan Feng beneath your thick, heavy lashes, absentmindedly chewing on the dried and cracked skin clinging to the corners of your mouth as you continued to think. You had no idea what Dan Feng was planning. You never knew. You found it hard to anticipate the way he thought on the chess board and it would be hard to predict which piece he was after next. Though the number of pieces you had both taken thus far was even, you had a sneaking suspicion that was about to change.
Just when you finally decided on your next move and went to move your bishop, Dan Feng spoke up once more and easily derailed your train of thought with just a few, mere words.
"What is on your mind, little dragon?"
The fond little nickname he had given you made the fur lining your fat tail puff up in content and it made your spine prickle with heat every time he referred to you in such a manner. Rolling off his tongue it sounded so intimate, though you believed that was just meagre wishful thinking on your part. You were friends. Just friends. You figured he liked the nickname because he was much older than you were, his lineage predating your own in this life and the previous. Yet it still never failed to set loose butterflies in your stomach, the flap of their wings almost making you feel nauseous as your heart stammered inside your chest. Your eyes nervously flicked up to Dan Feng as he waited for your answer and in your hesitation, you picked up your knight and moved it closer to his king.
"It’s nothing you need to be concerned about" you replied, your throat feeling like it was closing up as you forced the words out.
You hoped that Dan Feng didn’t notice your obvious lie. Or maybe, you actually wanted him to notice. You weren’t quite sure anymore. The haze of fog clouding up your brain made it harder for you to think straight. Another thoughtful hum stirred deep in Dan Feng’s chest as he moved his rook and snatched away your knight in the blink of an eye, leaving you staring at the empty spot that was left on the board. He dangled the piece in front of him, flaunting off his spoils of battle before depositing the piece to the side. It was your move again. Your brow furrowed as you examined the board again. The nape of your neck prickled with heat and you could feel the sweat beading at your hairline when Dan Feng cast his analytic gaze upon you once more.
"I am concerned, little dragon" he responded, the tilt of his head making his lone earring clink softly.
Your spine tingled again and he must have noticed how using the nickname was gaining him favour. You had known each other for a while now, through various different lives. You were sure of it. While your past memories were muddier than most, Dan Feng’s were quite clear. He knew when something was wrong with you, even when you tried to persuade him that there wasn’t. It usually took a little more coaxing and prodding on his part before you finally folded and told him. Yet lately, you were much more guarded, even around him. When he looked into your eyes, he saw a faint flicker, much like the flicker of your golden horns when the sunlight shone upon them. You looked like you wanted to tell him something, but there was something holding you back. He wasn’t sure exactly what it was. And the faint smell of passion flower and rice milk you exuded was not helping him to focus when he needed it.
"After all" Dan Feng continued. "Our weekly game of chess is hardly fulfilling when you aren’t putting up much of a fight."
His jab dug under your skin, burrowed into your veins faster than either of you anticipated. Normally, such a playful taunt wouldn’t get a rise out of you. The Lady of Lightning was renowned for only showing such emotion when she was in danger. Yet Dan Feng could feel your shift in mood and it felt like the base of his skull was tingling at the feel of something electric in the air. A soft huff blew out of your nose, soft wisps of steam stemming around your lips as the golden scales on your tail glinted under warm rays of sunlight. You moved your next piece without hesitation and captured the rook that had felled your knight. You were even again. Intrigued by the sudden shift in mood, Dan Feng leaned forward in his seat, doing a quick assessment of the board.
"Careful, little dragon, four more moves and I’ll capture your queen" he taunted.
You rolled your eyes at his declaration. "Let’s see if you can even last that long."
You were quick to move again after Dan Feng moved his piece, capturing another enemy on the board as you tossed the piece with the rest of your growing pile of victims. Three moves left. The sudden spike of your mood was still captivating to Dan Feng as he continued to test the waters, hoping to coax more of the real issue out of you as he carefully moved his next piece across the board, slowly setting it up in his favour. Perhaps he could taunt you again, partly for his own amusement and hoping to press you for more information.
"Where was all this fire earlier when I took both of your rooks?"
That memory still made you feel a little salty. He had taken both pieces so early in the game and it left a sour aftertaste in your mouth when you thought back on it. You didn’t offer up any words, another puff of steam spilling from your lips as your disdain was now palpable. A common trait that he shared with you. Despite not being an actual, fire breathing dragon, when he felt his blood start to boil it manifested itself in hot air escaping his lungs with such force it was like there really was a fire burning in his mouth. Strong ties to Loong’s ancestors could be a blessing or a curse.
The fur on your tail continued to puff up from the static coursing in your veins yet you were so focused on your game now that you didn’t seem to notice just how much your emotions were running out of check. You were taught to be dignified and graceful in everything you did, lessons that were burned into the back of your skull seeming to dissipate in an instant the moment you got angry. You moved another chess piece, now aiming to take down Dan Feng’s own queen before he got the chance to take yours. But could you do it with such limited moves? Two moves remained.
Dan Feng already knew what you were trying to attempt but he pretended that he didn’t. Another puzzle piece slotted into place as he moved his next piece across the board, his bishop appearing from the cornering of your eyes and suddenly putting your king in check. Your brow furrowed in confusion. Wasn’t he after your queen? Had he been lying to you this whole time?
"Check" Dan Feng called.
You were forced to move your king to a safer spot, out of danger. One move remained. That sweet scent that had been distracting Dan Feng earlier didn’t taste as sweet on the back of his tongue anymore. It had soured and curdled now, much like your mood had. Dan Feng moved his next piece, his rapt attention on you now to gauge your reaction. Your eyes seemed to have lost focus once more and you were distracted, fingers fiddling with one of the already discarded pieces from the board. You didn’t seem to notice what he was planning as he put your king in check yet again, his voice echoing in your ears as he called:
"Check."
Your king was further away from your queen than you would have liked. They had been close together almost all the game yet now they were being pried apart. You observed the board again, the light flickering in your eyes when you noticed you could block the piece that was threatening your king with one of your other pieces. Without hesitation, you took that option. Only for you to realise that by moving that piece, you now left your queen wide open, to be taken by his own queen. Zero moves remaining. And just like he had promised, your queen was taken, knocked down by his own as the fallen piece lay defeated on the board. You sat in shocked silence for a moment, letting the past couple of minutes catch up to you as the blood boiling in your veins was reduced to a mere simmer. Your sullen mood was suddenly lifted and you graciously accept your defeat. You picked up your queen, cradling the piece in the palm of your hand as you offered it up to Dan Feng.
"You were right" you said, a soft smile tilting your lips.
You expected Dan Feng to take the piece from your grasp. What you didn’t expect, however, was for him to reach over the table and take your hand in his own. Your eyes went wide with surprise as you swallowed down the sharp gasp that tried to crawl out of your parched throat. His long nails lightly scratched your skin as he held your dainty hand in his warm palm, his fingers pressed into your wrist as your pulse fluttered beneath the smooth pads of his fingertips. A look of concern flashed across his face and he squeezed your hand.
"What’s wrong?"
You couldn’t take it anymore. You abruptly stand from the table. The sudden motion made Dan Feng’s grip slip as the queen piece you had been holding tipped from your grip and clattered to the board with a loud bang. The chair you had been sitting on was toppled over by the bulk of your tail as it swished from the side before huddling closer to your legs, much like a dog would tuck its own tail between its legs. Your breathing came out in short rasps, eyes wide like a startled deer as the muscles in your body coiled and you were ready to bolt. Before Dan Feng could question your sudden behaviour, you were rushing with an apology, chin tucked to your chest as you bowed.
"I must leave. There’s something I must do. Apologies for the sudden departure" you said, stumbling over your words.
It was a poor excuse. But Dan Feng did not argue against it. Not when you refused to look at him. With a soft sigh and an air of grace he stood from his own chair. The fallen leaves crunched under his feet as he stood tall, arms folded behind his back. But he did not approach. There was a little voice in the back of his head telling him that pursuing you would not be a wise choice. Not right now. You had obviously reached your limits of his prodding for today.
"Shall I escort you out?" Dan Feng offered.
It was wishful thinking and he wasn’t disappointed when that vague hope was scattered to the wind. You shook your head, still refusing to look him in the eye. Dan Feng waved a hand in the air as he dismissed you.
"You may go. Join me next week, if you can."
You pulled your bottom lip between the pinch of your teeth and simply nodded in response. You hesitated for a brief second, as if you were considering saying something more but you decided against it. Without another word, you left the garden in a hurry, leaving Dan Feng alone with his thoughts. His gaze fell back to the chess board, the pieces fallen and scattered from your abrupt departure. He trailed his fingers over the fallen queen, the last piece he had taken. With a soft sigh he moved to retrieve his discarded gloves, pulling them back on. You had slipped through his fingers. Again.
synopsis: hedone (hēdonē), an ancient greek word that describes "pleasure.” after the girls leave, it’s just you and lighter. would you let him hold your hand if it gave him pleasure, if it gave him the answers he’s always sought? would you let him fuck you?
warnings: p in v, semi-clothed, hand job, choking, reader gropes lighter, accidental erection, daydreaming/fantasizing, fingering, he’s just a guy who wants to h*ld h*nds, unprotected intercourse, afab reader (gender neutral, no pronouns/feminine terms) 18+ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT.
notes: crossposted to AO3, lighter is bae
the throttle of motorcycles and bikes were a sound you’ve grown accustomed to.
a lot of things in life can be chalked up to the philosophy, the belief, of chasing pleasure. why would you do something you hate if it reaps no reward you enjoy? why would you do something if you don’t like it?
that very same idea can be considered the reason people do anything, generally. subjecting yourself to pain is undesirable to many, the most masochistic of people have their limits too.
the roar of engines grew quieter, replaced by the heavy click of boots against hardwood flooring. it was smart to wear boots around, the wooden flooring was splintered, worn from years of trampling and stomping. a gloved hand landed on your shoulder, taking you out of your trance-like state.
“you good?” the hand on your shoulder drifted down to your upper back, rubbing circles, the sensation sending a shiver down your spine. his voice was deep, a handsome sort of rumble. it took some effort to peel your eyes away from the scratched up window.
“yeah, i’m okay.” you brought your gaze up to lighter’s, whose was concealed by his beloved aviators, tinted so dark you wondered if he could even see at times. he stood behind you, to your side, his touch still lingering in circles, inferior to your lower neck.
his demeanor seemed stoic as always, keeping to himself, staying “low-key” as he put it. “the girls are all gone,” he murmured, the hum of their bikes so distant it couldn’t be heard anymore, “just us now.”
lighter’s eyes were glued to the environment outside the window, seemingly entranced, lulled into the same kind of deep thought you were in.
would one derive satisfaction from thought? what is pleasure? how much chasing would someone do for that rush, the release of ecstasy?
lighter’s gloved hand moved lower, to the small of your back, his touch growing into a gentle, almost ghostly, caress. you looked out the window, observing the tan, dusky dirt and sand, the orange hue of the evening sky, the constructs of blazewood, the few little pebbles and rocks scattered around.
your eyes trailed back to him, his gaze now focused on you, still hidden by those fucking sunglasses. his brows had a small indent in them, creased by their furrowing, lips slightly pursed. his gloved touch had since stopped rubbing circles on the superior base of your spine, fingers daring to go lower.
you let out a soft, confused noise, his lips parting slightly. the crease deepened a bit more. how far is someone willing push the limits to fulfill their own desires for satisfaction? depends on who they are.
lighter’s face was contorted into a strained, almost guilty look. his lower lip glistened with a thin and awkward sheen of saliva, expression taut with a shameful tension. how apt is someone to escape pain by indulgence? his fingers crept to your side, clutching it tightly.
you didn’t pull away, not at all.
internally, lighter was warring with himself, telling himself he shouldn’t, he couldn’t. he knew that was a damn lie. it’s not like you're anybody’s personal property, not like you’re pulling away, not like you're running from him. it really isn’t like that, not like you’re touching up on him too, not like you’re more than friends. it scared him, the uncertainty, but he just can’t help himself. you’re irresistible, every part of you.
was pleasure worth the risk of pain? what is pleasure without pain? to perceive one means the other must exist. his grip pulled you flush to his side, pressing you to his body, hold unrelenting. he could really get lost in those eyes, he was already tumbling over himself just staring at you.
you stayed flush against him, even pressing your cheek to his chest. could you hear his heart hammering? it was already thrumming in his ears, blood rushing harder, faster, further, everywhere.
everywhere.
he could only hope you could ignore the raging boner tenting his pants, standing quite proud. his tight pants really don’t help, they felt even more like a barrier than before. his breathing grew heavier, clawing at the last remnants of composure. he was a man that prided himself on his ability to keep it together, always level-headed, despite the circumstances. wouldn’t it be good to let that go? just for a little, just for a while.
his gloved fingers dug even further into your flesh, the sensation grounding, yet intoxicating at the same time. your body was so pliant against his, he was desperately seeking any other thought that didn’t involve pinning you underneath him, getting you bent over and compromised. his resolve was wavering with each second, you’re gonna drive him mad.
lighter’s insistently demanding cock kept stirring, retaliating with each needy twitch. every physical reaction of his spurred his dirty thoughts on further, lewd images of you under, beside, on top of him, his shaft buried as far as it could go inside of you. a particularly vivid picture of you, one leg up on top of his shoulder, leaned upright against a countertop beckoned him deeper into his fantasies. you keened as he shoved himself further inside you, drinking in every noise you made. your eyes were glassy with desire, with need, with… love. his grip on your thigh was tight, grunting with satisfaction as he slid in and out of your warm cunt with aided ease. god, you’d get so fucking wet…
a sharp inhale brought him back to reality. he didn’t realize just how tight his hold on your waist had gotten. “sorry, really, uh…”
instead of wriggling away or whining, you curled closer to him, body melting into his for some semblance of comfort or relief. whichever one was galloping through your motives. the air was tense, he was sure you could feel how hard he is through the fabric of his pants, you’re terribly close. not that that’s a problem, unless you don’t want to be poked in the thigh by his touch-starved cock.
yeah, you definitely knew. “are you hard?”
no point in hiding whatever is in very, very plain sight, “uh… yeah, my bad.”
with the simple brush of your hand by his crotch, he bit back a particularly low groan, stifling it as a throaty noise. did you intend to do that? did you intend to rub up against him like that, get him even harder than before? as if that could be possible, it was. his face was strained, cheeks dusted a faint pink, becoming immersed in his fantasies again.
his breaths came in shallow, slight heaves. they sounded like soft gasps, periodic and frantic. fuck, what he wouldn’t give to hear you croon underneath him. you’d look so hot pinned to the bed by your wrists, kissing you until you panted for air, just as needy and depraved as he is for your touch. your tongue would feel so good, swiping against his own, licking down his neck, down his shaft. those darling lips would fit so perfectly around his cock, tongue milking every drop of sweet pleasure out of him. pleasure that belonged in you, hips bucking like a crazed man, drunken and starved, experiencing what it means to feel for the first time.
lighter’s eyes trailed down to his crotch, your hand lingered, ghosting just over the raised clothing over his persistent, weeping cock. he could feel pre-cum seep from the head, dampening his boxers, demanding in tempo with the beat of his heart. the color of lighter’s face darkened, hips involuntarily grinding against your palm. lighter drew in a particularly sharp breath at the much desired friction.
you gave him a knowing look as you continued to palm the prominent bulge in his pants. lighter’s fingers stayed glued to your side, his eyes wide behind the dark lenses, partially in disbelief and in welcome bewilderment. his tongue darted out to moisten his lips, mouth slightly agape. at a loss for words, he let a deep grumble out, his gaze still stuck on your hand. your grip was now entirely on his dick, pressing against the outline, moving from base to tip and back through his pants. “ah, fuck…”
he let out a deep breath, the air held in by his wound muscles, unbeknownst to him. his body relaxed slightly under your gentle touch, slipping back into the comforting coax of his daydream. damn, your hand, it feels way too good. would you let him hold it if he could? hold it while he fucks you, while he guides you, while he walks in stride with you? will you let him interlace his bare fingers with yours? will you kiss each of the scars on his knuckles, wrap your own delicate hand around his aching shaft instead of his own?
would you instinctively reach for him? in a crowded area, would you look for him the way he’d look for you? could he seek every answer in you the way you’d look to him? would you let him fuck it out of you, kiss you until you spoke every word he wanted to hear? merely the satisfied twinkle in your eye soothes his soul. he could satisfy you the way nobody else ever can and will, accept every answer in the way you speak, laugh, cry, scream, and moan… every little gasp and mewl, nobody would take you like he could.
take you from behind, from the side, below and above him, take you as you are, take every word and lack of one. take every good with the bad, every soothe with the familiar burn and sting, if it meant you understood him the way he understands you. he would kiss you the way you like, fuck you ten times over if he knew you loved it, hold your hand tight enough if it meant anything to you. seems like you’re struggling with his belt.
“need a bit of help? i know it can be a pain sometimes. here, i got you.” he put his hand over yours, guiding it towards the overly complicated buckle, unclasping it just enough, loosening it with his own hand grasping yours until you could manage to unzip his pants. “you got it, keep going. i promise i’ll make it worth your while.
you didn’t need it to be ‘worth your while,’ having him in your grasp was already enough. you couldn’t be bothered to move from the window, hand already snaking down his boxers to grab his bare, attention-deprived cock. lighter hummed softly at the feverish contact, feeling your thumb collect the thick bead of pre-cum oozing from his cockhead. as you coated his shaft in his own pre, his head grew slightly dizzy, the sensation overwhelming, yet comforting knowing it was you.
“ah, shit, yeah…” your hand started moving faster as lighter let out a mumbled string of curses. with each passing stroke, he could feel the heat in his body burn hotter, the familiar pool of desperation in his lower gut forming, pleasure soaking into every single cell of his body. all his coherent, ‘normal person’ thoughts were melting away at the mercy of your slick stroke.
with a whispered groan, lighter leaned in, “that feels amazing, but i can’t take another minute without my dick in you.”
hesitantly, you released lighter’s cock, pulling your hand out of the waistband of his boxers. lighter pulled you away from the view of the window, just far enough from prying eyes. within the building was a lounge space and a small kitchenette. lighter cornered you inside the kitchenette, wasting no time to put his lips on yours. his kiss was firm but careful, giving you a moment to melt into his lips, your arm hooking around his neck to pull him further closer. his tongue eventually slipped between your lips, the sweet taste of your mouth mingling with his, eagerly swapping his spit with yours. lighter’s kiss grew heated and intense, exploring every inch of your mouth, his lips searing and nearly bruising. he groaned as your fingers tangled with his dark locks, his glove-clad hands coming to grip the counter on each side of you.
reluctantly, he pulled away, lips still proximal to yours, huffing for breath. lighter’s eyes burned bright with passion, staring you down as if he needed you more than the air that kept him alive. you nearly quivered under his scrutiny, the attractive green hue of his eyes keeping yours. your panties were stuck to your cunt with dampness. your hips rocked into his, heat collecting in the fabric as your cunt leaked, contracting around nothing. “do me a favor? turn the other way for me.”
you did as lighter asked, squirming around so your ass was in direct contact with his hard-on. instinctively, his hips rolled against your ass, the tantalizing swell mocking him. lighter eased your pants and underwear down your thighs and legs, letting them pool against the floor, managing to get his right glove off pretty quickly. the pads of his fingers prodded against your heated pussy, collecting the wetness between your thighs, rubbing your clit a few times from behind.
“you feel that, huh? that’s nothing compared to this dick.” seemingly on cue, his index and middle fingers slipped into your heated cunt, stretching your pussy out wonderfully. you let out a soft moan, feeling the two digits slide in and out with adept ease. each moan was punctuated by his fingers working their way back inside of you, deep within your cunt, the slap of his knuckles on your ass. lighter’s fingers curled just enough to make you croon and let your neck loll downwards, forehead dangerously close to thunking against the counter. your hands gripped at the edge of the countertop, knuckles white as lighter’s other hand spread your pussy to the side. his fingers made an abrupt exit.
you mewled at the loss, trembling weakly at the absence of something inside you, of him. the coil in your gut loosened, knees weak and palms creased by the rigid edge of the kitchenette’s counter. lighter brought his fingers to his lips, sucking on them nearly exaggeratedly, savoring the taste of you. he let out a satisfied “mmm,” licking the webbing between the digits, lapping up any remaining slick on his fingers. his left hand fell to his boxers, letting his cock spring free as his right hand got you to arch just right against the cold marble slate, spreading your cunt just enough again to let him take a good look.
“you’re gonna look so good taking my dick.”
lighter slapped the heavy tip of his cock against your slit, the rounded head dragging on your clit, the friction driving you wild. you could feel the excitement inside you build, anticipating the lethal stretch. fuck, you were soaked, the wetness coating his tip thickly, threatening to drip all the way down your thighs and onto the floor below you. he pressed his palm down on your lower back, forcing you to intake a sharp breath, his cock accompanying the newly inhaled air. after the tip got lost inside your heat, your cunt squeezed him tight, lungs immediately letting go of your breath. “that’s it, take it good, just like that.”
you moaned weakly, the thickest part of his cock being the shaft immediately below the tip. it felt so good, being split open by him, even with how wet you are. every fiber of lighter’s being was resisting the urge to snap his hips into yours, bury himself into you with force. your cunt wouldn't take much more, lighter opting to pull out a little to sink deeper inside. as he withdrew, you cried out, lighter hushing you with a soft “shh,” his hips moving forwards into yours again. you let out a string of soft babbles, the addictive stretch over as the rest of his shaft took.
“that’s right, fuuuuck.” he gasped, your pussy immediately gushing around him, clamping down on his length like a vice. after a few merciful moments, lighter dragged his hips back, rocking them into you again. you brokenly moaned, feeling his cock slowly drawl in and out of you a few more times, each movement followed up with a loud, needy moan. fuck, you looked so hot, sexier than he could imagine taking his dick from behind. “let me hear you, come on.” he urged gently.
his right hand pinned the back of your neck down to the cold marble, his hand large enough to wrap around the blood vessels on the lateral sides of your neck. his grip was tight, not entirely brutal, picking up the pace with each drag of his hips. the heat in your tummy flared, a thick sheen of your slick coating his dick, the lubricant creating a mess of his boxers and hem of his jacket. his tight hold on the sides of your neck furthered your high, body arching into his, brain fuzzy with pleasure and disconnected from reality. his cock slammed into you, his own pleasure indicated with a guttural groan. he sounded so hot when he felt good.
“you like it when i fuck you? you like this dick?”
you could offer a broken moan as a response, pussy tightening at his deep, horribly sexy, laugh. “yeah, i know, fuuuck.”
lighter bent lower, his voice ringing in your ears, brain barely processing his words, “you close? you just wont let me go, feels amazing.” your strangled moan told him everything he needed to know. you were closer than you could understand.
the heat of your orgasm pooled deep within you, winding all your muscles tight with tension and desire. with a few harsh thrusts, you let out a cry louder than you anticipated, your neck suddenly free from his hold. lighter bullied himself as deep as he could, watching you come undone. though you couldn’t see as you rode your climax out, he had a smug, proud look on his face.
lighter pulled out of you with an effort, resisting the urge to fuck himself using you. his hand came up to the front part of your throat, where your trachea was, pulling you upwards and putting your backside flush to his chest with a gentle force. “i got you, don’t worry.”
before you knew it, lighter was leaned back on the couch, sinking you onto his cock again, your legs parted as you straddled him. your hands came to rest on his shoulders as he half sat up and half laid back, squealing in pleasure as he buried himself to the hilt again. “knew you could handle it, feels so good.”
didn’t matter what he did with your clothes, now that you were naked on top of him, his signature sunglasses sitting aside on the other cushion. his scarred hands came to rest on your hips, moving you up and down, bouncing you on his cock. he threw his head back, gasping with each oversensitive movement along your walls.
an uncharacteristically high noise left his lips, his eyes focused on the bounce of your tits as he lifted you up and down on his ever-demanding cock. fuck, you looked so good, sweaty and tuckered out, yet still taking him so well. your tits are just the cutest, the way they jiggle with every motion. lighter’s hips rocked upwards, bucking wildly as the high crept onto him, your nails digging into the skin and scar tissue littering his shoulders like a mosaic through his leather jacket. lighter’s control became frantic, guiding your body brutally, the sensitive waves of your previous orgasm washing into this one. lighter grit his teeth, groaning heavily as the coil tightened even more, the intensity of his climax terribly foreign. every muscle in both your bodies ached and wildly tightened with desperation as ecstasy washed over you both.
as you rode out your familiar pleasure, lighter rocked his hips, bucking them, milking out every bit of sensation he could from inside you. lighter covered his face with one hand, peeping one eye out of the gap between his fingers, as the other hand’s nails dug into your bare flesh. “fucking hell, oh, shit…”
you don’t think you’ve ever heard lighter say such vulgar things, especially not swear that much in a minute. as his grip on your waist and hip loosened, it immediately sought out your hand, prying your dominant hand away from his shoulder and interlacing your fingers with his as he heaved. “fuck, you think you’ll let me do this again? as many times as i want?”
