I'm going to eat the wasps soon

15 he/his blog with my thoughts I'm always happy to chat! Think of it as a funny depressing blog of a stupid teenager (English is not the first language😞)

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since my account has been blocked, I will leave it as invalid

SOOOO!!!!I'm switching to a new one! :)

I love everyone!!! Good luck and bye bye my past!!!✊✊✊

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they're trying to fix something, I'm not trying. I've never tried for others. I really don't deserve to be treated well. I'm terrible at everything. I only know how to cry about how unhappy I am. I'm so disgusting

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Tw:vent

just a post to release emotions. I just feel terrible. When I'm alone, I feel terrible, like I'm drowning more and more. but I can't be with someone because that's how I feel bad and I want to be alone. I'm so tired and so angry today. I'm mad at everyone, everyone annoys me so much. More than usual. I usually just think negatively, but now I feel really angry. And I hate it so much. I do not know what to do with it.I hate myself so much, I do not know how I will go to school tomorrow. I've eaten too much and I look like a fat freak, I just want to cry because I'm so terrible. I am the most disgusting person on the planet and I do not know what to do about it. I have to die for the good of everyone, but I'm just so scared. I'm a complete coward and I can't fix anything.

I'm really being terrible today. I've already snapped at a lot of people because of my aggression. The more I don't hurt myself, the more irritable I become. I'm a terrible person. I'm so afraid that everyone will find out what I really am. But at the same time, I'm afraid that others are using me. Damn it a little more and I just feel like I'm going to explode, I hate everything around me so much.Those people really didn't deserve this, everyone should leave me. I'm a terrible person, I don't know how to take care, I don't know how to be reliable, I don't know how to solve problems. The only thing I do is drown in self-destruction. No one needs me like this. I'm actually so afraid that others will finally see me like this... that's why I want everyone to put me up to this point. After all, I'm terrible at everything lolllll.I swant to fall asleep and never wake up again so much

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Silly Jack Stauber sketches!💛💛💛

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Tw:vent

a week without cuts and here it is again.I'm soo sucks aghhhhh.I am at the same time so angry, so upset, so stressed that I do not know where to put these feelings.now I just want to close myself off from the world forever, it feels like I'm getting further and further away from understanding anything.I'm tiredddddddd.I'm a fat, stupid lazy guy. haha lol go and jump off the bridge it will be better for everyone

although I also recently came across a lot of nostalgic things. It's really nice :)

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Happy birthday🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉!!!!!! @analogadreams

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Tw:vent

I have to die I have to die I have to die I have to die yellow red pink green yellow red pink green yellow pink green white white white white white white white white white white white HE'S A BITCH HE'S A CREATURE HE DESERVES TO FUCKING POOR BITCH FUCKING NNNNNN. BBBBB HE'S A NAZI, A FUCKING WHALE FUCKING THING. BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH HE EATS BANANAS FUCKING THING DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE HE HATED STICKS. SWEET STICKS. HARD STICKS STICKS STICKS BALD FUCKING THING. BITCH BITCH BITCH SAW HURTS AAAAA. He's a mom, why is he your blood my yellow yellow he's yellow he's he's yellow with her. Wants. photo. why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why pink. tits. Fucking fucking. thrusts it in. He spits. He spits. He spits. aaaaa. A third of the half. rubbing. Eating. He eats, eats, eats, eats. mouth mouth. yellow mouth. blood. teeth teeth teeth teeth Lord save me please Lord save me please.BITCHES, I HATE PIGS, I HATE ALL THIS.I do not know why. He opened his mouth. language. teeth, heart. liver. I just don't see the point in it. It's like a big bubble, they put a marshmallow in it and there's nothing else there. He left and left only the bench. the white one. the yellow one. blue. snowman.I just want to get this over with.

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Last fall, I tried to punish myself. but I was doing it wrong. I had to do it for him, not for myself. Moreover, then I had already missed the anniversary of his death, it should be the anniversary of the birth of Christ. I had to drown in rivers of blood for this. I had to choke and squeeze the owl's throat. this time I just have to do it, I hear his voice congratulating me and that means it's the perfect time.It makes no sense for me to stay here any longer, I feel like I've become much more elevated. And I know it's a sign. I just really want to go after him. I know I have to do this. I will never be able to atone for my sins.So I want to try to do it again when the time comes

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I miss him so much

I'm the only one to blame. my life just ended. I would give anything for him to come back. but he will never come back. I was left all alone.I have a chance to go after him, but I'm a coward

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my beloved gave me such lovely gifts recently. I am so happy, it makes my life very happy!!!!I feel like the happiest person on the planet

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"Oh, I feel so sorry for you." no,no, No,No, you're not fucking sorry.You don't care because you've always laughed at my feelings. everyone always doesn't care, because it's nonsense. My problems are so minor that I'm just a fucking whiner. I should be stronger, but I'm not like that. I don't care about my past or my future, I don't care about all this.I just shouldn't exist. I am a mistake in this world, a mistake in everything. Just forget me, I don't want to be surrounded by someone who really loves me. I don't want this love. I don't need any help, I don't need any of this. Just go away and leave me alone. you don't give a fuck anyway

I really can't give myself so much pain that I can finally say that I'm in pain. I've already missed this chance. I don't feel bad enough to get help.I don't feel any pain.I'm so terrible. I am the most terrible person on the planet.

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I feel bad just because I don't feel bad enough. I really want to end this life, just to end it all. It really doesn't make sense. I just want to get away from everyone and sit there self-destructing myself to the end. I need to be broken up.I really hate triggers.

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sooooo I cut my hair. I think I'll regret it in the morning, but for now I just look like an emo boy LOL 💔💔💔I feel like a new person hehe

Tw:blood, vent

I drew a god.without excessive fanaticism, I just felt his presence today and the way he pulled my neck. I had to apologize and bring him gifts.actually, it really sounds silly, but it made me feel better!

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MY FRIEND MADE ME WAFFLES! I came home and thought that I would be sad, but in the end I have diabetes/j, pos

@harkoman2000 BRO, I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH! YOU'VE LIFTED MY SPIRITS! 💪😎

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Tw:vent

I'm really tired today. In general, I do not know where to move on, everything is very difficult. something really upset me today (I REALLY FUCKED UP) I'm really tired of feeling insignificant and terrible. I'm tired of hating myself, but my hatred is very deep. I do not know what I want, I do not know what to do next. And despite everything, it seems like I'm just slowly sinking. I just want to cut my veins but I'm too weak. Every time I don't cut to the end, and I'm terrible at it. It seems to me more and more that the world would be better off without me. I'm just really a little depressed today

I'm going to try to go with the flow now, maybe something good will happen in the end

OH AND ALSO, BLENDER, SUCK MY DICK, STOP CONSTANTLY NOT SAVING MY WORK 👿🤨hehe I love this program ;)

recently, I ran out of sweets and had to drink cocoa. I keep making it too sweet, my receptors are dead yup yup

I also don't have time to draw lately, so my accounts will be without Art in the near future😞😞😞

I LOVE LEMON DEMON YAYYY

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Okay, this man got drunk , stalked me and forced me to give him my number. I am very glad that my bus was finally accepted, he looked threatening

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I didn't get much sleep last night because of my mother and stepfather's quarrel. they had been fighting all day, but in the evening it seemed to have reached a climax. While my stepfather was trying to kill my dog, he hit my mom hard, and then they really started fighting.He was drunk and he really doesn't have a filter. I am very worried, because such things awaken very unpleasant memories in me. I don't love my mom, but hearing her cry and remembering that she hasn't been happy once in 51 years just breaks my heart. Because I know that I can't help her, they're both completely broken people. As a result, I had to sit in my room for several hours and suffocate from the fact that I could not go to the kitchen to get medicine for my illness. I shouldn't have let myself cry, but it's really hard. Everything is so complicated, and I think I'm the problem of it all. I never liked my stepfather because he shouted and insulted me. but he gave us at least a little more money. And now, I'm not sure what my mom will do. I know I can try to find a job, or sell my art. I know, but I'm just looking for excuses. I'm too depressed to do anything and that's why I'm really pathetic. I should be stronger, but I'm only making things worse. now my mom needs to pay a lot of money for my education and everything else... We don't have any money at all. I just hope that I find the strength to do something and not be a pathetic excuse for a person.

(and I'm also really unlucky and I've been badly bitten by fleas. My legs are all red lolll👎💔)