An Update. A very long one. :)))))))
When I said I wanted to blog about something, this is not what I had in mind. :)) I wanted to blog about something a bit deep. I actually wanted to write a poem about someone but I'm a little afraid that person might get offended if ever the person finds out that was meant for him/her. I also wanted to blog about some random stuff I've been thinking about lately. I also wanted to blog about leadership and something a bit controversial. HAHA. Maybe sometime else.
But then again, people don't really read much about what I say here anyway, although I wish they would. I mean if we're friends and all, you should atleast read my blog, it's the only time I get to tell you what's going on about my personal life.
Anyway, the point of this blog is to give an update about my life. And I will divide it in the different aspects of my life. :)
Ever since Ptr. Nixon's preaching about Extreme Productivity and what Ate Tating shared about Perseverance & Faith, I have found a new passion to learn. Yup, not just to study but to learn. I remember what my friend Admon have said about his perspective in studying. From a perspective of studying for the sake of studying, the need to study changed to actually wanting to study. He changed from "I need to study" to "I want to study" attitude. And blimey, there's so much difference when you change your attitude about studying.
And that's goes for me also. Though I wish I've realized this much much sooner. Still, I am thankful that God's Word is timely and so is the wisdom from godly people, ates and kuyas and even adings!
The teachings seemingly arrived late for the semester considering it's almost coming to an end, but these teachings aren't just for me to have better grades, it's really more about having a better attitude, better character. At the end of the day, success will come to those who have formed the right character. And I'm glad, I am being thought just so :)
Actually, the teachings weren't late at all even for the semester. All of my last exam scores have been unexpectedly high. And I just know that it was a product of really working hard and persevering. And of course, so much grace from God. :)
God has been revealing a bit by bit what path He wants me to take after PH. And it's really getting clearer and clearer now. It has been settled in my heart that I was brought to UP, to really serve people and my country, not for my own fame or self-promotion. I have resolved it in my heart that it would be a privilege for me to serve the RSA after graduation. My mom's actually excited about it. She wants me to help out in our local Health Center and she says I can go work in Isabela with my Tito. I could also give Dra. Maite (my former Pastor's Wife in Ilocos during HS) a call and work in Vigan. Just the thought of going there and really being with people and gives me so much peace and excitement. :)
But what makes me more excited is the Good News and Great Healing that God wants me to bring to His people. Yiii! <3
I've been looking at past pictures of clingy people and it just amazes me how faithful God has been to us :') People have come and go in the campus but the relationships are as tight as ever. And more and more young men and women are standing up for God and for the destiny they have in Him. The next generation had always been an inspiration to me. Eversince the first time Ate K-an speaked to my life about building revelationally, relationally and generationally one Sunday morning. It was not just about loving the younger ones just because of my Ate instincts but really fighting for their destinies. Loving them and fighting for them are really different especially if their future and inheritance is involved. I've never been the best ate to them nor have I ever claimed that I am, they know and I know that I fail them at times but the best service I can ever give them is to really my relationship with God. That out of God's love for me, they would experience it's overflow. And up until now, it's never ending journey of character-building and trusting and obeying Him.
That's why I'm glad even when only 2-3 girls show up every Tuesday or it's just 2-3 of us with Ate Tating on Thursday. Because atleast, someone will hear the Gospel again for the nth time until it really sinks in to them and even to us who are leading. Because that's what matters, us coming to God and leading them to God so that all of us will be in God's Will.
Sab has been amazing. (Hi Sab!) Her passion to know God is overwhelming. There are times when I ask myself, "Should I tell her this part? She might get offended or it may seem "off" for her, maybe it's not the right time" but whenever I ask her indirectly, she'll be like "I'm excited to hear about that!" and she means it. And I've asked her why she doesn't feel awkward or confused since she comes from a different "faith" before, she simply says it amazes her to know more and more about God. And things she never knew about Him makes her stronger in her faith. And that really amazes me. That's why I always look forward to our 121 dates together because we learn together and we cry together and we come together to God and ask Him to keep us strong and close to Him so we can love others like Him. It's amazing. <3
After my first "gig" with Kuya Andrew (which was super duper duper fun!), I prayed to God that I would get casted again before my birthday. My prayer got answered that same week and amazingly, I got casted again the Friday after (which was just last Friday!) :))
God is full of surprises indeed! :)) I am really grateful of this ministry God has given me, it was not just fun but I've really learned a lot from Kuya Andrew, Kuya Enriko and Kuya Pao especially how to handle God's Word correctly which is also one of my longtime prayers. :)
I'm looking forward for the more opportunities with God and with my co-emcees. Hoping for a training session again soon. :D
Everbody knows this but I am very relational person and I'm glad God has surrounded me with super amazing people who are secure in their identity and strong in their faith by God's grace. :)
Again, people come and go, but I'm glad that there are friendships that are really worth keeping especially if God is in the center of that relationship. :)
One person I'm really grateful this season is...dun dun dun dun...
Marielle! :)) (Hello Marielle, yes you Ms. Divino! HAHA)
I'm glad that I've found a friend in her. She is such an amazing person. I tell you if you give her something, she'll get to work done. And the grace she has whenever she's under pressure is unbelievable but so true! Two more things I'm amazed by her is 1) her honesty and 2) her faith in God. She doesn't hide the fact that although her faith in the Lord is strong, it's still continuous. She's honest and sincere when it comes to her feelings and her thoughts but one thing she does, she chooses to live by faith not by sight. Though circumstances are unfavorable to her and sometimes she can't understand what's going on or where she's headed, there's one thing she's certain of and that's God's love for her.
I am so kilig for her! <3
One more thiiing! Marielle's so funny! HAHAHA. That's why I love her. HAHA. Kidding. But really, I love this girl! :))
There are a lot of other people who I'm blessed to have especially in this season. :) As much as I want to mention all of you, it would take a whole day to even mention names. But you know who you are esp. those who I've been spending a lot of time with recently whether in person or virtually :)) I promise to give you thank you notes on Dec. HAHA. :D
I guess in all of the areas of my life, this one had more testings and trials compared to the others especially this month. But with trials, come great triumphs in the Lord.
3 family members got into accidents this month. Haryll, Mommy and then Harold. While Haryll and Harold (both my brothers) got into minor accidents leaving them with just a hematoma on the eye and a cut in the head respectively. Mommy had a stroke and left have of her body paralyzed and in need of therapy. Though she's okay now, I can not fathom what she's probably feeling right now but my prayer is that God would give her grace to endure this season.
I got to talk to her the day before she got rushed to the hospital. Actually, she was rushed just right after my Dad send me off on a bus going back to Manila. He didn't bother telling me because I might get worried. So I never knew until he left a comment on one of the photos I uploaded. People then started texting me asking me what happened and how I was going about the situation. They actually thought that it was my Mother but it's actually my grandmother. So sorry for the mix-up and thank you so much for your concern. Thank you also for the prayers. :)
That was not the first time Mommy complained about her blood pressure and aching foot. I know that it had happened in the past. But somehow when the fact that the medicines weren't working for her this time and the thought of her not wanting to get confined even when my parents were already insisting made me feel uneasy. Still, I had so much faith in my parents knowing that they're doctors and they're amazing in what they do made me believe that it's gonna be okay soon. But apparently, that was not the case.
But one thing I've realized is that although my parents are good doctors because God has enabled them to excel in the medical field. God is still greater and God is still the person who allows them to heal people. While I am thankful for my parents who are good doctors, I am more grateful that there is a God who not only binds up wounds physically but restores the hearts of his children to Him.
And that's the kind of person I want to be in the future, a Person who points people to the One who gives Life and restores Life to the broken. :> hihi. (Ooops, this part should be in the career aspect. HAHA)
I thank God for His faithfulness in my finances. I am glad that the God I serve his willing and able to meet my needs because He is an unlimited God. :)
God is teaching me to a good steward of His resources and I am glad to say that after running out for the past months, I have savings again! HUHUHUHU. Thank You God!
AAAND, My Every Nation Coinbank is more than halfway full alreadyy. Hooray! <3
AAAND, God is calling me to support a friend on a Youth Leadership Camp. What a privilege. :)
Huhu. Thank You God for feeding me everyday. (Seriously!)
And thank you for Mom and Dad for supporting their first ever student campus missionary. HEHEHEHEHEHE. =))))))
Finally, the newest aspect of my life. =)))))))))))))))))
I've been reading the Old Testament more this path weeks and I feel like God's birthing a love for a certain nation in my heart. Praying for it! :))))))))
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Wow, that was such a long post. I hope I covered everything :D
Alsooooo, I might really move to Wordpress this SemBreak. I know I've said I will after my debut but I decided to stay here in Tumblr because it's so much easier. But we'll see how it goes. :)
I'm glad I took the time to write all of these down. It will serve as a reminder of God's faithfulness to me. The sem isn't over yet but God is giving me grace to persevere! Pls. continue to pray for me. I hope you were encouraged by this post.
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