Anonymous asked: so your husband is that king guy (Hektor? if im understanding stuff right?) what do you see in him exactly? and wht about compared to the other guy Otis i think what did you see in him as well? same stuff or different?
For a while the ever-present, almost smug smile persisted on the demon’s face, betraying no emotion in response to the question, though at the same time no answer found its way from her lips. Then, for the first time in what seemed like centuries, the facade finally slipped, her eyes glistening as though she were about to cry for but a moment before she spoke.
“ Yes, Hektor is — was my husband, and King of Aeternus, our home. It isn’t... easy to talk about him, or what happened, and i’m not proud of what followed his death.
First and foremost, I will say that Otis is a wonderful person. In all the many years, and through every repeated cycle that we knew eachother, he has always stayed true to himself, and that self is a selfless man who loves with every fibre of his being. His mind is incredible, almost unmatched, and he has so much love for those around him. ”
“ As... As sweet as he is to me, and I know that when he tells me he loves me that he isn’t lying. I KNOW that. But... He deserves better, and I believe that we both know that i’m not his true love. I never have been, as much as I sometimes wish I was so that someone could love me like He did. We both know that Yuko is who he was always supposed to be with, even if I fell for him and the kindness he showed me as much as she did.
And i’m happy that they have eachother, even if it hurts me so terribly that I won’t ever have someone that feels that way towards me again. ”
Tears threatened to fall from Lucifer’s eyes, which she quickly closed, trying to wipe them away before they’d even fallen. Her heart ached from her own words, even if she’d thought about these things plenty of times before.
That didn’t mean they hurt any less.
“ Hektor was... the complete opposite of Otis, at least when I first met him. How many times did he try to kill me before we even said one word to eachother... maybe 18 attempts?
He was bloodthirsty with little compassion for life, and saw himself as a monster — as a man who was cursed by the Gods themselves to be evil, and thus he would play the role of someone evil until the day came when he could meet the ones who cursed him and ask them why he was forsaken. Ah... the number of times we’d talked about the many ways we’d torture those Gods for deciding our fates and giving us no say in our lives.
I knew at the start he was only using me to become King, but I didn’t care. It was just nice to have someone to talk to. But then, at some point he changed. Maybe shortly before our son was conceived...
He never told me he loved me, but he would tell me that he was glad to have met me. He would worry about me when I was gone, and if one could see how jealous he became when I talked to any other man... Well, i’ll simply say it wasn’t very pretty when he got jealous, and our servants became accustomed to how to properly clean blood off of surfaces. ”
Once more, the demon grew quiet, a sad smile lingering on her face as she reminisced about lost love, the stabbing pain in her chest growing stronger as she yearned to relive those days once more.
Who was she kidding? Happiness and love weren’t things a beast like her could ever have and hold on to. Any joy was to be fleeting and bring about even greater suffering once it was inevitably stolen away again.
“ What I saw in each of them never mattered, because a demon who’s done as terrible things as I simply does not deserve something as warm and precious as love. I did love both of them, and they both paid the price for that and have suffered so much for what I have done.
They both deserved better. ”
