Majalisa

Selamat datang! (For my Indonesian friends) My name is Majalisa. I am 15 years old and I enjoy doing much research, studying & listening to music. I love music and Indonesia the most <3

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Sometimes pain feels nice

Meh

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https://www.wattpad.com/story/63704664-destructive-infatuation Read this great story ^^^^^

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Destructive Infatuation (on Wattpad) http://w.tt/1LBgunS When love becomes destructive: A young girl named Elise loses friends and becomes loner and loner until an older boy comes along. Their Romeo and Juliet love story turns into rage and blood. Based heavily on the Columbine School Massacre

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Maaf, Aku Terlambat

By: Majalisa Latifah

Kehadiranmu tidak merasa sama

Cintamu menyakiti sekarang

Aku benci diri untuk pernah cinta kamu

Kau seperti bunga kemudian gila

Aku perlu cinta, tapi hati ini tidak mau

Jatuh atas kamu

Aku tidak lupa kau

Chorus:

Maaf, aku terlambat

Aku tidak tahu apa aku bisa lakukan untuk engkau

Tidak tahu apa aku melakukan atau tidak melakukan

Kamu bilang bawah kamu perlu aku

Tidak ambil itu

Maaf, aku terlambat

Terlambat, terlambat, terlambat

Akhir pada hal yang aku tidak tahu

Aku tidak tahu bagaimana cinta kamu (cinta kamu)

Dengan cintamu aku mati

Cintaku tidak kerja

Maaf, aku terlambat

Terlambat, terlambat, terlambat

Cintaku terlambat

Maaf, aku terlambat

Mungkin kalau aku tidak bodoh

Tak pernah jadi dalam ini

Cinta musuhku

Tidak merata tentang seperti ini

Kau buat aku merasa sangat bahagia

Kemudian benci semuanya

Aku tidak bisa peduli

((Chorus))

Oh, maaf aku tak pernah cinta kamu seperti kamu ingin aku cinta kamu

Aku terlambat dan kamu jauh di sini

Aku permainkan dengan kamu

Tapi kamu buruk juga

Maaf, aku terlambat

((chorus)) x2

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The Best Gift (a song I wrote for my brother)

By: Majalisa Latifah

Just a look into those lovely brown eyes

The truth is I hate when I see them cry

When you’re hurt you should know

That you can always count on me

Don’t you ever be afraid to be truthful

I can’t believe you’re already going into the real world

I wish you could stay my 10-year old best friend

But we all have to grow up someday

Chorus:

You are my little brother

So I’ll always protect you

Even though you’re bigger than me

Sometimes it feels like we’ve parted our ways

But then you make your way back another day

When we fight and you’re angry

Eventually the storm ends

And you become my best friend again

A brother is the best gift you can ever have

La-la-la-la-di-a-da x3

La-la-la-la-la-la x2

Best gift you can ever have

At times you can be annoying or strange

I guess, you’re beautiful in your own way

Every times I need help

I know that you are always there

If you feel something is not okay

Don’t be ‘fraid, I can help you with almost anything

I remember when you were in the third grade

But now you are entering high school

((chorus))

We’ve been close our whole childhood

We should be considered twins

Living and doing everything together

I probably make a lot of other older sisters jealous

Because my brother and I rarely fight

And we talk all the time

People take this gift for granted

But a brother is the best gift you can ever have

((Chorus)) x2

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A Piece Of My Heart

By: Majalisa Latifah

Sometimes when I’m all alone

I wonder what’d it be like if you came home

It’s not that I need you here

You just left a mark on me that can be erased

I didn’t show up to your wedding, my mistake

But it hurts to know

That when I grow

You won’t be here to see me glow

My dreams will one day show

And you won’t be home

Chorus:

Daddy come home

Daddy come home

I’ve been in this situation before

But this time I’m being ignored

Daddy come home

Daddy come home

Oh, what do you know?

This time will be different

I’ll be patient

I’ll understand more

With confidence in you

Because right now, without you

I need someone to talk to

So,  Daddy come home

Daddy come home

I’m 15 now if you forgot

There’s been times when I needed someone to talk to

But I have no number to call

It’s a shame if you though

I didn't love you at all

It really hurts to think

That you may never see me when you blink

Because you’re that heartless

And now this heart is,

Broken

((Chorus))

I fought this fight

For long enough

Twelve whole longing months

I think when you left you forgot

That in the past you have hurt us

Now we are even

But it’s my fault

I didn’t listen to God hard enough

It’s all my fault

It’s all my fault

But I didn't want to hurt Mom

But now she’s all I got

(Chorus)

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Tak Pernah Lagi

By: Majalisa Latifah

Kamu mengatakan kamu marah dengan aku

Aku karas dan tidak ramah

Aku bahagia itu mengenali orangku benar

Maaf itu aku tidak bisa merespons segera-segera

Aku punya sebuah hidup

Dan lebih orang-orang mencinta

Aku tidak percaya itu kamu bisa lakukan itu ke aku

Chorus:

Aku tidak bisa maaf untuk kamu

Aku telah selalu menghancurkan waktu-waktu untuk kamu

Aku tahu, aku telah mengatakan ini

Tapi tak pernah lagi

Tak pernah lagi

Kalau kamu merindakan aku

Mengapa kamu tidak mengatakan sesuatu?

Aku lebih akan ke kamu

Jangan kamu tahu bagaimana merasa tentang kamu?

Tak pernah lagi

Tak pernah lagi

Karena aku benci kamu

Tidak bisa menonton kamu cinta dia

Karena aku tidak punya pacar sekarang

Sampai nanti aku mati

Aku telah cinta kamu

Tapi sekarang aku tidak bisa

Aku benci kamu dan keluarga kamu

Maaf, tapi aku tidak maaf

Selamat Jalan

((Chorus))

Selamat jalan

Selamat jalan

Sampai nanti aku mati

Aku tidak belajar Bahasa untuk kamu

Aku belajar Bahasa untuk aku

Kamu menyebalkan

Jangan lupa itu

Pergi memproses dengan hidup kamu karena

Sekarang aku benci kamu

Tak pernah lagi

Akan aku cinta kamu

((Chorus))

Tak pernah lagi

Selamat jalan

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Kalau Kamu Mendengar

By: Majalisa Latifah

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you

Tidak apa-apa untuk kamu ragu-ragu

There’s nothing I wouldn’t say to take away the pain

Karena aku disini untuk kamu

You may never understand

Niether will I

I don’t want to upset you again

Because you don’t know how to listen

Chorus:

Kalau kamu mendengar

Hidup akan menjadi sangat sederhana

Tapi karena kamu tidak mendengar

Hidup sangat sulit

Aku cinta kamu

Kamu cinta aku?

Aku benci kamu

Kamu benci aku?

Saya tidak tahu

Bagaiamana aku benci dan cinta kamu

Saya tidak tahu

Mengapa kamu cinta aku

Tapi kalau kamu belajar mendengar

Kita telah menjadi sangat bahagia

Karena aku cinta kamu

You and I have wasted a lot of time

Kamu memberi aku seni

You and I have cried for no crime

Karena kita tidak mengkui

You may never understand

I know that I can’t

I don't want to love you again

Because you don’t know how to listen

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Itu keras menjaskan

Sangat asing ke aku

Kita muda

Hatiku kosong

Cinta sangat kuat

Tapi aku akan tidak tahu

Kamu butuh aku?

It’s just you don’t know how to listen

I try to explain it over again

But it’s useless

Because you are so vain

It is hard to explain

Very foreign to me

We are young

My heart is so empty

Love is powerful

But I will not know

Do you need me?

((Chorus))x2

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Already Dead

By: Majalisa Latifah

I have no reason to live no more

I have no will to go on with life anymore

I love you so much

Why can’t you see that?

Maybe a day in May

Will undo everything we started

I lost you

Never to be found

Chorus:

I can’t move on

I’m not that strong

When I hear that song

I cry along

My heart is hurt

I don’t know what went wrong

We were together so long

Together forever was a lie

You don’t even know how many times

You made me cry

Without you, I want to die

Na-na-na-na-na-na

Na-na-na-na-na-na

Without you, I’m going to die

I’m dying deep down inside

I think about you constantly

I think about how you love her more than me

I love you so much

You never knew that

You said you would never leave

But now I see

Now forever alone

Now until I go

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To all the dreams we thought of

To all the time we lost

I will wait for you forever

My love for you will never fade

I want to die

But without you,

I’m already dead

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Is this you?

It’s like you’re holding me at gun point now,

No matter what I do I can’t make a sound

You won’t even listen to what I have to say

It is not that hard to explain

If you think I’m lying to you

You might need to consider something new

I really cannot stand

The fact that you went and told all your friends

Making me feel humiliated

You’re just being ridiculous

Chorus: How was I out of my mind?

I told you how I felt from my heart

And you go and say that I have lied

Right now I feel like I should just die

I’m tired of living

Tired of being accused

How could I be so blind?

You were controlling me this whole time

And you said that I have lied

Right now I feel like I should leave

I’m tired of fighting

Tired of being confused

Is this the real you?

Please tell me this is not true

Do you even care how I feel?

Please shut up and let me explain

This situation isn’t even a big deal

It’s hard for me to feel the same

You need to control you mind

It’s playing cruel tricks on you

I really can not believe

You are doing this to me

Making me feel humiliated

You are being very ridiculous

((Chorus))

If you want to be this way with me

I can show you what it’s like to cheat

You are being absurd with me

I’m so damned disgusted

I can’t help it, it’s so sickening

To think a boy could do this to me

Controlling me

Humiliating me

Making me delete the thing

I hate you because you’re making me love you

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Is this you?

This, I never knew

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Let You Go

By: Majalisa Latifah

As I walk through the halls

I remember it all

All the things you said to me

Everything I wanted to be

I just lost it all

All I ever loved is gone

Now I am done

Now you better run

Chorus:

All I ever wanted was everything, everything

All I got was nothing, nothing

All I ever wanted was to be something, something

All I ever will be is nobody

Watch out something’s coming, coming

You better run but you can’t hide from me

Where’s my world going, going?

Nowhere it’s just exploding

I don't know where I started to change, change

But I kind of like this way

All I wanted you to know

Is that’s how far I’ll let you go

As I walk past the innocent kid

I send a reassuring smile

To tell him he’s not on the list

Nobody knows how or why

I chose this life

I don't even know why myself

It gives me some type of relief

Knowing that you’re going down with me

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Extended chorus:

All I wanted was everything, everything

All I got was nothing, nothing

All I ever wanted to be was something, something

All I ever will be is nobody

I am sorry for all the pain I have caused

I am sorry for all the lives lost

Please forgive me God

((Chorus))

Let you go

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Not Guilty

By: Majalisa Latifah

I started a war

I couldn't be trusted

I should probably hit the door

I need this life to be restarted

As I wait to be revealed

As I worry about the ordeal

As I consider to give myself away

As I weigh in on the price to pay

Failing is my second name

Can’t live with all the shame

I don’t want you to be considered the same

Chorus: You shouldn't have told me what you didn't want resaid

I was so uncomfortable with it

The secret, I couldn't keep it

Karma, I didn't believe it

It’s not like you’ve been quiet all these years

I know that those are fake as hell tears

If I were you I’d start looking in those mirrors

As far as I know, I am innocent until found guilty

So you cannot blame me

So please,

I plead

Not guilty

They don't understand

So I know I won’t be accepted

They don't know what’s it like

So I guess this is the last strike

As I wait for the consequences to be payed

As I worry about being betrayed

As I consider to turn to suicide

As I weigh in on the price

The price is high, I cannot pay

I cannot leave those who need me that way

I don’t want to be considered the same

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This love,

Is going to kill me

This life,

I am not worthy

I am innocent

Until found guilty

So you cannot blame me

So please,

Oh please

I plead not guilty

Not guilty

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Aku Benci Cinta

By: Majalisa Latifah

Hatiku hitam

Sangat dingin dan marah

Apa aku berbicara kecelakaan

Maaf, aku tidak mengerti

Hatiku dingin seperti es

Itu sangat cerah ke luar

Aku tidak tahu mengapa

Maaf, kamu benci aku?

Chorus:

Oh,

Aku tak pernah akan tahu

Apa aku bisa lakukan untuk kamu

Terima kasih,

Masuk hidupku

Tidak apa kamu ingin?

Maaf, tak pernah lagi

Minta pertanyaan tentang tuhan

Karena itu buruk sangat cepat

Maaf, aku akan pergi

Aku benci cinta

Sangat banyak

Aku tak pernah mengerti cinta

Aku benci cinta

Matiku marah

Sangat merah dan sedih

Apa aku mimpi tidak tentang kamu

Maaf, aku benci cinta

Matiku tua seperti malam

Itu sangat hujan di hatiku

Aku tidak tahu mengapa

Maaf, aku benci kamu

((Chorus))

Aku benci cinta

Orang tidak mengerti hidup cintaku

Itu mengapa

Aku benci cinta

Aku tidak bisa menemukan seorang anak laki-laki

Saya tidak cantik atau baik hati

Kamu tidak akan lihat di aku

Karena aku benci kamu

((Chorus)) x2

Tak pernah lagi

Tak pernah lagi

Akan aku piker dengan hatiku

Karena,

Aku benci cinta

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Today In History

Anne Frank and her family were arrested by the Gestapo August 4th, 1944. They were hiding in German occupied Holland, found by the Gestapo and transported to various concentration camps.

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Future of The Unknown

By: Majalisa Latifah

It wasn’t until now that I knew what was happening here

I had always felt the tension in the atmosphere

Although the message didn't come too clear

It was fun to realize the truth

Could come out in someone’s eyes

But to say something would be suicide

Just tell me why

You decided to go

When someone is left alone

 The future reads unknown

When a rumor becomes the truth

When a lie decides the time

Doesn't make anything right

Leaving without a note

I would've never known

Goodbye feels so unrationalized

You could have tried

And shouldn't have lied

I wasn’t the only problem here

You didn't even know how to look in the mirror

The future lies so unclear

A few short weeks ago

Everything seemed to go as the usual

We were both so amused

Just like we used to

Your other side would fight it’s way out

I would try to go but you know

To do so would be suicide

Just tell me why

You decided to go

Please, I need to know

This pain makes me feel so sick

I can’t believe you would go as far as leaving me on my own

All my dreams have been tossed and blown

Why did you have to go?

The future of the unknown has seemed to disappear

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Everything you did was for the fame... What you have now is a world of pain...

Blood on the dance floor

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Anthem of the Outcast

Dammed straight to hell

The day the angels fell

Devout with broken wings I fall

Broken and all alone

Suffering the unknown

A plea of mercy I call

Awake Arise or be forever fallen

Awake Arise or be forever fallen

Woah Redemption will be found

Woah Through the stars we are bound

Woah we will not bow down

Woah the anthem of the outcast

Oh my dearest son

What have you become

Into the void, you crawl

So full of jealously

You fell away from me

Into the fire, wanted for all

The stars we were

The stars we’ll be

Circling for eternity

Jealous of flame

Cauldron of change

We have the power to heal and reclaim